Swasan A path hate to love Ep 44

Swara is still looking him but her expression is completely empty. The great sun is covering the darkness of night

but they can't get one single ray of sun because he chooses the room which is dark and the heavy curtains make it

darker.

His mobile rings but she doesn't move to see who's this on phone. Maybe Laksh or Shanaya. At the name of Laksh,

she thinks about Ragini and her family. But she knows Shanaya can manage everything. She doesn't want anyone

would see her in this state, specially her family. She lifts her cellphone and calls Ragini. But she immediately

disconnects the call because her voice can disclose her secret.

She calls Shanaya, she attends call at first ring.

Shanaya:" Where are you? I call many times on Sanskar's number, is he ok?"

Swara looks him again:" Yeah he's ok..." Her voice is emotionless and her tone is flat.

Shanaya understands and asks hesitantly:" Are you ok Swara? Did he..?" She couldn't complete her question.

Swara cuts her words:" Where is my family Shanaya? Did they ask for me?"

Shanaya:" Yes they asked, but I told that Sanskar is not well, so you're with him, they can see you in morning"

Swara gasps:" Do anything and send them to Delhi"

Shanaya:" But Swara..."

Swara again says in bit loud voice:" I know you can manage everything, manage it too, do anything and send them

from there"

Shanaya:" Ok I.." But before completing her sentence, she disconnects the call.

Swara looks him again whose heat of eyes can melt her heart but when his heat comes outside, it can burn her

heart. She realizes that the man whom she considers as her lord even doesn't deserve to calling human being.

He's only psycho person who has proud of himself, proud of everything he has and he can do.

It's good to have a proud but in limit. Whenever we start to cross our limit, it would always result the disaster. And

exceeded proud or arrogant aways result that person become devil or god. He's the mixture of both.

He closes his eyes slowly and looks her awakening. He smiles with his same signature smile and pulls her towards

himself by holding her arms. She neither restrict nor reciprocate to him. Just remains emotionless and let him do

what he wanna do.

Suddenly he realizes her state and very little guilt comes in his heart but he jerks it again. But as he reminds himself

the promise he made, he leaves her.

Swara stays emotionless, few moments silently passed between them and he reminisces the last night incident. He

repents, what he did last night, not for he hurt her, just he breaks his promise. Breaking promise and be dishonest

are real sin for him.

His phone rings and attends the call, he listens call silently and turns to Swara:" You family is going, don't you

wanna meet with them?"

Swara says in same flat tone:" I wanna sleep.." She turns her back to him and a little drop of tear again falls from

her eye.

He says something to Shanaya and looks her long black hairs.

He reminisces her confession of last night and smiles bitterly. He himself considers himself a god but this god who

made bond with devil to sell his soul.

He looks her back again and gasps, she said, she loves him but for him, love is nothing. How can he accept love

because after Meera he felt for many women but as he got them, his feelings banished from his heart. So how

could he accept love which winks like an artificial lighting.

He stayed in dark world and saw the real face of woman, for him, every woman falls for two things and he has both

things to make them fall.

But for this girl, he felt helpless first time, he wants her and feels for her also. He also thinks for her same like that,

he wanna leave her because it's not in his rule to hold down any innocent girl, but this is different thing that in his

point of view, no woman is innocent.

But whenever she insulted him, his ego hurt and his inner devil pushed him to show her earth.

It's said that when god created man, he pours some of his own qualities into his creation. Proud is one of them, he

has been this quality since his childhood. But when first time he saw the real face of life, when someone left him

first time. Then he realizes his own price in the market of life, that time he decided to sell himself.

He sold and every price of him, gave him more wickedness. Many times, his inner goodness raises in his heart but

he supressed it always because he's afraid... Yes! He's afraid, whenever any devil wanted to be a God, he always

afraid deep that this inner goodness can harm his monarch.

For this girl, he's different from others, he doesn't love her because he doesn't believe in love but on the other

side, he doesn't want to harm her intentionally. But he hurts her every time, why? Because she pushes him to do

that.

I told you, god gives quality of himself in a man that's the reason, man started to consider himself as god? But god

is alone, man want to be alone but in reality, he can't stay alone. So he seeks his devotee for this purpose. Who

can live with him but doesn't consider himself more than him.

He had lots of this type of devotee in his surrounding but he wanted the one who can devote him completely. He

proposes Shanaya and Shanaya showed him a new path.

He wants this girl and finds her satisfactory. He personally doesn't want to harm her but whenever she showed

him her ego, her pride. His inner devil just wanted to suppresses her pride, her ego and shows that he's the only

one who can rule.

He didn't want life partner, just a dummy who can devote him as well as obey him.

But we can't stay in black side completely, there's small portion of whiteness also. Which pushes him to take care

her because deep inside his heart he wants her and feels something for her until she challenges his ego. If he's

saying that there's no love, she should be accept but if she doesn't, then he would show how love would vanish.

He gets up slowly and takes out his dress from wardrobe. She's closing her eyes but he knows she's awakening.

Sanskar:" Are you ok Swara?"

Swara opens her eyes and looks him. He offs the curtains from balcony and she can see the beautiful structure of

his face as well as the cruelty of his heart in the rays of sun.

Swara nods in no, Sanskar comes to her immediately:" I'm calling the servant to..."

She stops and looks him, how can he forget everything so easily. He becomes disasters in night and next morning,

again become that loving and caring husband. The two different shades with the light and darkness of the time.

Sanskar looks her and again repents to break his promise.

Swara slowly gets up and takes her dress for changing. She goes to bathroom and opens the shower of warm

water. She allows water to flow on her body and mixes her tears in drops of water.

Last night, opens her eyes and now she can see which she couldn't see before because of cover of her love. Now

she has decided to do what she wants to do. Now she decided that either she would change him or leave him but

won't stay with him to molest herself more.