Tuesday, 3 May 2016

Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Passage Of Time) Episode 2 Season 2

Posted by Saba Shiekh on May 03, 2016 with 15 comments
Swara's POV:
Time... Like a crazy bird, she was. Only flew when none watched.. None could keep her. All failed to train her but she was revolving around everybody's center. Sounded funny!! Yet, this was time.. Time was passing speedily. After my escaping from that dark cellular jail, my life was passing hurriedly. I indulged myself in assignments, backlogs & many more academic activities. At least 20 days had passed from those chaotic incidents. My life was again got back to normal. Though I was safe & happy,still my heart contained a void inside it,just like those clouds on the sky which didn't have rain bearing capacity. Despite of the busy lifestyle, I felt emptiness somewhere inside my soul. Whenever I felt down, I picked up that jacket of my kidnapper & surprising I got strength to fight back my problems, just like some invisible hand was protecting me through it.

My series of thoughts were broken when my phone buzzed. It was none other than Ragini. As soon as I picked up the call, she said,"Swara! You won't go alone to that party. I will accompany with you." Cutting her words, I said,"Ragini, don't worry. I will be fine. What will you do in that party? You even don't know, Laksh." This time Ragini shouted, "Swara! I don't want any argument. You are kidnapped from his birthday party only. And I don't care about the party & your friend but I do care for you..I will join you for your safety."

Now I was in dilemma as nobody was there to kidnap me as my kidnapper was my saviour at last. But how could I convince Ragini about it? She was so right in her own place & her genuine concern wasn't ignorant to me. So, I nodded her positively & said,"Ragini, behave like my friend there, not like my lawyer & today is a big day for Laksh as he has completed his internship & become a doctor." Ragini didn't allow me to complete my sentence & yelled,"No need to repeat,swara. My only concern is you. If you are safe then I don't have any issue with anyone." I just smiled and said,"OK! Come early and pick me up from my secret place." Before cutting the call,She asked,"Swara, have you ordered the sim with same number as you have lost your phone..." I nodded & said,"Yes! I will receive that in 2 days." We both waved good bye & disconnected the call.

I opened my wardrobe & chose a decent cloth for the party as this was more like a gathering than a party. In this party, one should look dignified. So, I carefully chose my clothes according to the venue. While searching for my scarf, that jacket fell down from the shelf. I picked up it to place it again on the shelf but there I found a photograph which perhaps I had already seen when I was captivated in my kidnapper's room. I looked at the boy present in that picture. It was definitely Sanskar. However in this picture, he was looking far bubbly & cute than the present ruthless one. As soon as I saw the tearing part of that picture, sanskar's memories were flashed back in my mind. I could never decode that mysterious man but at least I could treasure his unforgotten memories. I put that picture in a photo frame where he along with a middle aged lady were present.

I had never seen Sanskar after my escaping from that dark world. My so called father had also come to limelight from his hideouts after some days of my evading. But I didn't know anything regarding Sanskar & about his whereabouts? Was he safe or not? While I was thinking about these things, the door bell was knocked. Perhaps Ragini had already arrived. I opened the door & it was Ragini. She ordered me to dress up early & I got ready hurriedly & we left for party. As soon as we reached to the party, Laksh welcomed us heartily. I introduced Laksh with Ragini by telling her as my friend rather than my lawyer. The party was going on in a full swing.

Laksh's POV:
The day after my conversation with Sanskar regarding her insecurity & unsafe life, I saw Swara in college on the very fine morning. As soon as I saw her in college, many thoughts entangled in my mind. A mixed feelings of sorrow & happiness were undulating in my mind. I didn't know about the outcome this girl would create in Sanskar's life but certainly this girl was no less than an oasis for Sanskar. Just like oasis was the lifeline for a caravan trader who had surpassed many mirages of water body during travelling, in the same way, Swara was the real creature who would pull back sanskar from that intertwined illusion of darkness.

At once I dialed Sanskar & said,"Buddy! I have seen swara today in college?" Sanskar told in a firm tone,"Ya! She has escaped." I just smiled at his lie as nobody could escape from that jail where a ruthless slayer was present & corrected his sentence,"Has she escaped or has someone helped her to escape,sanskar?" He just kept numb & again said,"Laksh, never utter these words in front of anyone as I have controlled all the matters." I assured him to maintain secrecy & he narrated the whole incident to me.

I just couldn't control myself from divine bliss as he had risked his life for someone's good & his humanity side was opening up gradually. Before cutting the call, he said in a concerned tone,"Take care of her, Laksh & yes! Do convey me entire details regarding her disease after the revelation of all reports." From that day onwards, whenever I called sanskar, he definitely asked me about her apart from our mission & targets.

So,now a days I always talked with swara & became more friendly with her to give sanskar all the correct information about her & her health. Eventually I had got her landline number as she had lost her phone in my birthday party & invited her to the party to celebrate my success of being a doctor. But swara was ignorant about my two life styles & my connection with her kidnapper..

Now I was addressing all the guests in my party & today swara had come with her friend Ragini. I liked Ragini a lot as she was a very down to earth girl. In our short conversation, I could relate her care and concern for swara. She was a selfless girl which was rarely found in earth now. The party was going on smoothly. Many guys present in the party were occasional drinkers.

Soon my eyes fell upon swara. She was sitting in a corner & gulping some juice. I was beyond shocked. The voracious drinker of my last party was gulping juice instead of alcohol. Surprising enough!! Wasn't it? Though I was happy as alcohol couldn't harm her health now still I filled a glass of wine & offered it to her to show my curtsey. She refused to take even one glass of wine which stunned me. I just casually said her,"You have changed a lot, swara! May I know the reason behind it?" She waved a smile & said in a firm tone,"In an uncertain life, change is the only certainty & alcohol will do more harm than good.." I looked at her in unbelievable eyes without getting the meaning of her sentences.. Ragini was also shocked as her facial expression said so.. She hugged swara tightly. The DJ lights were flashing on the faces changing our facial expressions & I was thinking about this dubious girl in the prevailing illumination....


Credit to: Kashis

Monday, 2 May 2016

Swasan ff: An Incomplete Scrapbook (A Different Sunrise) Episode 1 Season 2

Posted by Saba Shiekh on May 02, 2016 with 17 comments
Swara's POV:
Cobwebbed clouds came floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky. The stormy weather had already passed away from my life. But everything fell apart, like the devastating tempest created a violent tumult in my life and disintegrated every relationship therein. Still in all odds, I came across a cause to lead my life in a joyous way, not for me but for those persons who cared for me.

The knocking sound on the door broke away my thoughts & I rushed towards the door to open it. It was none other than Ragini. As soon as she saw me, she hugged me tightly. I wasn't at all surprised by her reaction as I knew about her concerns towards me. She started her questions,"Are you OK, swara? Have they hurt you? Why are you kidnapped? Have they demanded anything? How have you escaped?" I just calmed down her & said,"Ragini, you are standing on the door, at least come inside. Then I will answer all your questions." She complied & we both came in & closed the door.

I told her all the incidents about the dark cellular jail as far as possible but some facts I twisted while telling. As I knew that Ragini wouldn't understand my abductor & as a lawyer, she would see all of them in her suspicious eyes. After ages, we were talking heartily. So, to continue this midnight conversation, I made two cups of coffee & continued our uninterrupted talks for hours while gulping coffee.

Suddenly I remembered something & asked Ragini,"Have you enquired about me from my mom? Have you told her about this secret home? Have you filled any missing report in the police station?" Ragini said in a taunting tone,"Why are you asking me about these obvious outcomes? You haven't contacted me for 10 damn days.. Do you know how much scared I am?" I made a pout face and said,"I am sorry, Ragini.. But nothing is in my control.. Tell me na, have you informed mom?" Ragini said,"Ya swara, I have contacted your mom but haven't told about this secret place. But seems like she isn't very worried about you at first. However when I have filled missing complaint, she is hell shocked & cried a lot." I said in murmuring voice,"She isn't worried earlier as I have told her about my busy schedule & about my pending backlogs and I have assured to call her after completion of my busy routine." After listening to me, Ragini said,"Oh! This is the reason for which your mom has also assured me about your safety when I have first contacted her." Then I said,"What's next, Ragini?" Ragini informed me to go to police station to withdraw the missing complaint and as she was very sleepy, she slept over the couch itself. I covered her with a bed sheet and went to my bedroom.

I rested on bed & thought,"Thank god! I haven't told Ragini about my molestation & disease incidents, otherwise my mom has also come to know about it eventually & I don't want to make her more worried for me." After many days, I felt secured in my home & slept early.

In the next morning, we both went to the police station to withdraw the missing report. Police asked me all sorts of questions. I misled them by giving the wrong info about the physique of my kidnapper. I also lied that my eyes were covered with black robe & I was ignorant about my kidnapping location. I planted many false stories to make my answer believable. The policeman also finally agreed to my justifications as my father was a businessman & he must had many rivals for monetary issues. I withdrew the complaint & now we were heading towards my home to meet my mother.

There was complete silence in the car. I was thinking about Sanskar & his helpful deeds towards me. Breaking the silence, Ragini started,"Swara, have you given all the correct information to police to capture those miscreants?" Lowering my gaze, I nodded positively to Ragini. However I thought,"How can I harm that person who has saved my life by putting his life in danger? How can I even think about him as a miscreant? Thank god! I have told the same things to Ragini, whatever I have confessed in the police station & Ragini can't detect my lies." After that the whole way had crossed with utter silence.

As soon as I reached home, I hugged my mother tightly. After all of all the small gifts that my life had offered me, a loving & caring mother was the greatest of them all. She was the one, who could take away all my pain to give me happiness. She was relieved after seeing me healthy & fine. But she didn't want to leave me now after listening regarding my kidnapping incident from Ragini. She persuaded me to stay at home & complete the graduation in medicine. But I refused as I couldn't share the same house with my so called father after my kidnapping incident & didn't want to give my mother a belligerent atmosphere everyday due to that man's presence. After convincing my mom, I left home & went to college as I had already missed many classes & now I had to complete a stack of assignments.

Sanskar's POV:
Smart, courageous & mysterious girl!! Concerning for an abductor, while she was getting her freedom. Desiring to meet me again!! What an irony!! We were at extreme ends like two far reaching poles of earth. Our paths could never coincide. Gradually she was vanishing from my sight & I felt an empty hollowness hole inside my heart. I started my car to go away from that place even before coming to someone's notice. While travelling, I remembered about my mom & felt happy. Today I had done something, which my mother always wanted me to do..

Now I wasn't at all worried for myself as she was safe now. Breaking my thoughts, my phone buzzed. I saw the caller ID & it was from Alex. I knew about the purpose of his calling & the way he was touching my target flashed back in my mind. Still I controlled my rage as it was the time to act smartly, not to be hyper. I picked up the call & said,"Yes Alex! Are you keeping an eye on her?" I felt frightenedness in his voice & he said,"Sanskar, I don't know how has she escaped?" I made shocking voice & shouted on him & said,"What are you saying? How can she escape when you are keeping an eye on her? What will I tell to captain now?" His voice was trembling & he said,"I am sorry, Sanskar. I have consumed some alcohol but I don't know how I have dozed off so early." I smiled evily due to my smartness & said,"You bastard! How can you consume alcohol & doze off in front of a precious target? OK, let me handle this case in my own way. Wait for me, I am reaching in 20 minutes." & I cancelled the call.

As soon as I reached to my dark world, those two morons nailed down on my feet & asked for my forgiveness. I slapped them hard by remembering their mischievous attitudes towards my target. I thought to call my captain but stopped as if her father hadn't given money yet then captain would again ask me to kidnap her. So, I waited for my captain's call.. Those two bastards were sitting besides me in a horrified way.

That entire night was passed in agony. 'What if her father refused to return money then again what my captain would ask me to do..??' These thoughts distressed me & the whole night was passed in confusion. Sleeping was away from my eyes. But luckily I was fortunate enough and God had bestowed his divine blessing towards me on that day. In the early morning, I got captain's call & as soon as I picked up, he said in a jolly tone,"Sanskar,our new deal has finalised as her father has already returned the amount." I was happy beyond words could define but suppressed it as I had to tell captain regarding her escaping.. But when I told captain regarding her evading, he was indifferent to it and said,"Let it go Sanskar! I have got my money and I don't have any acrimony with that girl." And he disconnected the call before I could tell him about Alex & Martin incident.

Now this was something unexpected for me. My captain never forgave a person for his irresponsibility but this time it was different. However, just like me, might be Alex and Martin were also fortunate that day. So, they eluded from punishment. Irrespective of Alex & Martin, I was happy as she was safe. Swara's chapter was closed in my life and finally we didn't meet again and she could lead her life peacefully away from this darkness....

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Thanks guys for all of your precious replys.. It means a lot to me. You all are my strength.. Do comment and enjoy the story..

Credit to: Kashis

Sunday, 1 May 2016

Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Move Apart) Episode 27

Posted by Saba Shiekh on May 01, 2016 with 26 comments
Sanskar's POV:
Fortunately my plan had worked. I was successful in evading her from that dark cellular jail. I was aware about the stubbornness of my target. She would definitely ask me many questions. So, I sealed her mouth & drove the car in a drastic speed. As soon as I reached the destination, I asked her to run away but stubborn girl! wasn't moving an inch & started firing her question bundles to me. She was looking at me with her puzzled eyes, like she was stuck up while playing the chess and didn't know her next move & was trying to figure out the plan of the opponent. Here the opponent was me, her kidnapper.

Every icy cold blade had passed through the bluish hot flames, I thought. I had terminated my innocence, extinguished my desire & frozen my sufferings. Nobody was able to crack the harden castle of haze which surrounded my heart. But her pure soul & sane eyes had some miracle on that heart. It was able to pierce that haze & created seeds of attraction towards her. Breaking my series of thoughts, she asked,"Why do you set me free?" Stubborn girl!, I knew it. Till I didn't answer her queries, she wouldn't move. Before I could say anything, she again asked,"You are my abductor, still you have always saved my life. I have met many people in my life but nobody is as pure as you." Did I hear correctly?? Was she saying that I was pure. This girl was impossible.

Normally in this situation, people run for their lives but this girl was enquiring about her abductor. Breaking my thoughts, she again yelled,"Don't present yourself insanely which you aren't." This time I resisted as I didn't want her to break the castle of my heart and also I didn't want her to pull towards darkness. So, I said,"Look! I am a slayer. And from where the evilness has failed, my wickedness has started. And ya! I am leaving you because you are innocent & genuinely don't have any information regarding your father." I didn't know what happened after that but she laughed continuously & said,"You can't even lie, Sanskar. You must have killed many innocent people in your life but this time I can see remorse in your eyes. Don't push yourself to darkness anymore..." I was surprised by her words.

How could a girl know me so perfectly in a short stay. Oops.!! That wasn't a heavenly stay rather an abductive stay.. She was so true in her words. I always killed people, might be sane or insane.. It never agitated me. Killing was like my hobby & passion. But this girl could create a remorse in an assassin's life. Might be because the way she resembled my mother & correlated me, others couldn't do that. Suddenly my eyes fell upon my watch & I saw the timing. I was running out of time. So, I suppressed all my thoughts and said,"Go away.. Run.. If you want to save yourself & before I will change my mind." Might be my words frightened her & she started moving.. I waited there till she would vanish from my sight.

Swara's POV:
Every illusion was an allure. His mysteriousness was attracting me towards him. I tried my level best to decode him. But every time he showed me his icy cold attitude. No person could be insane from birth, I thought. The person who saved my life, rescued me from molestation & over the top freed me from abduction, could never be an evil person. But when he said that he could change his mind, I was scared. Though I wasn't scared of him but I was scared of going to that dark world again. I wanted to forget this incident like a nightmare. So, I started moving but suddenly something struck into my mind & I stopped & looked back.

He was standing at that very position. As soon as I made eye contact with him, he lowered his gaze & I said,"Take care of your wound, Sanskar." He didn't utter a single word & looked at me surprisingly. I again asked with concern,"What if they will torture you after knowing that I have escaped from your clutches?" He was constantly looking at me & said in a very low tone,"Why do you care about me?" I said hurriedly without even thinking twice,"Because you are my saviour,Sanskar. You aren't evil. Still you have humanity inside your soul.I can't let them harm you for me, as I care for you the way you have cared for me." Might be he was stunned with my response & said,"They won't doubt me for your escaping. Captain trusts me. Now you go & don't look back. Otherwise I will definitely change my mind & again captivate you."

After listening to his words, I was relieved as he wouldn't be harmed. As soon as I started moving, I heard my name. I was shocked as who was taking my name at this late night. I turned back & found out Sanskar was uttering my name. For the first time, he said my name. I looked at him surprisingly & he said,"Swara! Don't drink alcohol. I don't know exactly about your problem but every problem has a solution and alcohol isn't the solution to your problem. Don't destroy your life. It is precious. May be not for you but for others." I was dazed with his response. How perfectly he had understood me. I never cared about my life but he showed me a ray of light.

I just waved smile to him & said,"Can I meet the real Sanskar again who will be away from darkness?" This time his expression had changed and he said,"Never! I am engulfed in darkness. You are light. Don't try to come near the darkness otherwise you will turn into ashes & now go & forget about these incidents." Before going, I said,"Life is too short,Sanskar. You never know about your unseen future."

Gradually I was rushing towards my secret place leaving my abductor behind & slowly he was moving away from my sight. I reached to my secret home and unlocked the door by the duplicate key which I had always kept beneath the flower vase outside my room for urgency. My landline was filled with messages from Ragini & my mom though some unknown numbers were also there. I opened the jacket and carefully placed it inside the wardrobe. I would always keep it safe as it was the memory of my abductor in the disguise of a saviour. I freshened up myself and searched my mobile. I didn't find it. Might be I had missed it in the pub on that day of the party where I was abducted.

Without wasting anytime, I dialed Ragini from my landline. As soon as the call was connected, she was saying in a horrified tone,"Swara! Where are you? You haven't called me from 10 days. I have also gone to your college. You have missed your classes as well. For heaven's sake, tell me the truth. Where are you in these days?" I lowered my tone & said,"I was kidnapped, Ragini. But now I am fine." I knew that she would be hell shocked by this news. So, I tried to calm down her & said,"Come to my secret place & we will talk. Don't tell my mom about it as you know that she is ignorant about this location and my staying." She nodded yes & said,"I am reaching in 15 minutes." & the call was disconnected.

I rested my head on the pillow & thought,"Life is certainly uncertain. It puts you in the most unpredictable & unforeseen situations. No situation is perfect but every situation has an expiry date & it will perish on its own." Before moving apart, sanskar had given me a cause to live, to embrace my life with joy. I closed my eyes and his face had flashed back in my memory lane. A curvy smile appeared in my face & I promised him to endure the uncertain life with maturity...
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Guys! Thanks for your responses. We have reached the destination of season-1 of this ff. Do you want me to continue with season-2. If you will love to read then I will write.. Do give your views & criticism. Thanks to everyone who are part of this swasan journey...

Credit to: Kashis

Saturday, 30 April 2016

Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Stormy Night) Episode 26

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 30, 2016 with 13 comments
Swara's POV:
Just like any other day, my abductor entered into the room. Wearing a mask on face, he was looking ferocious. At once, my eyes fell upon his hands. Bloods were clotted there. Might be he had killed someone & forgotten to wash his hands. Just then, his warnings to kill my mom flashed back in my thoughts. What if he had killed my mother & these blood clots were symbolized the extremity of his ruthlessness. I shouted in rage,"You have a problem with my so called father still you have kidnapped me. But why the hell have you killed my mother?" I woke up from bed and grabbed his hands. As soon as I touched his hands, he jerked and said,"Your mother is fine." When I listened about the safety of my mother, I was relieved. I didn't know why I trusted him. Might be though he was my abductor, but he never lied to me & in fact saved me from those bloody morons. Then why his hands were filled with blood marks??

I was going to ask him this question, when he commanded,"Hey you! Wrap up yourself with the jacket. You need to get out of my room." I was confused after hearing his last sentence. Was he again taking me to that cellular jail?? That mere thought created severe deadly sensations through out my body. I was unable to move from my place after remembering the brutality I had faced in that place. Breaking my thoughts, he shouted,"Fast! We don't have time. It's for your good only." For a few seconds, I was numbed by his reaction. It was for my good... It meant I wasn't going to cellular jail, I thought.

But to confirm it, I grabbed his hand & when I was going to ask him about this, he yelled in pain. Suddenly I sensed the wound in his hand & bloods rushed out from that wound & clotted there. I left his hand & asked in concerned tone,"Hey! I am sorry. Does it hurt a lot?" He wasn't uttering a single word. The ferocious, invincible slayer was standing numbly. Might be he didn't expect this attitude from me. But he was my saviour, how could I ignore his pain? I took the first aid kit from the drawer of the table & started dressing his wounds. When I was applying ointment to it, he again jerked his hand & said,"I don't have whole night with me to spare for you. Do as I have instructed. Otherwise it will be late." This time his voice sounded a deep concern & care for me.

I could never decode this mysterious man. I covered myself with jacket & he dragged me to the cellular jail, which was unexpected for me. Before a few minutes, he was showering his concerns towards me but now again he was pushing me to that cruelty. Before I could ask him anything, he handed over a sprayer to me & said,"Listen to me carefully! When any person will come closure to you here in this jail, spray it on his face. Rest I will take care of." While he was leaving, I shouted,"Sanskar! Don't leave me. I am scared. Please don't keep me here." He stopped & turned towards me & said,"Don't worry! I promise, nobody can harm you. I am always near you. Just trust me." & after saying this he went away.

His words were buzzing in my eardrums. 'Trusting a slayer, a kidnapper...'Oh!! Was that possible? For me it was yes! I trusted him unconditionally. Even if I was frightened, still my heart was conveying a message to trust him & he would definitely save me from any unfortunate accident.

Sanskar's POV:
The storm had already unreleased. Earlier I was the controller of the wind system, which surrounded us. But no longer this phenomenon held true. I had to rotate the directions of winds towards my favour. After all being a slayer, this wasn't a very difficult task for me, though risk was involved.

As soon as I entered the room, she asked me worriedly about her mother. After listening about the fineness regarding her mother, she again asked me about the blood marks. Smart & courageous girl!! Even after being abducted, she had the capacity to fire questions to his kidnapper. I just ignored her questions as I didn't have much time to save her. But the fact was that every time I saw her, my heart skipped a bit from its original place. I directed her to cover herself with the jacket but she was indulged in her own world. I again reminded her to fasten the work but suddenly she grabbed my hand where I had hurt myself. The way she cared for me & dressed those wounds, I fell for her again. 'Care for a slayer', sounded notorious. But yes! She was different. She had shown concern for that wound just like she was feeling the pain even though the cut marks were present in my hand.

But I jerked my hand after remembering our existence & the wide gulf present in between us. As my face was covered with mask, so undoubtedly she couldn't recognize the distress brewing in my heart through my facial expression. I took her to the cellular jail. Though I knew that she would be scared in that place, but I had no other option left with me. To save her, I had to keep her in that cellular jail. As expected, she pleaded me not to leave her. I handed over the sprayer & assured her safety & left that place.

Now it was the time to let the work rolled on. I called those bloody morons Alex & Martin to take care of her till tomorrow. As soon as they reached to me, I said,"Look! Tomorrow is her last day here in this place. After getting the final outcome from her father, we will decide about her fate. Till then, keep an eye on her & I am going to handle some other works." After saying so, I left the place. I knew that after my leaving, those bastards would try to harass her & exactly the same thing I wanted. So, I gave her the sprayer. The foams in the sprayer could make anybody unconscious within a fraction of seconds. After their unconsciousness, we could escape & blame wouldn't come to my head. By this I could also safely escape her from this place without taking any culpability. However I wouldn't leave this dark world for her safety. If I would leave & the plan wouldn't work then her life would be at stake. So, I couldn't take a chance while coming to her safety & hid out there itself out of anybody's sight.

Swara's POV:
Though he left me there in that cellular jail, still he didn't chain me. My hands were unchained. I looked at the sprayer & remembered his words carefully. Just then I heard a bang on the door & after ages I saw those two bastards approaching towards me. I was hell scared & my brain had stopped from functioning. But my heart was giving me enough courage to tackle them as I knew that sanskar would save me if anything went wrong. They were drinking alcohols & watching me with their insane luring eyes. One of them came towards me & touched my face inappropriately & said,"Your saviour has ordered us to keep an eye on you. Today nobody can save you from our clutches." & he laughed insanely. I was again shocked after listening to his words. Sanskar had sent them to me. It couldn't be true, my mind assured me. He cared for me. He knew about those bastards. Then why the hell would he send these morons to me??I shouted in pain,"You liar.. Back off."

Just then, another man also came near me & kept his hand on my shoulder & said, "Darling, he has left you with us for tonight. Now before your death on tomorrow morning, you will fulfill our desires and our revenge for the prior failure will be completed." Though I was fearful, I remembered about Sanskar & his words & gathered confidence & sprinkled that sprayer on their faces. Within a few moments, they fell on ground & at once I saw my abductor, sanskar was approaching towards me & he said,"Get up! We need to leave from here." He told in a very commanding tone which I couldn't object. Before leaving he spreaded some alcohols on the floor & kicked those two persons in rage.

He held my hands strongly & dragged me outside the jail. Before I could ask him anything, he covered my mouth with a tape & sealed it. I was now present inside a car. After so many days, I was viewing the calm night. Its shooting breeze was touching my face which gave me relaxation. The car was moving in a herculean speed & I was viewing sanskar in a surprised look. He was totally a mystery for me. Still I felt safe with his presence. My thoughts were broken down when the car was halted. He opened the door of car & dragged me outside of it & said,"Run.. Don't look back. You will be safe then." I was shocked with his behavior & found myself standing nearer to my secret place. As my mouth was sealed, I created some buzzing sound and he opened the seal of my mouth. I said hurriedly," You know about my secret place, right. That day also you have dropped me here." He nodded & said,"Don't waste your time here & run." & he was moving towards his car & I was unable to move from that place after viewing his shocking behaviour.. The growing storm had already created its impact in our lives and like a distant viewer, I was standing & trying to solve the puzzling attitude of my kidnapper....


Credit to:Kashis

Friday, 29 April 2016

Swasan ff: An Incomplete Scrapbook (Either her or me) Episode 25

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 29, 2016 with 13 comments
Sanskar's POV:
Twilight had already set in. The sun had vanished from the horizon and the bluish hazy moon light was reflecting inside the terrace through the broken glass ceiling. But I was always engulfed with the ever lasting darkness like the cobwebbed clouds covered the shining moon beneath them. My target was the only ray of faint moonlight in my life which managed to escape the twisted webs of clouds & spreaded a feeble ray of smile deep inside the corner of my face. However after knowing about her real existence, her dusky shadow & reflection conferred mayhem in my heart & again pushed me to the lap of obscurity.

Just then, my phone buzzed & the caller ID was reflecting the name of captain. I was quite sure about the reason of his calling. He must had called me to know about the outcome of the questionnaire session. And I was so correct. As soon as I picked up the call, he asked,"What is the current update about your target? Is there any progress?" I just tried to answer normally & said,"Yes, captain! She doesn't know much about her parents & especially she has very less connection with her dad as her parents aren't her real parents." And to my surprise, captain didn't enquiry much regarding this and asked,"Any more secrets have you able to pour out from her mouth regarding her father's business?" I just nodded 'No' & said,"She doesn't know anything about his father's hideout location & also doesn't possess much knowledge regarding his illegal business." At once my captain said from the other side,"But I have a good news for you,Sanskar." I thought that might be captain wasn't much interested to know about her private life and he was totally interested to perceive the truth regarding her father to collect the money. So, I didn't tell captain regarding my connection with her as it would portray me weak in front of captain.

Captain was also right at his own place. Why the hell would he be interested to know regarding her? She was only a mere target for him but unfortunately she was someone precious for me. Breaking my thoughts, captain was saying,"Are you listening, Sanskar?" I said," yes! What is the good news?" Captain said in a satisfied tone,"Shekhar Suryavansi has agreed to give us money after hearing about his daughter. If he will give us money till tomorrow then you will spare his daughter otherwise you know what you have to do with her." I was shaken after hearing this.. What if Shekhar Suryavansi denied to give the money, then what would happen with her?? In anyways, tomorrow was her last day with me. Either alive or dead!! To confirm my thoughts, I asked to captain," If that person refused to pay the whole amount then, what would we do?" My captain said hastily,"I have to attain the call of another dealer. We will talk about it later." & the call was disconnected.

"Be prepared to kill her, sanskar!", my mind was giving me commands as his father didn't love her & why would he compensate the whole amount tomorrow for her safety? I didn't know my relation with her & I didn't want to accept that sisterly relation. My head was jammed but yes! My heart was interested to see a brief glimpse of her as tomorrow would be uncertain. What havoc it would have planned for our lives, I was ignorant about that. So,I was rushing towards my room to imprint her angelic face in my vision forever.

Swara's POV:
Many hours had passed when I had met my abductor lastly. He had gone from here with rage. 'Had he gone to kill my mom? But I had given all the correct answers. Then why didn't he come to meet me?' My mind was agitated & surrounded with many malevolent sensations. However I wasn't in a position to do anything. The pain in legs was reducing and the cramps & swells were also diminishing. I grabbed the lotion from the table & applied it on my legs to lessen the pain. So that, I might able to run from here. I didn't know when the storm would depart from our lives.. Would I able to see my mom again? I remembered about her care & drops of tears were filled in my eyes. Just then, I heard the opening sound of the door & desperately waited to see the face of my abductor to ask him about my mother & her safety.

Sanskar's POV:
When I was rushing towards my room, again my phone ringed & I saw the caller ID. It was Laksh. I wasn't sure about the cause of his calling. So, I picked up the call & said,"Yes laksh! Anything urgent? Why do you call me now as it isn't your usual time of calling..?" Cutting my words, he said,"Yes sanskar! It's urgent. Listen to me carefully." I said,"Tell me Laksh, what is the matter?" He said in a worried tone,"Swara is a patient of Alcoholic Neuropathy. You must have remembered sanskar, I have sent her reports for further examination & today I have got some of the results of those reports." Now this news was like a violent gust of wind explosion in my life. I was too busy in other works that I was totally forgotten about those reports. I asked laksh anxiously,"Tell me about its symptoms & about its cure, laksh." He told me in a desperate tone,"Sanskar, there are many symptoms of this disease. Like numbness, tingling, movement disorders, dizziness, vomiting, nausea, sexual dysfunction etc.. And excess intake of alcohol can also lead to death." Suddenly I reacted after listening the word 'death',"No, laksh! It can't be true. He tried to calm down me & said," Control yourself sanskar! You have to face lots more upcoming storms." I couldn't understand about his last sentence & asked,"What exactly do you want to convey, Laksh?"

He said me in a composed tone,"Sanskar, I am successful in tracing the location of Swara's father. But the boys of captain don't want to spare her even after getting the money. They are planning to kill her as according to them if we leave her, then she may disclose regarding us to police & our entire existence will be at stake. Tomorrow is that deciding day, Sanskar!" Even before I could ask further questions to him, he disconnected the call by saying someone's arrival there. I couldn't call him now & even if I called him, Laksh couldn't give me any information in the presence of someone.

Captain's call was flashed back in my mind. Not only that call but also her pain, sufferings & disease agitated my thought. Now it didn't matter what was my relationship with her. I only cared for her. That much I remembered & the girl who resembled my mother, I couldn't let her die; not even in my hands or else from other's bullets. I totally obliviated about her connection with Mayuri. As it wasn't in her control to take birth from a bitch's womb. She was a pure soul which mattered the most to me on this time. But how would I save her from this dark world? Saving her meant to push myself to danger. Might be my life would be extinguished forever in the hands of my clan. It was either her or me???


Credit to: Kashis

Thursday, 28 April 2016

Swasan ff: An Incomplete Scrapbook (Revelation Of Past) Episode 24

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 28, 2016 with 15 comments
Sanskar's POV:
I left my room to avoid her intense gaze. The way she was looking at me, made me powerless in front of her. I was struggling between two extremes. One side was my captain & his orders, which needed to be followed & then on the other side was my growing feelings towards her which didn't want to understand the situations & just pondered about her. I went to the terrace & sat there to think about my next move. Just then my captain called me & said,"Sanskar, I have a good news to share with you. My boys have traced the location of Shekhar Suryavansi. Today itself they are going to confront him. Is there any improvement from your side?" My head was jammed. I didn't know what to answer to my captain. So, I just tried to control the situation and said," I am just going to vent out secrets from her mouth. I have stopped in the terrace to attain your call." I lied to my captain as I hadn't planned anything to confront her now. But I had to do this otherwise my captain might transfer this target to someone else. Perhaps my captain was happy after getting the hideout location of Shekhar Suryavansi. So, he didn't express any dissatisfaction about my work and told me to fasten the process & cut the call.

This call of captain was like an ultimatum for me. I had to vent out truth from her mouth. I didn't have much time left in my hand. As after getting Shekhar Suryavansi, this target was worthless for us. And after a target was useless for us, then anything could happen with her. Anything meant anything. And death would be the final end. Though I was a slayer but for the first time, I was scared.. Scared to torture her.. What if anything would happen to her as she was not completely recovered from the illness. Could I forgive myself if something would happen with her due to me?? I guessed NO. But obeying the order of captain was also a necessity. Her innocent looks surrounded my entire brain and I couldn't come out of her as if her thoughts were behaving like a protective cover for a slayer to avoid the wrong doings. But while thinking about her, I got the solution to my helplessness. I knew how stubborn she was. She wouldn't tell anything easily & also she wasn't scared of death. Even I couldn't think about torturing her. However, she was very fond of her mother. My work would be done if I was able to frightened her in the name of her mother.

I prepared myself to confront her. I covered my face with mask so that she couldn't detect my facial expressions & I could remain tough in front of her by hiding my expressions behind the mask. As soon as I entered the room, I saw the food plates were empty. I felt happy as she would recover early but to suppress my feelings, I shouted on her & distracted her thoughts towards fear. I filled the bullets in revolver in front of her to heighten her fear. As soon as I stated to kill her mother for her wrong reply, I could sense her changing facial expressions.. She was really very worried for her mother. I also tried my level best to control my feelings towards her & behaved like a ruthless slayer. However when she told the true identity of Mrs Annapurna Suryavansi as her foster mother, I was hell shocked. I was unable to suppress my curiosity & asked about her real parents desperately. She uttered the name of Shomi Suryavansi as her real mother. I didn't know who was that lady but I felt sorry for my target when I came to know that her real mother abandoned her. I felt disturbed by thinking about her pain, suffering and grief which she had faced through out her life. But I was present here as a slayer and humanity couldn't be expected from me at that time. So, to complete my enquire process, I opened my phone & showed her the photograph of Mayuri. But she recognized her as Shomi Suryavansi. This was again a blast for me to accept this truth. My head was filled with many thoughts & I couldn't continue the questionnaire session. I left the room in rage while ignoring her talks to spare her mom.

I tried to connect all the dots to solve this mystery. If that photograph was of Shomi Suryavansi, then who was Mayuri? Why did she change her name or else were they twins? Oh god! My mind would burst while solving this mystery. I tried to recall what exactly she told about Mayuri.. 'Mayuri had eloped with his boyfriend', this line was beating inside my eardrums. I tried to relate the incidents of Mayuri, which I knew. When I was in my teenage, I first time saw her with my father in a lavish party.

My father, Ram Pradesh Bijlani, was a very rich & reputed person in the society. I saw both my father & Mayuri were roaming in the party cozily. I was a teenager that time. So, I couldn't detect anything wrong with the happenings. But my mother, Sujata Bijlani, wasn't at all comfortable with this. I tried to convince my mother to calm down but still I remembered her worried face when she saw my father & Mayuri together. Though that party was just a beginning for the increasing relationship of Mayuri with my family but it had already sowed the seeds of havoc & destruction in my family. Many nights had passed when I didn't find my father at home. But the situation was worsened on the date of my parent's anniversary. On that day also I didn't find my father at home & my mother celebrated the anniversary with his photograph. When I confronted this with my father, he gave the excuses of some work pressure. I saw my mom had faced many sleepless nights & sobbed inside the corner of the room. But how many days would she control this pain & sufferings inside her mind? So, one day when she confronted regarding this with my father, they had a big quarrel. My mom also accused him of having an affair with Mayuri & also exposed regarding his illegal extortion business. Then exactly what happened, I didn't know but my father was imprisoned & his illegal business was exposed & my mother wanted me not to be like my father. After this incident also, I saw Mayuri 2-3 times outside my home.

All these happenings indicated that my target was the offspring of my father and Mayuri. My target symbolized the illegal affair of these two unholy souls. My mother was so true. I lost my family because of that lady. I banged on the door at rage. My target's talks regarding her real mother were coming to my brain. It was clear that Mayuri and Shomi was one person & she tried to elope with my father which my mother came to know eventually.

But when I recently met Mayuri in a pub, she had told me about her victimhood and also emphasized regarding her innocence. It meant that bitch had lied to me. I was enraged and furious. I would definitely kill her once I found out her again. That bitch destroyed my family and also left her child. That child was none other than my target. Wait.. Wait.. Sanskar, it meant she was your half-sister. Sister! Huh! She was the child of impure criminals. She resembled like my mother but alas! This was her real identity. I had to stop my feelings for her. I couldn't care for her after knowing the truth. I hate her. Every time I would see her, her face would remember me about the grief faced by my mother.

I hit my hand on the glass ceilings & drops of blood rushed out from my hand. But it didn't pain me & also I was not at all worried for this pain. The real pain was going inside my mind and heart. My feelings for her was uncontrollable. But Sanskar; was this a sisterly feelings?? 'No', I shouted.. I didn't feel anything for her. However in which ever way I might try, but the truth was that I cared for her and definitely it wasn't a sisterly feelings.. Then what was that? I couldn't answer.. I shouted in pain,"Why god! Why? You have given me all pains in my life. When I have lost my mom, I have turned to a slayer which my mom hasn't at all desired for me. I have tried to believe in your existence when I have found the resemblance of my target with my mother.. But again you have crushed my feelings and blown them on air."

Why god! If you weren't interested to give me happiness, then why were you showing a little bit ray of light to me? I hit my hand on the glass ceilings again & again till all the glasses weren't broken down. Bloods were rushing out of my hand but who cared for this pain?, when my entire life was engulfed in pain & I was just a mere toy in the hand of sufferings.

Credit to:Kashis

Tuesday, 26 April 2016

Swasan ff: An Incomplete Scrapbook (Stressful Questionnaires) Episode 23

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 26, 2016 with 16 comments
Swara's POV:
As soon as he left the room, my mind was filled with his thoughts. But after so much struggle with my mind also, I couldn't get much about the intentions of my abductor, Sanskar. So, I gave up thinking about his perception. One thing, I was clear about him was that he wouldn't molest me & I was safe here until and unless I didn't try to escape. I wasn't also in a position to run away. Finally I was left with one last option to stay here & obey the orders of my kidnapper. At once my eyes fell upon the food plates & medicines. The ruthless facial expression of my kidnapper flashed back in my mind & how had he instructed me to take these stuffs?.. Though I wasn't bound to obey his orders but I knew that if I wouldn't follow his orders, then he could create havoc in my life. But again I was confirmed regarding his care towards me. It was his care which forced me to take food. I wasn't scared of death but still I didn't want to hurt his sentiments & care towards me even if he was my kidnapper. Many people hurt me in my life but only some people cared for me. Except my mom and ragini, he was the person who saved my life even after being my abductor. So, I owed to him & I couldn't disrespect his care by rejecting the food stuffs & medicines. So, I consumed all the food stuffs & medicines. Life was never like a peaceful happening for me but for the first time I was taking care of my life for other's happiness.. Oops.., for my kidnapper's happiness. Sounds strange!! But ya this was life. You could never imagine about the future but all I could say that I was happy to give him happiness as a pay back only.....

So many minutes had passed when he left me inside this room.I was still lying on bed. My health condition was gradually improving. How many days had passed till now, I didn't know but still I was wearing the same costume along with a jacket. I knew that I was covered with a jacket but I hadn't earlier focused on it. It wasn't my jacket. It meant he had covered me with this jacket. A faint smile again emerged in my face after counting the humanities present inside him.

I found a photograph present inside the pocket of jacket. I took out that picture from the pocket & saw it. In that picture, a boy of age approx 15 years & a lady were present. But the picture was torn, like some one had cut the picture and perhaps some other person might had present in that picture as well. I saw the picture in concentration & found out the similarities of physique of my kidnapper with that of 15 years old boy presented in the picture. Might be the boy who was present in the picture was sanskar, my abductor & the lady might be his mother or some other relative, I guessed. Then why the picture was torn?? I didn't know. I was just trying to solve this puzzle, when I heard the sound of opening of door & I hid the picture inside the pocket of the jacket. I was looking towards the door to know about the identity of the person.

It was none other than Sanskar. But again he was covered with his black covered mask.! Strange fellow, I thought! Earlier I hadn't seen his face so, he covered his face with mask but after revelation of his face, I already knew about his identity. Then again why had he covered his face with that mask?? Huh! This unpredictable man was getting into my nerves.

Breaking my series of thoughts, he yelled sarcastically,"Oh! Out of fear you have taken all your foods & medicines.. Nice... Follow my orders like this & you will be safe till then.." After listening to him, I cursed myself for taking those foods.. "Fear!!" Stupid man... I wasn't feared about the upcoming storm as my life didn't pass with peaceful nights. And he was mocking with me in the name of fear. Could he believe that I had taken food for his happiness..., I guessed No.. So, I stopped myself from uttering a single word.

He kept his revolver on the table and dragged the chair towards me & spoke,"Hey!! You.... Now get up. Enough rest you have taken.. Don't expect humanity from a slayer and also I guess, you have already sharpened your brain to answer my queries.." After saying these things, he laughed perilously. As soon as I heard his laugh, I thought that he wasn't the same sanskar who cared for me.. Though I couldn't see his facial expression, but I could bet that he was the earlier Sanskar who had met me in the dark cellular jail, not the sanskar who had cared for me.

Indeed humanity from an abductor couldn't be imagined. He took the bullets & loaded it in the revolver & rotated it and said,"Keep something straight in mind.. Don't try to double cross me, otherwise you know how dangerous I am! And yes! I won't kill you as you are indifferent to death, but perhaps the same doesn't go with your mom..." Now I was frightened due to the terror he had implemented in my mind by taking the name of my mother. Though he wasn't a molester, but still he was a slayer. He had already killed a person in the dark cellular jail & killing my mom... wasn't at all difficult for him. I couldn't think more about it & just nodded to him to show my acceptance towards his conditions..

He asked me tauntingly," So, Mr. Shekhar Suryavansi isn't your real father & you don't know about his illegal business; right." I just nodded my head as I didn't want to take the name of that person again due to whom I was facing this situation. He again started,"Miss Annapurna Suryavansi is your real mother. So you care for her; not for your foster father as he isn't your biological father; right?" Now I couldn't control my rage as who was he to ask me about my private life & point towards my mother..? So, I yelled,"Hey! That's none of your business!!" The moment I shouted, he pointed the revolver towards my head & said cruelly,"You aren't in a position to question my authority. Perhaps you have forgotten about my condition.. Your mother....." & he didn't complete the last sentence & laughed dangerously.

His statements forced me to obey him for my mother's safety & I said politely with controlling my rage,"Mrs. Annapurna Suryavansi is also my foster mother. But she always loves me unlike my father who always tortures me." Though his facial expression wasn't visible but I could bet that he was shocked after hearing my reply. And I was so correct.. This time he asked me curiously,"Then who the hell are your real parents?" I kept numb as I, myself didn't know the exact answer to this question. He dragged the chair towards me & showed the revolver to me..., like he was giving me warning to speak up or else he could kill my mom. I slowly said,"I don't know about my father but Miss. Shomi Suryavansi is my real mother." And as expected, he asked me about Shomi Suryavansi.. Though I didn't know details regarding her, yet I heard about her from my grandfather. I told him,"I don't know much about her but she was my mom's sister. She has eloped with his boyfriend after giving birth to me & abandoned me. I have heard all these things from my grandfather.. Please spare my mom.. She is a nice women & doesn't harm anybody." I begged request to spare my mother.

I didn't know what happened to him but he seemed disturbed & said," I hope you are saying the truth.. If I find out any false statements in your reply, then I won't spare your mom." And by saying so, he opened his mobile & showed a pictograph to me & asked," Do you know her? And yes! Don't lie by saying you don't know her. As I have found this photograph in your home only." Now I was confirmed that indeed he had dropped me to my secret place on that day when I was severely drunk. Breaking my thoughts, he shouted,"Answer me! What are you thinking? Shall I need to remember repeatedly regarding the danger on your mom?" Again he made be scared by taking my mom's name. So,I said,"She is my real mother who has left me earlier." To my surprise, he was asking,"Are you saying that Mayuri is your real mother?" I replied back,"Who is Mayuri, I don't know.. The picture is of Shomi Suryavansi, my real mother..." He again asked me to see the picture properly & then reply. I confirmed him about the correctness of my answer. At once I didn't know what happened to him but he left the room in rage & didn't pay heed to my talks to spare my mom..

Credit to:Kashis

Wednesday, 13 April 2016

Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Slayer Vs Saviour) Episode 22

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 13, 2016 with 19 comments
Swara's POV:
As soon as I woke up, I found myself on a bed of a room. This room didn't look like dark cellular jail. At once, the flashbacks of dark cellular jail came into my mind. The incidents of those two morons agitated my thoughts. They had tried to molest me. Without wasting a second, I looked at myself from head to toe. My dress was intact with my body except the back side which was torn a bit. I was also covered with a jacket. It meant my virginity was untouched. But who had saved me? I tried to recall the incidents. However I could only remember up to my calling of my abductor. I had recalled that I had shouted his name at the top of my voice. But then what had happened, I couldn't remember. The more I tried to remind, my head pained a lot like a backfire effect. However after so much struggle with my mind, I was confirmed that indeed sanskar, my kidnapper had saved me from molestation. His words against molestation were beating in my eardrums. Earlier he had clearly clarified that he was an assassin but not a molester. But why did he save me? I didn't know and also I didn't want to explore its causes.

I tried to get up from my place to run away as I was unchained now. But my legs had swelled up & cramps were also visible. So, I couldn't stand up properly. I rubbed my legs to reduce the pain & at once I noticed the smell of lotion that was applied on my legs. I was hell shocked. The smell of the lotion was exactly the same like my medicine which I used to reduce the cramps & swells. But where did it come from? Just then my eyes fell upon the table where some objects were kept. That table was placed near to the bed. So, I extended my hands & held those objects. But those were not mere objects rather those were my medicines. What the hell? Again I was surprised. Who had brought this? How did someone know about my medicines? Exactly the same medicines with same compositions... Was I in heaven or hell? As only miracles had happened there. I couldn't get a single bit of answer to my queries.

I remembered about Ragini & my mom, Annapurna Suryavansi. Were they worried about me? Might be mom wouldn't be that much worried for me as I had told her about my exams, backlogs & busy schedules. But I hadn't told anything to Ragini. After that birthday incident, I hadn't even contacted her. Till now,I had never disappeared from her sight for so many days without informing her. This was happening for the first time. Was she searching for me? Had she complained any missing complaint about me in police station? All these queries agitated my thoughts but I couldn't get any proper answers to my questions. I wept silently while remembering about Ragini & my mom.

How many days were passed even I didn't know that. My future was totally uncertain. Was I able to see Ragini & my mom ever in my life? Could they find me? Were they able to know about me & the incidents happened with me? How would Ragini react when she would come to know about this molestation incident? As soon as the molestation word came to my mind, again those incidents flashed back on my memory. Unknowingly I shouted loudly," Don't come close to me. Back off ... Go away.." I closed my eyes when I heard the opening sound of the door. Might be they again came to harass me...

Just then I felt the touch of a palm on my mouth & heard someone's voice like,"Shh! Shh! Don't worry. You are safe. Nobody will harm you.." That sound was similar to the sound of my kidnapper. I slowly opened my eyes & saw a person was standing in front of me. I had never seen this face before. But his physique was matching with my kidnapper. Suddenly I asked him,"Are you Sanskar?" He jerked his hand from my mouth & said,"It's none of your business." I felt coldness in his voice. Though I had never seen his face before, but due to his voice & the way of his answering, I was confirmed that indeed he was sanskar. Breaking my thoughts, he said,"Don't try to explore about me. I won't harass you. You are safe here till you don't try to escape.." I couldn't believe his words.. How exactly could he know about my thoughts? And the way, he said that he wouldn't harass me, confirmed that he was Sanskar only as the same statement he had also said earlier to me.. It meant, I was safe & wasn't raped due to him only. He must had been saved me from those bastards. I didn't know how to express my gratitude to him.. I said,"You have saved me,right. Then why do you kidnap me? Who are you? A saviour or an abductor or simply a ruthless cold murderer?" Without making any eye contact with me, he threw the lotion on the bed & said,"Apply it on your cramps." I didn't understand this person. On one side, he had saved me and also was caring for me but on the other side, he was a killer, a slayer & a kidnapper.. I was irritated with his dual nature & yelled,"Where have you got these medicines? Why do you care for me? Who has told you about my disease?" This time he came close to me & gave me a serious expression & said pitilessly,"You aren't in a position to ask me questions. I will question & you will answer. However now do as I have said. Apply this lotion & yes! Don't give your tiny brain any burden of thinking about me. Give it a little bit of rest as you have to use this brain while answering my queries & for your inner peace of mind, just keep it straight on your brain that I am a slayer, not a saviour. But I can differentiate between murdering and raping. But trust me! I won't spare you if you will lie while answering to my queries & also I won't think twice before killing you, if you will even think of escaping from my clutches."

I was speechless & scared after listening to his answers. I wasn't frightened due to death rather I was fearful after viewing his cold, cruel & heartless expressions. Just then he banged the door & left the room. My thoughts were mixed with fear, safety & security feelings. Though I couldn't understand him, still I felt safe in the room. At least he was truthful, that much I could say. In the outside world, people were moving in the mask of innocence while cruelty was infused in their souls but he was honest. Though he was my kidnapper, still I couldn't stop my feelings from appreciating him.. I wasn't molested due to him only. A feeble smile approached in my face while I was remembering his care for me a while ago. Though he was merciless still I found out a little care for me in his heart. Could anyone imagine humanity from an abductor? I guessed, "NO" but in my case it was true..

While I was thinking about him, again the door opened & he came inside by holding a food plate in his hand. He kept it on the table & I looked at him admirably. "Who are you Sanskar? A devil or an angel? Why are you so much mysterious? If you are a slayer, then from where do you learn this humanity? " I was thinking about these things. But my series of thoughts were broken down when he said,"Stop ogling me! I am not a saviour. Just remember that I am a murderer & I don't leave my task incomplete. Now eat these foods & have this medicine & take some rest. I will again come to start the questionnaire session..and yes! Don't try to escape." & he gave me some tablets in my hand while giving me a serious look, like he was emphasizing me to take those medicines. He left the room & my expressions were blank while viewing him going.

Sanskar's POV:
I was disturbed after talking with captain. My work didn't satisfy him. He was saying truth. This girl was affecting me too much. But if he would transfer this target from me, then she would come under big trouble. Suddenly my heart was asking,"Is she in less trouble due to you?" I couldn't answer to my heart. But at least I knew that, with me she would be safe from molestation. I was encircled with mixed feelings. On one side was my profession & the other side was my feelings. Choosing one out of these two would be an herculean task. I tried to signify the repercussions of every aspects. "Is my feelings for her right? Won't this feeling create more trouble in her life?" These questions blocked my head from functioning. However after so much struggle between mind & heart, I concluded that I was a slayer only. These feelings were unsuitable in the life of an assassin. I was engulfed completely in darkness & I couldn't come out of it. I didn't want to push her to darkness due to my bloody feelings. I stopped admiring her & tried to get back to the earlier version of ruthless, fearless slayer, Sanskar Maheswari.

Just then I heard her shouting. I rushed to the room to check her. She was badly affected due to that molestation incident. So, I assured her regarding her safety. But unlike my expectation, she recognized me even after seeing me for the first time. Smart girl!! As I wasn't wearing any mask now, so I tried to control my feelings for her & also tried to hide my concerns for her through my bold & merciless facial expression. I passed the lotion to her as it was mandatory for her cure. But stubborn girl was firing her questions to me, like she had forgotten that she was kidnapped. However when she asked me about my identity of being a slayer or saviour, I, myself was confused too. I couldn't personify myself. Then what answer would I give to her? Suddenly my captain's words popped up in my mind & I controlled my emotions & said to her clearly that I was indeed a slayer, not a saviour. By looking at her fearful facial expression, I was pretty sure that I was able to imprint a fare idea about my profession in her mind.

Whatever I might do or in whatever way I might try to hide my feelings, but the fact was that I cared for her.. I had to give her medicines as per Laksh's instructions. I was so helpless in front of situations that I was agitated.. I banged the door in rage & went to bring food for her. I brought fruits & foods for her and again entered in the room. This time she was looking at me with a delightful sight. These expressions of her were making me vulnerable in front of her. I was a slayer but how was she able to observe me admirably without any fear in her eyes. These happenings were not good for my profession. So, I again emphasized myself as a slayer in front of her.. So that, she could stop showing her gratification towards me. I asked her to take food & medicines & left the room. As if I would stay there for more time, then I could feel helpless in front of her. Helplessness in front of a target was a biggest tragedy to happen..

Credit to: Kashis

I'm Hope Ep 22

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 13, 2016 with 11 comments
The first rain drop fell on his head, he uplifted his face then looked the sky which was crowded by dark clouds. The drizzling of bliss was steering him something which was completely concealed from his sight.

"rain... Oh shit! Oh no... Should I become happy?.... Oh, at least not today?" When Umeed came out and saw the raindrops were falling on him, the sudden feelings attacked her.

She was in shady lane, so she was safe but not her groom offcourse, specially in that roofless car.

"Oh raining... I didn't like it before but these cold drops are such a bliss, especially on this day which is really special for me. Oh God.... It's really like your blessing, I'm grateful to you..." When he lifted up his head and the raindrop was fallen in his eye, that time his heart bowed down to his creator.

"you're first who saw me in this bridal attire" she shouted from the shade.

"Oh let me capture this moment" he didn't step towards her, just murmured loudly while leaning  against the door of his car.

"you're using camera in this wetly weather?" She shouted with amusement.

"who said you, I've camera to capture this moment" he exclaimed while putting his palms on his eyes to see her more clearly in the mist of rain.

Initially, she didn't understand his words but after a while, she got him when he starred her with all of his affection.

He purchased the umbrella from a street boy with a pair of jasmine's bangles.

"Our Pakistani bridals are incomplete with these" at the next moment, he climbed stairs to reach this shady side where she was standing.

"without gajray?" She scowled her brow while asking the question that's answer she was already known.

"hmm," he mumbled during taking his one hand in his hand. He was holding an umbrella in one hand, they were stepping towards his car.

Her heart was trembling in the cage of her chest when he touched her wrist. Because of wetting in rain, his hand was completely cold but her hand was warm because of warm temperature of the parlor.

The perfect combination of coldness and warmness between the bangle of jasmine was acquiring each others, slowly but abruptly.

"oh I'm not good in that" he was trying hard to make her wear the bangle with one hand.

"why are you doing this? I can wear it with myself" they came near the car when she said.

"No way. I love to do it" his voice was busy, unaware of those emotions which were making a place in her heart by his touch.

"why is he doing this? He shouldn't do at least... Is he  seeking the opportunity to touch me" many questions raised in her heart at once?

She weighed his face expression which was completely naive, just busy with her hands and bangles. He had done with one hand then he held another one, that moment, exactly that moment he boggled with some sudden feelings.

She looked into his innocent eyes which were completely unaware of conflict of her heart, he was doing this just for showing some friendly rights on his wife, or should say his bride.

His touch was prevailing her heart, he forgot to hold the umbrella, there was drizzling which was touching their heads.

Some moments were passed between them, both froze on their position while the raindrops were still touching their bodies.

"now I should call Bhai to pick me" she hardly composed herself then murmured, the silence broke up by her melodious but strong voice.

He finally made her wear both bangles, the sweet fragrance of jasmine was absorbed in his fingers from her wrists.

"oh, I forgot! Actually, I took permission from elders to pick you" he said while looking into her eyes which were mesmerizing.

"oh! Then how can we go in this rain, especially in rag top?" She said in rage because she was trying hard to control her emotion so now she just banishing all her emotions by showing herself and him that how much she was irritated by his romantic concern for her.

"don't worry Umeed! This convertible has its roof" then he just opened the door and pushed a button then a black glass roof took place in his car.

Her mouth was opened, the next moment she hit his head.

"you stupid, why didn't you place the roof before?"

"oh I just forgot while seeing you in this attire" he also hit his head for that stupid act but it was drizzling. So that car seats were only moist, not wet like him.

Both sat on their seats.

"I'm the only one who was driving his car on his wedding day," he said while looking, actually absorbing her completely new attire in his eyes.

He never saw her before in very traditional dresses with this type of preparation. Off course bride was always special to everyone but for her groom, she was especially special.

On their nikah, she was only wearing simple white dress without any jewellery or makeup so now her new shade could really raise a fire in his heart.

"your wish" she shrugged her shoulders while averting the steer of her eyes from those soft hazel eyes.

Her crimson eyes looked beyond the mirror but hazel eyes couldn't concentrate on the driving because some of her wood-colored locks scattered on her shoulders which were hooking up those emerald eyes.

But inside his heart, he very well knew his limit because his wife accepted their relationship but wasn't accept him as a husband. She neither said anything worst to him but nor any of her action showed her approval regarding him.

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Both reached their destination, that day, first time in her life, she thought that she was also special for everyone.

Both families were welcomed them by showering petals of roses on them.

Arman was received her firstly.

"I'm brother so this is my duty to avert this responsibility to your husband," he said while holding her hand, one of her cousin came to handle the edges her flowy gown.

"I'm happy you're doing this, though this should be done by daddy," she said in a very low voice that Arman doubted whether she was crying.

Before giving her hand to Faraz, he slowly hugged her and put his hand on her head.

"daddy's anger will vanish soon until considering me as your father, off course brother has the same responsibility as father has, so in your new life, any difficulty you would face, you can call me whenever you want to do so" he said in moist voice then gave her hand in the hand of Faraz.

"take care of my sister, otherwise ill forget that I'm a singer and starting to consider myself as boxer" at the end of a sentence, he winked at him.

Faraz smiled amiably then held her hand with all of his right.

"I don't believe this day has finally come in my life" he stammered while sitting beside her.

"talk to your bride later Faraz... Let me capture your life's best moment first" Arbaz shouted from his place, he was capturing pictures of them but because of his lip movement, he couldn't get any good picture.

"okay Lala!" He signed him by showing his thumb up posture.

"look this" Arbaz showed their photo after capturing it.

" how's this Bhabhi?" He asked from Umeed who was still looking her hands, thinking about that moment when those were in his cold but warm hands.

"nice" she murmured while looking the picture, she confessed in her heart that they look perfect with each others.

After some ritual by family members and close relatives, her mother in law came to them.

"although you both saw already to each others but this is ritual, so we should do it" she placed a mirror between them. Then tackled their heads with each others.

The mirror was placed between them, their reflection was shining in that silvery plate. First time in her life, she envied on her fortune to get this type of partner for herself.

He slowly pressed her hand to assure her that he will always be with her.

Tuesday, 12 April 2016

Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Life Of Slayer) Episode 21

Posted by Saba Shiekh on April 12, 2016 with 12 comments
Laksh's POV:
I had already given her injections. But still I wasn't sure about her recovery. When sanskar demanded surety for the cure of her health, I remained numb. I only assured him with my uncertain words. In my mind, I was praying to god for her early recovery. If this injection wouldn't work then her survival would be at stake as we were unable to admit her in the hospital. With the passage of time, our anxiousness was increasing while communication between us was reducing. I didn't know how many minutes had passed. Just then sanskar's phone buzzed & he left the room. I was sitting with the same position in his room & my mind was completely empty. Like when the deep cyclonic storm was created, the calmness & silence induced in its eye zone hinted about the upcoming destruction & devastation, it would follow with it for the future course. I could sense the havoc which was gradually approaching towards us. Just then, before I could react anything, Sanskar came & showed me some photographs & asked me to examine it carefully.

I saw it & it wasn't a mere picture rather a report & indeed the report was of Swara Suryavansi as the name was indicated on the top of the report. Series of thoughts were bulged up in my mind after viewing the report. "How Sanskar was able to get this report?" I thought to ask this question to him but I suppressed my queries. As he was a slayer and collecting information about his targets was his profession. 'But if he had the report, then why didn't he show it to me earlier?', again my mind asked me this question.'Might be he had forgotten about it", came the reply from my brain. Though I didn't get any particular answer to my queries, still I prevented these thoughts from coming to my mind. Right now, it was not the time to analyze from where did the reports come from but to focus upon the result & how this report could be utilized to cure her.

Breaking my series of thoughts, Sanskar asked impatiently,"Laksh! Can we save her now?" I just smiled at him & he hugged me tightly. I could feel the happiness in his facial expression. God was bestowing his immense grace upon us.. So that, the storm, which had risen in our lives, passed peacefully even before conferring any destructive impact. Breaking the hug, he again started firing his questions restlessly,"Laksh! What is the disease? Is it fatal, chronic or evitable disease? Will she be fine? How much time will she take to regain her consciousness?" My face was delighted after viewing his concern for swara, though it wasn't new to me. I replied,"Sanskar! She is facing some chronic alcoholic disorder. Indeed it is fatal. The occurring of swells, cramps & numbness of muscles are the tendencies of this disease. There are medicines prescribed in this report to stop all these happenings. We can now easily save her by getting those medicines. As she is kidnapped, so she is unable to take her doses & this leads to her unconsciousness. As per the report, these doses are mandatory & must be taken regularly to keep her fit." I conveyed him all the information except the exact fatalness of this disease. Still I am unsure about the exact outcome of this disease in future though we had avoided this minor storm.

Breaking my thoughts, he asked me exactly the same question, whose answer I was unable to give. He asked,"What are you trying to say, Laksh? Is she only surviving due to these medicines? If these medicines are stopped then can't she continue her breathing? Answer me Laksh, is this disease evitable or not?" Now I knew that I was surrounded by his queries & there was no way of escaping. So, I answered honestly,"calm down! Exactly I don't know in which disease she is affected. It isn't the whole report but yes! this report shows, it is due to some chronic alcoholic disorder. I need to consult this report with my senior doctors & also will conduct some tests on the basis of this report to get the final outcome. But now, we can save her and don't worry nothing will happen to her." I could sense his restlessness but after listening to my answer, he was a bit relaxed. After all I could guess this after looking to his bodily gestures. I consoled him & rushed out of his room to collect those medicines from the medical stores.

Sanskar's POV:
After getting the report, a feeble smile was generated in my face. But it didn't last long as soon as I heard about the fatal disease. Though Laksh said that she could regain her consciousness, still he couldn't say how chronic was the disease.. However the way he consoled me, had given me a lot of positive vibes. As I was a slayer & roaming outside in daylight might expose my identity. Even I didn't want to leave her in this state. These medicines were specific in nature & couldn't be available in our dark cellular store room. So, finally Laksh went outside to bring them.

I was looking at her angelic face which was looking pale right now. Now I came to know that why she was indifferent to death.. As she was not living but only extending her death. After being a slayer, this was the first instance where I could remind about my mom with a proudful smile. This was exactly what my mom had imagined for me. A simple life dedicated for others, where I could be a saviour, not a slayer. I wanted to thank her. As due to her, I could give my mom a little bit of peace today & could reduce some amount of burden of sins from my bundle of crimes..

Just then Laksh entered & my series of thoughts were broken. He came towards me & handed over those medicines to me & said,"Sanskar! I am sorry but I can't stay here now. As captain has instructed me to complete George's bank account case. But you don't worry. These medicines will cure her for sure & also if I will stay here then after gaining consciousness, she will recognize me. You know na everybody thinks about me as a medical student & nobody knows regarding this secret profession. I hope you will understand. And yes! If any problem will occur, you can call me." I could understand his dilemma. Though I wanted him to stay here till she would regain her consciousness but he had valid points not to stay here. I couldn't repudiate those reasons & allowed him go. Before leaving, he conveyed all the applications of those medicines & also listed all the essentials for her. He waved me good bye & wished me luck & went away.

As soon as he went,I opened the lotions & applied it on her cramps & swells. I broke the tablets & diluted it in water & made her drink it.. After giving her all those medicines, I was resting on the chair.
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My son will never be an extortionist like you, Ram. He is my son. I will inculcate all moral values in him.
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Your son! Ha! Ha! Ha! Foolish woman! He is my son too. My blood is running inside his veins. He will continue my business. He will be the owner of this trafficking, smuggling and racketing world. He will be ruthless & will be the king of this realm.. You can't stop me.
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No Ram! You are mistaken.. He will live a normal life away from your dark world.. You can't make me wrong...
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Ram is smiling mischievously..
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'I am not an extortionist.. Mom.. Don't listen to him.. Mom! Believe me. Don't go away. I am not a slayer by choice.. Mom.. Don't.. Go.. Stop...'
And I woke up. I was sweating heavily. I looked at her & she was still lying on the bed. It was a dream.. Oh!! I took deep breath. I always proved my mom wrong by accepting this line to destroy that man. But today, I had proved that man wrong by saving her life.. I had humanity.. Humanity of a slayer..

Just then I heard her voice after ages. 'Don't come close to me. Back off. Go away. Don't touch me.' She was repeating these lines in doziness. I rushed towards her & assured her,"You are safe. Don't worry. Nobody will harm you.."& I supported the pillow behind her neck but her action surprised me. She grabbed my hands like she had found solace & security after holding my hands & dozed off. I didn't jerk & allowed her to hold them. I didn't know why I had allowed her in doing that action but indeed it had given me bliss. Finally the deadliest night had passed.. She was sleeping due to the effect of medicines. A few minutes had passed. She was still holding my hands like a small innocent baby. I was looking at her unknowingly without any further thoughts. Like time had stopped there. Like the eternity also wanted to continue this moment for time immemorial.

Just then my phone ringed & I loosened her grips from my hands. It was again the call from captain. I didn't want to disturb her sleep. So, I went outside the room & locked the door & picked up the call. From the other side, captain was saying,"Sanskar! There is a good news. Laksh has done his work. He is successful in transferring the money from George's account. But I am disappointed with your progress. You are unable to trace any information from that girl. So, I have sent my men to search for her father. Till then you have time to pour out as many secrets from her mouth. And yes! If you are unable to do this, then tell me. I will transfer this target to someone else..." My thoughts were blocked after hearing the last line of my captain. 'Transferring this target to someone else'.. It meant.. Pushing her to danger & at stack... I couldn't think about these aspects. So, I asked captain to give me one last chance to prove myself & hung up the call.

I didn't tell her health issues to captain as it would create a backlash effect. Humanity from a slayer wasn't desired here. I was in dilemma. My heart wanted her safety but my mind knew about my destination. "She was a source of illumination, I was a reservoir of destruction. She was a symbol of innocence, I was a replica of violence. If she was dawn then I was dusk." There was nothing common between us & it was wrong to feel for her. My only existence was a ruthless, merciless & invincible slayer.., nothing else..


Credit to: Kashis