Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Silence Before The Brewing Storm) Episode 25 Season 2

Sorry Guys! For late update. Actually my exams are lined up and entrance exam coaching classes are started. So getting less time to write ff. Sorry for the inconvenience. Anyways this is a long update. Please tell your views..
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Sanskar's POV
With a bound, the molten, fiery & red sun came above the horizon & immediately thousands of little birds sang out for joy & a soft chorus of mysterious, glad murmurs came forth from the earth, the low whispering wind left its hiding place among the clefts & hollows of the hills & wandered among the rustling herbs & trees, waking the flower buds to the life of another day. Yes! It wasn't just an another day for me rather a precious day of my life.

Today, I would come to know the exact severity of her disease. The entire day was passed in enmeshed condition. Would she be all right? Could she lead a healthy & hefty life? These thoughts conflated my mind but I tried not to show my perplexity to her. During the approaching twilight, I received a confirmation message from Laksh about the arrival of the doctor.

I conveyed her about the arrival of the doctor & asked her to sort all the reports in a file for easy check up. Just then, the bell of the outer door rang & in a swift voice, she asked me to open the door as she was busy in arranging her reports. I opened the door & found out a fair skinned, grayish hair person was standing near the door like a gentleman.

In a confirmed tone, I asked him,"Are you Mr.Johnson?" And as per my expectation, he nodded positively & said,"Mr. Laksh Rathor has sent me here." Cutting his words, in a pardoned tone, I articulated,"Mr. Johnson, sorry to interrupt you! But please don't take Laksh's name in front of the patient."

To give me assurance, he placed his hand on my shoulder & said,"Don't worry! Laksh is a good friend of mine & he has told me about the medical history of Swara Suryavansi & asked me not to take his name in front of her due to some personal stuffs. You don't take any tension for that. I won't utter Laksh's name in front of her. By the way, you must be Sanskar.."

I nodded & thanked him for his understanding & welcomed him inside. I called out swara & she came running to the guest room with a bunch of reports. I introduced her with Mr. Johnson & she politely thanked him for his coming & handed over all the reports to him. Mr. Johnson carefully observed all the reports. In the mean while, swara served him snacks & coffee which he politely denied to take.

A few moments had already passed & she was sitting besides me. We both were eagerly waiting to hear from him. My heartbeats were undulating in a rapid pace. Might be she was able to sense my flustered state of mind; so, she squeezed my hands with her soft, milky palm to give me assurance.

Her touch created a wave of smile on my face though my anxiousness was still intact. Just then Mr.Johnson took off his spectacles & placed it on the table. While closing his both hands & putting them on the table, he asked,"So Swara! You must be aware about your disease. You are facing a rare syndrome of Alcoholic Neuropathy. The reports of diagnosis have reflected that you are still on your initial stage, which is definitely a good sign. Abundant alcohol drinking, malnutrition & stressful conditions have led to the occurrence of these rare symptoms of this disease. Weakness, numbness, cramps, swells, vision impairment are the normal symptoms of this stage. If proper care & nutrition won't be started at the right time, then it can cause severe disability & discomfort to certain body parts."

After hearing from Mr.Johnson, I became numb. Many mixed emotions were swelling inside my mind. Unknowingly, I stammered,"Can't she be cured fully, doctor? Can't you recommend any procedure to eradicate this disease fully from her body?" Swara was staring me lovingly with her bluish eyes.

Being a doctor, Mr.Johnson could easily detect my apprehensive state of mind & calmly said,"Proper nutrition, meditation & physical therapy can control this disease & also prevent it from spreading further. However, all these require a good deal of fighting spirit & patience but it will cost a lot...."

Cutting him, I uttered,"Money isn't a matter, doctor! I want her cure at any cost. Whatever procedure you will tell for her survival, she will follow all of them sincerely. She will fight to get her life & I will be always behind her to protect her. We both will fight against this disease but please save her, doctor..."

Mr. Johnson smiled briefly & said,"She will be alright, sanskar! We have to start the medication processes from tomorrow itself & swara! Don't touch a drop of intoxicant & you must not miss your regular medicines else it will deteriorate your health & make an adverse impact upon the safety procedures."

She was listening to him carefully & the flashbacks of dark cellular jail was coming to my mind. Due to the skip of doses, she had developed all these symptoms there. I felt sorry for my mistakes though more than 7 months had passed to that incident. Just then Mr.Johnson's words broke my thoughts. He was asking swara of being married or not.

I didn't let him finish & asked confusingly,"Why are you asking this, doctor?" Taking a brief pause, he started,"It is a private matter! I want to share it with her family members." Quickly swara responded,"Sanskar is my family, doctor. You can tell anything in front of him."

Genuinely! To be trusted was a greater compliment than being loved. Today, she proved that how much she was serious for me! I felt bliss to get a holy sole like her. Just then, Mr.Johnson said,"Oh! I am sorry. Sanskar must be your husband. His care and anxiety for you seem like that only. But this disease can create obstacles in your married life."

Before Mr.Johnson could say further, she stopped him & asked,"What do you mean, doctor?" In a patient tone, Mr.Johnson said,"Sexual dysfunctions are common to this disease. May be you can't conceive in your life if the medications won't give desired result. Sexual involvements are risky & because of that only many relationships are broken earlier. Sometimes the matter has also dragged to court proceedings."

Swara was looking stunned. In a pale face, probably she was expecting some answers from me. Earlier Laksh had already given me hints about these outcomes, I thought. I held her hands tightly & in a determined tone replied,"Thanks doctor for your concern! But she is my better half.. If there is 'better' then there is a 'best'. If there is 'half' then there is a 'complete'. Far more than being a 'better half', she can be 'best complete', like a phrase that beautifies & gives meaning to a sentence when it is added, likewise she completes the existence of my life. She isn't a pleasure or lustful object for me to be used. She deserves love & care & I will fight for her safety no matter what."

She was looking at me in puzzled eyes, like lots of queries were going on in her mind just like the webs of spider. I knew that she must be confused about my acceptance of her as my wife. But I wasn't at all shocked about my revelation as I truly endured her as my wife, my life & my everything. So, it didn't matter if I was married to her or not.

Mr.Johnson encouraged my sportive spirit & said,"Swara! I have listed all the medicines & your daily schedules in this piece of paper. Follow this routine for the next fifteen days & then let me know about it. So that, I can check up you & know about your progress." She nodded positively while carefully taking that paper from his hand.

Turning his gaze towards me, Mr.Johnson asked,"Sanskar! Can you join with me now to outside? Actually if you are free, then I want to show you the medication & rehabilitation centers today so that she can start the procedures from tomorrow." Quickly I agreed to go outside with him as nothing was more important to me than swara.

I told her to be careful before moving out with Mr.Johnson. He had brought his own conveyance. So, I didn't take the car & accompanied him in his car. Through out the entire journey, I asked him lots of questions about her health & like a senior and worthy doctor, he handled all my queries & answered them without any frustration.

He showed me the medication & rehabilitation centers & also helped me to enroll her name there. He offered me to drop near the home but I politely denied as I didn't want to give him unnecessary burden when I could ride to home by a hired cab. He dropped me on the side of main road, so that I could easily get a cab. I thanked him for his generosity & bid him goodbye.

Twilight had already fallen. The sky turned to a light, dusky, purple littered with tiny silver stars. The sun had already dropped beneath the horizon & then denoted, torching the racks of clouds stacked up above the downtown skyline. In this enchanted weather, I was roaming in the main street to get a cab.

Just then my eyes fell upon a banner. 'The City Lights Publishers' advertised recruitment opportunities to young creative writers with a lump sum salary package with certain remunerations. I used to write during my teenage but after that my life had changed upside down with my mom's death & I was engulfed in darkness.

However now as I had already abandoned darkness & got swara by my side, so, I wanted to give this job a try. Her medical procedures & medications needed a lot of money & I wanted a job of good salary for that. Though she was a billionaire girl & could afford her requirements, but she was my family now & I wanted to take this responsibility by my own.

After all family wasn't always blood. It was the people in your life who wanted you in theirs; the ones who accepted you for who you were. The ones who would do anything to see you smile & who loved you no matter what. Right now! Only swara was apt to be called as my family & I wanted to lead a decent family life with her.

I searched my phone inside the rear pocket to note down the details of the publication house. But alas! I didn't find my phone as probably I had left it in home due to hurry. I checked the arrow headed directions which were shown in the banner & tried to remember it to reach to its office.

Thanks to my slayer nature & potential, I was too quick to memorize them. Quickly I hired a cab and reached to the publication house location. Luckily the office was opened and I collected all the information from the receptionist about the job profile. Basically I had to mail them some creative short stories to be selected in this job. I obtained the visiting card of that office & came out of it as I had to reach home early else swara would be worried for me & over the top, my phone wasn't with me as well.

I had to cross the mini lane to reach to the cab which I had hired earlier. While crossing the street, I felt like someone was following me. First, I ignored this feeling but after sometimes also I felt the same. My instincts couldn't be wrong always, I thought. I had a perfect ability to sense the presence of humans due to my assassin nature.

I stopped from further moving & rotated me eyes to check the surroundings. I couldn't doubt any person or couldn't identify any familiar face. The road was crowded and all were busy in their own stuffs. Still I couldn't feel safe and started running towards the cab. As soon as I reached to the cab, I asked the driver to hurry up & I changed my daily route multiple times before reaching home.

After travelling certain kilometers, I felt safe. Though I couldn't see any known face, still I sensed a strong ardent intuition of stalking. I was sure that one day my alive news would be unveiled & might be the past had arrived to haunt me again. I was sweating through out the entire journey.

Swara's POV
Today was a hectic day for me. After my check up, I came to know about a few new things regarding my disease. I was really scared when Mr.Johnson told me about my sexual dysfunctions & the inability to conceive in my life. I looked at sanskar with a tensed face. However the dignity he had given me today by calling me as his wife was truly a moment of felicity for me.

Genuinely! True love didn't need a contract or a certificate of marriage and loving someone & having them love you back was the most precious thing in the world which I felt today. Sanskar had gone with Mr.Johnson to check the medication center & hadn't returned yet. I thought to call him as already 2 hours had passed from his outgoing.

I dialed his number but he didn't pick up the call. Instantly, I again dialed & this time I could hear the ringtone of his mobile from the near by location. Had he arrived already?, I thought & again dialed his number. But this time I could detect that his phone was ringing from his room & he left the phone here without taking it with him.

How could he be so irresponsible? There was always threat to his life in every passing moment but seriously! This guy would never change.. By staying with me, he was behaving like a normal human being, not like a slayer; I thought. Mixture of emotions, bliss & fear were overpowering my mind & just then breaking my thoughts, his phone again rang.

Oh god! These bank guys were always irritating him, I thought. Earlier also they had called sanskar. So, I tried to ignore the call without even seeing the caller ID & after sometimes it stopped ringing. While I was coming out of his room, again his phone rang. This time I rushed to pick up the call to inform the caller about his absence else this phone would repeatedly ring. But after seeing the caller ID & number, I was stunned. How many shades did you possess, sanskar?; I thought while moving a few steps back from his phone.

Credit to:Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Taste Of Love) Episode 24 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I came out of my room after attending Laksh's call. 'I have remembered the time, I let you go from that dark cellular jail or the time I have dropped you here to go far away from me before I will change my mind & captivate you again or the time you have saved me from crossroads & caught me up in your lap. You may or mayn't remember any of those, but I do & this is what I have to say to you; today, no matter what it takes, we will grow together, will make our lives worthwhile & I promise to make you smile.', I thought & rushed towards swara.

She was looking at me ambiguously & asked questionably,"Sanskar! Who has called you now? Is there any problem? Has your identity revealed by chance?" A sense of phobia & anxiety were clearly reflected from her facial expression. I was confused as why was she asking me these types of awful questions?

In flustered tone, I asked her,"Why are you asking me these types of questions?" Without making any delay, she immediately replied,"This is your new number. Except me, none has any idea about this phone number. So, who has called you now?" By saying so, she hugged me tightly like she didn't want anybody to take away her love from her sight.

I was overwhelmed by looking her pious love for me. Many mixed emotions were surging in my heart. Honestly! There was never a time or a place for true love! It happened accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing & throbbing moment.

I parted her from me & gently rubbed my palms on her cheeks & said,"Swara! Don't be frightened. It's a call from the bank. You must have remembered that before some days I have gone to bank & for some information, their agent has called me as i have given this new number there." I lied to her again by hiding about the call from laksh. It wasn't that I didn't want to convey her about laksh but I was waiting for the proper time to unveil this truth to her.

She was relieved after hearing my words but with much anguish, she yelled,"How can I forget that day, Sanskar; when I have come to know about my real existence. I am born to bear the hatred."

I gave a peck on her forehead & said,"You are my angel. You remind me of the goodness in this world and inspire me to be the greatest sane version of myself. Then how can you say that you are born to be loathed.. Look at my eyes swara! You can see the myriad of passion & endurance of love in my eyes only for you! And from now onwards, you won't live alone. We be life, we be fire, we be light, we sing electric flame, we rumble underground wind, we dance heaven! We be together & face the obstacles further."

In a state of shock, she fumbled,"Then won't you ever leave me sanskar?" I nodded,"Yes,I won't leave you." & after listeing this, like an innocent child, she jumped in extreme joy. I held her from her shoulder & said,"Now don't be sad ever! And swara! Talk to your mom once. My friend always says,'Truth has many sides...' So, talk to her & sort out this matter." Suddenly her facial expression changed to a serious one & she said,"No way sanskar! I can't talk to her now. I even don't know how to face her or what to ask her..."

She was right at her own place & this wasn't a mere issue to be settled immediately. Above all, today was the day when I officially accepted my feelings in front of her. So, I didn't want to spoil this exquisite moment by making her sad. Therefore, to divert her mind, I said,"No problem swara! Take your time. But don't be dishearten today. I am sorry for my behaviour of day before yesterday. You have fondly cooked for me but I haven't appreciated you. But today I want to make up for that mistake."

Cutting my words, in a chuckling voice, she asked,"So! Mr.Sanskar! Are you going to perform the activities of a chef today for your angel?" I giggled & said,"Anything for you, your highness!" She grasped me from my waist & put her head on my chest & said,"Sanskar! Life is beautiful because it is a controlled yet chaotic dance of ups & downs where we are blessed with the ability to sense those pains & pleasure equally. And I have already experienced the sufferings.. Now it is the turn to endeavor meadows of felicity."

I felt happy for her still I was unsure for my future. I didn't know about the Pandora's box that my future had stored for me. I gently parted her away from me & said,"Now let me go, else how can I make food? Then your Majesty will suspend me from chef's job."

In a sniggeringly voice, she said,"Sanskar! Now if you don't prepare delicious foods, then I will surely terminate your job." By saying so, she started beating me softly. I couldn't take off my gaze from her & entangled my hands inside her fluffy & lustrous hair & dragged her closure to me & planted a kiss on her temple & cheeks & then quickly rushed to the kitchen by leaving her there.

Swara's POV:
He wouldn't leave me now. He, himself had agreed to stay with me forever. I leaped in bliss & just then he kissed me on my cheeks which made me startled. His sudden reaction in form of a kiss turned my face to crimson red. Honestly! No one could know her own beauty or perceive a sense of her own worth until it has been reflected back to her in the mirror of another loving & caring human being. I realised my worth today because sanskar was a part of my life.. Oops! He was my life not a mere part only.

I went to kitchen to help him. But he clearly denied to take my help. Instead he grabbed me from my waist and lifted me to the elevated shelf of the kitchen & said,"Be seated here & enjoy my cooking." With much love, he was cooking for me. A few drop of tears came out of my eyes by making them moist as till now none could ever try to cook for me, not even my own mother.

Watching him cooking for me with so much love & concentration, I felt like hugging him tightly to show my gratification. Just then he looked at me & while covering the food stuffs with lids, he asked,"Why are you checking me out?" I came out of my thoughts & while tugging a hair strand behind my ear, I recited,"Check out!! Huh! Well! Mr. Chef I am checking you out to understand the methods of preparation of these delicious food stuffs & I don't know that you can also cook."

While sprinkling pinches of spices on the Chicken Marengo, he replied,"You have actually spoiled my attitudes. So, I sit idle here else in the dark world, I have used to do all my stuffs of my own." I looked at him contently & asked,"Will you teach me the procedures to make these recipes?"

He nodded smilingly & put me down from the elevated shelf & said,"Now go. Seat on the dining table. I will serve you in minutes." I hugged him tightly to let my emotions outrush & said,"Before meeting you, my life is a burden for me. Death is easier & painless to me than life itself. But not anymore sanskar! I want to live, to cherish every moment with you. Life is beautiful when you are with me."

He consoled me by hugging back tightly & uttered,"Nothing will happen to you. Till I am with you, even death has to defeat me to touch you. Now cheer up else my food stuffs will be salty due to your tears." I smiled feebly & beat him softly.

He grabbed my two hands & said,"Oh gosh! Earlier I have beaten many people but now I will be beaten everyday. Oh god! Save me." I laughed heartily due to his tantrums & he said,"Always be happy swara! Your beauty touches its excellence during happiness. Now go else I need to heat up the pan again." I nodded & left the kitchen.

Sanskar's POV
Today, I cooked only for her. Till today, after my mom's death, nobody cared for me in the way she had done in past couple of months. But suddenly she was so worried & scared for her death that those anxiousness, nervousness & uneasiness were quite fairly visible through her changing facial expressions. Though I was able to console her & to divert her mind by my silly jokes but from inside I was too scared for her health after remembering the words of laksh.

When she moved out of kitchen, I immediately messaged Laksh to arrange a doctor within 2 days. Within minutes, I got his reply that he had already arranged a reputed doctor of USA and by tomorrow evening, he would come here to check up swara. I thanked laksh through message & served all the foods on dining table.

Swara's POV
Different colourful varieties of food stuffs were adorned on the dinning table like charming petals were blossomed on the meadows of grassland vegetation. We ate together. I tasted all the recipes and honestly! I couldn't find a little bit of lacuna in the preparation. All dishes were up to mark & tasted delicious. Might be the love, he had poured in it during preparation, made the taste heavenly.

Breaking the silence, he asked hesitantly,"Swara! I want to tell something serious to you. Please agree with it. Don't deny." The half gulped chicken bite came out of my mouth after hearing his words. Did he want to leave me now? Had all these preparations made to cherish our last moments of togetherness?

I asked him restlessly,"Do you want to leave me?" He kept his left palm on my hand & squeezed it a bit to give me assurance that he wasn't leaving. Hurriedly I asked,"What is the matter, sanskar?" In a confused tone, he said,"swara! I want you to check up from a doctor for your disease. Please don't disagree..."

In a relaxed tone, I said,"Oh!! This is the matter.. OK sanskar! I will again go to the doctor for check up but I am continuing my medicine. So, there isn't any trouble." Cutting my words, he said,"No! No! I have arranged a doctor to check you up here only as I can't accompany with you if you will go to your regular doctor as you are a famous name in the society & this can also reveal my identity of being alive. So, specially I have arranged a doctor from abroad to treat you."

Without any hesitation, I accepted to him as love was made up of three unconditional properties in equal measures: acceptance, understanding & appreciation. Truly I understood his care for me & I felt happiness to get him in my life.

To cheer him up, I said,"So, Mr. Chef! Food is flavourful. I won't terminate you from job. What will you demand in salary?" He smiled & said,"I can make you smile by my little effort, that's all, I want. Well! About salary, let's see later. But now you go to sleep & be prepared for check up. Don't worry about these utensils. I will wash them before sleeping."

Through I asked to help him in washing but as if he would listen to me! He vividly protested and sent me to sleep. Might be life was all about twirling under one of those midnight skies, cutting a swathe through the breeze and gently closing your eyes, I thought and covered myself under the duvet to sleep peacefully before facing the unforeseen future tomorrow.

Credit to:Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (A Sense Of Togetherness) Episode 23 Season 2

Sanskar's POV

Her grips around my collarbone were tightened. She was an enchanting illumination & I was engulfed in obscurity. Like a butterfly was tempted towards fire, even after knowing that the fire could extinguish its existence; in the same way I was tugged towards her, even after knowing about my individuality.

Throughout my life, I was encircled around gloominess & was thirsted for light. Now she was showering her divine light on me & her light was forcing me to consume every bit of her. I was no longer in my own control. Her lips were tastier than marshmallow. Her feathery soft skin created undulating waves in my soul & connected all the broken strings of my heart.

Her closeness was making me desperate as I was living in solitude till now & her moaning of my name again & again was making an impact on my brain to consume her beauty more & more.

Swara's POV

I made him realise about love and his possessiveness for me. From eternity, I was deserted and now I didn't want to lose his intimacy. I clung my lips with his to make him mine forever. My brain was out of my control, so as his. He devoured his lips with mine in such a way that I moaned his name.

My moaning was setting fire in his dusky eyes & he crushed his lips more harshly with mine. This vigorous touch of his harsh lips was giving me forbidden pleasure. Genuinely! Today I felt that love was composed of a single soul, inhabiting in two bodies. 

I didn't know why it seemed to me that we were always in unison, he was the only one for me from eternity but circumstances divvied us into two & then both of us lived our lives in yearning & melancholy until we wished to be united with each other again..

Now we found our twin soul & our lives were complete. He gave a love bite on my lips & this time I bemoaned his name so loudly that he jerked from me. We both were panting heavily. He set himself free from my embrace & by lowering his gaze, in a painful tone said,"I... I amm.. sorrrryy.. I haven't done this purposefully. My mind is out of my control & I have crossed my limits.. Sorryyy..."

I didn't let him complete his statements by putting my finger on his lips & said,"I'm selfish, impatient & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. And you are the one, who has handled me at my worst. When everything in my life is a lie, then you are the only dazzling truth. I love you & I know about your feelings too. Please don't defame this sacred feelings by asking for apology."

I could sense the myriad of emotions going inside him & in a murmuring tone, he uttered,"Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that we can't remain together!! The problem is that as much as I can't stop you to love me, the same way I can't force myself to stop loving you. You are the one who has ignited a sense of remorse in me. Your presence has resurrected me & has made a new person out of me, just like my mom's wish. If this is the feelings of love then yes! I do feel the same for you, swara!!"

I couldn't control my overflowing emotions & embraced him so tightly that I could hear his heartbeats. With a forbidden bliss & heavy heart, I said,"Don't hold back your love, sanskar! Express yourself! I want you. All of you. Your flaws.. Your mistakes.. Your imperfections.. I want you and only you. I know who you are & I don't care about your past. After my mom's betrayal you are the only one I have left. This is my life, my story... my book... I will no longer let anyone else to write it & be a cause of my sorrow nor will I regret for the edits I have made to insert you in my life.."

Sanskar's POV:

I embraced her back tightly to console her & said,"Don't feel bad for your identity. Where have you born isn't supposed to be in your hands. Don't make the situation worse by attending parties & consuming alcohols. It won't bring any benefit. And swara! I am like a poisoned bread. I may eradicate your appetite of loneliness for the moment, but there is death in it at the end. Forget me swara & let me go because I am also a nightmare for you which can ruin your life."

Before I could say much, she came very close to me & said,"Sanskar! Can you feel my heartbeats? The pulsating rhythm of my heartbeat is thrilling because of your closeness to me. How can you even think of leaving me, sanskar? You are the first & last thing in my life which only belongs me. If you are thinking that the darkness will engulf me if I will remain close to you, then let the darkness may engulf both of us as staying without you is a much more curse than assimilating in darkness."

Girls!! The most unpredictable creation! She accepted a slayer so easily. She was even ready to devoid of her life but didn't want to leave me. Honestly the purest kind of love, which was one of a kind could decontaminate even the darkest heart.

Breaking my thoughts, she said,"We are like stars. Something happens to burst us open; but when we burst open & think we are dying, we're actually turning into a supernova. And then when we look at ourselves again, we see that we're suddenly more beautiful than we ever were before!! Let's accept our fate & fight this darkness together sanskar! May be a beautiful life will be waiting for us after breaking this barrier of duskiness."

When I was listening to her, my phone buzzed & suddenly I departed from her to pick up the call. It was the call from laksh. I picked up & in a lower voice asked,"What is the matter laksh? Why do you call me now? Is there something related to shomi?" From the other side, in a worried tone, laksh replied,"I am actually apprehensive about swara's health. Is she fine now?"

Quickly I replied,"Ya! She is fine, buddy! You have always saved my life from upcoming dangers & that day, you have even rescued her & dropped her safely at home." Cutting my words, he asked,"Has she doubted about our connection, sanskar?" I replied negatively & in an anxious tone, he said,"Now listen to me carefully, sanskar! Swara needs immediate medical attention. These stressful situations are hampering her condition even badly."

In an awful voice, I asked,"Are these outcomes related to her disease? Recently she has again consumed alcohol. Will it affect her health?" This time, in a shouting tone, laksh yelled,"Alcohol... Again... It will definitely worsen her health. She is already facing sexual dysfunctions & many complications due to alcoholic neuropathy. Sanskar! Do take care of her & consult the doctor immediately as I am not an expert in that field."

I felt sorry for her condition. Somewhere due to my mistake, she was suffering, I thought & asked him to arrange a refined & reputed doctor for her cure & disconnected the call.

Now I was determined. I promised myself to take care of her & not to hurt her again by my stupid saying to leave her. After facing the vicissitudes of life, if there was one thing I learned, it was that nobody was here forever. I had to live for the moment, each & everyday.. So, until that darkness came when I would vanish like fireworks, let me take care of her & cherish our beautiful togetherness the way she wanted.

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Love Is One Of A Kind) Episode 22 season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I placed her smoothly inside the backseat of the car after taking the keys from her rear pocket. Now I was standing outside the car alone with myself; collected, tranquil, adoring, comparing the serenity of my heart with the serenity of the skies, moved in the darkness by the visible splendors of the constellations & the invisible splendor of god, opening my soul to the thoughts which fell from the unknown after her confession.

When the flowers of night inhale their perfumes & lightened like a lamp in the center of the starry night, I expanded my soul in ecstasy in the midst of the universal radiance of creation. Still I was unsure about my mental state. I felt something connected to me & something plunged upon me & something mysterious objects interchanged inside the depth of my soul.

Just then I received a good night message from laksh & my series of thoughts were broken down & forced me to view my individuality. "NO, we can't be together....", I shouted in extreme pain. I couldn't push a bubbly, cheerful & sensitive girl to the path of obscurity because of me. I made up my mind to keep myself away from her & hopefully she wouldn't remember about this night, I thought & drove off to home.

I placed her carefully on her bed without breaking her sleep & covered her in duvet. As soon as I was moving out of her room, her hands touched with mine & it sparkled thousands of emotions inside my heart. Her feathery soft skin was lying on the bed like a butterfly was sitting on the meadows of flowers.

A bunch of hair strands were touching her marshmallow like face & causing her disturbance in sleep. I sided the strands to one corner of her ear & said,"You are different,swara. I am not meant for you. My love will engulf you to the darkness like a fire & you will be mercilessly burnt in it. Don't make the situation worst for me as every time my heartbeats skip a beat when you are close to me. Every time I can't control the warmth of my heart. Please stay away from me as we aren't destined to remain together even if we love each other unconditionally."

I immediately rushed out of the room to control my feelings or else I was unable to resist my overflowing feelings for her which didn't understand the situation & like floodwaters broke the natural levee & gushed to the pasture lands, in the same way my feelings were compiled a lot & were now ready to break the barricade of my heart.

I tried to sleep in my room but honestly sleeping was away from my eyes. I deliberately closed my eyes with a mixture of undulating emotions passing inside my heart.

Swara's POV:
When I woke up, my head was aching & I felt erratic pain in my muscles. Quickly I went to washroom to freshen up myself. Just after I came back to my room after refreshment, my eyes fell upon a note pasted on the table. I opened the chit & it was written as,"Drink the lemon juice,you will feel better.... Sanskar..." I gulped the entire glass of juice in one go & suddenly I remembered the incidents of last night. Oh shit!! He had followed me & definitely had come to know about my drinking of alcohol. Oh god! How could I face him now?

But why was he behaving so nicely with me? In these situations, he must vent out his anger on me but here he was showering his sweet gestures to me in form of a note. Suddenly I remembered my confession of feelings to him. Though I couldn't remember the whole events but like broken pieces, I was able to recall the incidents of last night. So, the cat was out of the bag right now.

I had already confessed my love to him but still I was ignorant about his feelings. I rushed to his room to talk to him but it was locked from inside. Might be he hadn't awakened, I thought & left the place in disappointment.

I prepared delicious foods for him as I heard somewhere that, the way to a man's heart was through his stomach. I prepared variety of veg & non veg items for him from past 4 hours. Still he hadn't come out of the room. I was worried now. Was he fine or had something happened to him??

I knocked his room door hastily & as soon as he opened the door, I asked him anxiously,"Are You OK? Why haven't you come out of the room yet?" He just nodded & said,"Nothing such... I am fine..." His voice sounded indifferent like he was least interested to talk with me. Still hoping for a positive reply, I said,"I have cooked for you today. Come.. Let's eat..."

But unlike my expectation, he only complied & followed me. Barely a few words were exchanged between us. Might be he was hungry, I thought. So, he was behaving weirdly. Without wasting any time, I decorated the table with variety of food items. We both were taking our lunch together without even uttering a word.

I wanted to hear praise from his mouth for my this effort but he was only eating numbly. Breaking the silence, I asked,"Food... Sanskar... Does it taste good?" As usual, I got the same nodding reaction. What had happened to him? Why wasn't he talking with me properly?? Was it because of my confession?? Didn't he love me? Had he felt bad???

A lot of questions were surrounding on my brain & I didn't know a single answer of these queries. I tried to ask him to break the confusion of my mind,"Has something happened last night? I mean.... Last night...." As soon as he listened the word last night, he stood up from his chair & said,"I am full! I am going to take rest & ya! Forget about last night..." By saying so, he departed from the place by leaving me dejected & heart broken.. I loved him but probably he didn't...

Last two days passed like the same way. He was constantly avoiding me. Whenever I tried to talk with him, he gave me some random excuses & entered inside his room. Though we were staying in the same house, but he was behaving like a stranger with me. It was horrifying!! How fast someone could become a stranger!! In all these two days, I cried a lot. It wasn't because he dejected me, rather it was because I lost a friend as well after my confession.

Now I was sleeping under the comforter but alas! It couldn't give me the comfort as from inside I was burning in solitude. Just then I heard some footsteps were approaching towards me. I closed my eyes in terror. Within minutes, the sound of footstep was discontinued & I heard his voice,"Swara! I know, you are sleeping. And good for me!! I can't talk to you if you are awaken..."

As soon as I heard his voice, I felt bliss like some entangled strings were connected to their own places. Quickly I wanted to wake up & to hug him tightly, but his wordings had stopped me in doing so.. I acted as if I was in deep sleep.

He grasped my hand & bent down his head to touch it & said,"I know; I am hurting you swara! Trust me! I have punished myself, every time I have tried to ignore you. But we can't be together & after your confession, I have felt weak in front of you, like I want to surrender my feelings to your heart. However I can't do that. Reason, you better know.. I can't drag you to that darkness! I am just a bad news for you. Hate me swara, for my behaviour. So that, after my leaving, it won't hurt you much & you can proceed in your life. Just forget me like a bad dream...."

I felt his sobbing & some tear droplets also fell on my hands & just then he left my room as I could sense it from his footsteps. A mixed sensation was going on in my mind now.

"Sanskar! You are wrong! We are destined to remain together. If not; then why do we always cross our paths? We are poles apart still we are connected with each other like the principle of physics,'Opposites attract'..... I know, you won't confess your feelings directly to me & will always curse yourself. But I won't let you go from my life as I'm not in search of sanctity, sacredness & purity; these things are found after this life, not in this life....; but in this life I search to be completely human, to feel, to give, to take, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love, to lust & finally to grow old with you...." I thought & slept inside my comforter.

This time, the comforter was able to provide me comfort as from inside I could feel the felicity & now I would make him feel the same. A curvy smile approached on my face & I slept while thinking about our togetherness.

Sanskar's POV:
From two days, I was ignoring her. I was deliberately hurting her to stay away from her. She was trying to talk with me to clear the misunderstanding, if any. But I always dodged it as I didn't have any confusion. I was hurting her in my sane mind to keep distance from her. However I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore inside my heart & opened up my heart in front of her while she was sleeping peacefully. I felt relaxed after pouring out the truth in front of her thought I knew that she even didn't hear it.

As usual in the next morning also, I avoided her. But in the afternoon, I saw her wearing a short, lacy & skin fitting blue dress with matching pair of earrings. With minimal gloss & shining lipstick, she was looking like a diva. She was looking so lucrative that any man could fall for her. She collected the spare keys of the home & then only I understood that she was going somewhere.

I thought that she would at least inform me about her outgoing but alas! She wasn't even looking at me. So, I initiated the talk & asked,"Are you going somewhere, swara?" She turned & looked at me in furious eyes & said,"As if you care.. And why are you asking me these silly stuffs? It is my life & I will decide about it. But for your kind information, I am going to a pub with my friends.."

'Pub', I murmured. The flashbacks of previous night were agitating in my memory lane. Those bastard, insane & thirsty guys would lure her & try to subjugate her in the pub. These thoughts made me so furious that I shouted,"Change the dress immediately. And you aren't going anywhere."

But to my surprise, she asked me arrogantly,"Who are you to stop me, sanskar??" I was raging in anger & pushed her to the wall. I put my hands in both sides of her to block her way & yelled,"Are you mad? You are again going to a pub. Have you forgotten about the previous night incidents??" Oh god! What had I uttered now..

However stunning me, more bluntly she replied,"Why does it affect you,sanskar? Why are you so much protective for me? I am not a child. I can take care of myself & you are avoiding me from two days then what has happened just now? And What do I mean to you?"

I was burning in anger now. I took one step closure & encircled my hand around her waist & shouted,"Pub isn't a good place for you. And those insane guys!! Oh god! How can I even bear that sight again? Why don't you understand swara! You are the world to me. Nobody has the right to see you insanely. You are mine & I do feel possessive about you..."

Suddenly she leaned forward & kept her head inside my chest & said,"Why sanskar? Why? Why do you conceal your love till now? You love me unconditionally but still bearing the pain of separation... Why??" Oh gosh! What had I confessed now in angry mood..

It was true that during anger, truth came out. I told her all those unsaid feelings of my heart. I took a step back from her & slowly said,"Sorry! I don't mean anything." She grasped my hands & embraced me tightly. Her closeness conferred a jolt of electricity current through out my body. I could see intense passion in her eyes for me. Her closeness was also making my emotions outburst in front of her. My entire body was shivering & trembling due to her touch.

Suddenly with in seconds, she crossed an inch gap between us & leaned her lips towards mine & kissed me softly. Her soft lips touched my harsh one & it created a burning desire in my body. My anger was vanished & like a thirsty soul, I entwined my lips on her. She completely surrendered her to me & I crushed & devoured my lips on her to engulf the greatest kind of forbidden pleasure...

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Confession) Episode 21 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I saw her collecting the duplicate keys of the home. In the mean while, I went towards the garage & unlocked the trunk of the car & returned to home. If I had to keep an eye on her secretively, then this step was essential as by booking a cab, I couldn't follow her properly as cab would take time to reach here & also I didn't want to expose this secret place of her to any cab driver.

While handing over the keys of the car to her, I said,"Your friend has sent your car from the hospital." Lowering her gaze, she replied,"His name is Laksh." Though I knew about Laksh still I behaved as if I didn't remember his name & said,"Yes! Yes! Lakshh.... That guy has said his name, though I have forgotten it. OK! Bye swara! I am going to my room. Outside door is auto locked. So, I think, I don't need to see off you."

Without making any eye contact with her, I rushed towards my room & locked the door of my room. I had to reach to the garage before her arrival. I opened up the window & with the help of pipes, reached to the basement. I checked the surroundings with a bird's eye view. She hadn't come till yet.

Without wasting any time, I hid inside the backside trunk of the car & closed it. I was just praying to god that she must not lock it. Today I was happy for my slayer skills as whatever now I had done, it was all because of the fact that I was a slayer earlier & learned all these escaping techniques.

Just after a few seconds, I heard the starting sound of the car. Oh god!! Thankfully she didn't lock the trunk of the car & it would be easier for me to get out of it. As it was night, so the road might be empty. Therefore, I didn't have to suffer much inside the trunk of the car. After 30 minutes of the journey, the car stopped.

I waited for a few minutes to move out of the trunk of the car as I wanted her to go to the party before me & by that, she wouldn't able to see me. A few minutes had passed with these thoughts. Now it was time to get out of the car. But alas! My fate played a cruel game with me.

I couldn't open the trunk of the car. Might be it was jammed. Honestly while the world slept, fate planned the next move to take. However this time I wouldn't let my bad fate to win over me. I tried different techniques to open up it & finally after a struggle of half an hour, I was able to break the jam & to open the trunk.

As soon as I came out of it, what I had seen, surprised me a lot. She had parked the vehicle in front of a pub but she had told me about some party. Might be some party was going on inside, I thought. I had already wasted 30 minutes due to the jam. So, I quickly rushed inside the pub. After so long, I visited any pub today.

But looking at the scenario of the pub, I didn't think any party was going on here as all people were busy in their respective insane activities. The sound of the music, was so loud that it would make anybody deaf in long run. But where was swara? I couldn't find her anywhere inside the pub. Madly I searched her in every nook & corner of the pub. But alas! I was unsuccessful in my every attempt. Many wicked ideas were agitating in my mind. Had swara come here or gone to anywhere else after parking the car outside? I didn't know anything & was fully confused.

I asked the bar tender about swara by describing her physique but as expected, he denied about seeing her. Just then due to flashing of DJ lights, I had seen a glimpse of her near the staircase. I was relieved. As soon as I was proceeding towards her, I saw a guy was putting his hands on her bare shoulder. I was burned in anger by viewing this sight in front of me.

After crossing the crowded dance floor, I reached there & heard her saying,"Leave me! Don't touch me! My sanskar will kill you if you will try to harm me." Ignoring her words, that guy was forcing himself on her. Now the things were clear in front of my eyes. She lied to me about the party & she came here to gulp intoxicants.

She wasn't fully in her senses & before that guy could perform any stupid activities with my swara, I punched him hardly & bloods came out of his nose. As soon as her bubbly bluish eyes fell upon me, she jumped on me & said childishly,"Sanskar! He is bad & don't angry on me for my badmouthing in the morning."

The smell of alcohol was coming out of her mouth. As soon as I tried to control her, suddenly I found a hand on my collar. I turned & saw that guy was grasping my collar. I placed her down on the floor carefully. Now the invincible, deadly & ruthless sanskar was awakened in me. I was unstoppable & by touching her insanely, that bastard had fueled my anger.

I removed his hand from my collar & by pressing his throat, I had risen him from the floor & yelled,"You Bastard! How dare you touch her?" I was so mad at him that I punched him several times. That time I was totally forgotten about my identity & my whereabouts. My rage was only upon that moron who tried to touch her.

By my this act, I had gathered much crowd on the spot & gained much public attention. The manager of the bar came & stopped me. Then only I came to my sense & picked her up from the floor & before moving, I shouted on that guy, who was lying lifeless in pool of bloodstains,"Don't dare to touch her further in your life... Else I will smash you." She was lying in my protective arms and was murmuring,"I know; my sanskar will save me. But please don't show your angry face, I am scared.."

I came out of the pub while picking her in my arms. My temper was in its peak now. I patted her face & raised my voice,"Swara! You have lied to me today. And what is all this nonsense? You have started drinking again?? What fortune will it bring to you??" She hid her face inside my chest & muttered,"I am sorry! I... I... Don't want to drink... But mom.. Betrayal.. You also... Angry.. Can't take it..."

Oh sanskar! What was I doing? She wasn't in her senses & I kept on shouting on her. I felt bad for her condition & I knew about her sensitivity regarding these circumstances. I held her tightly, closure to my heart & by caring her face, I said,"I am sorry swara! I won't shout on you..."

Before I could say anything further, she kissed my cheeks & blabbed,"Don't hate me.. It... Hurts.... I love you na... Don't hate..." & she passed out. What had happened in a couple of seconds, I couldn't believe. She confessed her love to me like the sunlight clapped the earth & the moonbeams touched the sea, likewise her kiss healed my wounded heart & sealed her name inside my heart to comfort me.


Credit to:Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Reckless Attitudes) Episode 20 Season 2

Swara's POV:
My head was aching like I had lifted a mountain peak on my head. When I was awakened, I found myself in my room. Oh god! How did I come here? Suddenly all the flash backs about my mom & the conversation with shomi suryavansi reflected on my memory lane. I was filled with agony, misery & all sorts of mental sufferings.

I laughed sarcastically after remembering the irony of my fate. The billionaire girl swara suryavansi, first of all, couldn't inherit her properties. For whom I was studying now, for whose happiness, I always tried to remain outside my home, that lady betrayed me and pierced me like broken glass pieces.

I didn't have any identity. My mothers were exchanged and the identity of my real father was still unknown. But what was my fault in all these happenings? Why did everybody play with my feelings? And ya! Now I understood one of the sayings of shekhar suryavansi,"The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies. It comes from friend & loved ones..."

He was actually so true!!! The most important relation of my life betrayed me, my mom had cheated me. Then came the turn of Sanskar! He had also lied to me. Why?? Why sanskar? I wanted to drink water to cool down myself but the jug was empty. I got up from bed to fill up the jug & soon I found my room door was locked from outside.

I knocked hastily & within seconds, sanskar opened the door & asked,"where are you going?" I didn't want to talk with him now otherwise might be I would vent out all my anger upon him, which I didn't want as anger was never without a reason but seldom with a good one.

He had just recovered from the injury & this wasn't a suitable time to be angry upon him as anybody could become angry, that was easy but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time & for the right purpose and in the right way, that wasn't within everybody's power & wasn't easy.

Breaking my thoughts, he tried to snatch the jug from me & said,"You take rest,swara. You need it. I will fill the jug & anything you need, just call me. I will do it for you." This guy was so much unpredictable, like he had taken oath to make things difficult for me. As much as I was trying to avoid him, still he was crossing my path.

With a meager interest, I yelled,"Sanskar! I can do my work. No need to pity on my condition. And you aren't accountable to take care of me. Before meeting you also, I am leading my life alone & even i can continue the same." By saying so, I just moved out of the room. I filled the jug in kitchen & came back to my room. Still he was standing in the same position near my room door. I crossed him as if he didn't exist for me.

Sanskar's POV:
My first encounter with swara after her returning from the hospital wasn't appealing. She was constantly trying to avoid me. She even talked recklessly with me. Though I was aware about her mental condition but it sucked when you were ignored by the person who's attention was the only thing you wanted in the world. She filled the jug & passed by my side while ignoring my presence.

I couldn't take it anymore as spiteful words could hurt your feelings but silence could break your heart. And likewise my heart was now breaking into pieces due to her silence. From behind, I dragged her hands to stop her & asked,"Why are you behaving like a stranger with me? What have I done?"

Before I could say further, she snapped back,"Don't act like an innocent kid,Sanskar! You have lied to me. Have you even remembered about it or not? And don't touch my hand without my permission." I immediately left my grip from her hand. I could easily sense the congealing volcanic magma that was comprising in her body against me.

In a sorrowful face, I replied,"I have remembered my mistake. But that is for your own good only, swara!" She was in no mood to even listen to me & yelled,"That is a lie, sanskar! And telling the truth & making me cry is better than telling a lie & making me smile as I rather prefer to hear a painful truth than a comforting lie.. And you know one thing sanskar! If you will tell a lie once, then all your truths become questionable.."

Now it was crossing beyond my tolerance level. How could she even doubt my credibility for that one lie which I had told to her for her own felicity. I couldn't control my rage & shouted,"Swara! Some things are easier said than done! If I have told you the truth that time, then will you accept it? I guess,'No'. As today also you have accepted the fact due to the reports of blood sample..."

Oops! In anger I had unveiled the fact which I didn't suppose to tell. And as expected, she caught my sayings & asked in curious eyes,"How do you know about the blood samples, Sanskar?" Oh gosh! I had to cover it up with another lie as I couldn't reveal about laksh in these circumstances.

Quickly I replied," I know because the guy who has dropped you here when you have fainted in the hospital, has told me about all the happenings as I have asked him about all the incidents." This time she only nodded to my saying which was unexpected for me. Girls! The most unpredictable creature!

Breaking the silence, I said,"Anger doesn't solve anything. It builds nothing but it can destroy everything. Whatever your mom has done with you, that is for your own security only. I am not justifying her lie but she doesn't want you to hate her. She has given you an respectable life which people crave for. And remember one thing swara! Forgive people in your life, even those who aren't sorry for their actions as holding on to anger only hurts you, not them...." By saying so, I left her room as I didn't want to face her further as I was also sad due to her behaviour.

Swara's POV:
Genuinely I had hurt him beyond expectation. Once I had already doubted him for his father's assassination and now I had repeated the same mistake. I again doubted him. He was absolutely right. I wouldn't trust him without proofs even if he had admitted the fact earlier.

And yes! Honestly, saying was easier than doing. In that situation, how could he even justify this fact that Annapurna was my real mom. I felt frustrated for my own actions. I didn't have much relations to lose but due to my own actions, I was losing the very relevant relationship in my life, who was none other than Sanskar.

I had behaved rashly with him & he must had pissed off with me due to this. I wanted to apologize him but by thinking about this angry face I stopped. I was also unsure about confronting him. What would I tell him? & what apology would I ask to him for repeating the same mistake again and again?? All these thoughts ceased me to move towards his room.

The whole day was passed in utter silence in between us. Neither of us talked with each other. When the darkness was prevailing, I just wanted to pass out. I was born to face the hatred. Sometimes my near & dear ones pushed me towards the hell of hatred but today I hated myself due to my intolerable attitude with sanskar.

I couldn't bear this silence in between us & also every minute my mom's betrayal was agitating me. I wanted to indulge in alcohol. So, I didn't need to bear this pain anymore. However I couldn't drink in front of him as because of him only I left drinking. If he would again hate me for my drinking, then I couldn't bear the pain as I was deeply in love with him.. Ya! Undoubtedly I was feeling a strong attractive pull towards him. I decided to go to the pub & to pass out there only. So that sanskar would never come to know about it.

Sanskar's POV:
For the first time, we both were behaving like strangers even after staying in the same house. The whole day I didn't talk with her as still I was doubtful about my convincing to her. If she had understood me properly or not, I didn't know. While I was thinking about all these things, I heard some noise coming from her room.

I opened my room door & rushed towards her room. Her room was a total mess. However she was looking mesmerizing. Her spellbound beauty was captivating me like someone had spelled some magical chants on me so that I couldn't move an inch & was staring her intensely. She was wearing a party dress & honestly if looks would start killing people then surely I was going to die today.

Breaking my gaze, she told in a soft tone,"I am going to a party. You don't wait for my arrival & sleep early." I wanted to stop her & honestly I didn't know why & where she was going. But her health condition was also not good. So, finally I asked,"Is it important to attend the party?" She turned her face towards me & asked,"Are you preventing me from going to a party?"

I was speechless. I didn't know; what would I tell her now? I was genuinely worried for her health but if she would compare my care with sympathy then I couldn't bear it again. So, indifferently I told,"No! No! You can go.." She again reminded me to sleep early & didn't wait for her. But I couldn't let her go alone to the party. What if she would faint again due to stress! I would definitely accompany with her but not openly rather secretively to take care of her..


Credit to: Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Unexpected Blasts) Episode 19 Season 2

Laksh's POV:
After ages, swara had called to meet me in the hospital. One month had already passed and we all were busy in our own worlds. However friendship was meeting up, even when we were really busy.. Genuine enough! Now swara was implementing the real definition of friendship. But she hadn't come alone rather she had brought an accident victim with her.

As soon as I saw the patient's face, quickly I had recognized her as shomi suryavansi, one of the target of my buddy sanskar about whom I was searching information in this hospital. Though I didn't know the case history of shomi suryavansi, still I was worried for her because of swara. As swara wanted to save her at any cost & swara wasn't a mere friend rather a world to my buddy, sanskar. And I could do anything for him.

The operation was successful but we needed more blood bottles for her safety & full recovery. When I informed swara about this outcome, she was adamant to donate blood. However what shocked me was her behaviour & surety of matching the blood groups of her with the patient. And then came the more shocking twist that the patient was her mother. Now things were clear to me as why sanskar wanted to know more about shomi suryavansi.

However I had to follow the hospital procedure for blood transfusion. After so much persuasion, finally swara had agreed to my sayings. But the report of blood samples out brought a very weird feeling to me. It was a kind of shocking news. It was difficult to digest but god would give her strength. And the full impact of this report would certainly hit her like creating a havoc in the mid sea during the storm surge of tsunami.

I accompanied her until we reached room no.307 and left her there to sort out the confusions, she possessed. After that I was busy in the hospital duties but my mind was agitated with mixture of emotions. A few minutes had already passed in chaos & uncertainty. Just then a nurse gave me the news of her collapsing on the floor.

I rushed to her & checked her immediately. Because of superincumbent stress, she had fainted. She needed rest. But for that she had to reach home safely. My mind was jammed. I was unable to detect my next move. I didn't have ragini's number and even sanskar's old number was out of my reach. And even if sanskar was carrying any new phone number still I wasn't aware about that number. My last resort was swara's landline number but that number was constantly giving engage tone.

Now I had only one option left with me to drop her at her place. I didn't want this as I didn't wish to expose sanskar to dark world again as might be my every move was scrutinised by captain as after one month also he wasn't ready to accept sanskar's death as his dead body wasn't found by the cops unlike Alex & Martin.

But I couldn't take any chance when the matter was on swara's health. I ordered nurses to shift her to my car and we both were going towards her house. Diverse emotions & variety of sensations were floating in my mind like the boats floated on the undulating sea waves. After a month, I was going to meet sanskar today. How would he react after seeing me? And what would be his condition after viewing swara in this state? Oh god! Why it was so difficult to face reality??

In our gang, someone had correctly said,"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts and you are the slave to your emotions." But I didn't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I wanted to use them, to enjoy them & to dominate them. So, I controlled all my undulating emotions & prepared myself to meet my buddy after a long dreadful month.

While all these things were going on in my mind, I reached near her place. Swara was still lying in the backseat of my car. I came out of my car & checked the outside door of her home. It was closed from inside. It meant sanskar was present inside & I was going to meet him now. I knocked the door bell & waited for his opening of the door.

Sanskar's POV:
I reached home long back. Till now swara hadn't returned home. I called her from the landline number to give her a confirmation about my arrival at home. This time also she didn't respond the call. I didn't call her further as she had gone to meet her family members after a month. So, I didn't want to disturb her but honestly I was missing her presence badly.

In the mean while the door bell was knocked. Swara had come, I thought. How would she react after viewing my gift? Would she like it? I was excited to see her reaction. Seriously after ages I was behaving like a human & that to like a creepy lover. I picked up the photo frame to give her quickly as after that might be I couldn't gather courage to do so.

However to my utter surprise, laksh was standing in front of the door. As soon as I saw him, a fear of exposure to the crime world was striking in my mind. Else how could laksh know about this location? Unknowingly the photo frame fell down on the floor & it was broken into pieces, just like my emotions were now cracked into many pieces.

My legs were shaking, my arms were numb, my knees were aching & my head was hung. I felt scared, scared to go back to that dark world, scared to leave her alone... Suddenly I asked,"Laksh! You are here! Does captain know about this location?" Laksh assured me that everything was OK & nothing wrong had happened related to dark world.

I felt relieved & in an apologetic tone told,"Sorry buddy! I don't have your number after my old phone has misplaced. So, I can't contact you to tell about my alive news. But how do you know about this location? & why do you come here? Thank god! Swara isn't present at home now else she must have recognized you today."

However unlike my expectation, laksh wasn't at all worried after listening about swara & also not even surprised to see me alive. In a low voice, he said," Sanskar! I know everything. I will explain you later. But swara isn't well......." Cutting his words, I snapped back,"Have you met swara today? And what do you mean by her unwell news.."

Earlier she wasn't responding to my call & now she wasn't well.. Oh god! Why these issues were happening with me?? In a consoling tone, laksh said,"She has fainted in the hospital & I have brought her here.." I felt like today was a surprising day for me. I purchased gift to surprise her but breaking all my hopes, god was giving me shocks by opening lots of twists in one day.

Suddenly I asked laksh,"Hospital..... Why has she gone there? Has she developed cramps & swells again? & where is she laksh? You have said that you have brought her here. But I can't find her." Laksh immediately indicated towards the car & rushed there to find swara was lying inside the backseat of the car. I picked her feathery body in my sturdy arms & rushed towards her room & placed her carefully on the bed.

In a much worried tone, I asked laksh,"Is she OK? How has this happened?" Laksh indicated me to maintain silence & took me out of her room & closed her room door from outside & narrated all the incidents from the beginning. Oh gosh! It meant you were her doctoral friend, who saved my life. I thanked him for his all time assistance.

He hugged me tightly & said,"Sanskar! You have always saved my life and by saying thanks you are insulting our friendship. I am happy for you as finally you can lead your life happily with her..." Breaking the hug, I replied,"It isn't so easy buddy! She has already come across the biggest truth of her life. She is so stressed that she has fainted. She must be going through an emotional turmoil. May be she has also discovered about my lie from shomi suryavansi. And from your talks I can surely predict that one day certainly captain will come to know about me. Once she will be perfectly adapted to handle her emotional past, I will leave her for her safety."

In a very stressful voice, laksh said,"It isn't that easy buddy! She is facing the first stage of alcoholic neuropathy & this can affect her motherhood as well. Sexual dysfunctions are common in this stage. If proper longterm meditation won't be followed, then she mayn't able to conceive in future. And in this effusive state, she will definitely need someone to care for her. I hope you are getting my point."

Blast! Boom! Another unexpected event which I had perceived now! She was facing a chronic fatigue & I couldn't even leave her in this state. Suddenly something struck in my mind & I asked him,"Laksh! Have you crosschecked about shomi suryavansi, the lady whom you have saved today?" He nodded & asked,"Sanskar! Can you please tell the detail case history of shomi suryavansi? So that, it will be helpful for me to understand the case properly. I am so confused today. Swara is claiming her as mother but the blood reports don't match."

He had already aware about the half truth. So, it didn't make any sense to hide the remaining truth from him. And mom had always told,"The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it." Might be after sharing with him, I could feel better & after all he was laksh who stood by me in my every thick & thin of life. So, it wasn't a big deal to open up in front of him. I narrated him all the awful events of my life related to shomi suryavansi & his facial expression exhibited the level of his franticness.

After hearing the incidents peacefully, Laksh asked,"Sanskar! Then who is the real child of Shomi Suryavansi? I mean to whom has she given birth?" In an irritating tone, I replied,"Why are you asking about the child when I have already told you about the death of that unborn child!!!" In an assuring tone, laksh replied,"Undoubtedly you have got the wrong information sanskar! Shomi has given birth to a child & as per her medical report, that child has born alive that time.."

What!! Shomi had given birth to an alive child.. My voice faltered to a stop. Agony & confusion clutched at my throat like some terrible beast & suddenly I was finding it difficult to breathe. Holding him tightly, I yelled,"She has lied to me laksh! She has again made me fool. That bitch could never change. How could she say the death of her own child?

Consoling me, laksh replied in a pacifying tone,"Calm down sanskar! May be your judgement regarding shomi is correct but a mother can never think bad about her child even in dreams as well and here she is spreading the death news of her alive born baby.. Truth has many sides, sanskar! May be she is also ignorant about her own child. Before reaching to any conclusion, we need to find out the whole truth.."

I was boiling in antipathy. A pure aversion against shomi was assembling in my mind but I suppressed this burning anguish as laksh's sayings made some sense. I pled laksh to help me to find out the details about this matter. He happily agreed to it. Just then I heard the coughing sound of swara.

In all the chaos, I had already forgotten regarding the place of our discussion. I instructed laksh to leave this place before her awaking else she might doubt about his connection with me. Before leaving the place, laksh exchanged his mobile number with me & quickly drove off.


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook ( At The Receiving End) Episode 18 Season 2

Swara's POV:
As much as I wanted to plan my life, it had a way of surprising me with unexpected things that would make me sadder than I originally planned. Was not it an irony of my fate? I was preparing to face my real mother after giving my blood samples to laksh for checking purpose. But what result I had got of the blood samples, changed my life upside down. Just like a brewing tornado it came & passed but all my emotions were uprooted like twisted webs of spider.

How could the result even come as negative? She was my mother then why didn't the samples match? Even before I could think much and ask laksh more about it, the ward boy came & said,"Sir! The patient in room no 307 has gained consciousness & wanted to meet her saviour." Laksh nodded & the ward boy left the place.

Laksh said,"Swara! Come, let's go to meet her." In a confusing tone, I asked,"Laksh! Have you checked the samples properly? I mean how can this be possible?" Like me, laksh was also confused & frustrated as this was the fifth time I was asking him the same queries. In a bit angry tone, he replied,"I have checked the samples in front of you, swara! And how can I know; why the samples don't match?? Why don't you directly ask the patient?? She also wants to meet you now." Like a flummoxed soul, I agreed with him & proceeded to face the real challenge of my life.

I entered inside the room no. 307 and laksh waited outside to give us some privacy. As soon as I entered, shomi was staring at me like she had seen ghost in front of her. With much agony & anticipation, I yelled,"Sound sleep na mother!! Oh sorry! Sorry! Mother or a betrayer..." Now I was burning like the volcanic magma which could engulf everything with its ionization capability. She was gazing at me intently without uttering a single word.

In fury, I clamored,"What shall I call you shomi suryavansi? Oops! My fault! The lady who hasn't tried to search for her daughter in all these years, why the hell will she be bothered about my calling of her name? Huh! I am expecting a lot na.. But mother; where is your multi billionaire husband with whom you have eloped? So sad na! He hasn't even come to visit you once.... Oh! Swara .. Again your fault! May be he isn't at all aware about her condition. Not to worry mother! Give me his number & I will inform him.."

Though in a chuckling voice I uttered, but my burning anguish was compiling after viewing her silence. I banged the table and yelled,"Speak up you bloody woman.." Dramatic irony! She was sobbing! And with lots of pain & in a low voice, she said,"I don't have my husband.. He......"

Before she could say further, I snapped back,"Oh! He has also left you the way you have left me. Poor mother! Have you heard the word 'Punishment'.. I guess, 'Yes'. So, do good and good will come to you. But you has done wrong. Anyways for you, do bad & worst will come to you..."

I was a bit relieved as she wasn't enjoying her life lavishly. God had already punished her for her mistakes. But surprising me, she said,"Swara! I have suffered a lot in my life for my only mistake. I have loved a wrong guy.." When I heard my name from her mouth for the first time, I was in fury & yelled,"Don't utter my name from your insane mouth. It is my hospitality that I am not behaving evilly with you. And not one mistake mother! Your memory has faded with your old age. Minimum two mistakes.. The mistake of leaving your infant child.. What's my mistake if God has conceived you & implanted me in your womb. I have no control to it, right. Then why me?? Why??" & by saying so I struck the table again.

This time, she said in a bit louder voice,"Enough swara! Enough! I have never left you as you aren't my daughter & I am not insane but these situations have reflected me such.." What! What I had just heard.. I wasn't her daughter. Was that the cause of the mismatch of blood samples??

In a confusing state, I said,"Huh! At least have some guts to accept me as your daughter. I have never expected of your motherly care. But show some courage to accept your misdeed.." I bravely uttered all these statements to know the exact truth & to eradicate my confusion.

In an ensuring voice, she said,"Trust me swara! I am also a victim in the hands of destiny just like you." I sniggered & said,"Trust! And that to a woman like you.. Ha! Ha! Trust gets smaller with every mistake and you have done a blunder. Still as my mom says,'Every culprit must get a chance to prove her innocence & honesty.' So, go ahead.. I am listening.."

Just after that she narrated to me all the incidents happened with her & before concluding her sayings, she said,"If you don't believe me then go & ask your mom about it and I am not feeling sorry for telling you the truth because I believe, you deserve to know it by now." I was stressed and unable to handle all the truths at a time.

Till now I was living in an illusion. My mom, Annapurna Suryavansi was my real mom. I loved her from the core of my heart but she had broken my trust. Now I got the cause of my mismatch of blood samples as she wasn't my real mother rather my foster mother was the real one.

Now I understood the cause of hatred of shekhar suryavansi for me. Who would shower his affection to an illegitimate child of her wife? He was absolutely correct at his own place. And Ram Prasad Bijlani.... Somewhere I heard this name but where?? I focused in my memory lane & suddenly remembered him as sanskar's father. It meant shomi was the lady with whom sanskar's dad had extramarital affair. But he could be any other man as well. Might be this Ram Prasad wasn't the same person though situations were similar.

To confirm my doubt, I asked,"Who is Ram Prasad Bijlani? I mean you have said that he is in a relationship with you despite being married. Just for conformation, can you please tell me about his offsprings?" Shomi nodded & replied,"Yes! He has a son named as sanskar." What!! S..A..NS..KARRRR....

Looking at my surprised appearance & fumbled voice, she asked,"Are you alright?" I reacted positively & asked,"As you have already said that his wife has known about you and this affair but does sanskar know about you?" I already knew that this time the reply would come negative as sanskar had himself told that he didn't know the lady with whom his father had extramarital affair.

But breaking my hopes, shomi replied,"Yes! Before some days he has confronted me & he has known this truth & felt sorry for my condition." Now this was something for which I was totally unprepared.

Every life was complicated, every mind was a kingdom of unmapped mysteries and like always I was at the receiving end. Breaking my thoughts, the door was opened & the nurse instructed me to move out of the room as the patient needed rest now & the saline bottle needed to be changed. I complied & moved out of the room.

Life had pounded me down & thrashed me around. Time and time again, but I always got right back up because I still loved life. But not anymore. I couldn't handle this betrayal. The lady whom I had been hating since my childhood was at no fault & my closed ones betrayed me. My mind was jammed & my vision became blur. My head was aching & I couldn't walk properly & collapsed on the floor. Everything was blacked out, just like the center of supermassive black hole....


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Perplexing Situations) Episode 17 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
One month of my dwelling in swara's house was completed today. Due to her resilient attention & upkeep, I was completely recovered from my injury. My life changed that day when I moved beyond just wishing for things & I started earning them. That was the deadly night I learned that we didn't get what we wished for, we got what we worked for. And she worked a lot for me. Now it was my turn to give her a token of surprise gift.

Just then she came to my room to enquiry about my outgoing. She was going to meet her near & dear ones. I felt bad as due to me only she had neglected her prime relationships. She offered me to drop near the bank & I accepted.

Earlier I thought her as courageous girl but today she proved her cunningness to me. Skillfully she was able to grasp the key of the car from my hand. Though out the journey to bank, I felt pity on my condition as today I was behaving like a teenage lover.

Over the top I was spending humanly life with her, just like my mom had once wished for my future life. Once my mom had said," The lifetime of a human being is measured by decades unlike the lifetime of the sun, which is a hundred million times longer. Compared to star, we are like mayflies, fleeting ephemeral creatures who live out their lives in the course of a single day.." Genuine enough! & today I was following the same principle. I was enjoying my each day with her like the last day of my life.

As soon as we reached near the bank, she had met her friends. It hurt me like all my energies were draining when she told that I was just a mere friend of her & nothing more than that. Like seriously! Did she mean that? I was only a mere friend. I didn't mean anything to her more than that friendship. It meant I was equivalent with all her friends & I didn't obtain a special position in her heart.

My heart was breaking like pieces of thrown pebbles found in trash position near the river bank. Without making any eye contact with her, I went inside the bank. I didn't want to confront her with my teary eyes. However suddenly I cursed myself for my selfishness.

It was good that I didn't matter to her more than a friend. So, I could leave her soon as I was completely fine now. It would be for her good only if she allowed me to go as darkness could never harm her in future. I tried to smile for her secure life but unfortunately I couldn't smile properly. Somewhere deep inside my heart, a secret suffering of leaving her was killing me into pieces.

I had many fake passports and IDs of my name in the bank & for a slayer, it wasn't a big thing to do. I transferred all the amounts to my authentic original ID & closed all the fake IDs. Those IDs which were known to captain, I didn't even touch them. For the dark world, their best slayer has already died. And also I didn't want a penny amount from my insane & illegal killing assignments.

I wanted to earn money with dignity & fidelity just like my mom wanted. After all the works were done in the bank, I sat on the bench kept inside the hall of the bank & thought what gift I should purchase for her.

She was a billionaire girl & nothing was out of her reach. And selection of gift wasn't a cup of tea for me. I never gifted anything to anybody. This was my first attempt & that to for the girl, whom I loved a lot. No.. No.. Who was my world to me. After so much imagining, I concluded to give her a photo frame, with attached photo of mine; so that after my leaving from her place, she could at least treasure my memory.

I thought, this would be the best gift to maintain our connection till eternity. I came out of the bank & purchased the gift & now I was proceeding towards home. Yes home!! Life took me to many unexpected places but love brought me to home. It was that place where our story had begun.

I called swara to tell her about my completion of work & my going to home but she wasn't picking up the call. Might be she was busy with her family, I thought & hired a taxi to go to my living place.

Swara's POV:
What an unexpected meet! I wanted to meet her. But obviously not in this state. She was lying in the middle of the road with pool of bloodstains in an unconscious state. I couldn't let her die & I had my own causes for that.

I wanted to ask her about my fault for leaving me in an infant stage. Why did I feel dejected in my childhood? Had she even thought about me ever in her life? What if my foster mom, Annapurna Suryavansi hadn't adopted me; then might be now my position would be no less than a beggar in the street.

I shouted with all my strength,"Shomi..... You can't die like this. You have to get back your life to payback me.." I was a furious & daredevil swara suryavansi now. My good side was gone to hell & evil side was overshadowing it.

I gained much public attention due to my improper behaviour. I tried to pacify my tone & asked the crowd to help this lady to regain her life & because of their support, now I was moving to the hospital along with her. She was lying inside the backseat of my car.

As soon as I reached to the hospital, I found laksh was standing near the door & waiting for my arrival. When he saw my bloodstained clothes, in a worried voice, he asked,"Are you alright, swara? Have you faced an accident?" In a crimson face with burning incarnation, I yelled,"I am fine laksh. I want this lady to regain her consciousness."

By saying so, I opened the back side door of my car & took shomi out of it. As soon as laksh saw her face, in a surprising tone he asked,"She!!!.... (Pause) where have you got her?" I shouted,"Laksh! Don't waste your timing in asking mere questions. While I am coming to the hospital, I have found her lying in the road in this state. Perhaps she has faced an accident. Now please save her.." He nodded & ordered the ward boy to shift her to the operation theater.

Laksh contacted other doctors & he along with other doctors went inside the operation theater to perform her surgery. I was waiting outside it. Lots of unanswered questions were popping up inside my mind. I couldn't sit properly on one seat and roamed near the operation theater.

Two hours passed like this with so much uncertainty. Just then red light of the operation theater was switched off & laksh came outside. I hurriedly rushed towards him & asked,"What is the progress, laksh?" He indicated a sign of relief & said,"Ya! Operation is successful but there is one problem. However it is a mere problem & has sorted out already."

I asked shockingly,"What is the matter laksh? Is she safe and out of danger?" Pacifying me laksh replied,"Calm down swara! She is safe. It is just that she is having a very rare blood group. And in our blood bank, only one bottle blood of that group is available. But she actually needs minimum 3 bottles of blood as she has lost ample quantity of blood. But nothing to worry! As we have already ordered another bottles of bloods from our main blood bank & luckily this blood group bottle is available in the central blood bank. We have already given her one bottle of blood & another two bottles we will give to her once it will reach to the hospital."

Cutting his words, I replied in an urgency tone,"No need to wait for the arrival of the blood bottles. You can take my blood.." Laksh asked in a stunning tone,"Do you know the patient's blood group?" I nodded negatively & quickly laksh asked,"Then how can you give her blood? As I have already told you about her rare blood group. Still if you want to donate blood, then come with me; I have to check your blood group, swara!"

This time in rage I said,"No need of that laksh! I know my blood group will surly match. So, you can directly take my blood." Again in a surprising tone, he asked,"How can you give such guaranty, swara? Do you know the patient?" Suddenly words came out of my mouth as,"Yes laksh! I know her. She is my mother."

As expected, laksh is undoubtedly shocked with my outbursting of truth but as it was hospital, he calmly convinced me,"Swara! I can't take your blood without checking. If you want to donate blood then I have to examine your blood group otherwise I may face problems during transfusion. Hope you will understand."

Without further arguments, I agreed with laksh as he had to follow the medical instructions and as a medical student, it was my duty to cooperate with him.


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Vicissitudes Of Life) Episode 16 Season 2

Swara's POV:
Yesterday night was the best sunset for me. No longer I felt alone. His protective cover was behaving like a cocoon for me. Now a days, sanskar was much more expressive than the earlier days. He could easily communicate with me. His wounds were almost recovered. It was like a fairy tale that I had spent one month with a slayer.

But in these tenures, we had broken down together & also tried to stand up collectively. There was no more solitude in my life. He was always there by my side. However where a new relation was brewing up, some erstwhile relations were ignored by me. I hadn't contacted my mom in these days. Not even I had any connection with Ragini & Laksh.

In all these days, my concentration was only upon sanskar. But as he had recovered amply, so, I thought to visit my mom & laksh today. My mom must had been waiting for me as I had told her about my busy schedule & once completion of this hectic life, I would surely meet her. But all chaos happened in these days that I couldn't even find time to talk with her.

I rushed to sanskar's room to tell him about my planning & to reminisce him of his medicines & diet plan. As soon as I reached to his room, I saw him fully dressed with decent clothes like he was about to go somewhere. I asked in a grinning tone,"wow sanskar! You aren't looking like a slayer rather you are looking very handsome. By the way why are you dressed properly? Are you going somewhere?"

While adjusting his shirt's collar, he replied,"Thanks for the complement. However there was a mask beneath this face as a slayer but that wasn't the real me. I am no more that face than I am the muscles beneath it or the bones beneath that.." Quickly I responded,"I don't mean that sanskar. I know that you are no more a slayer & true beauty is about who you are as a human being, your principles and your moral compass.."

He smiled in a way to give acceptance to my sayings & asked,"Why are you here now inside my room? Do you want anything?" I gave him a deadly look & asked,"Can't I come to your room casually?" He suddenly replied,"No.. No.. I don't mean that." I couldn't show my fake anger anymore & gigglingly said,"I am just kidding. I am going to meet my friend & family. But you haven't replied to my question. Are you going somewhere? If so, then I can drop you."

He thankfully replied,"Ya! I have some work in the bank. If you are ready, then we can proceed.." I complied & we both went towards my car. As soon as we reached near the car, sanskar snatched the keys from my hand to drive the car. I couldn't allow him to drive as still he hadn't fully regained his strength.

I argued with him to drive the car. But as if he had ever cared to listen to my sayings! However the old, spoiled & daredevil swara suryavansi was somewhere intact with my soul. I exactly knew how to blackmail him. I made a sorrowful & pout face to divert his attention & in the meanwhile I cunningly took the keys from his hands & sat on the driver seat. Sanskar in an angry mood asked,"Swara! Why don't you agree with me ever in your life?" While opening the front door of the car for him, I replied,"As if you have ever agreed to my sayings. Tit for tat, sanskar. I hope you get it..." & I smiled continuously.

He was just staring at me intensely which made me shy. He was sitting besides me on the front seat and this mere feeling was making me ecstatic. Though out the journey, none spoke a word & complete quietness prevailed inside the car. We reached near the bank. Just then I came out of the car to wave him good bye, I met some of my friends there accidentally.

I hugged all of them casually. One of my friends asked,"Now a days you are totally vanished from our sight. Half of the vacation is over still you don't hangout with us. What's the matter behind it dear?" I was approaching to give her the answer, suddenly another friend yelled in a mocking tone,"Guys! Our SS is having a boyfriend. Come on guys! How can she even spare her times with us in this vacation?" I couldn't understand the meaning of their nonsense talks. Just then I found them watching towards sanskar & gossiping about our relationship.

Now the situation was clear to me & I quickly replied,"No.. No.. You guys are mistaken. There is nothing such relation between us.. He is a friend only." Again one of them yelled,"Oh! Come on swara! Don't lie at least in front of your friends. We can surely understand this friendly relationship. However the way he is gazing at you doesn't look like that..." & all of them started grinning.

I was speechless. Sanskar was staring at me. It meant he must had heard all our conversations by sitting inside the car. Because of these guys, he must had felt uncomfortable. I needed to make him understand about the situation. Breaking my thoughts, again one of my friends asked,"Swara! In the entire vacation, you even don't call us once & now you are roaming with this guy... Then what's your relationship with him?" I stammered,"Re..la..tion..ship....." Just then one of them patted my shoulder & I said,"He is just a friend & nothing more than that & yes! I am busy with my project so, I can't contact you guys.. However I will catch up all of you soon..." By saying so, I waved them good bye & they left. After viewing them leaving, sanskar also came out of the car & bid me bye & went inside the bank.

Again I started my car & proceeded towards my home to meet my mom. While travelling, the gossips of my friends were buzzing inside my eardrums. Honestly I never thought about the definition of my relationship with sanskar. What was this relationship to be called? He cared for me. He would never leave me alone. The solitude of my life was vanished due to him. We stayed together. He pampered me & I loved him. Love!! Only four letters word but took years to understand that feelings. Was I sure about it?

When I broke down due to my family chaos, my mom often said to me,"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you will find someone who can completely turn your world around. You can tell him things that you’ve never shared with another soul and he will absorb everything you say and actually wants to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments, life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell him about it, knowing he will surely share in your excitement. He isn't at all embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make fool of yourself. Never do he will hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather he will build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when he will be around you. You can be yourself and not worry about what he will think of you because he will love you for who you are."

Oh gosh! My relationship with Sanskar was exactly like the way my mom had narrated. It meant, I was in love. Yes! Undoubtedly I was in love. But what was about Sanskar? Did he love me? I guessed,'YES' but he never told me, like I never accepted my feelings about him. Sometimes it was better to leave the matter to the hands of time & it would settle it.

I had covered all the way to home while I was indulged in these thoughts. I parked my car in front of my house & happily went inside while calling out my mom. Just then our caretaker, Maria came outside & after seeing me said,"Are swara! You are here! Like after ages I am seeing you. Where are you all these days?"

I smiled & replied,"Hey Maria aunty! Actually I am busy in my college stuffs. But where is mom? She isn't at all visible inside the house.." Maria replied,"Madam has actually gone to attend Durga Prasad Maheswari's party along with Sir. Both of them will return at night after taking the dinner there." I murmured,"Oh shit! I have come at a wrong time."

Just then Maria said,"Swara, you take rest in your room. I am sending some refreshments there." Cutting her words, I asked,"Aunty! Durga Prasad Maheswari is dad's biggest rival na.. Then why have they both gone to attend the party?" Maria replied negatively to my question as she didn't know the answer. I said,"OK aunty! Now I am leaving. I am in a hurry." She replied,"OK swara! I will inform Madam about your arrival.." Cutting her words, I said,"No aunty! Don't tell mom about my coming. I will again come to surprise her. I want to capture her smiling face in my memory lane after seeing me after a long gap." I came out of the house to meet laksh in the hospital & to convey him all the developments about the health of Sanskar and to get appropriate medical advise from him.

I started my car to reach to the hospital & in the mean while I had called Laksh. As soon as he picked up, I said,"Laksh! I am coming to meet you in 20 minutes. Be present in the hospital." From the other side he replied," Wow Swara! After one month you are remembering me.. Is everything OK? And how is sanskar? Is he recovered? Is he still staying with you?"

Cutting his words, I said,"Oh laksh! How many questions will you put forward at one go? Ya everything is fine & he is still staying with me. Now I am driving. I will tell you everything in details after reaching at hospital." He nodded & I disconnected the call.

As soon as I kept the phone on the dashboard, I saw some crowd gatherings in the main road. I halted my car as I couldn't move further. I came out of the car & asked a passerby about the matter that led to happen such massive gatherings. As fas as I had enquired, he said about the accident of a lady that caused this congregation. As a medical student, I couldn't leave a victim on the spot to die. So, I entered in the crowd to help her. But after seeing her face, I froze on the spot. The ground beneath me was no longer stable rather it was undulating & unknowingly I yelled,"Shomi......"


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