Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Love Is One Of A Kind) Episode 22 season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I placed her smoothly inside the backseat of the car after taking the keys from her rear pocket. Now I was standing outside the car alone with myself; collected, tranquil, adoring, comparing the serenity of my heart with the serenity of the skies, moved in the darkness by the visible splendors of the constellations & the invisible splendor of god, opening my soul to the thoughts which fell from the unknown after her confession.

When the flowers of night inhale their perfumes & lightened like a lamp in the center of the starry night, I expanded my soul in ecstasy in the midst of the universal radiance of creation. Still I was unsure about my mental state. I felt something connected to me & something plunged upon me & something mysterious objects interchanged inside the depth of my soul.

Just then I received a good night message from laksh & my series of thoughts were broken down & forced me to view my individuality. "NO, we can't be together....", I shouted in extreme pain. I couldn't push a bubbly, cheerful & sensitive girl to the path of obscurity because of me. I made up my mind to keep myself away from her & hopefully she wouldn't remember about this night, I thought & drove off to home.

I placed her carefully on her bed without breaking her sleep & covered her in duvet. As soon as I was moving out of her room, her hands touched with mine & it sparkled thousands of emotions inside my heart. Her feathery soft skin was lying on the bed like a butterfly was sitting on the meadows of flowers.

A bunch of hair strands were touching her marshmallow like face & causing her disturbance in sleep. I sided the strands to one corner of her ear & said,"You are different,swara. I am not meant for you. My love will engulf you to the darkness like a fire & you will be mercilessly burnt in it. Don't make the situation worst for me as every time my heartbeats skip a beat when you are close to me. Every time I can't control the warmth of my heart. Please stay away from me as we aren't destined to remain together even if we love each other unconditionally."

I immediately rushed out of the room to control my feelings or else I was unable to resist my overflowing feelings for her which didn't understand the situation & like floodwaters broke the natural levee & gushed to the pasture lands, in the same way my feelings were compiled a lot & were now ready to break the barricade of my heart.

I tried to sleep in my room but honestly sleeping was away from my eyes. I deliberately closed my eyes with a mixture of undulating emotions passing inside my heart.

Swara's POV:
When I woke up, my head was aching & I felt erratic pain in my muscles. Quickly I went to washroom to freshen up myself. Just after I came back to my room after refreshment, my eyes fell upon a note pasted on the table. I opened the chit & it was written as,"Drink the lemon juice,you will feel better.... Sanskar..." I gulped the entire glass of juice in one go & suddenly I remembered the incidents of last night. Oh shit!! He had followed me & definitely had come to know about my drinking of alcohol. Oh god! How could I face him now?

But why was he behaving so nicely with me? In these situations, he must vent out his anger on me but here he was showering his sweet gestures to me in form of a note. Suddenly I remembered my confession of feelings to him. Though I couldn't remember the whole events but like broken pieces, I was able to recall the incidents of last night. So, the cat was out of the bag right now.

I had already confessed my love to him but still I was ignorant about his feelings. I rushed to his room to talk to him but it was locked from inside. Might be he hadn't awakened, I thought & left the place in disappointment.

I prepared delicious foods for him as I heard somewhere that, the way to a man's heart was through his stomach. I prepared variety of veg & non veg items for him from past 4 hours. Still he hadn't come out of the room. I was worried now. Was he fine or had something happened to him??

I knocked his room door hastily & as soon as he opened the door, I asked him anxiously,"Are You OK? Why haven't you come out of the room yet?" He just nodded & said,"Nothing such... I am fine..." His voice sounded indifferent like he was least interested to talk with me. Still hoping for a positive reply, I said,"I have cooked for you today. Come.. Let's eat..."

But unlike my expectation, he only complied & followed me. Barely a few words were exchanged between us. Might be he was hungry, I thought. So, he was behaving weirdly. Without wasting any time, I decorated the table with variety of food items. We both were taking our lunch together without even uttering a word.

I wanted to hear praise from his mouth for my this effort but he was only eating numbly. Breaking the silence, I asked,"Food... Sanskar... Does it taste good?" As usual, I got the same nodding reaction. What had happened to him? Why wasn't he talking with me properly?? Was it because of my confession?? Didn't he love me? Had he felt bad???

A lot of questions were surrounding on my brain & I didn't know a single answer of these queries. I tried to ask him to break the confusion of my mind,"Has something happened last night? I mean.... Last night...." As soon as he listened the word last night, he stood up from his chair & said,"I am full! I am going to take rest & ya! Forget about last night..." By saying so, he departed from the place by leaving me dejected & heart broken.. I loved him but probably he didn't...

Last two days passed like the same way. He was constantly avoiding me. Whenever I tried to talk with him, he gave me some random excuses & entered inside his room. Though we were staying in the same house, but he was behaving like a stranger with me. It was horrifying!! How fast someone could become a stranger!! In all these two days, I cried a lot. It wasn't because he dejected me, rather it was because I lost a friend as well after my confession.

Now I was sleeping under the comforter but alas! It couldn't give me the comfort as from inside I was burning in solitude. Just then I heard some footsteps were approaching towards me. I closed my eyes in terror. Within minutes, the sound of footstep was discontinued & I heard his voice,"Swara! I know, you are sleeping. And good for me!! I can't talk to you if you are awaken..."

As soon as I heard his voice, I felt bliss like some entangled strings were connected to their own places. Quickly I wanted to wake up & to hug him tightly, but his wordings had stopped me in doing so.. I acted as if I was in deep sleep.

He grasped my hand & bent down his head to touch it & said,"I know; I am hurting you swara! Trust me! I have punished myself, every time I have tried to ignore you. But we can't be together & after your confession, I have felt weak in front of you, like I want to surrender my feelings to your heart. However I can't do that. Reason, you better know.. I can't drag you to that darkness! I am just a bad news for you. Hate me swara, for my behaviour. So that, after my leaving, it won't hurt you much & you can proceed in your life. Just forget me like a bad dream...."

I felt his sobbing & some tear droplets also fell on my hands & just then he left my room as I could sense it from his footsteps. A mixed sensation was going on in my mind now.

"Sanskar! You are wrong! We are destined to remain together. If not; then why do we always cross our paths? We are poles apart still we are connected with each other like the principle of physics,'Opposites attract'..... I know, you won't confess your feelings directly to me & will always curse yourself. But I won't let you go from my life as I'm not in search of sanctity, sacredness & purity; these things are found after this life, not in this life....; but in this life I search to be completely human, to feel, to give, to take, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love, to lust & finally to grow old with you...." I thought & slept inside my comforter.

This time, the comforter was able to provide me comfort as from inside I could feel the felicity & now I would make him feel the same. A curvy smile approached on my face & I slept while thinking about our togetherness.

Sanskar's POV:
From two days, I was ignoring her. I was deliberately hurting her to stay away from her. She was trying to talk with me to clear the misunderstanding, if any. But I always dodged it as I didn't have any confusion. I was hurting her in my sane mind to keep distance from her. However I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore inside my heart & opened up my heart in front of her while she was sleeping peacefully. I felt relaxed after pouring out the truth in front of her thought I knew that she even didn't hear it.

As usual in the next morning also, I avoided her. But in the afternoon, I saw her wearing a short, lacy & skin fitting blue dress with matching pair of earrings. With minimal gloss & shining lipstick, she was looking like a diva. She was looking so lucrative that any man could fall for her. She collected the spare keys of the home & then only I understood that she was going somewhere.

I thought that she would at least inform me about her outgoing but alas! She wasn't even looking at me. So, I initiated the talk & asked,"Are you going somewhere, swara?" She turned & looked at me in furious eyes & said,"As if you care.. And why are you asking me these silly stuffs? It is my life & I will decide about it. But for your kind information, I am going to a pub with my friends.."

'Pub', I murmured. The flashbacks of previous night were agitating in my memory lane. Those bastard, insane & thirsty guys would lure her & try to subjugate her in the pub. These thoughts made me so furious that I shouted,"Change the dress immediately. And you aren't going anywhere."

But to my surprise, she asked me arrogantly,"Who are you to stop me, sanskar??" I was raging in anger & pushed her to the wall. I put my hands in both sides of her to block her way & yelled,"Are you mad? You are again going to a pub. Have you forgotten about the previous night incidents??" Oh god! What had I uttered now..

However stunning me, more bluntly she replied,"Why does it affect you,sanskar? Why are you so much protective for me? I am not a child. I can take care of myself & you are avoiding me from two days then what has happened just now? And What do I mean to you?"

I was burning in anger now. I took one step closure & encircled my hand around her waist & shouted,"Pub isn't a good place for you. And those insane guys!! Oh god! How can I even bear that sight again? Why don't you understand swara! You are the world to me. Nobody has the right to see you insanely. You are mine & I do feel possessive about you..."

Suddenly she leaned forward & kept her head inside my chest & said,"Why sanskar? Why? Why do you conceal your love till now? You love me unconditionally but still bearing the pain of separation... Why??" Oh gosh! What had I confessed now in angry mood..

It was true that during anger, truth came out. I told her all those unsaid feelings of my heart. I took a step back from her & slowly said,"Sorry! I don't mean anything." She grasped my hands & embraced me tightly. Her closeness conferred a jolt of electricity current through out my body. I could see intense passion in her eyes for me. Her closeness was also making my emotions outburst in front of her. My entire body was shivering & trembling due to her touch.

Suddenly with in seconds, she crossed an inch gap between us & leaned her lips towards mine & kissed me softly. Her soft lips touched my harsh one & it created a burning desire in my body. My anger was vanished & like a thirsty soul, I entwined my lips on her. She completely surrendered her to me & I crushed & devoured my lips on her to engulf the greatest kind of forbidden pleasure...

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