I'm Hope Ep 24

The next morning was brighter than any other day of her life.

He already went for workout when she awoke in morning.

Firstly she didn't get the place but after recalling the night incident, she slowly smiled cordially after long time.

But suddenly her smile interrupted by the threatening knock of her door.

She practically jumped from her place and the pang of last night started to devouring her happiness again.

But next moment she jerked every ominous thought from her mind and opened the door.

It was Faraz's mother, she greeted her after watching her. But she ill-mannerly ignored her greeted and spit out next sentence.

"be ready Umeed! You've to go to your home" her tone was flat but disturb as well.

"what happened... Mama?" She hesitantly called her with the right status.

" Romana  attempt suicide and she succeeded"

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Suddenly her heart tugged in the cage of her chest faltered and her mind didn't decode what her mother in law just spitted out because her mind was completely numb.

Abruptly, color of her eyes changed, it turned honey color to dark brown like the wood in the night without moon.

"get ready beta! We've to go there, I already informed Faraz, he was about to come" Mrs Agha Haroon again said in her calm voice but her mind couldn't able to decipher her words.

Her mother in law's narrowed her eyes then observed her condition thoroughly.

She came to her, held her by her shoulder "I understand your condition but we've to move there. You should be brave because you've to console your family and specially your mother, so hurry up.... We don't have so much time" she patted her face then slowly leaved her shoulder then her room too.

But Umeed was still there, she repeated words of her mother-in-law in her mind again and again but her mind wasn't able to recognize what happened.

She didn't count minutes during her shock state, when Faraz entered  the room, he stopped to see her on the entrance of their room.

He was in his jogging suits, his hairs were wet and anyone could easily sense sweat all over his expose muscles and strain on his face. Seem like he rushed to the home after getting the news of Romana's deed.

He didn't take time to rush towards her, he patted her face "Umeed! Are you okay?" His voice easily displayed his inner tension.

"Faraz.... Honey..."  She hardly stuttered two words which easily understood by Faraz but he didn't understand how to console her in this condition. In his whole life, he didn't console anyone. In his childhood, it was always Umeed who consoled her but now it was time to pay back and he thought that he didn't have anything to pay back to her wife whom he had been loving more than decade.

A cold sigh came out from his mouth and he grasped Umeed's shoulders tenderly. He dragged her to the bed then made her sit.

He offered her water but she pushed back his hand.

The unknown-fear was felt by Faraz while watching in her eyes.

He was dumbfounded to console his wife.

Few minutes passed heavily between them, then his cellphone rang.

He saw "Agha Jan Calling" on the screen but didn't receive.

"Umeed... I can understand what are you feeling now, but we've to go to your home, your family needs you this time" he said in very low voice but she could easily listen his every word because of their closeness.

Umeed turned her face towards her then simply nodded.

"get change.. I'm using guest room's bathroom"

She was wearing pink anarkali frock with little bit makeup and lots of bangles on the name of jewellery.

She was simple as compare to newlywed girl but that condition wasn't suitable to attend funeral.

She nodded to Faraz, who took his dress from cupboard then disappeared from the room.

When she changed her dress and washed her face, she watched her reflection in the mirror.

She surely was not seem like the girl who married last night.

She could clearly observe split kajal from her honey orbs, her face was completely pale, though her shoulder cut bangs simply scattered on her shoulders.

She wiped her face with towel then again saw her reflection in the mirror.

Her eyes was same as her daddy's while Romana had black orbs  like mummy. She often complained about that though she was real daughter of daddy but Umeed had sheer reflection of daddy specially her creamy complexion and eyes. Romana was carbon copy of mummy though Arman and Umeed were seemed like siblings more, due to  physical similarities of both as compared to Romana and Arman.

Her chagrin was not because of physical similarities among daddy, Arman and Umeed but their personality traits were almost same. She was calm and silent girl with hardworking trait same as both males of her family while Romana was loud and whining member of family who had sharp mind with smart working skill. In other words, Romana had beauty with brain but she was using or wasting her both qualities in wrong way.

Once again, she saw her grievous complexion in the mirror. The words of her mother-in-law was again echoed in her mind but again her mind was unable decipher it.

"honey..." She muttered while watching her sad complexion in the mirror. 

"why?... Why did you do that?"

She asked from the complexion of her own, her complexion simply smirked to reminded her that both she and herself knew the reason very well.

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20 minutes' journey, from her in law's villa to her home was eloped heavily.

At the gate, they could see the crowd of people but ironically she didn't know many of them people who were relatives to her family.

Faraz grasped her with her shoulder supportively but she neither flinched nor supported his hands on her shoulder.

Both silently came inside the home, where firstly they saw Shayan who was talking with some guests whom she didn't know.

She didn't boggle to see him there but after what happened in past, one of the corner of her mind astound of his arrival on the funeral of his so called fiancée. 

After watching them, he slowly excused his guests and much to her surprise, he came to them.

Faraz and Shayan both greeted to each others, while Umeed remained silent with her stoic expression.

"Where is everyone?" She heard the voice of Faraz who was talking with Shayan with serious expression.

"Arman is watching the settlement, while aunty and uncle..." He paused and Umeed surmised that next sentence of him will not be a good one.

"Uncle is in the hospital, he got minor angina attack and aunty is with him"

As Shayan completed his sentence, Umeed's face expression changed abruptly.

Stoic to shock then shock to pain.

"da..dd..dadyy..." She stuttered and Faraz could swear that in the whole day, he first time heard her voice.

"I wanna sew them, mummy...? Is she ok?" This time her voice was repleted with moisture.

The hands tightened around her shoulder but she didn't care.

Shayan peered the honey colored eyes girl with the boy who was trying to support her whose expression showed that he was equally in pain to see his wife in this condition.

"It's minor one but I suggest you don't visit your parents now, first meet with Arman or maybe..." He paused, his expression grimace.

"What do you mean not now? They're her parents" this time Faraz asked him with serious tone.

" I think you don't have update of everything. Honey darling played  her card very well, but unfortunately, she isn't able to see her triumph... Well! I'm sorry Umeed for harsh words but I'm not so kind person to remember her with nice words after what she did, well! I've sympathy for you but I can't do anything for you" after completing his words 'Politely' he left their stance to leave the both persons with great confusion.

"What did your sister do this time?" She heard Faraz's words with harshness and his grasp tightened on her shoulder but she knew these harsh words were not for her but for her stupid late sister.

"I don't know..." Umeed found herself saying that and Faraz simply nodded before dragging her towards inside the home.

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Silence Before The Brewing Storm) Episode 25 Season 2

Sorry Guys! For late update. Actually my exams are lined up and entrance exam coaching classes are started. So getting less time to write ff. Sorry for the inconvenience. Anyways this is a long update. Please tell your views..
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Sanskar's POV
With a bound, the molten, fiery & red sun came above the horizon & immediately thousands of little birds sang out for joy & a soft chorus of mysterious, glad murmurs came forth from the earth, the low whispering wind left its hiding place among the clefts & hollows of the hills & wandered among the rustling herbs & trees, waking the flower buds to the life of another day. Yes! It wasn't just an another day for me rather a precious day of my life.

Today, I would come to know the exact severity of her disease. The entire day was passed in enmeshed condition. Would she be all right? Could she lead a healthy & hefty life? These thoughts conflated my mind but I tried not to show my perplexity to her. During the approaching twilight, I received a confirmation message from Laksh about the arrival of the doctor.

I conveyed her about the arrival of the doctor & asked her to sort all the reports in a file for easy check up. Just then, the bell of the outer door rang & in a swift voice, she asked me to open the door as she was busy in arranging her reports. I opened the door & found out a fair skinned, grayish hair person was standing near the door like a gentleman.

In a confirmed tone, I asked him,"Are you Mr.Johnson?" And as per my expectation, he nodded positively & said,"Mr. Laksh Rathor has sent me here." Cutting his words, in a pardoned tone, I articulated,"Mr. Johnson, sorry to interrupt you! But please don't take Laksh's name in front of the patient."

To give me assurance, he placed his hand on my shoulder & said,"Don't worry! Laksh is a good friend of mine & he has told me about the medical history of Swara Suryavansi & asked me not to take his name in front of her due to some personal stuffs. You don't take any tension for that. I won't utter Laksh's name in front of her. By the way, you must be Sanskar.."

I nodded & thanked him for his understanding & welcomed him inside. I called out swara & she came running to the guest room with a bunch of reports. I introduced her with Mr. Johnson & she politely thanked him for his coming & handed over all the reports to him. Mr. Johnson carefully observed all the reports. In the mean while, swara served him snacks & coffee which he politely denied to take.

A few moments had already passed & she was sitting besides me. We both were eagerly waiting to hear from him. My heartbeats were undulating in a rapid pace. Might be she was able to sense my flustered state of mind; so, she squeezed my hands with her soft, milky palm to give me assurance.

Her touch created a wave of smile on my face though my anxiousness was still intact. Just then Mr.Johnson took off his spectacles & placed it on the table. While closing his both hands & putting them on the table, he asked,"So Swara! You must be aware about your disease. You are facing a rare syndrome of Alcoholic Neuropathy. The reports of diagnosis have reflected that you are still on your initial stage, which is definitely a good sign. Abundant alcohol drinking, malnutrition & stressful conditions have led to the occurrence of these rare symptoms of this disease. Weakness, numbness, cramps, swells, vision impairment are the normal symptoms of this stage. If proper care & nutrition won't be started at the right time, then it can cause severe disability & discomfort to certain body parts."

After hearing from Mr.Johnson, I became numb. Many mixed emotions were swelling inside my mind. Unknowingly, I stammered,"Can't she be cured fully, doctor? Can't you recommend any procedure to eradicate this disease fully from her body?" Swara was staring me lovingly with her bluish eyes.

Being a doctor, Mr.Johnson could easily detect my apprehensive state of mind & calmly said,"Proper nutrition, meditation & physical therapy can control this disease & also prevent it from spreading further. However, all these require a good deal of fighting spirit & patience but it will cost a lot...."

Cutting him, I uttered,"Money isn't a matter, doctor! I want her cure at any cost. Whatever procedure you will tell for her survival, she will follow all of them sincerely. She will fight to get her life & I will be always behind her to protect her. We both will fight against this disease but please save her, doctor..."

Mr. Johnson smiled briefly & said,"She will be alright, sanskar! We have to start the medication processes from tomorrow itself & swara! Don't touch a drop of intoxicant & you must not miss your regular medicines else it will deteriorate your health & make an adverse impact upon the safety procedures."

She was listening to him carefully & the flashbacks of dark cellular jail was coming to my mind. Due to the skip of doses, she had developed all these symptoms there. I felt sorry for my mistakes though more than 7 months had passed to that incident. Just then Mr.Johnson's words broke my thoughts. He was asking swara of being married or not.

I didn't let him finish & asked confusingly,"Why are you asking this, doctor?" Taking a brief pause, he started,"It is a private matter! I want to share it with her family members." Quickly swara responded,"Sanskar is my family, doctor. You can tell anything in front of him."

Genuinely! To be trusted was a greater compliment than being loved. Today, she proved that how much she was serious for me! I felt bliss to get a holy sole like her. Just then, Mr.Johnson said,"Oh! I am sorry. Sanskar must be your husband. His care and anxiety for you seem like that only. But this disease can create obstacles in your married life."

Before Mr.Johnson could say further, she stopped him & asked,"What do you mean, doctor?" In a patient tone, Mr.Johnson said,"Sexual dysfunctions are common to this disease. May be you can't conceive in your life if the medications won't give desired result. Sexual involvements are risky & because of that only many relationships are broken earlier. Sometimes the matter has also dragged to court proceedings."

Swara was looking stunned. In a pale face, probably she was expecting some answers from me. Earlier Laksh had already given me hints about these outcomes, I thought. I held her hands tightly & in a determined tone replied,"Thanks doctor for your concern! But she is my better half.. If there is 'better' then there is a 'best'. If there is 'half' then there is a 'complete'. Far more than being a 'better half', she can be 'best complete', like a phrase that beautifies & gives meaning to a sentence when it is added, likewise she completes the existence of my life. She isn't a pleasure or lustful object for me to be used. She deserves love & care & I will fight for her safety no matter what."

She was looking at me in puzzled eyes, like lots of queries were going on in her mind just like the webs of spider. I knew that she must be confused about my acceptance of her as my wife. But I wasn't at all shocked about my revelation as I truly endured her as my wife, my life & my everything. So, it didn't matter if I was married to her or not.

Mr.Johnson encouraged my sportive spirit & said,"Swara! I have listed all the medicines & your daily schedules in this piece of paper. Follow this routine for the next fifteen days & then let me know about it. So that, I can check up you & know about your progress." She nodded positively while carefully taking that paper from his hand.

Turning his gaze towards me, Mr.Johnson asked,"Sanskar! Can you join with me now to outside? Actually if you are free, then I want to show you the medication & rehabilitation centers today so that she can start the procedures from tomorrow." Quickly I agreed to go outside with him as nothing was more important to me than swara.

I told her to be careful before moving out with Mr.Johnson. He had brought his own conveyance. So, I didn't take the car & accompanied him in his car. Through out the entire journey, I asked him lots of questions about her health & like a senior and worthy doctor, he handled all my queries & answered them without any frustration.

He showed me the medication & rehabilitation centers & also helped me to enroll her name there. He offered me to drop near the home but I politely denied as I didn't want to give him unnecessary burden when I could ride to home by a hired cab. He dropped me on the side of main road, so that I could easily get a cab. I thanked him for his generosity & bid him goodbye.

Twilight had already fallen. The sky turned to a light, dusky, purple littered with tiny silver stars. The sun had already dropped beneath the horizon & then denoted, torching the racks of clouds stacked up above the downtown skyline. In this enchanted weather, I was roaming in the main street to get a cab.

Just then my eyes fell upon a banner. 'The City Lights Publishers' advertised recruitment opportunities to young creative writers with a lump sum salary package with certain remunerations. I used to write during my teenage but after that my life had changed upside down with my mom's death & I was engulfed in darkness.

However now as I had already abandoned darkness & got swara by my side, so, I wanted to give this job a try. Her medical procedures & medications needed a lot of money & I wanted a job of good salary for that. Though she was a billionaire girl & could afford her requirements, but she was my family now & I wanted to take this responsibility by my own.

After all family wasn't always blood. It was the people in your life who wanted you in theirs; the ones who accepted you for who you were. The ones who would do anything to see you smile & who loved you no matter what. Right now! Only swara was apt to be called as my family & I wanted to lead a decent family life with her.

I searched my phone inside the rear pocket to note down the details of the publication house. But alas! I didn't find my phone as probably I had left it in home due to hurry. I checked the arrow headed directions which were shown in the banner & tried to remember it to reach to its office.

Thanks to my slayer nature & potential, I was too quick to memorize them. Quickly I hired a cab and reached to the publication house location. Luckily the office was opened and I collected all the information from the receptionist about the job profile. Basically I had to mail them some creative short stories to be selected in this job. I obtained the visiting card of that office & came out of it as I had to reach home early else swara would be worried for me & over the top, my phone wasn't with me as well.

I had to cross the mini lane to reach to the cab which I had hired earlier. While crossing the street, I felt like someone was following me. First, I ignored this feeling but after sometimes also I felt the same. My instincts couldn't be wrong always, I thought. I had a perfect ability to sense the presence of humans due to my assassin nature.

I stopped from further moving & rotated me eyes to check the surroundings. I couldn't doubt any person or couldn't identify any familiar face. The road was crowded and all were busy in their own stuffs. Still I couldn't feel safe and started running towards the cab. As soon as I reached to the cab, I asked the driver to hurry up & I changed my daily route multiple times before reaching home.

After travelling certain kilometers, I felt safe. Though I couldn't see any known face, still I sensed a strong ardent intuition of stalking. I was sure that one day my alive news would be unveiled & might be the past had arrived to haunt me again. I was sweating through out the entire journey.

Swara's POV
Today was a hectic day for me. After my check up, I came to know about a few new things regarding my disease. I was really scared when Mr.Johnson told me about my sexual dysfunctions & the inability to conceive in my life. I looked at sanskar with a tensed face. However the dignity he had given me today by calling me as his wife was truly a moment of felicity for me.

Genuinely! True love didn't need a contract or a certificate of marriage and loving someone & having them love you back was the most precious thing in the world which I felt today. Sanskar had gone with Mr.Johnson to check the medication center & hadn't returned yet. I thought to call him as already 2 hours had passed from his outgoing.

I dialed his number but he didn't pick up the call. Instantly, I again dialed & this time I could hear the ringtone of his mobile from the near by location. Had he arrived already?, I thought & again dialed his number. But this time I could detect that his phone was ringing from his room & he left the phone here without taking it with him.

How could he be so irresponsible? There was always threat to his life in every passing moment but seriously! This guy would never change.. By staying with me, he was behaving like a normal human being, not like a slayer; I thought. Mixture of emotions, bliss & fear were overpowering my mind & just then breaking my thoughts, his phone again rang.

Oh god! These bank guys were always irritating him, I thought. Earlier also they had called sanskar. So, I tried to ignore the call without even seeing the caller ID & after sometimes it stopped ringing. While I was coming out of his room, again his phone rang. This time I rushed to pick up the call to inform the caller about his absence else this phone would repeatedly ring. But after seeing the caller ID & number, I was stunned. How many shades did you possess, sanskar?; I thought while moving a few steps back from his phone.

Credit to:Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Taste Of Love) Episode 24 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I came out of my room after attending Laksh's call. 'I have remembered the time, I let you go from that dark cellular jail or the time I have dropped you here to go far away from me before I will change my mind & captivate you again or the time you have saved me from crossroads & caught me up in your lap. You may or mayn't remember any of those, but I do & this is what I have to say to you; today, no matter what it takes, we will grow together, will make our lives worthwhile & I promise to make you smile.', I thought & rushed towards swara.

She was looking at me ambiguously & asked questionably,"Sanskar! Who has called you now? Is there any problem? Has your identity revealed by chance?" A sense of phobia & anxiety were clearly reflected from her facial expression. I was confused as why was she asking me these types of awful questions?

In flustered tone, I asked her,"Why are you asking me these types of questions?" Without making any delay, she immediately replied,"This is your new number. Except me, none has any idea about this phone number. So, who has called you now?" By saying so, she hugged me tightly like she didn't want anybody to take away her love from her sight.

I was overwhelmed by looking her pious love for me. Many mixed emotions were surging in my heart. Honestly! There was never a time or a place for true love! It happened accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing & throbbing moment.

I parted her from me & gently rubbed my palms on her cheeks & said,"Swara! Don't be frightened. It's a call from the bank. You must have remembered that before some days I have gone to bank & for some information, their agent has called me as i have given this new number there." I lied to her again by hiding about the call from laksh. It wasn't that I didn't want to convey her about laksh but I was waiting for the proper time to unveil this truth to her.

She was relieved after hearing my words but with much anguish, she yelled,"How can I forget that day, Sanskar; when I have come to know about my real existence. I am born to bear the hatred."

I gave a peck on her forehead & said,"You are my angel. You remind me of the goodness in this world and inspire me to be the greatest sane version of myself. Then how can you say that you are born to be loathed.. Look at my eyes swara! You can see the myriad of passion & endurance of love in my eyes only for you! And from now onwards, you won't live alone. We be life, we be fire, we be light, we sing electric flame, we rumble underground wind, we dance heaven! We be together & face the obstacles further."

In a state of shock, she fumbled,"Then won't you ever leave me sanskar?" I nodded,"Yes,I won't leave you." & after listeing this, like an innocent child, she jumped in extreme joy. I held her from her shoulder & said,"Now don't be sad ever! And swara! Talk to your mom once. My friend always says,'Truth has many sides...' So, talk to her & sort out this matter." Suddenly her facial expression changed to a serious one & she said,"No way sanskar! I can't talk to her now. I even don't know how to face her or what to ask her..."

She was right at her own place & this wasn't a mere issue to be settled immediately. Above all, today was the day when I officially accepted my feelings in front of her. So, I didn't want to spoil this exquisite moment by making her sad. Therefore, to divert her mind, I said,"No problem swara! Take your time. But don't be dishearten today. I am sorry for my behaviour of day before yesterday. You have fondly cooked for me but I haven't appreciated you. But today I want to make up for that mistake."

Cutting my words, in a chuckling voice, she asked,"So! Mr.Sanskar! Are you going to perform the activities of a chef today for your angel?" I giggled & said,"Anything for you, your highness!" She grasped me from my waist & put her head on my chest & said,"Sanskar! Life is beautiful because it is a controlled yet chaotic dance of ups & downs where we are blessed with the ability to sense those pains & pleasure equally. And I have already experienced the sufferings.. Now it is the turn to endeavor meadows of felicity."

I felt happy for her still I was unsure for my future. I didn't know about the Pandora's box that my future had stored for me. I gently parted her away from me & said,"Now let me go, else how can I make food? Then your Majesty will suspend me from chef's job."

In a sniggeringly voice, she said,"Sanskar! Now if you don't prepare delicious foods, then I will surely terminate your job." By saying so, she started beating me softly. I couldn't take off my gaze from her & entangled my hands inside her fluffy & lustrous hair & dragged her closure to me & planted a kiss on her temple & cheeks & then quickly rushed to the kitchen by leaving her there.

Swara's POV:
He wouldn't leave me now. He, himself had agreed to stay with me forever. I leaped in bliss & just then he kissed me on my cheeks which made me startled. His sudden reaction in form of a kiss turned my face to crimson red. Honestly! No one could know her own beauty or perceive a sense of her own worth until it has been reflected back to her in the mirror of another loving & caring human being. I realised my worth today because sanskar was a part of my life.. Oops! He was my life not a mere part only.

I went to kitchen to help him. But he clearly denied to take my help. Instead he grabbed me from my waist and lifted me to the elevated shelf of the kitchen & said,"Be seated here & enjoy my cooking." With much love, he was cooking for me. A few drop of tears came out of my eyes by making them moist as till now none could ever try to cook for me, not even my own mother.

Watching him cooking for me with so much love & concentration, I felt like hugging him tightly to show my gratification. Just then he looked at me & while covering the food stuffs with lids, he asked,"Why are you checking me out?" I came out of my thoughts & while tugging a hair strand behind my ear, I recited,"Check out!! Huh! Well! Mr. Chef I am checking you out to understand the methods of preparation of these delicious food stuffs & I don't know that you can also cook."

While sprinkling pinches of spices on the Chicken Marengo, he replied,"You have actually spoiled my attitudes. So, I sit idle here else in the dark world, I have used to do all my stuffs of my own." I looked at him contently & asked,"Will you teach me the procedures to make these recipes?"

He nodded smilingly & put me down from the elevated shelf & said,"Now go. Seat on the dining table. I will serve you in minutes." I hugged him tightly to let my emotions outrush & said,"Before meeting you, my life is a burden for me. Death is easier & painless to me than life itself. But not anymore sanskar! I want to live, to cherish every moment with you. Life is beautiful when you are with me."

He consoled me by hugging back tightly & uttered,"Nothing will happen to you. Till I am with you, even death has to defeat me to touch you. Now cheer up else my food stuffs will be salty due to your tears." I smiled feebly & beat him softly.

He grabbed my two hands & said,"Oh gosh! Earlier I have beaten many people but now I will be beaten everyday. Oh god! Save me." I laughed heartily due to his tantrums & he said,"Always be happy swara! Your beauty touches its excellence during happiness. Now go else I need to heat up the pan again." I nodded & left the kitchen.

Sanskar's POV
Today, I cooked only for her. Till today, after my mom's death, nobody cared for me in the way she had done in past couple of months. But suddenly she was so worried & scared for her death that those anxiousness, nervousness & uneasiness were quite fairly visible through her changing facial expressions. Though I was able to console her & to divert her mind by my silly jokes but from inside I was too scared for her health after remembering the words of laksh.

When she moved out of kitchen, I immediately messaged Laksh to arrange a doctor within 2 days. Within minutes, I got his reply that he had already arranged a reputed doctor of USA and by tomorrow evening, he would come here to check up swara. I thanked laksh through message & served all the foods on dining table.

Swara's POV
Different colourful varieties of food stuffs were adorned on the dinning table like charming petals were blossomed on the meadows of grassland vegetation. We ate together. I tasted all the recipes and honestly! I couldn't find a little bit of lacuna in the preparation. All dishes were up to mark & tasted delicious. Might be the love, he had poured in it during preparation, made the taste heavenly.

Breaking the silence, he asked hesitantly,"Swara! I want to tell something serious to you. Please agree with it. Don't deny." The half gulped chicken bite came out of my mouth after hearing his words. Did he want to leave me now? Had all these preparations made to cherish our last moments of togetherness?

I asked him restlessly,"Do you want to leave me?" He kept his left palm on my hand & squeezed it a bit to give me assurance that he wasn't leaving. Hurriedly I asked,"What is the matter, sanskar?" In a confused tone, he said,"swara! I want you to check up from a doctor for your disease. Please don't disagree..."

In a relaxed tone, I said,"Oh!! This is the matter.. OK sanskar! I will again go to the doctor for check up but I am continuing my medicine. So, there isn't any trouble." Cutting my words, he said,"No! No! I have arranged a doctor to check you up here only as I can't accompany with you if you will go to your regular doctor as you are a famous name in the society & this can also reveal my identity of being alive. So, specially I have arranged a doctor from abroad to treat you."

Without any hesitation, I accepted to him as love was made up of three unconditional properties in equal measures: acceptance, understanding & appreciation. Truly I understood his care for me & I felt happiness to get him in my life.

To cheer him up, I said,"So, Mr. Chef! Food is flavourful. I won't terminate you from job. What will you demand in salary?" He smiled & said,"I can make you smile by my little effort, that's all, I want. Well! About salary, let's see later. But now you go to sleep & be prepared for check up. Don't worry about these utensils. I will wash them before sleeping."

Through I asked to help him in washing but as if he would listen to me! He vividly protested and sent me to sleep. Might be life was all about twirling under one of those midnight skies, cutting a swathe through the breeze and gently closing your eyes, I thought and covered myself under the duvet to sleep peacefully before facing the unforeseen future tomorrow.

Credit to:Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (A Sense Of Togetherness) Episode 23 Season 2

Sanskar's POV

Her grips around my collarbone were tightened. She was an enchanting illumination & I was engulfed in obscurity. Like a butterfly was tempted towards fire, even after knowing that the fire could extinguish its existence; in the same way I was tugged towards her, even after knowing about my individuality.

Throughout my life, I was encircled around gloominess & was thirsted for light. Now she was showering her divine light on me & her light was forcing me to consume every bit of her. I was no longer in my own control. Her lips were tastier than marshmallow. Her feathery soft skin created undulating waves in my soul & connected all the broken strings of my heart.

Her closeness was making me desperate as I was living in solitude till now & her moaning of my name again & again was making an impact on my brain to consume her beauty more & more.

Swara's POV

I made him realise about love and his possessiveness for me. From eternity, I was deserted and now I didn't want to lose his intimacy. I clung my lips with his to make him mine forever. My brain was out of my control, so as his. He devoured his lips with mine in such a way that I moaned his name.

My moaning was setting fire in his dusky eyes & he crushed his lips more harshly with mine. This vigorous touch of his harsh lips was giving me forbidden pleasure. Genuinely! Today I felt that love was composed of a single soul, inhabiting in two bodies. 

I didn't know why it seemed to me that we were always in unison, he was the only one for me from eternity but circumstances divvied us into two & then both of us lived our lives in yearning & melancholy until we wished to be united with each other again..

Now we found our twin soul & our lives were complete. He gave a love bite on my lips & this time I bemoaned his name so loudly that he jerked from me. We both were panting heavily. He set himself free from my embrace & by lowering his gaze, in a painful tone said,"I... I amm.. sorrrryy.. I haven't done this purposefully. My mind is out of my control & I have crossed my limits.. Sorryyy..."

I didn't let him complete his statements by putting my finger on his lips & said,"I'm selfish, impatient & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. And you are the one, who has handled me at my worst. When everything in my life is a lie, then you are the only dazzling truth. I love you & I know about your feelings too. Please don't defame this sacred feelings by asking for apology."

I could sense the myriad of emotions going inside him & in a murmuring tone, he uttered,"Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that we can't remain together!! The problem is that as much as I can't stop you to love me, the same way I can't force myself to stop loving you. You are the one who has ignited a sense of remorse in me. Your presence has resurrected me & has made a new person out of me, just like my mom's wish. If this is the feelings of love then yes! I do feel the same for you, swara!!"

I couldn't control my overflowing emotions & embraced him so tightly that I could hear his heartbeats. With a forbidden bliss & heavy heart, I said,"Don't hold back your love, sanskar! Express yourself! I want you. All of you. Your flaws.. Your mistakes.. Your imperfections.. I want you and only you. I know who you are & I don't care about your past. After my mom's betrayal you are the only one I have left. This is my life, my story... my book... I will no longer let anyone else to write it & be a cause of my sorrow nor will I regret for the edits I have made to insert you in my life.."

Sanskar's POV:

I embraced her back tightly to console her & said,"Don't feel bad for your identity. Where have you born isn't supposed to be in your hands. Don't make the situation worse by attending parties & consuming alcohols. It won't bring any benefit. And swara! I am like a poisoned bread. I may eradicate your appetite of loneliness for the moment, but there is death in it at the end. Forget me swara & let me go because I am also a nightmare for you which can ruin your life."

Before I could say much, she came very close to me & said,"Sanskar! Can you feel my heartbeats? The pulsating rhythm of my heartbeat is thrilling because of your closeness to me. How can you even think of leaving me, sanskar? You are the first & last thing in my life which only belongs me. If you are thinking that the darkness will engulf me if I will remain close to you, then let the darkness may engulf both of us as staying without you is a much more curse than assimilating in darkness."

Girls!! The most unpredictable creation! She accepted a slayer so easily. She was even ready to devoid of her life but didn't want to leave me. Honestly the purest kind of love, which was one of a kind could decontaminate even the darkest heart.

Breaking my thoughts, she said,"We are like stars. Something happens to burst us open; but when we burst open & think we are dying, we're actually turning into a supernova. And then when we look at ourselves again, we see that we're suddenly more beautiful than we ever were before!! Let's accept our fate & fight this darkness together sanskar! May be a beautiful life will be waiting for us after breaking this barrier of duskiness."

When I was listening to her, my phone buzzed & suddenly I departed from her to pick up the call. It was the call from laksh. I picked up & in a lower voice asked,"What is the matter laksh? Why do you call me now? Is there something related to shomi?" From the other side, in a worried tone, laksh replied,"I am actually apprehensive about swara's health. Is she fine now?"

Quickly I replied,"Ya! She is fine, buddy! You have always saved my life from upcoming dangers & that day, you have even rescued her & dropped her safely at home." Cutting my words, he asked,"Has she doubted about our connection, sanskar?" I replied negatively & in an anxious tone, he said,"Now listen to me carefully, sanskar! Swara needs immediate medical attention. These stressful situations are hampering her condition even badly."

In an awful voice, I asked,"Are these outcomes related to her disease? Recently she has again consumed alcohol. Will it affect her health?" This time, in a shouting tone, laksh yelled,"Alcohol... Again... It will definitely worsen her health. She is already facing sexual dysfunctions & many complications due to alcoholic neuropathy. Sanskar! Do take care of her & consult the doctor immediately as I am not an expert in that field."

I felt sorry for her condition. Somewhere due to my mistake, she was suffering, I thought & asked him to arrange a refined & reputed doctor for her cure & disconnected the call.

Now I was determined. I promised myself to take care of her & not to hurt her again by my stupid saying to leave her. After facing the vicissitudes of life, if there was one thing I learned, it was that nobody was here forever. I had to live for the moment, each & everyday.. So, until that darkness came when I would vanish like fireworks, let me take care of her & cherish our beautiful togetherness the way she wanted.

Credit to:Kashis

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