Sunday, 10 January 2016

Swasan A path hate to love Ep 18

Posted by Saba Shiekh on January 10, 2016 with 35 comments
Recap:”Shanaya rescued Sanskar while she wanted to come to him, but Sanskar rejected her offer”
Swara gets tensed because of his anger, she helplessly looks at the door of their room. She sighs and leans down to bed. Lavanya knocks, the door and asked her about the dinner, but she's waiting for Sanskar so she nodded in no to Lavanya and requests her to leave. She goes to the terrace and looks down, she reminisces their moments and closes her eyes for intense emotions.
She goes downstairs and asks Lavanya about Sanskar. This is 9 pm on the night, but she knows Sanskar’s routine he came home early because he's so punctual in his habit.
Lavanya consoles her:”don’t worry ma’am, sometime, sir comes home late, you take your dinner, otherwise sir will be angry with me”
Swara sighs and goes to the dining table, but the first bite stuck in her throat and she leaves the food. She reminds that Sanskar doesn’t like to leave food undone. She sees a small portion of boiled rice with a salad. She hardly finishes her food and leaves the chair.
She again watches the clock and sighs because Sanskar isn't to come yet. She imagines Sanskar and says:"where are you Sanskar? Please come soon, I don't know why, but My heart feels restlessness for you, I hope you'll be fine"
She goes to her room and leans down on the bed. His room is such cynical like him, she want to see him give some relaxation to her heart.
She reminisces all their moments and gets up from the bed, her restless soul doesn't allow her to sleep because her man is angry with her. She suddenly sees a jug and  glass beside his side table. Maybe Lavanya forgot to change the water of jugs. She goes to his side of the bed and hugs his pillow:"come soon Sanskar! I'm lonely without you" a silent tear rolled down from her eyes and she closes her eyes to reminisce his memories.
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This is the special day of her life, she's wearing a beautiful red gown and her home is crowded with guests. She receives her guests and walks between them just like a queen. She sees her mother in law and greets them.
Sujata asks her about Sanskar:"where is he beta? He still isn't coming home, he should come soon, this is a special day for you both"
She smiles elegantly and pats her shoulder:"don't worry mom! I talked to him, he's on the way"
Someone hugs her from back and she turns back:"oh! Ragini! You came and where's mom and dad".
Ragini smiles and hugs her:"congratulations Swara! I'm so happy for you and they're coming soon"
She sees her parents and goes towards them, but suddenly someone calls her name. She turns and greets Shanaya, she can't find happiness on her face. She's in the miserable state and goes to her:"swara!" She holds her shoulder and looks here and there to think that either this news is suitable to tell or not.
Swara's heart sink for a moment but she controls:"what happened shanaya? Why are you worried?"
Shanaya nods in no and goes towards entrance door. Someone whispered in her ears that sanskar is no more.
A scene is changed and another scene starts where Sanskar is driving a car. The road is smooth as glass and he's in a full joyous mood. Why isn't he? This is the big day for him, he finds every happiness of his life now he doesn't have any complaint from life. He wanna go home as soon as possible, because her love is waiting for him.
He's driving at full speed because he wants to fly to reach home. He imagines his love Swara and smiles to imagine her innocent face and pure smile which are only for him.
He imagines his family and happy face of everyone, this is his day and if God asks his wish, he says to God that now he doesn't have any wish to fulfill. If death comes to him, he happily embraces to it because now he has no any other wish which is left, just to see the beautiful face of her love.
He is drowned in his thought and suddenly, he sees the truck is coming to his car, he's driving in full speed and tries to stop the car. But he lost his balance and scene disappears from his eyes.
She suddenly awakes and looks at the clock, this is almost 12'O clock. She's still hugging the pillow and her side is  empty.
She touches her face, which is wet with her tears and blur image of her dream is reflected in her eyes. Slowly, slowly, that blurred image has clearly appeared in front of her eyes and she gets up from bed:"Sanskar! Sanskar isn't to come yet, is he ok?"
She goes to downstairs and searches him in every room. But he's nowhere, she goes to the phone and calls him. "He'll be all right Swara! No one can harm him, he will be all right" she's reciting the mantra to console herself and remembers these words to destiny:"don't harm her love" destiny smirks to her childish behavior but doesn't reply her with the words of consolation.
Swara finds his phone switch off" damn!! Why his phone is switched off, " she reminds that he wasn't the fake driver with him. In her dream, he was driving by himself.
She goes to Lavanya room And knocks it vigorously. Lavanya gets tensed and  comes out to tying the robe of her nightgown. She reminds that she's in still her day's cloth but she doesn't care about it because now she has only cared about her husband.
Swara murmurs tensely:"sss. Sanskar... Lavanya... Sanskar isn't...cc come home"
Lavanya understands her situation but this isn't new for her:"ma'am don't worry, he often didn't come home, before his marriage"
But swara cant satisfies with her answer and asks to contact with him.
Lavanya nods and calls his number but its switch off as usual.
She turns to him and says:"it's switched off ma'am, and we don't know his other number"
Swara feels, someone takes her soul from her body, she murmurs unconsciously:"no others number! What should I do? Where is he god? God, please bring him here" she prays from her heart.
Lavanya is observing her restlessness, she's walking in the lounge, and goes to the entrance to confirm about his  arrival.
Suddenly Lavanya boggles and says:"ma'am, may I try to call hotel? Maybe he's there"
A firefly of hope shines in her eyes as well as her heart.  She nods and Lavanya calls her hotel. She cherishes hope to her words and looks her while calling the hotel. But Lavanya turns with the hopeless expression:"sorry ma'am! The number is going to engage" Her hope is shattered on the floor with her. Her sobbing increase  with the every passage moment. Lavanya tries to console her and also tries his and his hotel's number too, but doesn't find any  responses with those numbers.
Swara is still sitting on the cold marble floor while Lavanya tries to console her. She's continuously praying in her heart for Sanskar. Suddenly, Lavanya heard the voice of car horn at the door.
She goes to Swara and tries to get her up, but swara isn't in her conscious because her dream is rolling around her mind and she feels someone is killing her heart to remember the scene of his accident.
Stopping of car's voice is coming from the porch and Lavanya tries to make her understand that Sanskar comes now but she's in the trance of her dream.
Sanskar comes inside and wonders to see her sitting on the floor with miserable condition.
Sanskar calls Swara, Swara lifts her wet voice, and gets up immediately. She runs towards him and hugs him like her soft face tackles hard his strong chest.
Sanskar looks her with confusion, Lavanya goes ahead and tells sanskar about her condition.
Sanskar is still in confusing state and departs from her:"What happened Swara? " he lifts her face and looks into her eyes. Her eyes are witness of her sorrow.
The swara says slowly in wet voice:"Sanskar! I saw a bad dream about you"
Sanskar smiles and holds her from shoulder:"ok!! That was only a dream"
He orders Lavanya to bring water for her. Lavanya nods and he makes her drink water. After drinking water, she hugs him again and hides her face in his chest:"don't go anywhere in night, don't come late again"
Sanskar pats her shoulder and says:"ok my sweetheart! I'll not come late again, now will you please leave me?"
Swara departs from him and looks embarrassed, her eyes and nose are red due to continuing crying.
Sure gets up from the sofa and turns her back to him. He understands her shyness and calls Lavanya to leave:"Lavanya go and get ready my suitcase"
Lavanya leaves, but Swara turn to him:"where are you going?"
Sanskar:"I've to leave for Mysore, tomorrow is my important meeting there"
Swara recalls his accident and reminds that there was night in his dream and this is also the night. She's afraid and holds his hand:"no... you're not going" Sanskar's eyes are widened because of her words and her tone which is replete with authority. He likes her, pressing right on him. But tomorrow is a big day for him so he has to leave.
Sanskar pats her face and softly takes her in his arms:"I've to go Swara"
Swara shakes her face with ‘no’:"no...! I saw a bad dream about you, I'll not allow you to go there"
Sanskar feels extreme happiness with her attitude but he knows very well that if he lost this opportunity, he'll never get it again.
Sanskar says in a soft voice:"try to understand, this was only dreaming"
Swara again says in her stubborn tone:"you don't know, I always saw truth dreams"
Sanskar boggles with her answer, but he doesn't believe in these types of things. He lifts her face slowly and kisses on her forehead:"I'm sorry Swara, but I've to go, this meeting is mean to me, very important to me" he separates from her and tries to go but Swara holds his hand.
He turns to her and she says slowly:"more than me?" A clear pleading is understandable in her eyes. Sanskar boggles and swara is asking to him to say these words:"tell me sanskar! That meeting is more important than me?"


Swasan A path hate to love EP 17

Posted by Saba Shiekh on January 10, 2016 with 14 comments

Recap:"Sanskar felt exhausted and lost his inhaler, he thought maybe its his end"
It's very hard to stare sun, a bright sun of the day, but he considers himself a lord.. So only lord can do it, so he's continuously starring sun of winter, which is less bright of summer. Which heat isn't affecting the body but gives sweet relaxation.
He doesn't remember, how much time he spent in watching the sun. Suddenly he realized the soft touch on his shoulder. He looks here, but because of starring sun, he can't see immediately. A reflection of a girl, appeared in front of his eyes, she gives him inhaler and helps him to inhale.
He inhales and exhausted by his useless effort. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath for some time.
He feels the soft touch in his palm, he opens the eyes and looks the girl, he suddenly hugs her and says"thank you".
Girl smiles and depart from him:"when do you start to say thank you to me?"
Sanskar smiles sadly and says nothing, just observes the rays of the sun, which reflects her complexion more brighter.
She touches his face and says:"how do I let you die Sanskar? I've no one except you in this world, (she smirks and makes a funny face) and we would  also be partners in hell, so how do you die without me?"
Sanskar gives her his signature smile and stepped out of car because she's sitting on the floor of the road just because of him.
Both don't say anything, because they are soul mate, they don't need to explain everything to each others.
He sits on the bedside, which was their bedroom for years and they decide their nights here.
Sanaa makes a drink, but doesn't offer him, she gives him only water.
Sanskar comes in his mood, but he's still feeling echoes of words of swearing in his ears.
He extends his glass of water and tackles the glass with the glass of wine of Shanaya:"sooo... The glass of water is here to celebrate the triumph of failure"
Shanaya looks confused, but at the next moment, she takes a sip and says:"when do you start to admit your defeat so early?"
Sanskar:"when your wife said, if her husband goes to other women, she doesn't care, so what will happen dear? Of course I have broken down with her words"
Shanaya nods in no:"she's telling lies, we observe everything in her Sanskar, we can't lose, she loves you either she accepts or not.. I know she loves you"
Sanskar looks her with confusion:"how do you say like that?"
Shanaya smirks:"I'm a woman Sanskar! And I know the psychology of woman, maybe she doesn't love you, but it's confirmed, she told lie"
Sanskar drinks all water in one gulp and puts a glass on the side table:"ok! Maybe she's lying, but we've to accept that in this aspect, we lose sweetheart! And please don't talk about love, for me love is nothing, just figment's of fool's mind... And look(he point out himself) look! I'm not fool"
Shanaya:"you've to believe in love Sanskar! You are witness of the love of many, one"
Sanskar smiles bitterly:"yeah, love, with the mixture of selfishness, love with the sake of money, love with the beautiful handsome face!! Love with our own calmness, our own purpose, our own aim... Yeah, it might be love, but why should I care about these types of love which I get every day of my life"
He lifts his eyebrow to her and leans with the back of the bed. It's not comfortable as his own bed of his room, but its witness of his natural sleep, which he never gets after leaving this house. 
He sighs and closes the eyes, but her words are still making him restless.
Shanaya comes to him, holds his hands and kisses on it. He opens his eyes and jerks her hand:"you lost this right on me, you know very well"
A tear rolled down from her eyes and a strong layer of repentance makes a house in her heart once. This is she who forced him to marry Swara although she knew very well that she'll lose her every right on him.
Sanskar looks her:"don't cry Shanaya!"
Shanaya sighs and looks him with all her concern, look him as she's putting off evil eyes from his life:"how can I stop my tears Sanskar to see you in this state, I know you need me and I can't resist myself to come to you"
Sanskar says in bitter voice:"stay in your limits shanaya! I only need my wife, and this is our husband, wife matter, either she likes my closeness or not"
Shanaya:" This time, please sanskar! I love you please don't do this"
Sanskar looks her tears and feels bit guilt in his heart:"this was your decision Shanaya! So stay on this, now ill not use that girl to quench my thirst, this is enough, admit it, we failed, now as a loser, we dont have right to play again with the life of an innocent girl, even her hatred is better than your love shanaya"
Shanaya gets up and says in low voice:" I'm sorry Sanskar for everything"
She goes to the couch, drinks a wine in one gulp. Repentance is killing her heart and she reminisces the time when fortunate knocked her door and she denied. He's right, she loves him, but not more, than her freedom.
This is was incident of two years later, when they had done their intimacy and she's lying  beside her. He never hugs her, just complete his need and throws her on the other side of the bed. But she's used to it, his harshness, his bitter words and his attitude.  But she surprised when he held her and whispered in her ear:"marry me"
Shanaya pushed him and said:"do you want offspring from me?"
Sanskar jerks:"what...?? No!!"
Shanaya:"do you love me? I think, of course not"
Sanskar:"you're right, I don’t love you, I mean not that type of love"
Shanaya set her posture and said in a firm voice:" So, tell me the reason for proposing me"
Sanskar sighs:"actually I'm fed of this illegal relationship, so we should go ahead " .
Shanaya smirked:"we should go ahead sanskar! You've to go ahead... Marry some other girl, a pure girl, not a girl like me, who slept with your business partners"
Sanskar fumed to hear her words:"ill slap you, if you use these words again, that was my mistake, but if I make you my wife, ill not allow any gaze on you"
Shanaya sighed:"ohh!! I can't go to visit, other cities, what will you  do that night, search for another girl? Huh? So what will the difference in our life that time? You need a girl who is loyal to you, and who has not a wish to fly, we can't stay as husband wife Sanskar"
Sanskar looked her and poured water in the glass:"maybe you're right, but I won't believe anyone except you in this world, everyone wants something, even our relationship is based on give and take, so how a new girl bind a pure relationship with me?"
Shanaya thought something and said:"what about that girl, who rejected you, what's her name, yeah... Swara! So she rejected your personality as well as your wealth, means she has a pure character, you also liked her, so what about her?"
Sanskar drank water and said in a calm voice:" What do you mean? Clear your words shanaya"
She lifted up her face and looked into his eyes:"do you trust me?"
Sanskar nod in yes, while she continued:" I know which type of girl suitable for you, you want legal relationship, actually permanent blood source, I want some freedom from your responsibility, because I've to cancel many Projects just because of you, well, there's a simple solution of our problem, marry her"
Sanskar:"you know very well, I can't trust to anyone except you. And there's no any other person, who is exact Same as my expectations"
Shanaya smirked to him:"if she will be?, if she's exact girl of you then?"

Sanskar smirked to her and challenged her:"I cant believe on this, a domestic girl, who has wish to be devotee of her husband, a pure character girl, a silent and an obedient girl? Would she? No way...?"

Shanaya:"you skip many other qualities also, but my heart says, she's perfect for you"

Sanskar:"ok! If she will be, then ill marry her, this is my promise"

Shanaya smiled:"ok done!" And accepted his challenge.

In those two years, she enquired everything about Swara, if someone asked her to write an essay about a girl's life, she can easily write an essay on the life of Swara.

She used her every source to explore that girl. She organized quiz competition, followed her, arrange parties in her college, even she left spy in her college. At the end, she had completely handful information about her which proved her observation right.
She sighs and looks Sanskar who is her life but she lost her life because she can't love her life more than her freedom.

Sanskar gets up and says without making eye contact with her:"I've to go, today is a big day for me, one side, I'll arrange a party for my deal and another side, my heart is killing me for my failure, " he lifts up his face and looks her  who's in dilemma and continues:" Actually I should say,our failure Shanaya! You were wrong, sweetheart! She's not devoted to her husband, even she doesn't care"

Shanaya follows him and holds his hand:" If she doesn't care, why are you care about her? Come to Sanskar!" A  clear pleading can understandable in her voice but he jerks his hand:" No Shanaya! For me loyalty comes first, more than myself, " he goes towards the entrance door while Shanaya falls on a floor with her stubborn nature.