Monday, 22 February 2016

Swasan A path hate to love Ep 46

Posted by Saba Shiekh on February 22, 2016 with 39 comments
Swara looks into his eyes and says boldly:" Then let me go Sanskar..."

"I can kill you but won't leave you" Sanskar says sternly.

"then kill me.." Her tone and voice witness of her state of mind.

Sanskar's heart numbs for a moment to listen this.

He suddenly leaves her and goes to balcony, she knows now he would do smoking, she wanna stop him to do

smoking but on the other side, she just wants to go from there.

She stays lean on the bed in the same condition.

On the other side, Sanskar lit his cigarette and her voice is echoing in his mind. His bird wants to fly and he just

wants to cut her feathers. He is thinking why is she think about to fly when he did everything perfectly.

His mind is concluding the reasons of his defeat while his heart is cursing him to act like that she became like just

because of him.

He throws the cigarette and squeezes it with his feet. He touches the flowers and gasps. He didn't see her to enjoy

the beauty of his house or palace. He personally likes wanton type girl. That's why he fell for Meera but Swara was

silent girl and she becomes more and more silent because of his attitude. She could be happy and enjoy

everything. He gave to her if he tried to make her happy.

He hits his fist on the frame of grill and curses himself again to make her like that. He goes to glass wall and sees

her laying in the same state. The repentance is making place in his heart and this time

He was not hurt her personally but when she did anything which hurts his ego, or he was suffering from fit

problem. He couldn't control himself that's why he told her to go outside because he knew how much he became

mad in this state. He doesn't want to harm her but he did and second time in life he accepted his defeat.

He looks her and touches the glass wall, his mind says him to let her go but don't know why his heart sink to think

that she would be gone from his life.

"you wanted me like that? Aren't you? Then I become like this... You should be happy now,  Just as per our deal"

Swara's motionless voice echoes in his mind.

"why am I not happy if she became an obedient girl without any arguments or restrictions?" He asks to himself.

"because you like her as strong and courageous girl as compared to just puppet.  You can't love the dead body but

the soul"

He boggles to listen his answer:" Love..." He whispers slowly and looks her.

But at the next moment, he banishes this thought from his mind and looks her again.

He collects some courage to face her because he wants to do that thing which he never do in his life, not even in

worst condition of his life.

He goes inside the room and she wiggles to feel his presence.

"Swara!..." He calls her, she turns to him..

He thinks:" Should make deal with her to stay there" but at the next moment someone whispers in his heart:"

Don't make it business deal Sanskar Maheshwari! This is your wife, not only client... Don't repeat one mistake

again and again"

He gasps to listen the voice of his heart and slowly sits beside her.

"do you really want to leave me?" He says slowly.

Swara gets up from her place and leans on the the back of bed:" Do you have any doubt?"

Sanskar nods in no:" But why?"

" are you still asking me the reason?" She screeches to listen him.

"I know, I wanna listen to you" he says in slow voice.

Swara stays silent to listen this, she gasps and collects some words to make him understand:" Tell me one thing

Sanskar, you marry a girl, what do you want from that girl?"

Sanskar amused to listen her question because he expected that he would listen lots of complaints in the answer

but answer or question was unexpected.

He gasps and says after thinking for a while:" Loyalty, obedience, happiness from her, she cares about me and

gives me whatever I want. Love and respect etc.." He says finally.

Swara looks him victoriously:" If I marry someone, I expected the same things from my husband, apart from my

husband"

Sanskar looks her with amaze, how easily she conveys her complaint without complaining.

Sanskar sighs and looks her. He's collecting courage to say the words, he never said to anyone.

"Hmmm..." He bents his neck and takes a deep breath to say:" I'm agree with you, I couldn't give you these all

things which I expected from you..." He again inhales breath, he thinks that might he would need inhaler.  "I've

accepted my defeat, I was wrong",

Swara is surprised to listen it but she stays emotionless in front of him.

He continues:" Now you've two options, one you said, you wanna leave me then this is legally your house, I would

go from there, you stay here, the servants are reliable, you shouldn't worry about anything. Not about money or

anything else... If you feel to take div..." His tongue stagger to say this word but he says again " if you wanna take

divorce.. Then also this house would be yours with all stuff and anything, if you stay in marriage then I wouldn't

come to you, but you would my responsibility and I would fulfill my responsibilities without hurting you"

He gasps and opens draws of his bed's side table. He takes out inhaler to take a breath, Swara hurts to see it, the

overwhelming feelings is encircling her. Now she forgets all things he did with her, just wants to hug him and says:"

Don't go..." But someone scolds her in her heart "you can't be weak at the end of this battle"

She hardly hides her emotions from her face and stays motionless.

"you can't walk without woman in your bed, what would you after it?" She asks motionlessly.

Sanskar looks her, he doesn't think about anything and he says truth to her:" Don't know.. But it's confirm, I won't

touch any girl until you're in this marriage"

"then why did you call Shanaya at that night?" She asks.

Sanskar gasps:" Oh! That time I was mentally unstable and she could handle me without touching her, she's expert

of it how to handle me without making repentance"

Swears relieves to listen him but says nothing because she doesn't want to leave him from the bottom of her

heart.

"now its time to say him what do you want Swara" her inner voice whispers.

She's about to say something when Sanskar says:" But you've other option too.."

Swara looks him questioningly.

Sanskar says in one breath:" Give me a one chance.."

I'm Hope Ep 13

Posted by Saba Shiekh on February 22, 2016 with 3 comments
Umeed shocked to see Faraz there and immediately went to him:" Faraz..." Her voice was not more than whisper.

He moved and looked her with teary eyes:" Umeed.."

"how did it happen?" She pointed out to ambulance which carried out body of one girl.

Faraz shook his head negatively:" I don't know, she saw me while proposing you and she did this... This is all my

fault"

Umeed looked the girl who was smiling before one hour but this one hour ruin everything.

The crowd's voice was buzzing in atmosphere and she was numb to say anything.

Faraz wanted to utter word but only a sob came from his mouth.

Both left the crowd and sat in a corner, Faraz was still silent and Umeed was crying. It was one of their university

fellow Mahnoor. She was good friend of him but whenever he felt that she considered himself more than a friend,

he made her understand that he didn't love her or wanted to make any relationship with her. Maybe he could but

he knew very well except Umeed no one can take place in his life, so how could he ruin anyone's life. So he refused

her and today, when he proposed Umeed, she saw them and looked her refusal. She pleaded to him to accept him

because she loved him but he talked to her so rudely.

It wasn't tear of sorrow in his eyes but tears of repentance.

Umeed looked him and tried to console him but didn't understand what to say and how to say.

" it was my fault.." Faraz uttered.

"it wasn't yours.." She gasped.

Faraz looked her and she said again:" This is your choice either you loved her back or not, love is matter of consent

of heart, we can't force someone to love us back.."

"yes! If love of both sides then it must give the result of mingling" Faraz completed her sentence.

By saying this, both realized same feelings at once and looked into each others eyes.

Faraz felt for Umeed that he loved her but that doesn't a matter of force to get love back.

Same Umeed felt for Shayan as well as for Faraz.

Suddenly she realizes something:" I'm sorry Faraz! I shouldn't behaved like that.."

"no.. I'm sorry, I shouldn't say this type of words in the public place to spoil your reputation" he smiled sadly and

apologizes from the core.

"And don't worry, I won't do suicide.. You shouldn't have guilt about this" he said in teasing tone.

Umeed smiled completely but again became sad about to think Mahnoor.

"she shouldn't do suicide, I know love has so much power but what about the love of our parents, our family and

our friends? How could we take our life for the sake of one love? In the defeat of one love. How can we  give pain

to our other love ones" she said with pain.

Faraz looked her with affection but didn't say anything.

Umeed gasped and stood from her place but before leaving she said to him.

"I only marry to that person which would be chosen by my father.."

She walked towards entrance while Faraz was still sitting on his place and starring her back.

She turned and said again "I would come hospital to see Mahnoor... May Allah save her"

"Ameen.." Faraz said in slow voice and looked her again.

He also stood up from his place because he should with Mahnoor in hospital.

**************

Umeed came in her house and found Seemi aunty and mom together. They were discussing about summer

seasons clothes of famous brands. She smiled to listen them "women always think about dresses.."

She went to her room and got fresh, suddenly she reminisced something and did ablution and started her prayer.

She prayed about Mahnoor, she prayed about her family and at the end, she asked to her Allah.

"Allah Pak! If Shayan isn't in my destiny, he shouldn't be... Because now he's fiance of my sister and I don't want to

be disloyal to my sister... So banish this feelings from my heart about him..  Ameen.."

She reimbursed her palms on her face and stood up from her place. She was untying her scarf when she heard the

knock on her door.

"come in..." She said.

It was Shayan who came in her room.

"we're going for eating ice cream, so I thought i should ask to you also.." He said politely.

She weighed his voice to assume any feelings for her but his tone was normal but friendly.

"no...  You both go and enjoy" she said in low voice.

He sat on a chair which kept beside her writing table.

"were you praying?" He asks.

She nods in yes.

"are you used to praying?" He sat like he didn't want to go.

"no.. I don't pray always..." She answered calmly.

"oh! Then what's the reason of today's prayer?"

She gasped and told the incident of Mahnoor in her university.

He looked inspired from her:" You've such a nice heart Umeed! You prayed for her even you don't know her

personally"

"I don't do this for her but for her family, she shouldn't do this just for the sake of boy" she remained calm.

Shayan looked her carefully, her face was in the circle of scarf and she was wearing full sleeve's long shirt and

cigarettes pant.

She was beautiful but she had something except beauty, which enlightened her whole personality.

He was first time looking her carefully, she was puzzled by his gaze.

"I think you're getting late..."

Her voice broke his trance and he boggled:" Yes! Honey would kill me.."

She smiled and looked his back and amazingly, she didn't feel anything for him.

Shayan came outside where Romana was waiting for him.

"you stay there for long..." She said in complaint's voice.

Shayan held his ears:" Oh sorrrryy..."

She smiled:" Okk I forgive you"

"thank you my lady..." He bowed down and she laughed.

He stood properly.

" by the way, your sister has such a nice personality, I don't know why you don't like her"

"please, at least you shouldn't start to taking her side.." She looked him with the eyes of " you too Brutes"

"ok! I'm not taking her side but I'm just saying she's so nice girl, you shouldn't have  resentment about her in your

heart" he made her understand calmly.

"I think I should go back to my room instead of going outside with you" she said in harsh tone.

"ok... I'm not saying about her anything, now cheer up your mood" he said.

She smiled and thought in her heart:" You don't know Shayan! I'm not only dislike her but I hate her..."

The badness of her heart was darkening her beautiful face.

*****************

At the night time, she again prayed for Mahnoor and thought to visit her hospital next morning.

She came to the window and looked her best friend.

"hello friend.. Today was the day of realization, I realized that I shouldn't misbehaved with Faraz and I realized that

love is only matter of consent of heart.... I also learn lesson from Mahnoor's incident but main thing is that..." She

paused and smiled to see 11th of lunar.

"main thing is that I realized I never love Shayan..  It was only mirage of my imagination that someone would come

and take me with all of his love and respect, today when he was leaving I suddenly realized this thing, I was only

loved with my imagination not with his personality..."

She held the frame of window and continued:" Now I'm satisfied with my life, no need to shade tears because it

was only mirage and Umeed doesn't hope for mirage..."

She smiled brightly.... A beautiful and mesmerizing smile which reached from her lips to eyes.