Swasan A path hate to love Ep30

Recap:" Sanskar and Meera caught by Adarsh and dp wanted to send him abroad for study"
Sanskar is in Mysore (present)
Sanskar is about to light the cigarette which he bought from local shop. But before lighting it, he throws it because he knows very well that Shanaya and Laksh will know about it and he neither hide nor tell a lie to them. He thought that his this habit of telling truth was throw him in problem because his family had blind believe on him, if he wanted to take advantage of that believe, he could. But he didn't do like that because he knows lie is more disaster than truth.
He reminds the time when Meera allured him for something... "what was that?" He thinks... "yeah! first step of my destruction" he answered himself and reminisces about that time...
Meera stooped for a while and said:" We've option Sanskar! If you support me"
Sanskar:" What's that?"
Meera:" Marry me"
Meera's words shocked him:" What? Are you in sense katty? You're not of 18, I'm 19... How can we marry?"
Meera jerked:" I'll reach the age of 18 next month, you forgot my birthday baby"
Sanskar jerked because he didn't like this word baby type things but he knew that this isn't time of fighting, so he said calmly:" Katty! Try to understand... Let me go... This is only matter of few years... I'll come back only for you, that time I'll establish and able to marry you... We're minor katty! We can't marry legally, if we'll do your family can charge on me of kidnapping"
Meera:" Listen to me carefully! Firstly, we'll do marriage in temple instead of court, secondly, my uncle and aunty will grateful to God that he'll be free from burden like me, I know them very well, they'll do nothing... And once we get marry, your family must accept us"
Sanskar thought for a moment, he knew his family, they love him so much and they know the important of marriage and its value. He convinced that Meera is right on her side. Maybe after completion of his study, they'll plan other plan to separate him from his love, as they did now.
He observed both side of coin and decided that Meera is right. He accepted her proposal and they made plan how they'll go temple and come to his family for apologies.
Everything was going right and their plan was successful for marriage but destiny had another plan for them.
They went to Sanskar's home and firstly his younger sister saw them and shouted to see him in garland and Meera.
This time only ladies and bade papa were at home. Bade papa stayed home to drop him to airport. Everyone was shocked to see them and this shock froze them for a minute. Sujata broke the silent and came to him, a strong slap was left mark on his face. No one ever cursed him with bad words but this was first time, anyone beat him and specially his mom.
She's crying because of his deed and said:" What have you done sanskar? You were our pride and what did you do? Is this your age of marriage? You're.."
Bade papa stopped her:" Stop it Sujata..." He looked bade papa and hoped that he'll welcome him and will say like that it was his mistake but now Meera is daughter in law of this house. But nothing was happened like that.
Sujata turned to him:" Bhai Sa.. My son..."
Bade papa:" Whose son? You dont have any son sujata...  You've only one daughter, now come inside the home and close the door for stranger..."
Sanskar shocked to listen him but suddenly went and folded his hand to him:" Bade papa! Don't do it with me, you said, I'm your son.. How do you do this with your son? I just married to her, this isn't a bad thing... Please accept us" he was pleading on his knees.
Bade papa:" Oh great! You were married! Do you know the meaning of marriage? You're not legally eligible to get marry... Well I can forgive you and forget everything but I've a condition..."
A tiny hope raised in his heart:" I'll do anything bade papa! Just accept me your son like before..."
Bade papa smirked but that time he didn't understand his smile:" Leave this girl where you pick her and forget about that you ever marry with her... Look son! I was aware about your affair from two years, I also know very well what Laksh did in his school and Adarsh in office... But at the end, I concluded that let enjoy everyone because you all have right....at the end, you all do what I want as Adarsh did... So I also thought about you same, and I led you play with her, I know your all activities which didn't offence me... But when I got know about your intention and determination about this girl... I understood what should I do... Be in relationship with that girl... I don't have any objection, just forget about your marriage because there's our reputation in society... Come to us my son! There's no career with her... Think about your dream..."
Sanskar shocked to listen his every word... Every word was breaking the idol of that innocent boy which he made for his bade papa whom he gave respect more than of his parents,
Meera's character was there only as silent actor.
He stepped back and looked his Idol with unbelievable expression on his face. He looked his mom but she went inside the room, his badi maa tried to convince his Bade papa but he stopped her.
Sanskar looked to his idol face and held the hand of his love:" I'll not leave her... You were also my pride bade papa... My ideal... But today.. You broke this.... I'm not hypocrite like you, I'm going from there and I promise, one day I'll fulfill my dream with my own...."
Bade papa:" Soon you'll repent Sanskar and that day I'll not open the door of this house on you"
Sanskar turned and said:" Time will prove everything bade papa"
He hoped that when his father get know about everything, he'll come to him but it didn't happen.
From this day, their dark period was started. They didn't understand where to live. One Sanskar's friend, gave him keys of his house because they're out of the town but they had limitation of staying there for 15 days, his family will  arrive after 15 days and that time, they've to arrange shelter for them.
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Swara and Shanaya at school.
Swara is shocked to listen it and asked:" How can anyone hypocrite like bade papa? He gave the lesson of virtue and value in his whole all life to Sanskar and at the end, just for the sake of society he changed his view"
Shanaya smiled to listen her:" This is the world dear! Anything can happen there, we're society man and we tried hard for this acceptation of society... We do many wrong things just for the sake of society because it's right in our society... Just like it, he knew very well the deeds of his every son but he didn't stop them because it doesn't harm society to affair with girl or relationship with girl in secret but it'll harm his reputation when his boy will get marry with that girl who was unable to move in society with them"
Swara:" And why Meera did do that? She was after his money... So she can wait for him but why did she allure him to elope because that time she didn't find any penny from him"
Shanaya:" This question is bit complicated as I know her... She was really love him.... Not extreme love but love him... Love isn't like this which we saw on screen or read in books... This is beyond it, as every person has his individuality and it's same like with his love... Every love is different from other... Meera's love was selfish, cunning and wrong because she just want to get him with his personality and money... She could get him if she waited... But her impatient nature met her with defeat..."
Swara now curious about the remaining story...:" Then? How they manage without money..? Is his family were accepted them?"
Shanaya smiles to observe her excitement:" Then... They started to do job, so taking responsibility of his family life, he left his study and started job, Meera was also did this... Meera forced him many time to demand his share in property but his heart was broken from his family completely.. So he didn't gave ear to her voice.... It was much difficult to adjust in that environment of that type of person, who initially lived in luxuries.... They got the small one room cottage near the house of our... Our house was in included in the society of lowest class. We two only girls were there who were studying and specially study in college...
Because we two wanted to escape from the environment which we were living in...I often visited them, Sanskar tried to make her happy...but you know what! broken dreams always give us so much pain... And she was suffering from this pain. Before marriage Sanskar spoiled her, now she got the problem to manage home, study and job at time... Sanskar was also doing same... I also don't know, how he managed his study also but because of less attendance and fees problem, he dropped his semester... But now it was also hard for Meera to maintain her scholarship..
Time was passing but there's no improvement in their position. Sanskar was doing the job of waiter in one hotel and gave tuition to one academy. He did his house hold work and in the night.. He studied his course...it wasn't the dream of Meera but it wasn't easy for Sanskar to adjust in this environment too.
He tried his best to get scholarship and go regular college, he left the tuition and did only waiter job for going university. Meera already lost her scholarship and this time she was doing receptionist job in the same hotel where Sanskar was doing job. But their relationship was only became the matter of passing theirs lives.
Sanskar loved her yet but his every effort to make her happy was going in vain. He was also irritated by the situation and Meera's love was burned in the stove where she burned food many time.
But night was theirs own.. In night, they met with each other after forgetting the bitterness and hardships of day.. But slowly slowly their night were also changed, the distance was widening and bitterness was increasing between their relationship.
There wasn't remained the love type thing between them. Their relationship was based on only need and compromises. But there was also hope in their heart. Sanskar was hope that after his study, he'll get good job and make better the condition of them. But his good job will not able to fulfill Meera's desire. If she want this type of life, she can wait and got this life with her own. But she was impatient and her impatience nature made wrong decision by her.
But in these days.. Something happened unusual or unexpected..
Sanskar was finding his uniform of waiter but he didn't find anywhere. He was searching in cupboard when he got the file. It was medical report of Meera.. Meera's pregnancy.. He didn't expect this thing in those hard days but inside his heart he was happy to read the report.
Sanskar:" What's this katty? You hide this big news from me?"
Meera was shocked to see report in his hand:" What big news Sanskar? And how do you get this report?"
Sanskar:" You're pregnant and you hide this from me" she was preparing for going for job, so she jerked to listen his words this time.
Meera:" Stop your nonsense Sanskar!" Actually they're sick of fed up with each  others but this news gave hope to Sanskar that maybe everything will fine between them
Meera silently did her makeup, she had branded cosmetics and Sanskar was so much busy, he didn't even notice this thing that where did she bought these things.
She turned to him and snatched her report from him:" Yes I'm pregnant.. But I dont need this child... I know even you don't also.. So why are you shouting on me? You're disgusting Sanskar"
Sanskar looked her with chagrin and said:" I thought this baby will change your relationship but seriously Meera I repent many times to marry with you. Now I don't want to repent again.. I want this child. And you will not do anything wrong.
Meera gave him disgusting expression & said him in firm voice," I don't want this child & this is enough...." She shouted and left her place because she was getting  late for job. And the irritating voice of her heels are paining his head.

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I'm hope Ep1

Night... Most beautiful part of the day and the time of bewitching charm too.
This night silently caresses us, lulls to sleep which makes us cry to memories the past... Does necromancy on us... This night... No one is spared from its  spell, except two persons... A one who's beloved of God and a one who's beloved of Satan. These two types of people have the one same thing and this same thing is love... Love of God, love of beloved, love of sin, love of virtue. Love of money or often the love of flesh... This is the wonder of love which breaks the spell of this cruel night and makes them awake.
And in this night, this beautiful and modern colony was also under the spell of this night. The policeman was on march who was waking up for the love of his country and his duty, some of the youngsters wake up for the love of their beloved, some of them for the sake of love of gaining knowledge. A third bungalow, from this colony, is also is in the spell of night... Actually not. There's a young girl who is not under the spell of night. Which type of love, she has? Love of virtue or love of sin?
Her shadow is clear in the light of night bulb. She was in her night dress  which she used for two years and she likes it so much that she didn't change it from two years. She's wearing light pink trouser with large size t-shirt in which words of "I'm a princess" were clearly seen. She really looked like a pinkish princess in this pink color.
She smiled to see laptop which kept before her. Her smile shined to reached in her eyes. Her smile wasn't so much beautiful but anyone can mesmerize easily by seeing her smile. The tiny fireflies shine in her eyes which attracted the beholder and didn't allow him to see anywhere else. The beholder can find something in her eyes which he couldn't understand at once, maybe it was naughtiness, love or maybe hope...
When everybody was sleeping peacefully, this house seemed like the palace of sleeping beauty. And this girl seems like the character of fairytale who was awakening yet. But she's neither the sleeping beauty nor Cinderella whose spell was broken after midnight.
Her magic started from midnight, actually, she was Alice in wonderland, who went wonderland in this time. And come before rising the sun.
She looked her laptop which she called her magic box because it's her way to enter a wonderland.
She half laid down on the bed and jerked her long hairs to her waist. She was shaking her legs and because of her act, trouser removed from her ankle but she was smiling carelessly because it was her time. In which no one can interrupt in her wonderland.
She opened her magic box, the light of laptop, clear her structure of face. Her eyes are honey colored which shined in the night like cat eyes because of shining fireflies in her eyes. Her little nose has thin gold nose ring which often rounded by her. Although her lips are wide but she looked nice while smiling.
She opened the window and enters her wonderland.  But first she has to identify herself before entering the wonderland. She typed with the help of keys but now she had to enter hidden code before entering her wonderland. These hidden words are not clear on the screen but these hidden words are clearly similar to her personality. These words were:" I'm hope"
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Love, hate, hope, despair.  How many emotions are in this world. This heart which seems like for pumping blood into the body but actually lifted how many burdens of  emotions. But it can't get tired to lifting this burden but when it get tired, it is called "heart attack".,
From Adam to eve, there are many people came in our world, if we start counting, we can't count them. This body. Which made up of soil, has the ability to absorb any type of emotion and traits of its surrounding. It turns into that shape which shape his owner's hand gave it. With the mixture of water and sunshine, make it strong and firmed. It seems like, human upbringing human but actually it was emotions which upbringing human.
She was also same like raw soil and she has to turn into one shape.
Doctor said that it was the miracle that she's alive. She was a symbol of a ray of in the darkness of death.  But this hope didn't give happiness to anyone. Everyone was amazed and tensed because of this miracle, but no one was happy to see this hope.
She was seeing this world with amazed. But no one is lifting her up on lap. Everyone is watching her with hatred but she has the instinct of hope, she opened her arms to welcome them. Someone lifts her in her arms and she was smiled to see her feedback and her smiled shined to reach in her eyes.
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Someone gave her name of "Umeed" which liked by her. But few people was called her from her name, many of them called her "a girl".
Only two hands were handling her which was hard yet familiar to her. But she always smiled when she met someone.
She left her curdle and learnt to walk foot by foot. But she often faced the gaze of hatred on her face. But she knew very well that how to take the love of everyone. She was confident from her childhood, despite the hatred of everyone, she was wandering in the house and observed the activities of everyone. She imitated by her parents and tried to treat people like them.
She has one elder brother and one younger sister who came in world initially.  Umeed tried to touch her little sister but every time her mother scolded her. But her innocent mind didn't understand that why her mother scolded her for loving her sister.
She learnt how to speak and she imitated everyone. When VIP guests of her father came to the drawing room, she observed carefully that how her parents treated to guests.
She came in a drawing room and make a place in the heart of guests by her childish talks and actions.
She was admitted to school and she was very happy in school because she got so much love in her school. She was talented and intelligent student in her class. She immediately became the favourite of teachers. She wondered that why many of students in her class are often spend their time in crying but she loved to study in her class.
In those days, one new student came in her class, except his hazel green eyes, nothing is noticeable in him. He was dirty and crying baby of class. Teachers make him sit beside her and said her to do friendship with him. She didn't like that child but she actually didn't want to disobey her teachers. That boy was named as Faraz.
Umeed asked him:" Why are you so dirty?"
" Because no one clean me,"  he said while crying but Umeed consoled him.
She taught him that how to clean himself and how to sit in class. He also liked her because, in his point of view, she's the only angel who loved him and cared for him.
" How can I become good child like you," Faraz asked from her.
" I'll teach you everything" she said and this five years girl treated him like a mother. And they became friends soon because both didn't get love from their home, so they seek love and family in each others.
She asked one day from her only friend:" Why are you so sad?"
Faraz looked her, it was break time, both were taking their lunch and as usual, they were sharing their lunch.
Faraz answered:" Because my mom and dad don't have any time for me, even my nanny is careless from me" he said and took her sandwich.
Umeed laughed to listen to it:" Oh! My mom and dad don't love me too.. It means every parent are same"
Faraz smiled:" But I love you Umeed"
Umeed smiled too:" I also love you too Faraz and I'll never break our friendship"
Faraz extended his small hand towards her. She held his hand and said:" I promise my friend" her smile is still shining in her eyes which proved the truthfulness of her words but this tiny and innocent souls didn't know that one day,  the world will give the wrong name to their innocent friendship and they've to break their promise.

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep29

Shanaya comes to Swara and says:" This was story of two girl.. Girls...who are beautiful more than Cinderella and their destiny gave them the same condition of Cinderella but their destiny wasn't like the story of fairytale...."
Swara doesn't understand what's the purpose of Cinderella's story but she wanna listen her.
The girls were cousins and lived at their uncle's house.. Both were beautiful girls but both were orphans. Their uncle wasn't so close to them, just a relative who gave shelter to them after their parents died in accident. Both were first cousins. Meera and Anjali... Both want luxurious life, both want to escape from the environment which they were living and both wanted everything from life. And Meera a girl who believed in prince charming, got her prince charming in the fresher party of their college...:" Did you saw him Anjali? He was so cute but not only cute, I got know that he's also rich and perfect boy of college. Oh! Girls will jealous from me when I got the boyfriend like him"
Anjali looked her:" He'll not gonna marry you, I can bet"
Meera:" I also don't wanna marry him, just I want to get some efficiency in college and also some expensive gifts from him"
She easily won the heart of her prince charming but she had eye on his pocket, not on his heart.
Anjali saw her with lots of gifts, uncle aunt suspected about her but she could easily make them fool.
One day she came to Anjali and said:" You know what Sanskar is gonna meet me with his parents... You know what's that mean?, he's serious and he'll make me his wife in future"
Anjali:" But you're not serious with him..",
Meera smiled:" Oho! I really loved him because he's my prince, my ideal, my dream... What's a girl want more?"
Anjali smirked:" Your love is so selfish like you"
Meera jerked: " whatever... I don't care... Well! Tell me one thing..."
Anjali:" What?"
Meera:" I wanna kiss him, but he's so shy, I was tried but failed, but this time I'll make him fool and ask him for the dinner at five star for the sake of kiss?"
Anjali irritated:" You know what Meera? You're selling yourself for money, he's such a nice boy, when he'll know your greedy face, he'll leave you, that time you'll repent"
Meera:" You also want money, luxurious stuff and a better life... Aren't you?"
Anjali:" Yeah I want but for this purpose, I'll not play the heart of anyone",
Meera:" This isn't my mistake, if he happily gave his heart to me for playing, then what's the problem with you?" Anjali stared that girl who's flying on the cloud nine but unaware of result of this flying.
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He remembers the time when he took her in his house. It was reception of Adarsh Bhai.
Sanskar came to Sujata with Meera:" Look mom! She's Meera..."
Meera greeted her, Sujata also happy to meet her and asked:" Is she your friend Sanskar?"
Sanskar shied:" Yes mom! But more than friend"
Sujata didn't like his answer but she didn't say anything to them and observed Meera carefully because he knows the nature of her son.
Everything was going perfect, but Sujata's view about Meera wasn't good. She had experience more than her son, she already observed that her son was blacking his hands with coals in the mirage of gold. She often made him understand but he believed on his love completely.
He was sure that after some time, everyone will change their views for Meera, but in those days, something happened, it wasn't a big matter, but it became big because this matter had changed his life.
It was time when Meera asked him for a candle light dinner at five stars. He often went to five stars, but commonly with his family, so he didn't pay bill but he wanted to complete her wish. He got the salary and took her that five star hotel in which he usually visited with his family.
After their dinner, Meera asked him for visiting hotel, the manager knew him, so he allowed him for it. He also shared his dream about for making chain of hotels, with her. They was so much happy, suddenly Meera whispered in his ear...:" Sanskar!"
He looked back to her:" What happened katty?"
Meera:" I want something"
Sanskar smiled:" Everything for you my heart.... You just need to order"
Meera:" I want kiss... Our first kiss was unsuccessful, but I want kiss from you now"  he was sweating to listen it, because he's unaware of this thing, he even didn't know how to meet lips with lips. Laksh was in his high school and he was expert in these matters but he was become empty at the name of kiss.
Sanskar:" Now?"
Meera nodded in yes and held him.
Sanskar:" Meera! I think, we shouldn't do anything here, someone might see"
Meera:" No one will see here"
He put his lips to her but couldn't suck it completely. He attempted many time but he failed, Meera didn't want to leave him without completion of their kiss.
He was almost successful in his attempt when someone tapped his shoulder, he saw that person but ignored for a moment, but he saw again and shocked to see the person. It was Adarsh and now he started sweating because he was caught while kissing and he knew very well about the values of their home.
Adarsh Bhai brought him at home and gave  the complete details to everyone with adding the spice from himself.
Everyone didn't expect this type of thing from him and didn't believe on Adarsh. But he, himself admitted his mistake and also told everyone about their relationship and what was he wanted for his love also.
Bade papa first said:" Sanskar! You broke us, we really didn't expect this type of things like this? You were our pride Sanskar! But alas! You broke it"
Sanskar:" Bade papa! This wasn't like that, I love her so much, and want to marry her... This isn't a bad thing, I repent which I've done, but I promise, I'll do nothing like that again... But just give us a chance, meet her one time, you'll must like her" he advocated her in front of his family.
Sujata:" Bhai Sa! I met with her and I can bet, she's after his money"
Sanskar saw her with pain:" Mom! She's not like that, you're taking her wrong..."
Ram cut his words:" You were not like that Sanskar...! That girl forgot your values to you, you're disregarding your mother"
Sanskar said in low voice:" Dad! I'm not disregarding mom, I just explain that she's not like her.."
Bade papa interrupt:" This is enough... You all..." He shouted and everyone get stop. He was afraid and he was waiting for his punishment.
Bade papa:" Whatever was happened... Just forget it all and Sanskar! this isn't your age of thinking of these type of things, well! You don't need to go college from tomorrow..... Wait for next semester and I'll admit you in Oxford, I know they will welcome the student like you, (he turned to Sujata) prepare the stuff of him, he'll going England tomorrow..... Until next semester, you can do many business courses or any course about your dream career of hotel management... I'll arrange everything, you just prepare yourself"
He begged bade papa that don't punish him like that but he knew the reason of his lunacy and he knew very well how to treat it. His parents were also helpless in front of Durga Parsad then how could he fight against him.
He thought that his love is true then he'll come after his completion of study, and will ask the hand of Meera. He was sure that he'll must get his love that time.
Sujata packed his bag and instructed him many things about his future and wrong deeds. Laksh also cry so much but slept with him because he'll gonna miss him. He also was very sad to think about leaving everyone, specially his love Meera... His katty.
In midnight, he silently went to lounge and called someone, after three bells, someone attended the call..
Sanskar:" Katty... This is me Sanskar",
Meera:" Where were you and why didn't you call me?"
Sanskar:" Katty my parents are so angry from me and they snatch my phone from me"
Meera:" Oh! Don't worry.. They'll be fine"
Sanskar:" Yes katty but..."
Meera:" But?"
Sanskar:" There's a problem katty.."
Meera:" Don't say like that? What's the problem?"
Sanskar sighed and said in one breath:" My bade papa send me abroad for study"
Meera shocked to listen it:" Oh now what? You'll go so far from me"
Sanskar:" Don't worry katty! I'll come and that time, I'll marry you and I bet, no one will stop us"
Meera:" No Sanskar! I'll not allow you to go abroad... I'll die without you.."
Sanskar:" Try to understand katty! I promise, I'll come for you, and even we don't have any option except it katty"
Meera stooped for a while and said:" We've option Sanskar! If you support me"
Sanskar:" What's that?"
Meera said something which shocked Sanskar.

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Yaaram Ep5

She was wandering on her heels at the third busiest airport of England. " I came to Manchester for burning the fire" she exclaimed by putting hand on her mouth.
Some people saw her with wonder but she didn't care about anyone. She worn white flowing shalwar with short shirt which bottom was rounded. And her white long dupatta was cleaning the floor of airport. And everyone was entangling her dupatta. She said again by rolling herself on her heels:" I'm here Manchester and I'll not cry again and please don't make me cry"
Her white duppata was looking amazing which rolled on the land of ruler of subcontinent. If anything is the sign of good luck, then it will be the slogan of Amraha. If any sound is the sound of happiness then it will must be the action of her rolling on the heels. If there any shore of peace and calmness, then it will be complete in the essence of Amaraha.
No one had come to pick her, she was waiting for three hours but she had not any complain. She could easily wait for three days, now she hadn't any problem.
Now she could see the board of her name. A Korean plus Chinese girl ran towards her by hanging the long cross bag.
"I'm Amraha" she went to that Korean girl.
"oh hello! Sorry I'm late"
"it's ok.. Lets go"
"actually that girl who has come to pick you, met with accident.. Then I've to come to pick you... Have you waited for long?"
Amraha first made face but then burst out in laughter. Hana was walking before her and she was walking so fast that Amraha was exhausted by walking with her. Both sat inside the taxi and came to building. They carried luggage upstairs and came inside the flat.
Flat was empty. There was two rooms and small lounge with open kitchen. Amraha's eyes were widened to see it.. How beautiful this flat is.. Wow...
Hana took her towards one room, where two single beds were kept. And no idea how they made place to arrange folding mattress on floor. That was surely place of their walking. :"this is your bed" she pointed out the floor mattress. Amraha's mood got off.. Why she has to sleep on floor?
" kindly! Don't touch anything" Hana said with forceful smile but in requesting style. Because she was half Chinese then she said these words in half bow down style.
Till she got fresh, Hana gave her coffee and sandwiches:" This is from me" she extended small tray to her with this humbleness like she was giving her secret treasure. Amraha stared her with amazement. After a long flight, she got this small portion of meal!
"maybe it's just starter, real supper will come at night" Amraha thought.
"I'm getting late.. I've to go" she was about to leave but still reminded :" Please don't touch anything"
But she touched everything. She sprayed every perfumes which were kept on study table. Actually she was checking that it was real or feigned because it had said that how much perfume of Pakistan was branded and expensive but it was still copy of real brand. And now she realized that she was purchasing copy of real brands. All flat was fragranced by the smell branded quality perfumes. She also checked stuff of makeups. But she only gave one glance to books, only on theirs titles. Titles were like that old books were covered with modern clothes. She didn't have interest in old age books.
She went to washroom and checked every item.. Face wash, body wash, lotions even she checked the little ducks which were flowing in the bath tub. She opened every cabinet and smelled food items. Other room was locked.she checked the tv of lounge, firstly, she searched the channels then she opened the music channel and went to kitchen for making noodles. She made two packets of noodles and put it in the big bowl. She ate during listening the music of Edward Maya. She left bowl on kitchen and offed the tv, after it she fell asleep on the single bed. :" I paid 30% ... It wasn't joke"
It was time of 12 o'clock when someone awoke her. :" Miss Pakistan! Wake up please" a new face was waking up her. Firstly, she thought that it was her dream and she stayed asleep.
"lady Amraha! Please wake up, otherwise I'll spray this D-D spray on your nose..and trust me it's world's worst smell and it will not left you before week"
Amraha was eating Nihari with Dada in dream.
Spray's cap was removed and the dirtiest smell came to her nose. She was right, this smell would not go after weeks.
"Dada.." She got up by shouting.
" I still don't make the spray" she said after shaking her shoulders.
She looked at them with her sleepy red eyes and tried to recognize a girl who had green eyes. But her sight was blaring.
D-D's cap again removed and came to her nose, she stayed away it to her nose and this time her eyes were opened completely.
" how ill mannered method is this!" Amraha irritated & green eyes were widened. :"ill mannered.."
Amraha:" You people have studied in big universities of world, but you'll never learn basic morals."
This time green eyes were starring her with sarcastic manner:"Please come outside with patience" she left by saying this.
Amraha came outside after washing her mouth. She took more time with her consciousness that let them wait for her. But there were neither any table of delicious meals nor the smell of meals. However there was circle of 2 to 5 peoples. And there was noodles bowl placed among them. Some noodles were left in a bowl. Crowd was starring her.
" have a seat" a girl of brown hairs, said whose had made braid of Asian style, and she kept this braid on her shoulder like that there was snake who was ready to bite.
Amraha sat and thought that maybe there would be an introduction held before meal.
" this is miss Pakistan.. Amraha.." Hana said.
"hi! I'm Lily Col from Scotland" a girl of spray introduced herself.
" I'm Shirley Margot" a girl with brown hairs said. But she couldn't smile.
" I'm Batty Lo.. From Germany" a tall and thin girl said with smile. Amraha was observing that she was hardly controlling her laugh.
" I'm Azra from Chicago.." Someone said in broken Urdu. She observed her as Sharlet or Christiana because of her tom boy hair cut.
" I have told you that never touch anything...isn't it?" Hana started to speak.
" I was only gone washroom" she denied clearly.
Hana opened her mouth:" She's telling lie Shirley"
Shirley signed her through eyes and Hana was silent.
"this" Shirley pointed out bowl which kept on table.
" I don't know about anything..it is already kept there" that time, she was afraid and repented that why wasn't she washed that bowl.
" ok Amraha! You can go to sleep, sorry to disturb you"
" and what about dinner?" She got up and asked.
These five firstly looked at her then stared each other. Though Batty Lo covered her mouth but she could clearly see that she was hardly controlling her laugh.
"Do you still feel hungry?" Asked by Azra.
"no...  But it's necessary to eat dinner.. Isn't it?" She made excuse but she really felt hungry and it wasn't a matter of hunger but she was excited to think that which type of dinner were they arranged for her.
" we don't eat without hunger lady" Shirley answered with patience.
"don't offer meal also?" She said in Urdu. Except Azra, no one understood her and she eyed her. She went to room and slept on the floor mattress. She could hear the voice of their murmuring but she didn't care. :"let them murmur... I paid 30%.." And she fell asleep.
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When she woke up next day, and wondered to see the view of outside and shouted:" Uff! How much it's clean... How much it's beautiful"
A way, in which she came last night, this was view of backside of it where lots of greenery held in which many flowers were blossoming. She didn't find any particle of dust there. Like that, no human had come there from ages.
Her room was empty, even flat was empty. Bedcovers were without any crease on them. There wasn't any perfume on study table, washroom was also empty from face wash, shampoos etc. She came to kitchen and find a chit on counter.:" Your breakfast"
There was egg, jam, four pieces of bread, milk and sugar... One cup dry coffee and one tea-bag.
Remaining four cabinets were locked by the chain which had lock in between it. Amraha shocked to see it. But it was minor shock.  She didn't have phone, last night Hana phoned her to Pakistan. Now it was clear that she had to call from landline but after this minor shock, she had to make long call to talk to Dada. Then they had to pay heavy bill on this long call.
She found second chit on fridge:" Darbi will come to pick you for university at 8 am, be ready"
She got ready after breakfast. Exact 9 am, A little girl who seemed like woman, named Darbi came:" I'm Darbi, Shirley has told me to pick you for university"
Amraha:" I'm Amraha... I'm going university first time"
Darbi:" I can understand after looking you" she smiled and Amraha liked her smile. Even she liked her abrasion shoes and pant. Even her teeth with braces because she was stepping at the Manchester university. So she should like everything.
" hurry up! We're getting late" Darbi went outside fast. She locked flat and followed her. Darbi was ready to pick her with her small cycle. :" Come and sit" she pointed out the back seat of cycle.
So, she was picked on this cycle and Darbi was come to her specially.
:" What happen Amraha? Come on... I've to leave for my class also"
She sat on that small cycle, firstly she hid her shyness, then controlled her laugh... She had hidden her face behind Darbi and tried to control the speed of her laugh during crossing the road.
"dada!" She imagines dada:" I'm laughing so much that i want to jump on the road and laugh after holding my tummy and all Manchester will gather to see me. Dada! Sometimes, life makes tiny, ordinary excuses to make us laugh... Dada! I like these excuses of time which thread in my life"
She saw many time the hairs of Darbi which she tied in small ponytail. Which, God forbid us, was stigma on the name of ponytail. It's like tail of sparrow when it flies with the wind.
Darbi was driving cycle with solemnness like she was driving the royal Horse cart of king of Oman. She was bursting in laughter during their all way. She put off her from cycle and said:" How fat you're! Do jogging"  how Darbi rode with her, her sweating could easily tell her.

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep28

Recap:" Sanskar got conscious, swara asked him about his relationship with Shanaya. He met with Meera who reminded him that how he called her from her pet name"
Sanskar thinks her words and his veins of brain vibrate to think about her words which she used for Shanaya.. "personal prostitute.. Huh!" These words remind him , the darkest period of his life. But at the end, he can't tolerate any word against Shanaya. He doesn't love her, he's sure but he's grateful to her because this personal prostitute collected his pieces when he was broken into the pieces.
He goes towards Laksh's room where Swara is now. He goes inside and says to Laksh:" Lucky! I wanna talk to my Mrs? May I?"
Laksh nods and leaves the room, he goes to her. She's looking down but he can easily understand her wet eyes and shivering body. He slowly holds her wrist and says:" Come with me"
She lifts her eyes to face him and drags her body to match the footsteps of her husband.
Both go downstairs towards the garage.  He opens the door of car for her and she sits on front seat.
She doesn't know where is he taking her? Even she didn't ask any question from him. Their journey passed silently. Sanskar stopped the car at the small house.
Sanskar opens her door and again holds her hand without her permission. He closed the door and softly drags towards the home. But as she enters in the house, she realized that this isn't a house, this is s school or any institution but different from typical school. After passing two rooms and lounge, they enter the last room where she found Shanaya. Totally different from her daily look.
She's wearing simple shalwar qameez, she tied her hairs in genuine knot and her face is clean from every makeup. But her eyes are evident of her long weeping. A small guilt comes into her  heart.
Sanskar turns to her:" This is school for this prostitute and I'll pick you after an hour, until you can see that how my personal prostitute is doing that work which rejected by every pure and simple girl" he goes to Shanaya, Shanaya worries to see them there.
He holds her from shoulder and takes her towards Shanaya. She meets with her in normal style, she can't find any offence on her face regarding her words.
Sanskar :" I've some work, until you talk with her and visit your school to her, (he turns to swara) i hope you both will become friends after this meeting" his tone is soft and mild this time because he knows, emotions are not matter of force and pressure.
He leaves, she doesn't understand what to say, Shanaya calls someone and asked for attend class. She takes her towards another room. It's simple but clean room, there's single bed on one side and small study table in which two chairs are settle.
She sign her to sit, she silently sit and Shanaya makes coffee for them in coffee machine.
Shanaya gives her cup of coffee and sits on other chair. She silently takes a sip of coffee.
Shanaya:" This is our school, actually branch of our school, every year, we choose 20 to 30 children of every age from every state of India. Just on two basis, one they have poverty and second they've intellectual... We provided them a one year course to them of basic study, ethics, manners, self esteem etc... Then we transfer them to main branch of Delhi. Your husband's 80 percent of revenue comes in my hands for this purpose"
Swara forgets to take coffee and her mouth opens for moment. In this age, who gave 80% of their revenue to any stranger?
Shanaya pauses for a moment and continues:" Don't consider us as Robin hood type or any angel, we're demons who want to stop to produce demons like us. Now it's all clear but initially, we got success from blackmailing, or purchasing people... You know this is best thing, we know to do.. We mean , me and Sanskar... "
Swara is silently listening her words, she was also victim of his blackmailing, so she can easily believe on her words.
She continues her words:" We find the weakness of people and attack on the weak part for taking our purpose from the particular person, you know what Swara, we both saw the ugliest faces of people, even on those who's most respectful personalities of our society, and this is reason we hate lies, we hate our society, we hate peoples of our society, you can't understand because you didn't experience of this and I pray to god that you'll never experience of it, we gave to society which it gave us... Tit for tat"
Swara:" I don't agree with you, if we start to take revenge from everyone, then no one is left in this world who didn't harm us, directly or indirectly. Everybody become victim of society, even nature..."
Shanaya sighs and puts her cup on table:" Hmm you're right! But it's also depends on our instinct, evils are hidden in the instincts of us, we've this evils in our instinct, I and Sanskar have this already but society helped us to take out this evilness from our inside to out ...."
Swara:" You both are evil..?"
Shanaya:" Yes! We're same, this is a reason, we're so much close to him, and we're used to it even that we now don't consider this evilness to evilness because it's normal to us"
Swara's coffee is getting cold but she forget about to take it because her words are opening the new door of awareness for her. She spent clear life so it's completely new to her, she doesn't understand how this angel stuck in the peer of devils.
Shanaya beats slowly at the bottom of table from her finger tips.
Swara:" Evilness is the option, we've option to chose or left it, you both chose it"
Shanaya nods in no:" Maybe you're right, but evilness sometime, left as last option for us, either we've to choose it or live our life in a low level  like animals... We can choose evilness but can't live our life in a low level....you know what why?" She says in soft voice departing every word to other word. Her words are coming from her mouth like that pearl is falling on the surface of crystal, one by one.
Swara thought that she's really enchantress, who can easily spell by her words. Same as "why" comes out from swara's mouth automatically.
Shanaya looks into her eyes:" First, answer my questions honestly, I know you dont like me, but answer truly"
Swara wants to listen her more, so she nods her head in yes.
Shanaya:" Am I beautiful?".
Swara's mouth opens to listen this question.
Shanaya:" Tell me am I beautiful?"
Swara looks her, in this simple attire, she looks beautiful and her beauty can easily mesmerized anyone.
" Yes.. You're!" She answers honestly..
Shanaya smiles:" Now tell me...how's Sanskar? Is he handsome?"
Swara doesn't understand why is she asking this type of questions but she answers:" Not only handsome... If I say, god blessed him with male beauty, then I'll not wrong to saying it"
Shanaya smiles victoriously like that she got the answer what she wants.
She gets up and comes to her:" You know Swara! We both have many things common, this is also, but if we talk about the inequality of blessing of god, no one has everything.. Except some of his subjects, we both are included in this category..  The lowest and highest level of beauty and intellect brings virtue or disasters. We both have beauty as well as great intellectual and when these two things are combine in one person, he can become blessing as well as destruction, for the world and for himself too. But you know dear! This blessing is destruction in disguise... Because we can't spend our life in low level, death is better than live in lowest level for us.. Because it's our instinct.... And we can't quarrel against our instinct dear"
Swara is in spell of her words, these words are the words of another world which is completely strange for her.
Shanaya takes her cup in which coffee is left but she knows, she'll not drink it. There's small sink in room, she washes the cups and keeps them on shelf.
Swara:" Why didn't you both choose virtue?"
Shanaya smiles and turns to her. She sits on second chair beside her and lifts her cellphone from table.
She calls someone:" Hey Sanskar! Your wife wanna stay here more, don't come after an hour, you do your work, I'll drop her...... Yeah! She's absolutely fine here... No she's not crying... Don't worry... Do your work, we'll meet"
She disconnects the call and comes to her:" I wanna tell you one story, which will describe that why we didn't choose virtue instead of destruction... Do you wanna listen?"
Swara nods in yes, Shanaya starts her story which seems like fairytale but most horrible than nightmare.
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Sanskar is looking the God's beauty around him and he looks marvellous in this breathtaking environment. Even an artist can't stop himself to do his art after watching this view in which he sits.
He reminds the words of Swara and thinks about the cause of his life, his every action and its reaction.
Meera... A beautiful girl who comes in his life and made his life like hell. But it wasn't matter of beauty, because there's no lack of beauty a boy like him, it's more than that. He doesn't know why and how but he attracted by her simultaneously.
He started loving her, her making face, her naughtiness, her innocence. He was admirer of her completely. Rules and regulations of his home was very strike, he got limited pocket money but he always wanted to see his girlfriend happy.
He started part time job for purchasing gifts for her because she was orphan and she didn't have money to walk with the status of university. When he realized his love towards her, that time he decided that he must marry her because for him, she's respectable as well. He waited for the time when he gave his name to her beloved and make her respectable in front of world. He was gold medalist, most intelligent, perfect boy of family as well university.  But he was most foolish man who didn't understand that she was only taking opportunity of his company.
He remembers, it was time of marriage of Adarsh Bhai, he invited her in the wedding.
Meera:" Oh Sanky! What will I wear on your brother's wedding"
Sanskar:" You look beautiful in every attire katty"
Meera jerked:" I said, I've no any dress of  wedding dress code"
Sanskar thought:" Oh! Wedding clothes are often expensive and I already give you my all pocket money and salary... Now what will do?"
Meera:" This isn't my matter, do something otherwise, I'll not come in wedding"
Sanskar:" Dont do this katty, I wanna introduce you with my family, actually my mom suspected on me, but I told her that I'll tell her everything... I can't hide anything from my mom, but for you, I made her wait..."
Meera:" Why didn't you make excuse?"
Sanskar:" You know very well, I don't tell a lie, well I'll do something, you don't worry..."
He borrowed some money from Laksh and some from his friends. Vicky was his best friend, when he asked money from him, he stopped and looked him with seriousness. :" This is third time, you're asking money and I know this because of your so called gf"
Sanskar:" If you don't wanna give me money, then don't give but don't say any bad word against her"
Vicky sighed:" Ok Sanskar! But you've to stop her from doing all this, I'm your friend and I want to see you happy... And this girl... I don't know but I don't feel that she's sincere with you"
Sanskar:" I know you're worried for me, but dont worry dude! I can handle everything... And she's sincere with me, if she wasn't...then I absolutely detect her.."
Vicky gave him money:" I hope you're right, well I again say, don't take her on cloud nine... Otherwise this girl will become problem for you"
Sanskar took the money and pat his shoulder:" Don't worry dude! Sanskar can handle everything"
He said and leaved. Destiny smiled on his words and want to show him, his limit that look and think again before saying the words of greatness.

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Yaaram Ep4

It was also happened in those days that her ex-fiance was married to her cousin Maira. Moreover, that boy got promotion and company allotted them house and an one-month Europe tour as a wedding gift.
One day, Maira called her:" I told to Afrasayab that you are saved by marrying me otherwise if you have married Amraha then... Well... Leave this... By the way he'll be bankrupt and more than that... I don't know what will happen with him..."
She silently heard the fable of Afrasayab. At the end Maira said:" You also say something"
She disconnected the call, it was enough answer for her.
She was going to college regularly, but she sometimes talked to Dada. She was angry with him. Dadi and amma were not saying anything bad to her now. If something burned, dadi got sprain, Hamad met accident by motorcycle or Baba got loss in business; no one said anything to her. Because now this work had taken by outsiders with excitement.  Amraha felt that there was a jungle of darkness, in which she was wandering.  But she couldn't find any ray of light. She thought that people would forget everything but won't forget about her. She prayed that any kind of wind might be blown in the atmosphere which erased her name from the minds of people. And with that people would forget the incidents which was joint with her personality. If some guests came to home, she went to library. But she couldn't stay there after evening. Then she was wandering with Dada but didn't talk with him. Dada knew very well that she was afraid to face people. Specially from their relatives. And this fear was given by those people.
She was disappeared in the functions of relatives but she was still famous among them. She was the best topic for discussion and making jokes. She was player of the game of ladder and snake who was bitten by snake every time and she got the lower position... Everytime..
Jealous girls of relatives wanted to see the beautiful girl like Amraha in the lower position. But why only jealous girl? Who was not there; Who didn't want first number for themselves and last for others?
But human is one, no matter who praises himself but also covers the vices of others.
But this type of human isn't found in the crowd of people.
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She has become disgusting, sad and bitter by her environment and herself day by day. Doesn't know, it is any plan of destiny or any emphasis of nature that she's trying fast to derive out from this environment. In this one and half year, she applied in hundreds of foreign universities. Fifty percent, sixty, seventy percent, she didn't let go any type of scholarship. Dada tried his best to convince Baba to give some lacs for the study of daughter. But Baba had only one mantra:" Who spend lacs on the study?"
The student society of Manchester university was giving five scholarship from their personal fund. She also rejected by them. In this two years, she got these words almost two hundred times:" Sorry! You're a good student, but we can't help... Best of luck"  then she leaved counting of emails. But it's clear that there's no limit of refusal and failure but loser always has limit to tolerate her failure.
Refusal from Manchester university also gave her tears. And she sent them last email in rage:" I know I'm unfortunate, I'll die with fire...so what? You all go to hell and your offer of scholarship also go to hell"
Next day, she received the email in which she got the long lecture about the people who faced many problems in their lives and they got the success in their worst conditions. Mohammed Ali Clay and Charlie Chaplin were on top of the list. Then they also told her that she got B-grade in matric, and F.Sc. With only A grade; in this situation, if she would do graduation with A+ grade, it would not make any difference. Because in this situation it would be unfair with those who had marvellous academic results; if they gave scholarship to her.
"huh! The supporter of justice" she said.
In last time, there was a short sentence:" By the way, we're thinking maybe we will do something for you, give some time to us"
She gave time to them, what type of object she was to give them time. In these days, her BA result was also out. But board association maybe forbid A+ grade on her. As much as she put effort but they never gave her A-plus. She stayed angry but what she could do? She wrote plus sign (+) on her degree and mailed it to Manchester university. And her cleverness worked this time. After one month of thinking, they replied to her:" We're giving you 70% scholarship. You've to repay 30% during two years degree of university. And remaining 50% you've to within coming 5 years. Your food and residency; you've to handle all these. We only provide these facilities in temporary basis.
Then the words of "unfortunate and I'll die" worked there. Pakistanis like brutish shivered with fear and offered her scholarship.
She went silently with dada to make passport. Dada took out some of his money and some borrowed from his friends for paying remaining 30% of fees.
Now she was chirping with dada and pampered by him. She forget about her anger of years with dada. Again they're become friends. She was like that she was going forever and dada was pampering her that after two years, when she'll come, she must have forgotten about crying, dying and beating etc.
She went with dada to upper and lower class hotels and glanced her surroundings like that she was saying goodbye to everything forever. Dada observed her style and says:" Amraha! You're going for study... Only for study... Be remember that I'm giving you freedom for study, not for the other decision. Still me and your Baba has the authority for taking decision for you"
"ok!" She nodded but she thought that she would study and would do job there and didn't know, dada started thinking. She didn't have any interest in boys and he could write on stamp papar about the same.
Both were ridden in the white horse-cart which was running on road of Mall. She noticed today that how much everything was beautiful and perfect. Sitting with dada and looking at the lights of surrounding, she was eating khoya qulfi(a kind of ice cream lolly) and putting her hands below to qulfi because whenever qulfi fell down on floor, it had messed completely on the floor. And this shock was more than anything. And this shock would not decrease after eating 5 to 6 qulfies. We only remembered that fallen qulfi..
Plain, bright and historical road of Lahore, which made melody by the hoofs of horse which was running on the Maal Road. They came back to home like happy kids who spend their three days Eid(Islamic festival) by collecting the Eidi(sum of amount which was given by elders to youngers on the occasion of Eid). And they didn't go outside of the home if they missed the Eidi of someone. And at the fourth day of Eid, those kids went outside and what the style of their coming outside would be! Marvellous....!
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"Amraha is going after two days" dada announced at the dinning table.
"where?" Dadi asked, she thought that they often went to Baluchistan, might be this time she would go to Peshawar with dada.
Dada:" Manchester"
Everyone:" What's this?"
Dada thought that it would burst like bomb but it even didn't create the noise of cracker. We should take evil eye of their knowledge of geography. They didn't even know that the Manchester was the name of city and this city was located on England.
"is there any proposal come from there?" Dada got speechless after this question.
" your daughter is much talented that mayer of Manchester has asked her to come and study in our university" dada said in sarcastic voice.
"Amaraha is going abroad for study, her flight is after two days"
Now it made difference, Amma, Baba, dadi saw them with wonder.
" where do you get money?" Baba said with anger.
" she's going free, all expenses are carried by university" dada said.
Baba:" Baba! Why are you fooling me? Nowadays who do anything in free? Do you sale your plot? I have kept it for the marriage of Amraha and Daniya"
Dada tried to sale plot but it was located on depopulated place, so he couldn't sell it.
" plot is still there, you can go and check it"
Dadi:" She's not going anywhere, I have seen alliance for her, she'll get marry, it's enough"
"alliance...?" Amraha saw dadi and got up to go to her room. She was packing her bag quickly and also consoling herself that:" No one will stop me, I'll go from there.. I must go..."
Dadi, Amma, baba were arguing, now which type of alliance had come in this bad time she prayed that groom's family will know about incidents of her misfortune. Her family would cal her that how much this girl was unfortunate... Unlucky and black tongue.. Evil eyed girl. And moreover, someone might tell them about the incidents which related to her birth date. What was happened on Tuesday and 2nd of month?
Was this any time for alliance? Her fingers were pained by typing emails and filling the form of scholarships and now dadi and amma were preparing for marriage.
She was consoling herself and saying like that:" I'll go... I'll must go day after tomorrow.. Nothing will happen... Dada will do everything fine.."  she packed her luggage and kept safely her passport that whether baba would burn it in rage.
Night was passing and she was hearing the noise from outside. After hiding the passport, she laid by lean with the door of her room. She got the nap bur she still murmured:" I'll go... I'm going.."
Dada opened the door and listened ups and down of her murmuring.
He put pillow below her head. She was so happy first time at that night. She was so much happy that without any mattress, she slept on the floor. Dada was sad about her. He wished that if this environment didn't give any pain to her then she might have slept every night peacefully. If she got happiness in her home.... Then she didn't sob to make her eyes red and didn't afraid from them. Dada sat with her and stared her.. That parrot which has soul of parents, name children... And for him, that parrot is Amraha.
This type of love, he didn't have for her father, even other children of him. Once Amraha asked him in anger:" Why don't you become like others...why do you love me so much?"
He couldn't answer that question. Destiny is always generous to human beings, even if all world is against her still somebody love that person from heart and soul. That love may be any in form of human, any bird, animal or any other creature.Always purposeless hatred produces unconditional love. As much as she got the hatred of everyone, she got the love of him.
God never forgets that if his devotee got so many quills in her life then god must give the fresh rose to her. Then his devotee will forgive about the pain of quills after getting that rose. Dada didn't know the secret of his love, only God knew about it and who knew very well then he must do very well.
Baba gave 10,000 rupees to her for shopping while dadi and amma were angry with her. She did shopping with dada. Daniya helped her for packing. Ali and Hammad looked at her with sorrow because she was going so far from them.
Dada also was controlling tears from his eyes:" She's going for study, not eloping... Parents are not getting happy... At least you both say goodbye to her with happiness... Whether plan will crush and she'll get lost"
Dada gave this lecture to Amma and dadi and both forgot about their anger. And said goodbye to her with prayers.
And she leaved for Manchester which would be waiting for her.
City of lessons
City of independence
And....
City of beloved (Yaaram).

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Yaaram Ep3

In those days, it was happened that Baba's hand was burned and Dadi cursed her. She also answered to her then Baba slapped her with his burn hand. She hit her head on wall and it was bleeding. She felt pain in her head but she only cried due to Baba's slap by forgetting her head pain and blood from first part of a day to last part of night.  Then she put her some clothes in school bag, and went from her home. She walked... Walked.... Crossed the main road of home. She reached at main road then crossed it also.
She was just walked and crossed every road... Even she didn't afraid from the dirty dogs of footpath. Her eyes were filled with tears and hung bag on her shoulder. She walked like that she was (god forbid) alone in this world.
After reaching far from home, she didn't understand, where to go then she started crying after sitting on the corner of footpath.
" you made me tired Amraha!" Dada also sat with her, he had bottle of water. He took some water and also made her drink.
"I have left that house" she shouted after drinking water.
Dada:" You've to leave that home one day, because it isn't your home my child"
"why don't you go Dubai? Now I've done my matriculation"
Dada got confused:" I'm an old, weak, sick person, think to yourself that how can I go to outside the country, specially for the earning purpose... I'm so old... I also become deaf now"
Amraha:" Then why do you make promise?"
Dada stayed silent for a long time.. She was so young and especially possessed painful heart.. Now he could not console her by lies:" Why won't you go there Amraha?"
" where?" She put off her school bag.
" Dubai, America, Australia, canada, France" dada said.
"I..? And America, France?" She cried more vigorously that Dada reminded joke at her and started joking with her.
" yes! Grand daughter of Mirza Kamal,has topped in F.Sc. this year, she has got scholarship... It has two days, since she has gone to Canada... Amraha! You also top in F.Sc."
Amraha:"me.....?"
Dada:"yes Amaraha my child! Do top and go from here... Grand daughter of Mirza Kamal will come after seven years, maybe she'll not come here,she has to do three years of services in Canada also... It becomes 10 years.. Ten years and in Canada? Www here people after spending 20 to 25 lacs and she has gone in free... Think Amraha! How many benefits are of study? If you prove yourself, then this world will welcome you" in that last part of night, Dada was not less than Aristotle who taught Alexander about the conquer of conqueror.
And then Alexander the great was also conqueror.
And she took admission in college by her heart. Studied day and night. Only study..  She prepared herself to do top. She had belief like that she told every class fellow and friend that she will go Canada and spend ten years there..
" I'll go Canada, I'll spend ten years there"
" I'll become doctor and enjoy my life"
" yes! I already have this plan to spend my life in any European country"
"oh! This two years will pass fast and I'll go from here"
She was so happy in those two years. She got the knowledge of Canada as much that Canadian didn't know about themselves. Dada gave her those books which had the word of "Canada".
Then result was out.. But alas! She didn't get A-plus even. She ruined herself by crying. Dada avoided eye contact with her and silently applied scholarship also but where they have lots of double A then who will ask to simple A grade. In those days, dada got know that how many talented people this country had created.
Wherever, he submitted her form, he felt happiness to see crowd there but also felt sorry of his Amraha.
He understood that she could not get scholarship and it was also happened that she got three official letters of rejection but could not get admission form.
No one got the news in family that what was happening between Dada and Amraha. Why Amraha felt sick? Why was she not talking to dada? Why Amraha wasn't saying dada ji dada ji all time?
And she also got the call of class fellows and friends:" When will you going to Canada? Look! Must meet us before going"
"you've courage that you're going so far... I feel die to think about it"
She said with that belief in those two years that all her class fellows had believed that she will go. They didn't taunt on her but Amraha took it as taunt on herself.
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Baba fixed her engagement, she also agreed that if she could not  go to Canada then at least she could go to second house. After six months, her alliance was broken. It was cleared that they got to know about the incidents which related to her birth. Baba got angry but what could he do? He got angry on Amma and dadi that why had they spread this types of talks in society that her alliance was broken now.
Amma and dadi repented but it was late. .
Then again she got alliance second time,Baba gave the date of marriage immediately to groom's family without any custom of engagement or nikah. But 15 days before the time of marriage, that day when she was checking her bridal dress, she got the news of being widow of young sister of groom. That story was finished.
That time, she listened so many worst words that she attempted suicide by taking sleeping pills of dadi.
After a week, once she arrived home after being well, she wanted to take pills again and wanted to die.Amma and dadi will cry in the corners of house:" Alas! Our young daughter has passed away" they will cry vigorously. Dada will leave the house forever. And Baba and dadi will search dada like crazy people and dada will come to her graveyard at night.
She felt so much calmness after imagining of her death that everyone will cry who had made her cry.
But she only imagined about it but couldn't find courage to do that act of suicide again.
Dada tried to talk with her and convince to her.
A young girl tried to kill herself and this was happened due to that foolish talks. If she couldn't die by sleeping pills, she would must die by nervous breakdown.
Dada:" I don't have much money to send you abroad for study, marriage is also not going to happen of yours. I have talked to your father but he has made joke of it that it's better to make gold on your name instead of sending you abroad for study, Amraha! I'm disgusted by the people who do long prayer in sacred nights and involve in many types of sins. Lie, envy, dishonesty, backbiting... We don't do endeavour to spare ourselves from these bad deeds and we do ablution to stand for praying. Your ex-mother in law who has broken the alliance, she attends every religious occasion... She does debates on religious topics... I have also satisfied of this alliance because of this reason ... But she is like just a good-colored fruit which is rotten one from inside.... Our hypocrisy is eating our peace of environment like termite. We consider ourselves on right path, but we are going on wrong path by reverse feet.
Amraha! Part of my heart! Never attempt suicide again otherwise I'll also kill myself... Be responsible and study well... We must find any path.
Dada visited her 15 days tour of Baluchistan and convinced her to take admission in college.  But her life became more bitter that her two engagements were broken and no one was ready to take her hand in family. Mamu asked the hand of Daniya for her elder son.
Amma and dadi asked for Amraha by themselves but he forced only for Daniya.
"they're so coward that none of us is ready to take risk" she said bitterly to dada.
Dada replied:" A one who is far from god, they're coward like the same",
Amraha:" I'm not far from god, then why it's happening to me?"
Dada:"sometimes, destiny hits pebbles to sleeping persons because they will awake and proceed to achieve their aims of life"

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Swasan A Path hate to love Ep27

Recap:" Sanskar got the asthma attack and fit together. Shanaya slapped Swara while Laksh support her"
Sanskar comes to senses and now both Laksh and Shanaya is scolding him. And the one who want to dominant the world, is listening their scolding with smile. She knelt at the life side of her on the chair but both are on the bed with him.
Ragini comes inside the room:"you all are here, I was searching for you Swara"
Swara:" What happened ?"
Ragini sits at the corner of bed:" Nothing, I was feeling bother and you guys were disappeared, so what are you doing all?"
Laksh:" Nothing special... Actually.."
But Sanskar cuts his words:" Ragini! May I demand you something?"
Ragini:" Yeah sure jiju"
Sanskar:" Please cook dum biryani for me, which you made for us on first day of our marriage, will you?"
Ragini:" Yeah sure!"
Sanskar:" I feel hungry and I didn't take breakfast, so make it hurry"
Ragini gets up:" Ok ok!! I'm going to kitchen of your hotel and I bet, I'll make it more delicious than your professional chef"
Sanskar:" It was really good than them.." He said honestly and Ragini gets happy to hear her praise... She's about to leave when Laksh calls her:" Ragini! I also wanna eat"
Shanaya shouts:" Me too"
Ragini:" Ok ok! First let me go to kitchen" she leaves while giggling.
After leaving her, Shanaya hits him:" You demanded to make her leave"
Sanskar sighs:" You know very well then why are you asking?"
Laksh:" Yes Bhai! Not fair"
Shanaya:" Ohhh  lucky baby! Cant see to her would be Mrs to doing work"
Swara is shocked to listen her words and says immediately:" What do you mean Shanaya?"
Laksh passes his fingers into his hairs and says:" Actually Bhabhi! I love your sister, will you give me handSwara thinks for a while, Laksh is sensible man and last night incident proved that he's not so much careless That he seems like:" From me, it's yes! But I don't know about Ragini and my parents"
Shanaya:" Oh lucky baby! How do you leave me? You said me you love me? How do you do this with me?" She said like in drama style, it isn't seem like that she was so sad before few minutes.
Laksh:" Oh shanaya baby! Why didn't you inform me before? Now it's so late to marry me.. Uff Shanaya! Why do you do with me?" He said in dramatic way more than her.
Three of them are laugh to see their style. Swara suddenly felt misfit among them. Shanaya knows everything about them, Laksh is pampered by them, Sanskar leads them and love them. Everything is perfect among them, what's her place among them? She thinks and gets up from her place.
They suddenly notice her, Laksh calls him:" Where are you going Bhabhi? Come to us"
Swara:" No! I think my place isn't there, I should leave" she says slowly.
There face become pale for a moment.
Shanaya gets up from her place and comes to her:" I'm sorry, what I've done with you, I really didn't have right to do this"
Swara nods slowly and frees her hand from her grip.
Sanskar:" What happened Shanaya? What did you do?"
Shanaya told him everything, she thinks that he now scold Shanaya.
He calls Shanaya to him, she silently goes to him.
Sanskar:" Why did you do that Shanaya? I know you very well, you didn't like this, promise me, you'll not do anything like that?" He holds her hand to make promise and swara's heart completely burn to listen it.
Swara sees them in anger and just about to leave but Laksh again call her:" Bhabhi! Forgive her please"
Swara folds her arms and looks them with anger:" Why??"
Laksh becomes speechless of her"why".
Sanskar:" Lucky! We can't force anyone to forgive someone, it's her choice, let her what she wanna do"
Sanskar isn't taunting on her but don't know why she get it as taunt.
Swara:" You're right Sanskar! Now I should leave, you all are so perfect with each others, I dont know where's my place between both of you, Shanaya was perfect for you, why did you marry with me?, for the sake of revenge or just for the sake of flash?"
Sanskar looks her and smirks:" Oh! You get your tongue finally! I don't like when you give answer to me, but it's ok! I like your courage" sanskar gets up from his place and goes to her.
Swara claps to his words:" Ohhh! Wow! Shanaya can do anything, slap to your wife but I can't answer you... Oh great! Why didn't you marry with her? I'll ans you, you're such a hypocrite person, who slept with someone but for marriage, he wants a pure Virgin girl"
Sanskar gets serious to listen her words and comes close to her:" Now, you're closing your limit Swara! I was soft to you, that doesn't mean, I wouldn't do anything with you"
Swara jerks:" Yeah! This is your weapon, and why don't you use these weapons to Shanaya? Why is she here? What's her position in your life and what's my position in your life Sanskar? A toy, an only toy, she selected for you and you purchased...",
"Bhabhi... This was not like that.." Laksh comes to her but she raises her hands to him :" I'm talking to my husband and I want answer from him"
Swara turns to him:" Now tell me, what's my position, why am I misfit when there's Shanaya near you?"
Sanskar hardly controls his rage and looks into his eyes:" You're my wife Swara and she's my friend.. You two have different value in my life, one can't take other importance" his voice is soft and cold which is sign of his controlling rage.
Swara jerks for his answer because she wanna listen something else:" No! Sanskar Maheshwari... I'm a toy for you... And she...(she points out to Shanaya who's still in shock) she's your personal prostitute... Nothing else"
Sanskar shouts on her words:" Swara!!!" He raises his hands but Shanaya comes between them:" Dont do that mistake, which I did"
He looks Shanaya and glances his wife, then silently leave his place and goes outside.
Shanaya is hardly controlling her tears:" Lucky! I got remember... I've a work... I should go"
She takes her bag and leave. Laksh looks her with sorrowful eyes because he knows that she's right on her place but her style of expressing her thoughts and timing was wrong.
Laksh goes to her and softly makes her sit, he doesn't say anything, any word of complaining of his words... He just silently gives her water and changes the topic as like that nothing was happened there.
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 Sanskar is in lounge and calls his manager to bring cigarettes for him but Laksh and Shanaya already instruct everyone about it that dont give him cigarette.
Now he's irritating because he's helpless in front of these twos.
Suddenly someone gives cigarette to him, he feels bit relax but he angry to see her face.
He throws the cigarette:" I don't need any favour from you"
Meera smirks:" I listen which play was going on your portion, so you obviously need cigarette now",
Sanskar looks her:" Just go from here, otherwise I'll repent that why I left you alive"
Meera laughs to see her condition and sits on the sofa opposite him:" Oh darling! I can understand your condition... Why do you do that thing which you often do at the time of depression... Why do you make your life like hell just because of sake of so called loyalty"
Sanskar looks her:" I don't know, who's your spy among us, but will be soon I'll vanish you both"
Meera:" Oh sweetheart! I've no any spy, but I can understand everything after looking your face.. Off course! I still love you"
Sanskar smiles bitterly:" Oh love... Yeah! I believe you, you love me and which type of punish I'll give those people who love me, you know very well... I hate this word of love... Now go to hell Meera! Otherwise I'll lose my temper...",
Meera gets up from her place:" Oh! Finally you took my name... But why didn't you call me katty now... Seriously..... I'm empty without this word of katty...",
Sanskar gets up and holds her from shoulder:" Katty... Huh! Now happy... Just go from there to hell... You and with your pet name which I brought to you and I repent that I trust on the woman like you... Seriously... I want you go to heaven in another world because I can't tolerate you in the hell with me"
He leaves her and drags her towards entrance:" Just go from there ****** and never show me your ugly face again... Katty.... My foot" he said.

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep26

Recap:" Sanskar forgot to bring his sleeping pill while Swara refused to him for making love. He reminded his childhood"
Night is melting drop by drop and these drops are directly falling on her heart. She curses herself to refuse her beloved to touch herself:" Is this your love Swara? Your love is in pain and you're just starring her, doing nothing... If he can touch you, you isn't become of wax then you'll melt by his touch" her mirage is come in front of her and showing the real face of her love.
Swara murmurs:" I can't tolerate his attitude"
Mirage laughs on her:" Then why did you love him? Love means devotion, care about our beloved more than ourselves..."
She's about to say some words in her explanation but it was interrupted by the ring of bell.
His phone is ringing, she check the phone, "Shanaya calling" is flashing on the screen. Instead of giving phone to him, she received the call. There's no privacy among husband wife, isn't it?
Shanaya:" Doctor didn't give any response, it's already twelve of night and you know this state is not so developed, so I'm coming to you, if you dont want to go..."
Swara cuts her words:" Why are you coming here Shanaya? To heal my husband?"
Shanaya wasn't expected her on the phone:" Swara? It's good to hear you, please go to Sanskar! I know this time he's smocking, dont let him smoke please Swara"
Swara fumes to listen her words(why is he worrying about my husband? Who's the hell is she for doing this?) it's our husband wife matter that either I'll go to him or not, you've no right to interrupt between us"
Shanaya:" Swara! Try to understand..."
Swara:" I feel sleepy, you also go and get sleep... Bye" she disconnects the call and falls herself on bed.
She wanna go to Sanskar as well as she's afraid of him. She loves him but the intensity is not much high, if someone else is on the place of him, she'll love him because he's her husband. But there's something beyond the relationship of husband wife.
She wants to go to him as well she wants to stay away from him. She goes at the entrance of terrace but she doesn't go to him, he's smoking and she can clearly feel the restlessness of him. But she again reminisces his love and she steps back.
A tears break from her eyelashes and falls on her pale cheek. She feels if she stands there more, she wouldn't control herself. She goes to bed and tries to control her tears but tears are biggest cheater, it never listen ourselves. She's innocent girl who doesn't have so much experience of her life, so why destiny chose her for this exam? She doesn't understand this riddle which gave destiny to her for solving it.
Her sobbing is increasing in every moment which passed by the click of her heartbeat.
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Sanskar gets up from his place and goes to grill of terrace. The nights are witness of his horrible past, that's why the ruler of day is afraid of nights.
And she was first contributor of his destruction and we can't forget our first experience in our life, either it was first love or first exams of life, she was not only his first love but also his first exam.
Everything was perfect in his life, then she came. This was the  day of his college, he was teenager boy of 17, and as usual he made his first impression nicely to college teachers.
It was fresher party, when he saw her. Two girls are sitting in the corners. Someone said that these two girls are scholarship students. This was highest level college of city, not only city but also country. So only rich children are studying there. Some of students are on the scholarship, but don't know why he observed that no one like scholarship students even, didn't like to talk with them. But these girls are so beautiful, so many of the boys were try to to talk with them.
Sanskar smiles sadly after thinking about her first expression on his mind, she was wearing chocolate brown cocktail dress with same color of lipstick. Her friend is simple but she was also beautiful.  He smiled to see her taste of lipstick. His friends were joking on her to wearing this color of lipstick. That time, he didn't understand why was he dislike their making joke on her.
He stopped them and decided to go to her and talked her to remove her lipstick. He went to her and extended her hand to him:" Hey my name is Sanskar Maheshwari"
She made face on him and ignored him. He didn't understand the reason of her ignorance:"if you come here to realize me that I've a bad taste of lipstick, then you're wrong, I like it and why am I remove it just for your sake?"
He smiled to see her confident and made excuse:" I actually came here for this purpose but really, today you teach me a lesson that why we change ourselves just because the sake of others? You like it, you can wear it, just end of the story!" He raised his hand and both girls giggled to listen his words.
[19/01 12:29 pm] Saba: His eyes captured her picture while her happiness and he stopped at one click. She's really so beautiful, he was sure, god made her in his free time, her curve to her hairs, everything was perfect.  This was a reason, she was looking beautiful in that unsuitable makeup also.
She made face again on him which showed her childish nature. He laughed at her and went to his friends. He strictly forbade them that don't make joke on her. His friends understood that the cupid left his arrow on him:"when she was made faces like that she just looks like cat... No kid of cat...ufff!! She's soooo cute, how can anybody become so cute? She's my katty... Yeah! This perfect name of my love" he said and his friends were teasing him because he first time he praised any girl.
Sanskar sighs and pulls the smoke, it was his fourth cigarette:"katty..." He smiled bitterly and reminds that how much he was happy with his family and friends. If he even wish now, he can't join the pieces of jigsaw puzzle.
A strong layer of pain is come in his head. He understands that it's first sign of his fit. He tries to control his headache but he can't control his rage by thinking that how his happy life ruined. He crush the burning cigarette into his palm without the awareness of pain. He break all stuff which he found nearby him.
He goes to his room and Swara gets up to see him, he was in full rage, he's as cold as ice but he made him cold in front of the world. A cold killer, who showed calm and relaxing face to the world but actually he has fire in his heart. This is a reason, he needs woman to take out his fire, his rage at once. He looks Swara and think for a while:"get out from here"
Swara is shocked to see him in this mood and condition but doesn't move to her place.
He hardly control himself and holds her wrist, she can understand his inner condition by the grip around her wrist. He drags her outside the room and locks the room. Swara is shocked to see his condition and action. After few minutes of shock, she immediately understand what was happened, she really didn't know the conclusion of her refusal.
She doesn't understand what to do. She knocked the door many time but she only heard the voice of breaking things. She is crying and cursing herself to refuse him. A deep pain is knocking at the door of her heart to realized the condition of her love. She falls on the floor with helplessness. She doesn't remember how much time was passed when she feels touch on her shoulder.
It is Laksh, she hurriedly gets up, her eyes are still flowing tears.
Laksh gets worry to see her in this condition:" What happened Bhabhi? Is everything ok? Bhai? Is Bhai ok?" Her condition and close door are alerting him that everything is not fine.
Swara tries to make him understand the condition but her tears become barrier to complete her words:" Sanskar... Closed the door... His sleeping pills was over..." She tried to complete her words but it doesn't need to make him understand, who knows everything already.
Laksh was come from hunting, he throws his bag and tries to open the door, but it was locked from inside. He looks the wet face of Swara and says:" Don't worry Bhabhi! I'm just coming back" he goes and she doesn't know, how is he arrange the key of room, he opens the room and she's shocked to see the condition of room, everything is witness of storm who is faint now.
Laksh is also worried, but he's not shocked, because it's not new for him.
Swara:" I brings water to make..."
Laksh turns to him:" Water isn't make any difference, you just call the doctor...and give me his inhaler"
Swara:" Inhaler.... What do you mean inhaler? I don't know about his inhaler? But why inhaler?"
Laksh jerks now because of tension,( how good wife she is? Who even doesn't know that his husband has the problem of asthma) he only thinks but doesn't say anything to her. He lifts him and goes to his room. He makes him lay down on bed because his room isn't in condition to use it.
Laksh calls Shanaya to inform the condition and turns to her:" Bhabhi! Lock that room and nobody allow to that room untill I'll arrange this room in initial condition, don't say anybody about this incident, anybody mean anyone including Ragini and our family, I called doctor, he'll come soon and next time, keep inhaler with you, because Bhai is careless about it. Before marriage, Shanaya did this, if you can't anything else, at least do this" she can clearly observe the coldness in his words because he understands the situation.
It was dawn time, but Shanaya arranged the doctor and doctor gives him oxygen through oxygen mask because this time inhaler doesn't work for him.
He turns to Laksh:" Mr Maheshwari's condition isn't good.."
But Laksh interrupts into his words:" Dr! That is Mrs of Sanskar, you go and tell her" he points out to her who is still shedding tears because of him.
Dr turns to her:" Look Mrs Maheshwari! Your husband asthma problem isn't so big, but you know he commonly get fits and asthma attacks together, this isn't good.. Moreover, he takes regularly sleeping pills and smoking, smoking is poison to him.. Never let him smoke, otherwise next time. We cannot do anything"
She thinks that someone pushed her in the flames of fire. Doctor goes after giving some instructions.
After going to doctor, Shanaya comes to her. She's controlling her rage hardly just because of doctor, after that her rage is coming back and she remind last night words of her. Her hand is raised and left mark on her right cheek.
Swara is shocked to her deed, not even Swara, Laksh also doesn't expect this thing from her.
Shanaya:" I was greatest fool who advised him to do marriage and forced him to marry with you.. You didn't leave any chance to kill him... Now be happy Swara to see him in this condition... Don't worry, once he will get fine, you get your divorce paper soon... But please go from his life... At least...",
"Shanaya!!"
Laksh comes to in front of her:" Stop it... She'll not go anywhere, she's our family member and she's not responsible of bhai's condition, you know very well.. What happened to you Shanaya? You was the happiest person from his marriage and now...?"
Shanaya hugs him and he supports her, Swara first time see them in this broken condition which makes her understand that how much Sanskar is important in their life..
Laksh makes her sit and now making her drink water, she's saying something to Laksh but she can't understand the words clearly. Even she doesn't want to understand her words, she's just worried about her husband, she goes to him and holds his hands and whispering to him:" Sanskar! Come soon, I'm sorry for everything... Come to me Sanskar... Come to me... Otherwise I'll die without you"
Her love was newborn tender plant until yesterday, but it's only the power of love that this tender plant's growth is much fast and it spreads its root into the depth of heart. Only one shock of destiny make mature her love. She kisses on his hand while crying..
Laksh and Shanaya see her act and very tiny smile of hope comes on their faces....

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