I'm hope episode 18

It was very hot day like sun came to visit earth and specially the beach of Karachi. But despite of this hot weather, he was leaning against the rock of beach.
He was come here in the time of lunch break, after the last semester of his university, he joined office, until his result will reveal of bba.
His father wanted to get him married after his graduation but he wanted some time because he was still confused about the approval of Umeed about their  new relationship.
He wanted to watch the time but he didn't realize when he dialled her number. He realied this thing when she said "hello" from other side.
He boggled with her voice then put his phone on his ear.
"hello Umeed.." His voice was mixture of confusion and love.
"why did you call me?" Her voice  was stern but flat.
"I'm on beach, do you wanna join me?" This sentence just slipped from his mouth, might be it was in his heart already.
"why?" He received only  one word from other's side.
He didn't understand what to say, he thought for a while to make excuse.
"I think you've so much time to waste but I don't have" the jerked voice of her came out from other's side because of long silence of him.
"Because I want to see you here, there is beautiful beach house of us, I wanna show you" this time his voice was confirmed like he wanted this and he would get it.
The few minutes of silence passed between them and he could feel the hot breeze which was touching his face.
"hmm.. If I'll say no then?" She said.
"then I would respect you" he said truth.
"don't you wanna show your right on me?" This time her voice was challenging but he didn't wanna accept this challenge.
"no I won't until.." He said calmly.
"until?" Her voice was possessed very beautiful question.
"until you'll accept our relationship" his voice was calm.
He could hear the gasping sound of her after listening him.
"you're misunderstood the situation, well! I'm coming there then I'll make you understand something" after saying this she disconnected the call.
He was confused by her last sentence, is there any misunderstanding left between them. Thought he was curious but still the small smile came on his face because his beloved was coming to her.
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Umeed was confused about his demand but she shrugged her shoulders carelessly because she knew very well about the nature of Faraz.
She was sitting on the seat of her cabin in her daddy's office. After that incident, her daddy was only looked her with reprimanded eyes. Though she was innocent but his eyes sank her in the depth of shame.
She hang her shoulder bag, took her keys of car which was gift of her 21st birthday from her daddy. She smiled ruefully, then stepped towards the door.
It took fifteen minutes to reach at beach because their office's building was near to beach.
After fifteen minutes, she was at the beach house of Agha Faraz.
She didn't need to knock, his husband already awaited for her one day old wife.
"welcome" he tried to smile but very faint smile came to his face.
She scrutinized his face warily to know about the situation which made him demand to call her in this alone place.
He peered at her while she only took a glance of beautiful farm house.
Both sat on the delicate but amiable couches, both were opposite of each others.
The farm house was brightened with the sunlight,  which was reflected his lovely features while his heroine was in the shadowy part of the lounge.
"your farm house is lovely" her words possessed appreciation but her tone was flat.
"ours Umeed, you forgot" his voice was fidget, the sunshine touched his face to give him a bit courage to spit out all those words which he wanted to tell his princess from years.
"hmm.." She utters vague words.
Few minutes of silence passed heavily, Umeed watched time, it was their lunch break but that didn't mean they could stay there for long.
"Do you wanna say something?" She said brusquely like she was talking with any stranger.
His fidget eyes filled with angst.
"I just wanna  see you, if I wasted your time then I'm sorry" he stammered while observing her beautiful features.
She fumbled his words, looked his expression then slowly exhaled.
"who are you of mine?" This time her voice was polite as well as molten.
"best friend, lover, husband as well as stranger or enemy which snatched your respect in your father's eyes" all these words were prodding in his mind but his mouth didn't utter one of them.
He only disgruntled her face then waited for her to utter next sentence what she was exactly considering him of her.
She waited for few seconds but when she only found his cold breathes from other side, she opened her mouth to clarify something important.
"Look Faraz!" She said and he followed her order abruptly.
"you're my husband either I wanted this relationship or not but this was written in our destiny, this isn't a movie where we are in the relationship and behaved like stranger. I know sometimes, I became petulant to you but that doesn't mean I don't give importance to our relationship, I accepted this relationship, that's a conclusion so please don't behave like this with me" her tone was neither soft nor morphine but formal and polite.
He gasped "have you really accepted this relationship?"
"hmmm.." She answered curtly.
"then may I tell you something?" This time he crossed spun between them.
He took her hand, entwined every finger in him, she was flinched by his act but said nothing.
He knelt down, while she was sitting on the couch, his neck tilted to see in her eyes directly.
"Listen carefully Umeed" he muster up some more words to describe his feelings towards his angel.
"Agha Jan wanted our wedding but I know you want some time, though this relationship was based on our approval but I know you only said yes because of your current situation in your house, so I'm not sure it's right time to get married or not I just wanna when you come in my house it would be approval of your heart instead of any dishevelled situation. As I was thinking on this topic, I became frantic to think on this you're not happy, my happiness ended when I thought my only love is not happy and I'm the reason of it" once he started, he was surged by words he wanna tell to her.
Her expression was changing with his every word while she didn't wanna hide this feat of her face.
"that day, you know that day when..." The words stuck between his thought.
"yes! I know" she strangled her tears in her throat to remind about that day.
"after that day, I couldn't sleep properly just thinking about your sorrow, your sobbing because of me, how could I be so selfish to do that but I couldn't get courage to apology from you, it was Romana's plan or not but it's truth that I was stuck in her trap because of my selfishness to get you. It was not so much time when I realized my love, my affection moreover my lunacy for you, but at the day of our Nikah, I broke out just because thinking about how selfish I'm! I just thought about my desire, my love and my happiness. Yesterday night when Agha Jan told me that he wanted his daughter in law in his house as soon as possible, I was stunned because.." His voice became husky and sight hazy just because onslaught of emotions at once.
She unintentionally pressed his hands to encourage him to say more, he gulped and continued.
"I was stunned because it was happening so soon and I knew you needed time to accept this alliance between us but I realized that it was my selfishness too to give you time because I want when you come to me, your heart would be filled with my love as my heart that time I thought to know about your opinion. Now decision is in your hand, this time I don't open my mouth or decide about our destiny, this time everything is wholly depending on you and I would accept your every decision" at the end, his words become woozy because of the moist of his throat.
She peered him silently for few seconds then stuttered slowly.
"are you really that nice?" Her voice was completely overwhelmed by emotions which could clearly shown on her face.
"huh..?" He looked her confusingly after her unexpected question instead of answer.
"I asked, are you really that nice or you're just with me like that?" This time she added some more words in her question.
The small curve of his lips, she could clearly glare after her question.
He gasped and answered while rubbing her index finger of left hand by his thumb of right hand.
"it's only for you"
This time her lips rumbled unintentionally and she didn't realize that her smile was reaching to her eyes.
Yes! Every night always have some shine of stars in its shawl, no matter   how much darkness was existed there.


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Behind The Mist Ep 5

    
       She's so happy since she wore the necklace, she feels like flying up in the air and wishes never to land. Everything surrounding her is looking beautiful to her. She can breath her happiness to the depths as if she has gotten a hidden treasure. She wants to tell the whole world that she's in love, she's neither shy nor confused, rather she's confident; confident that she has gotten the perfect love, the man created for her only, the man who loves her boundlessly and will always do, the love that will always be there for her, the love that no one can snatch from her, the love that is not only for her but for her family also, the love that honors her prestige, the love that is none other than Aazam.
  
       Her past thoughts and perceptions about Aazam have totally changed now. Apart from all his past activities and hobbies, she has decided to move on- with all his vices and virtues because love needs no explanation, she thinks. She has been rational while dealing with such sentiments but now after her prudent judgement she has got to the conclusion that her love bears no flaw, or if it even does, so according to her, one should love a person with all its vices and virtues. She's confident now that she has not made any hasty judgement and believes also that what's hers can not stay far away from her.
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   Fahad is standing in the corridor and is busy in reading a book in his hand.
    
  "Fahad..!", he listens someone calling him, he raises his head from the book and sees Sara coming to him. He closes his book and give a smile to her.
    
 She comes next to him and they both exchange greetings.
   
"Have you seen Jiya today?", Sara asks Fahad.

"Mmmm... No, I've not seen her today?", says Fahad looking around him and recalling.

"Why are you asking about her? You should better know whether she's here or not today.. I'm noticing something now a days..", he adds.

"What?", asks Sara with questioning eyes.

Fahad smiles and says shuddering, " I've noticed many changes in you and the first one is your ignorance towards your friends... ". She looks continuously at her face to her reaction but she too gives him the same stare with a mulish smile. When Fahad gets no answer from her he asks," Don't you think so??"

"No..", she answers shuddering. " I've been like this for always, nothing has changed in me..", she adds rejecting his idea.

"OK... So...", Fahad can't continue his words as his eyes fall upon a shimmery necklace around her neck and his eyes also start shimmering with it.

Sara notices his eyes and then puts her hand on her necklace and starts smiling proudly, she holds it and shows it to Fahad. " How's it?", she asks Fahad.

 "It's beautiful..", Fahad exclaims and his eyes are persistently on her necklace.
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And how am I looking wearing it???", Asks Sara looking into his eyes.

Fahad suddenly changes his sight and finds her eyes into his. He gets nervous for a while and then gathers himself to speak.

"Aaah.. Hmm. ... of course.. aaa....you too..hmm..", he says while looking here and there and coercing himself to smile so as to hide his nervousness.

"Heyy... Come on.. I don't have any wrong intention.. Fahad... Don't be nervous..", she says while laughing.

"Aaaa..I'm not nervous..... Not at all...", he tries to be confident.

"OK, leave it.. By the way I was asking for Jiya because I have to tell her something.", she says while cuddling her necklace.

"What?", Fahad says.

"Mmm.. First tell me genuinely, how's it??", she asks again.

"It's genuinely beautiful Miss Sara, now what do want to hear??", he says irritatingly.

"Have you ever thought that Aazam could have such a graceful taste while choosing jewellery??", she asks him excitingly.

"What???", Fahad gets astonished for a while. "You mean Aazam has gifted you this??", he adds pointing to her necklace.

"But I didn't say that I have been gifted this necklace..", she wonders how Fahad knows about this.

" Ooh Sara ... It's obvious from your behavior now  that you have been gifted this but, Aazam..", before he completes his words Sara interrupts him.

"Fahad I'm sure you won't believe because it's really beautiful.", she utters hastily.

"Yea.. It's really difficult to believe Sara..", Fahad says looking into her eyes now and he's not nervous this time but looks contented rather.

"Aaaa.. Fahad I want to say that don't discuss it with Aazam. I don't know he'll like me to discuss him with someone.. You know..", now Fahad interrupts her and says, "No, I'll not mention it, you don't worry.. "

            And there Jiya comes and takes Sara with her. Sara goes readily because she's to make her best friend aware that what she has got. But before Sara can share anything Jiya informs her that Aazam is looking for her. Sara doesn't pay heed to what she has to share with her friend because now she's on the way to Aazam.
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              She has checked everywhere she can to find where Aazam is when finally he finds him sitting under a thick tree in the garden far away from the hustle bustle of the university. She steps forwards vastly to reach to him but her steps slow down when she gets Aazam's glance on her. Her heart is beating to its fullest and she's having deep breaths. The same may be the case with Aazam too but visibly he's just wearing a nervous smile...
                                                       
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                   The mist starts dissolving now and gradually he's able to feel, see, hear and speak. That's his sweat he feels flowing on his body.As soon as the mist disappears he sees the wall in front of him painted with blood red color or rather with the blood itself. His hands are still in a position of shooting onwards the man before him, but the difference is that the man is lying on the floor now with eyes ready to burst out of his skull and with blood stains scattered all around him. Probably he shot him dead in head and perhaps the extreme of pain let the man's eyes look like bursting out. As his senses come to be normal, he's able to feel the sweet smell of fresh and hot blood mixed with the smell of gun powder and its smoke.

        The sight is unbearable for him now his hands again start shivering and let the gun fall down. His legs unconsciously step backward but the wall on his back supports him. He wipes his sweating forehead with his shivering hand and casts a glance upon both of his hands and then on the dead body before him and repeats this action several times. He feels something coming out from his stomach into his mouth and suffers from severe nausea at the moment and at once runs out of the room and starts vomiting under a tree in the backyard. For a few moments he feels his legs lifeless.
He stumbles and gives himself the support of the tree and looks up and has a sight of its waving branches. He takes a deep breath and sits down. He hides his face with his hands and starts weeping bitterly as he gets a tap on his shoulder. He turns to see and finds the same man standing there who enforced him to shoot the man dead. The man is smiling and he's hating his smile.

      "Be strong and brave... Never let anything make you shed tears.. You've done it well. One day you'll be proud of this. Come on now it's OK. You've not done anything wrong.", says the man with pride.

       The boy hears loud laughter coming out of the room and stands up and washes his hands from a tap. He wants to clean his hands but visibly his hands are already clear, he rubs them very fast and tightly as he wants them as clear as were before the gunshot. But his eyes are shedding continuously as if they know that nothing now can be undone, and that invisible stain will not be cleaned by any hand wash..

       That's the first time he faced and even done something like this.
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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Nothing Lasts Forever) Episode 12

Swara's POV:
They say nothing lasts forever
We ' re only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away.

My phone ringed. The same ringtone from Danish Soft Rock Band Michael Learns to Rock broke down my sleep. Before I could pick up, the call was disconnected. But this ringtone had already interrupted my sleep. This ringtone was very special to me. Each and every line of this song was close to my heart. Actually the other name of life was change. I still remembered that day when my so called dad abused me and my mother rescued me from his clutches. That man forcefully confirmed my marriage with a big industrialist though I was a minor that time. My mother stood like a barrier between me and my dad's decision. Because my mom always supported me, so, her marriage alliance and her relationship with him gradually suffered. From that day onwards everything in life was changed except this ringtone. This ringtone gave me positivity and assured me that nothing was lasted forever.

Now I was realising that it was true. Around 1 month had already passed from that deadliest night. I was unable to inherit the property. I shouted on my mom. Some guys misbehaved with me in the bar and that black covered man saved me. Yes! That man also dropped me home and despite knowing about my secret place, he hadn't revealed anything in media. Many times I saw him around me. Sometimes I thought that he was indeed following me. But every time when I wanted to confirm this, I failed. He was found nowhere. At last I gave up his thoughts and gave myself consolation that it was a hallucination. Even from 2-3 days, I hadn't seen him.

But now everything had changed. I was continuing my medical study. So that after completion of it, I could inherit half of the property and could give my mother security. I also told sorry to my mother. Even if she was not my real mom, but till how long she could stay angry upon me. So, she forgave me. But I didn't want to be a cause for her sufferings. I knew that my so called dad had problem with my mom because of me. So, I said to mom that till completion of my medical study, I would like to stay in hostel to improve my studies by discussing with my friends. Though I was not staying in hostel and living in my secret home, but I hadn't revealed this to mom. I lied to her because if I would tell her regarding my living here in this secret home then she didn't allow me & even if she would have allowed, still she would definitely be heart broken. So, I lied to her to give her freedom from my worries & me. So that her relationship with my dad might improve in future. She had done a lot for me, not like my real mother, Shomi Suryavansi, who left after giving birth to me. There was no love in my life but my mom had every right to enjoy her relationship with my dad. So, I took this step. Only Ragini knew about all these things. She was such a sweet heart. Though she was my lawyer but she never exploited me like a real lawyer. She always supported me in think and thin like a best friend.

Again my phone ringed and my series of thoughts were broken. It was Ragini only on the other side. She was yelling that didn't I wake up till now? I told her, "Why are you shouting Ragini? It's Sunday. Please let me sleep for some more times. You know that today is holiday or not." The last line I told her teasingly. But she reminded me sarcastically that she was a lawyer and she was very good in memorizing the time schedules. If I had forgotten to attend the party at night and for that I had to go for shopping, she asked me.. Oh!! I had totally forgotten this. I thanked her for reminder and we decided to catch up within 2 hours for shopping.

After cutting her call, I saw the miscall and it was from one of my friends from my college. I called back her and she was asking me to pick her up for the party. I nodded positively & cancelled the call. "What the hell swara! How can you forget this party. Today's party is going to be celebrated at night for the occasion of a friend's birthday. After so long this party is happening and you have forgotten." I thought this. Earlier I used to party all night but after continuation of my academics, these late night parties had stopped as there were too much pressure to complete the backlogs. I even didn't have a new party dress to wear. So, I asked Ragini's help for shopping. While thinking all these things, I freshened up myself and went to meet Ragini to complete my shopping. In the Central Mall, I met Ragini.

While we were busy in shopping, I again saw that back covered man from the glass door of the mall. I abstained from thinking about him as I knew it was an illusion. But again I looked at that spot and this time he hadn't vanished. He had stood there only. I called Ragini to show her that man. But till Ragini had come to see him, he again vanished. Ragini, like always mocked on me. I showed fake anger to her but deep inside my heart, my inner voice was asking me,"Why I always see him only, not any other man? If it is an illusion, then why it is only him?" I couldn't get any answers of these questions but I didn't want to spoil my mood today by researching on him. So, I left this topic and in between we both completed shopping & I came home after bidding good bye to Ragini.

At night, I dressed up with that party dress which I purchased today. Apart from that dress, I only wore earrings and a ring in my middle finger. I made my hair style like pony tail. I put on minimal make up with smokey eyes look & light lip gloss to complete my dressing for this party. I left home and picked up my friend and then we both went to the party. The party had already started in the bar and some of my medical friends had already gulped certain amount of alcohols. As soon as we all reached, my friend cut the cake and the party was continuing in full swing. The DJ had already lowered the light. Some of my friends were also dancing with the beat of rock musics. After so many days, I had got a chance to consume alcohol. So, I was gulping one glass after another without thinking anything. The night was passing slowly. Some of my friends had already went home. Some of them were still dancing unconsciously and I was consuming alcohols by leaving all my worries behind. Then some of my friends asked me for long bike rides.. I refused them as I didn't want to loose the chance of drinking more alcohol. I didn't know when again I would get this chance due to my academics. So, after my refusal, my friends left.

Then I saw that black covered man again. I had drunk so much. So, I thought that I was hallucinating. But to my surprise he was coming towards me. However I didn't pay heed to my thinking as I knew that I was heavily intoxicated. But he came to me and put his handkerchief on my face. I had not enough strength to protest his actions due to the consumption of intoxicants. Then I told some words like follower and then everything blacked out...


Credit to:Kashis

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