Swasan A path hate to love Ep32

Present time in school
Shanaya lifts her face and looked her innocent face, her eyes are clear as crystal. And only pure heart has this type of eyes, she knows and she wishes in her heart that may god safe the innocence of these eyes.
Swara is waiting of her words and she slowly departs her lips and words are coming out from them:" It was exams of my last semester, I was so happy, I had many plans about my future, I tried many places for job as well as scholarship for further study.
Everything was perfect in my life, I heard that sanskar leaved that place because of Meera and Meera was happy with her new husband, I met with her once... But it was time of my last exams, I was preparing for my exams and few sums were not solved by me , so I concerned from my teacher, he told me to come his home for extra classes, he gave classes to many students at home but I was worried because I didn't have money for tuition but he told me that he knows I'm scholarship student and he'll teach me without any fee, I was grateful to him and in evening I reached on address, I was wondered that why was professor living in unpopulated place with his family, I went inside....." She paused  and collects more words:" He opened the door and I found some more students there but I was confused because they were senior of mine... In which I knew one boy who was leader of his club but he completed his study,he many times, tried to flirt with me but I was cleared in my thought so I wasn't involve in these types of things and he wasn't nice boy too.
Avinash came to me and held my hands:" Finally! I got you baby"
Anjali:" Leave my hands (I turned to sir) sir! Look at him, he's..."
Sir laughed:" Take her avi! And remind that we've also contributed in this good work..." He laughed and I looked him with great shock, he was my teacher and I really respect him....
Avinash took me from bedroom.." She stopped and tried to control her tears:" It is easy to read in newspapers that girl becomes the victim of gang rape but it's more than that... Not only him, my teacher and his three friends, I dont remember how many times but those bas***d used me.. And you know..the pain is much more than imagination.... They beasts gnaw me all night and I was like.... " The tears are flowing  from her eyes and she looks into her eyes. Swara can feel the deep pain in her eyes. She second time sees  her in pain, first when she was afraid because of Sanskar.
She wipes her tears and tries to smile:" But don't worry dear! I'm Shanaya, I wasn't girl like who attempts suicide or spends their life with those tears... I didn't know how much time I spent in hospital, how much time I spent to recover from the pain which they gave me, but I was only the person who was with me, who tried to recover myself, who tried to push to me come forward in my life, but you know what I was completed lost after that day, my uncle's threw me from his house, I didn't have anything to do, that time I started job as a personal assistant of a rockstar Vicky, I was more than his personal assistant.... I've changed my name and burned my documents... So only he gave me job, not because of my talent because of my beauty, I thought, I've to live this life. So what's the problem, if live like this but then I met with Sanskar, he was completely changed that time and he introduced me the new world and showed me the new way  of living... You know what was the way?"
Swara wipes her tears and looks the girl who look sooo brave and says:" What was that?"
Shanaya looks into her eyes and says:" The way of revenge" Swara numbs to listen her tone and her words.
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Sanskar spent many days in shock, he didn't believe that his katty, his love leaved him just for the sake of money. He broke many times and collected his pieces many times.
He went his home in the hope of  returning to his old life. It was a function in his house, when he entered the house.
His mom came to him and held his hand:" What are you doing here Sanskar?" He thought that she'll hug him and happy to see him but she was only worry about guests that someone might not see him.
Sujata brought him in corner's room and bade papa and his dad also came here.
Bade papa:" Oh! Finally your so called wife leaved you and what are you doing here now? I told you that there's no place for you, where's your great words that you will do everything without our help... Now go and get your dreams..."
He looked down and didn't understand what to say, his inner ego stopped him to ask apology or admit his mistake.
He looked to his parents but bade papa stopped them:" Before going to him, remember that your daughter's engagement is going on and her in law wouldn't like the brother like him  who has eloped with lower class girl... Now the decision in your hands, son or daughter?"
He leaved the house without saying any words because he didn't want to examine their love or ruin the happiness of his sister.
He was still in great shock, he didn't understand what to do and how to curse himself or his destiny.
He went to his cottage but he was shocked to see the condition of surrounding. The new problem was standing in front of him and this problem was much bigger than another problems in his life. Now he will know that what's the life and how it will examine the man.
Landlord of cottage was throwing his stuff from cottage. By the way, he wasn't have so much stuff, some few necessary things which he bought from his salary.
Sanskar:" What are you doing?"
Landlord:" You didn't pay rent from 3 months and now you've to leave this house"
Sanskar:" Just give me few more days, I'll return your rent"
Landlord:" I already gave you many days, now it's enough..."
He collected his stuff and tried to collect himself too because this shock was also breaking him.
That time, he first time, laid down on footpath and the cold floor of footpath didn't give him peace for a moments.
Bade papa already send laksh to abroad and he tried to help him but bade papa was kept his eyes on him and his account activities, so he couldn't send him money but he tried very hard to help him.
He has left few pennies to spend and it was so much time spent,  he didn't eat something.
He tried for his job many places, time was passing and even he didn't have single penny to spend. Laksh was also trying best to help him, he hoped that his family will help him but they forgot like that they never had any son.
That time, when extreme hunger was placing in his body, he reminded Harshad, who was also the waiter with him but one day, he looked him with luxury lifestyle and he also offered him to live that lifestyle if he joint his hands to him. But after listening his way of making money, he denied but that time, he obmy thought about money and food.
He looked himself in the mirror of shop, that was a night and everyone was sleeping on footpath but he didn't have habit of it.
He talked to himself:" Look Sanskar! This is you and your place in this life..." He reminisced the time when everything was perfect in his life. He thought the words of bade papa, betrayal of Meera and thought that how was he ruining himself. He sighed and decided that now it doesn't matter that it will be bad or good,he just wanted revenge from everyone who contributed to ruin his life. 

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep31

Life.. If we give this word to everyone for define it, they start to write, this is most precious gift of god.. Really is it precious gift of god? If it's, then why people don't care about this precious gift?
His life was straight and simple, he didn't think about the main purpose of his life, he had a dream about his hotels but he didn't think about it so much because he thought, it's very simple to him to fulfill his dream? Why not it will be? Because his family was with him, he was intelligent and talented, everything was perfect then it will not be impossible for him to get this dream. So actually he didn't care about anything that time but now life was realizing him the importance of itself.
He forgot, when he ate some good meal or wear nice stuff. Laksh brought his stuff to him but because of strictness of home, he only brought some of his clothes and other documents for him. Now it was very difficult for him to adjust in this environment. Even his love.. His katty was going far from him and he didn't realize this thing.
He cried many time when he came from job and he didn't find anything to eat. In nights, he got up and afraid many times, that time he hugged Meera but nowadays she also came late home.
He looked himself in mirror and said:" Is it really you Sanskar? Is this your place to live in this world" he couldn't control his tears when someone tapped his shoulder.
He turned and found Anjali there.
Anjali:" Are you crying Sanskar?"
Sanskar wiped his tears and nodded his head in on.
Anjali didn't force him and gave him a dish of meal:" I thought, you came from job, so I brought for you, where's Meera?"
Sanskar:" She didn't come yet"
Anjali sighed and looked him, she looked confuse, he observed that she was trying to say something.
Sanskar asked:" Is anything there?, you wanna say?"
Anjali:" Yeah.. No.. Actually yes!"
Sanskar uncovered the dish and started eating without washing his hands. In those days, he was forgot to follow manners.
Anjali looked him and a strong layer of pity came in her heart for this boy who sit opposite to her.
She sighed and said:" Actually, I wanna say, why don't you go to your family? They'll accept you, I'm sure"
He stopped his hands from eating and said:" They'll not accept Meera and now our baby will also come, so why will they accept us? As I know my family, for them society reputation is more important than family"
She sighed:" I wish Meera wasn't come in your life"
He smiled bitterly and concentrate on his food:" Sometimes, I also wish about it but that time, I jerked this type of thought and cursed myself that how selfish I'm! A girl who leaved everything for you and you're thinking like that?"
Anjali smiled sadly:" Do you repent"
He stopped and looked her:" Hmm.. If I say truth.. Then yes!..."
Anjali:" Then return to your home"
Sanskar:" You know Anju! Sometimes life pushed us in empty well, we can come inside it but there's no chance to get it out, and you know what there is always a secret cave in that well, which takes us in another world, I'm in the well anju and I can't get out from this until I found the secret cave, but I'm sure it wouldn't the way of my home"
Anjali didn't say anything, just looked this boy who lost his everything but didn't curse to anyone, she looked and didn't thought that she was seeing this Sanskar last time.
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Present time in school
Swara:" Why didn't you tell everything to him about Meera?"
Shanaya smiled:" I went there, just to tell him that Meera aborted and going to plan marriage with Ram Malhotra, but as I looked him I felt pity on him that how can I give more tears to that person who was already in trouble"
Swara:" But this thing should be thought by Meera"
Shanaya:" If I say, she was right in her place then what will you say?"
Swara thinks for a while:" I can't say anything because your thinking is different from me"
Shanaya:" Actually Meera wanted all thing, it wasn't bad thing. If you think for a while every girl want a good looking husband who can fulfill her every wish, it can be matter a priorities but this wish is always same for everyone, if Sanskar's parents accept Meera then maybe it wasn't happened there but they didn't accept because of society, so I can concluded that it was fault of society"
Swara:" Hmm... It's very heavy talk, it will have taken time to understood by me, well! As I know him and as you told about him, only Meera's betrayal wasn't the reason of his cruel nature, something else is missing..."
Shanaya downs to her and smiles:" Not something dear! Many things are missing in this story.. Actually Meera's betrayal was first step of it"
Swara shook her legs and thought for Sanskar, she's amazed that how this man was! She thinks:" Oh god! It was confirmed that this man, you've written in my destiny, then why you didn't give me that time when he was sweet? Oh! That time, I was of nine, how can we? Well! I love him the way he's! I just want love from him too"
Shanaya shakes her shoulder:" Where have you gone?"
Swara nods:" Nothing special.. What was happened Shanaya? How Sanskar know about Meera's affair? And what was his reaction?"
Shanaya:" If I say truth, then I dont know so much about it because I was busy in my semester and I didn't meet them also, but I heard that one day, there was a big fight between them and from that day, Meera leaved that cottage and after few days, Sanskar was also did the same"
Swara:" So.... You don't know this thing? But how did you become Shanaya from Anjali?"
Shanaya's face becomes pale to listen her question. She can observe the great pain in her eyes after listening it.
Swara:" If you dont wanna talk about it, then its ok!"
Shanaya looks her and smiles hardly. She sees her eyes are about to flow but she's strong woman who can easily control herself.
Shanaya:" It was also the reason of our society swara!" She touches her face:" I pray Swara, you'll not see the real face of this society but truly I know god wouldn't listen the sinner like me"
Swara holds her hand:" I don't know Shanaya, you're sinner or not but you're doing work of virtue"
Shanaya smiles sadly:" Do you feel hunger?"
Swara understands that she wants to change the topic:" Yeah little bit! You can order snack,specially French fries, I wanna eat"
Shanaya smiles and asks:" Are you vegetarian? Because I order something non veg"
Swara:" I'm not, you can"
Shanaya nods and orders for snacks and comes to her:" Do you wanna know that how am I turn Anjali to Shanaya?"
Swara:" I'm just curious.."
Shanaya stayed silent and looked down as she's thinking something deep, but actually the winner of words, is collecting the new words to explain her pain but she's so bad in this and she's being continuously unsuccessful in this mission. Destiny always left one thing which always remains empty in our life. This thing remind us that nothing is perfect in this world, so we remind our limitations and don't consider ourselves as god.  It was also same like Shanaya, who can do everything but can't express her pain in words.
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Sanskar came back palace and now he's drinking in the bar side, he already asked Laksh to go out with Ragini because he doesn't want to let her know about anything and it was also like that he wanna stay alone for sometimes.
He already arranged his pills for calmness because he's mentally and physically tired.
He  was making drink when someone came to him. He knows very well that who's the person.
He picks up his phone and calls someone:" Rohan! What the hell this woman is doing there? Come here and takes her from there, otherwise you'll be fire"
He shouted and disconnects the call. Meera smirks and comes to him:" Why are you getting angry my sweetheart!"
Sanskar grins:" Enough Meera! I'm not in mood to fight with you... Please go for there"
Meera smiles:" What's the wonderful day is today! You said please to me"
Sanskar sighs and says:" Look behind you, (he looks) Rohan please take her from there otherwise inform her husband to take her from there"
Meera irritates from his words and leaves.
He feels much relax to look this, if he said,he actually might forgave her  but because of her deeds, he started to hated her. She's helpless because of her instinct and he's helpless because of his hatred.
He remembers the day when he came from job and didn't find her, he got the salary and bought her favourite chocolate cake from her favourite bakery. They didn't celebrated her birthday, so he specially bought for her with his saving.
He didn't remember when he fell asleep, he got up in midnight but didn't find her in home. He was worried about him, he called her many time even he went to her hotel. He searched her everywhere, he could but he was unable to find her.
Waited for her all night and prayed for her that she come soon and she might be safe.
Next day, he was about to report police station when his phone rang. He attended the call, it was Rakesh who worked with him.
Rakesh:" Sanskar! Come to hotel hurry up"
Sanskar:" Meera is missing, I've to find her first"
Rakesh:" Meera is there, you come here fast"
Sanskar:" Katty is there, but what's she doing there? Is she doing night shift there?"
Rakesh:" Sanskar! Come here first then you'll know everything"
Sanskar went there and he was shocked to see. He wasn't believe on himself what he saw.
Meera was his boss Ram Malhotra and he was holding her hands.
He went towards them and freed her hands from his grip:" Katty! What are you doing here with sir??"
She gently freed her hands from him and said:" Give me bit respect, I'm wife of your boss now"
Sanskar:" Wwwiifff....ffee, it is impossible, you're my wife"
Ram Malhotra came between them:" Give me proof that she's your wife?"
Sanskar became speechless because they were minor this time and he was not of the age of marriage that time also.
Sanskar held his collar:" How do you do this with me? You allured my wife(he turned to Meera) and was this your love Meera? "
Meera came to him:" Call me Mrs Malhotra! Because now you're not able to call me from my name! I was fool who was with you, now get lost from this hotel and don't need to come to job from tomorrow"
Ram Malhotra called guards to take him from there.
He couldn't forget this insult in his entire life. For her, he served to people, he found many people laughed on him because they know whom he was and who he is. But he tolerated all this because of her but that time, he could never forget that insult  in his life and thought that if he get the chance, he'll must revenge for his insult.

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I'm hope Ep 2

Now Umeed reached to her seventh year and she gave impact to her parents and their VIP guests. An incident which started from greeting and asking a formal question now reached to pulling trolley and serving to guests. She got appreciated by the guests and for this, their parents achieved their goals.
And in this type of parties, only Umeed was allowed among children. In those days, she knew very strange news which confused her innocent mind. She listened from someone who talked about her daddy's younger sister who betrayed him to elope someone. That's a reason her daddy didn't love daughters because he loved his sister so much.
She satisfied that maybe this is a reason her parents didn't love her. But she got confused because her parents love Honey(Romana). But she made an excuse to advocate her parents act:" She's youngest just because they love her" but she tried to console herself but she was still confused.
But after hearing that words she promised herself that she'll care her daddy.
Romana, pet name as Honey was the second daughter of her parents. She was crying baby who always sought out opportunities to take attention to her parents. Sometimes, Umeed also thought that it's easy to cry and take attention instead of just putting effort to win the heart of everyone. But she always banished this thought from her mind because she was Umeed and Umeed has the meaning of smile... A smile of hope.
Sometimes, she fed up from her struggle because her family didn't show any concern for her as compared to her siblings.  In front of guests, they praised her academic results, her obedience and intellectual but she could clearly understand the artificiality in their tone in her early age.
But she jerked all thoughts from her mind and again tried do her best to achieve her goal because she was included in those persons who always look half filled glass of water instead of the empty side. She put lots of hope, love and optimism in half empty side of glass.
In this half full glass, she can saw her brother who didn't show so much concern for her but always support her, one or two lovely glances of her father towards her, her uncle who always came to VIPs and said for her:" Oh! Umeed my tigress!!".. Love of her dadi for her.. And she hoped that she'll soon put the love of her parents and Romana in the half empty portion.
And yeah one more thing.... She had also Faraz in the full portion. Her only friend...
Sometimes, destiny couldn't be tied some persons into blood relations, for this consequence, it tied them into friendship. It was also same applied on both of them.
But their friendship is more than only friendship, they have a beautiful relationship because they both didn't find love at home, so they sought every relationship between each others.
From their primary classes, both learned, played and studied together.
Faraz loved the wings of butterflies but Umeed only loved butterflies but Faraz had the instinct of lunacy and fierceness but Umeed was like the calm ocean. But the nature of Faraz was like a noisy river but it was interesting that this noisy and desperate river was fallen in the ocean whose name was Umeed.
They left their childhood and put the first step on their teenage. Faraz still followed butterflies but he couldn't catch any butterfly successfully.  She was also supporting him to follow butterflies but not to catch them, she just liked this activity. She liked when they try to touch butterfly and it boggled and flew away.
And one day, Faraz caught a butterfly finally! And this day, she saw a new shade of life, she didn't know the abortive color of butterflies. And when this butterfly lost its color, it will die. It was a small pale butterfly, which caught because of its carelessness. Carelessness of love...
She was wondered that time, Faraz's face brightened because of his victory but she didn't like it, she  saw the face of Faraz and the dead butterfly. After reaching the home, she was in a deep dilemma that what has happened with that butterfly?
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This was an incident of those days when they were in the eighth standard. Now she was afraid of catching butterflies. But she wasn't so expressive to express her fear to Faraz. So whenever Faraz went on his activity, she also followed him.
Once they went to do their activity in the lunch  break, there was a garden behind their classrooms but no one went there because it was said that it was haunted by ghosts. But they both reached there while playing hide and seek with the butterfly. Finally! Faraz got the butterfly, it was big and beautiful black butterfly with golden patches.
Faraz gave this butterfly to Umeed which fed color were left color on the fingertips of Umeed. Umeed was afraid, curious and excited. They didn't know how much time was passed during their activity. Umeed hands are in the hands of Faraz and they both holds the butterfly but in their eyes, there were fireflies which shined in the daylight.
Peon reached there in the search of them and they faced the principle. But it has become worst incident when peon told about their gesture in a garden. Because in last few days, the senior couple was caught by the peon, so principal included them also in this category.
They were tried to define that it wasn't like that what everyone thought. The principal called their parents and gave the details of the incident which he heard from the peon.
Only at the age of 12, she was degraded because of misunderstanding. Daddy didn't say anything in front of the principal. On the way, Umeed tried to show the black color of the butterfly on her hands to him as the evident of her innocence.
He threw him to her room and said:" How can I expect a good thing from the offspring of one of the betrayers and bloody man" daddy shouted and told everything to dadi. And the first time, she cried vigorously in her life. She knelt and tried to  hide in her room. But words of daddy is also echoing in her ears.
"whenever I saw her, I remind that bloody and betrayer.. but I was hope that she'll not like them. But I was wrong... But she proved that she's their blood.." She could easily hear the every word of daddy but couldn't understand. She tried to console herself as she did always but this time, she didn't do that, she wanted to shout but this time, she put her hands on her mouth and closed her mouth to stop her shouting which arisen in her heart.

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