Yaaram Ep5

She was wandering on her heels at the third busiest airport of England. " I came to Manchester for burning the fire" she exclaimed by putting hand on her mouth.
Some people saw her with wonder but she didn't care about anyone. She worn white flowing shalwar with short shirt which bottom was rounded. And her white long dupatta was cleaning the floor of airport. And everyone was entangling her dupatta. She said again by rolling herself on her heels:" I'm here Manchester and I'll not cry again and please don't make me cry"
Her white duppata was looking amazing which rolled on the land of ruler of subcontinent. If anything is the sign of good luck, then it will be the slogan of Amraha. If any sound is the sound of happiness then it will must be the action of her rolling on the heels. If there any shore of peace and calmness, then it will be complete in the essence of Amaraha.
No one had come to pick her, she was waiting for three hours but she had not any complain. She could easily wait for three days, now she hadn't any problem.
Now she could see the board of her name. A Korean plus Chinese girl ran towards her by hanging the long cross bag.
"I'm Amraha" she went to that Korean girl.
"oh hello! Sorry I'm late"
"it's ok.. Lets go"
"actually that girl who has come to pick you, met with accident.. Then I've to come to pick you... Have you waited for long?"
Amraha first made face but then burst out in laughter. Hana was walking before her and she was walking so fast that Amraha was exhausted by walking with her. Both sat inside the taxi and came to building. They carried luggage upstairs and came inside the flat.
Flat was empty. There was two rooms and small lounge with open kitchen. Amraha's eyes were widened to see it.. How beautiful this flat is.. Wow...
Hana took her towards one room, where two single beds were kept. And no idea how they made place to arrange folding mattress on floor. That was surely place of their walking. :"this is your bed" she pointed out the floor mattress. Amraha's mood got off.. Why she has to sleep on floor?
" kindly! Don't touch anything" Hana said with forceful smile but in requesting style. Because she was half Chinese then she said these words in half bow down style.
Till she got fresh, Hana gave her coffee and sandwiches:" This is from me" she extended small tray to her with this humbleness like she was giving her secret treasure. Amraha stared her with amazement. After a long flight, she got this small portion of meal!
"maybe it's just starter, real supper will come at night" Amraha thought.
"I'm getting late.. I've to go" she was about to leave but still reminded :" Please don't touch anything"
But she touched everything. She sprayed every perfumes which were kept on study table. Actually she was checking that it was real or feigned because it had said that how much perfume of Pakistan was branded and expensive but it was still copy of real brand. And now she realized that she was purchasing copy of real brands. All flat was fragranced by the smell branded quality perfumes. She also checked stuff of makeups. But she only gave one glance to books, only on theirs titles. Titles were like that old books were covered with modern clothes. She didn't have interest in old age books.
She went to washroom and checked every item.. Face wash, body wash, lotions even she checked the little ducks which were flowing in the bath tub. She opened every cabinet and smelled food items. Other room was locked.she checked the tv of lounge, firstly, she searched the channels then she opened the music channel and went to kitchen for making noodles. She made two packets of noodles and put it in the big bowl. She ate during listening the music of Edward Maya. She left bowl on kitchen and offed the tv, after it she fell asleep on the single bed. :" I paid 30% ... It wasn't joke"
It was time of 12 o'clock when someone awoke her. :" Miss Pakistan! Wake up please" a new face was waking up her. Firstly, she thought that it was her dream and she stayed asleep.
"lady Amraha! Please wake up, otherwise I'll spray this D-D spray on your nose..and trust me it's world's worst smell and it will not left you before week"
Amraha was eating Nihari with Dada in dream.
Spray's cap was removed and the dirtiest smell came to her nose. She was right, this smell would not go after weeks.
"Dada.." She got up by shouting.
" I still don't make the spray" she said after shaking her shoulders.
She looked at them with her sleepy red eyes and tried to recognize a girl who had green eyes. But her sight was blaring.
D-D's cap again removed and came to her nose, she stayed away it to her nose and this time her eyes were opened completely.
" how ill mannered method is this!" Amraha irritated & green eyes were widened. :"ill mannered.."
Amraha:" You people have studied in big universities of world, but you'll never learn basic morals."
This time green eyes were starring her with sarcastic manner:"Please come outside with patience" she left by saying this.
Amraha came outside after washing her mouth. She took more time with her consciousness that let them wait for her. But there were neither any table of delicious meals nor the smell of meals. However there was circle of 2 to 5 peoples. And there was noodles bowl placed among them. Some noodles were left in a bowl. Crowd was starring her.
" have a seat" a girl of brown hairs, said whose had made braid of Asian style, and she kept this braid on her shoulder like that there was snake who was ready to bite.
Amraha sat and thought that maybe there would be an introduction held before meal.
" this is miss Pakistan.. Amraha.." Hana said.
"hi! I'm Lily Col from Scotland" a girl of spray introduced herself.
" I'm Shirley Margot" a girl with brown hairs said. But she couldn't smile.
" I'm Batty Lo.. From Germany" a tall and thin girl said with smile. Amraha was observing that she was hardly controlling her laugh.
" I'm Azra from Chicago.." Someone said in broken Urdu. She observed her as Sharlet or Christiana because of her tom boy hair cut.
" I have told you that never touch anything...isn't it?" Hana started to speak.
" I was only gone washroom" she denied clearly.
Hana opened her mouth:" She's telling lie Shirley"
Shirley signed her through eyes and Hana was silent.
"this" Shirley pointed out bowl which kept on table.
" I don't know about anything..it is already kept there" that time, she was afraid and repented that why wasn't she washed that bowl.
" ok Amraha! You can go to sleep, sorry to disturb you"
" and what about dinner?" She got up and asked.
These five firstly looked at her then stared each other. Though Batty Lo covered her mouth but she could clearly see that she was hardly controlling her laugh.
"Do you still feel hungry?" Asked by Azra.
"no...  But it's necessary to eat dinner.. Isn't it?" She made excuse but she really felt hungry and it wasn't a matter of hunger but she was excited to think that which type of dinner were they arranged for her.
" we don't eat without hunger lady" Shirley answered with patience.
"don't offer meal also?" She said in Urdu. Except Azra, no one understood her and she eyed her. She went to room and slept on the floor mattress. She could hear the voice of their murmuring but she didn't care. :"let them murmur... I paid 30%.." And she fell asleep.
***************
When she woke up next day, and wondered to see the view of outside and shouted:" Uff! How much it's clean... How much it's beautiful"
A way, in which she came last night, this was view of backside of it where lots of greenery held in which many flowers were blossoming. She didn't find any particle of dust there. Like that, no human had come there from ages.
Her room was empty, even flat was empty. Bedcovers were without any crease on them. There wasn't any perfume on study table, washroom was also empty from face wash, shampoos etc. She came to kitchen and find a chit on counter.:" Your breakfast"
There was egg, jam, four pieces of bread, milk and sugar... One cup dry coffee and one tea-bag.
Remaining four cabinets were locked by the chain which had lock in between it. Amraha shocked to see it. But it was minor shock.  She didn't have phone, last night Hana phoned her to Pakistan. Now it was clear that she had to call from landline but after this minor shock, she had to make long call to talk to Dada. Then they had to pay heavy bill on this long call.
She found second chit on fridge:" Darbi will come to pick you for university at 8 am, be ready"
She got ready after breakfast. Exact 9 am, A little girl who seemed like woman, named Darbi came:" I'm Darbi, Shirley has told me to pick you for university"
Amraha:" I'm Amraha... I'm going university first time"
Darbi:" I can understand after looking you" she smiled and Amraha liked her smile. Even she liked her abrasion shoes and pant. Even her teeth with braces because she was stepping at the Manchester university. So she should like everything.
" hurry up! We're getting late" Darbi went outside fast. She locked flat and followed her. Darbi was ready to pick her with her small cycle. :" Come and sit" she pointed out the back seat of cycle.
So, she was picked on this cycle and Darbi was come to her specially.
:" What happen Amraha? Come on... I've to leave for my class also"
She sat on that small cycle, firstly she hid her shyness, then controlled her laugh... She had hidden her face behind Darbi and tried to control the speed of her laugh during crossing the road.
"dada!" She imagines dada:" I'm laughing so much that i want to jump on the road and laugh after holding my tummy and all Manchester will gather to see me. Dada! Sometimes, life makes tiny, ordinary excuses to make us laugh... Dada! I like these excuses of time which thread in my life"
She saw many time the hairs of Darbi which she tied in small ponytail. Which, God forbid us, was stigma on the name of ponytail. It's like tail of sparrow when it flies with the wind.
Darbi was driving cycle with solemnness like she was driving the royal Horse cart of king of Oman. She was bursting in laughter during their all way. She put off her from cycle and said:" How fat you're! Do jogging"  how Darbi rode with her, her sweating could easily tell her.

Read More →

Swasan A path hate to love Ep28

Recap:" Sanskar got conscious, swara asked him about his relationship with Shanaya. He met with Meera who reminded him that how he called her from her pet name"
Sanskar thinks her words and his veins of brain vibrate to think about her words which she used for Shanaya.. "personal prostitute.. Huh!" These words remind him , the darkest period of his life. But at the end, he can't tolerate any word against Shanaya. He doesn't love her, he's sure but he's grateful to her because this personal prostitute collected his pieces when he was broken into the pieces.
He goes towards Laksh's room where Swara is now. He goes inside and says to Laksh:" Lucky! I wanna talk to my Mrs? May I?"
Laksh nods and leaves the room, he goes to her. She's looking down but he can easily understand her wet eyes and shivering body. He slowly holds her wrist and says:" Come with me"
She lifts her eyes to face him and drags her body to match the footsteps of her husband.
Both go downstairs towards the garage.  He opens the door of car for her and she sits on front seat.
She doesn't know where is he taking her? Even she didn't ask any question from him. Their journey passed silently. Sanskar stopped the car at the small house.
Sanskar opens her door and again holds her hand without her permission. He closed the door and softly drags towards the home. But as she enters in the house, she realized that this isn't a house, this is s school or any institution but different from typical school. After passing two rooms and lounge, they enter the last room where she found Shanaya. Totally different from her daily look.
She's wearing simple shalwar qameez, she tied her hairs in genuine knot and her face is clean from every makeup. But her eyes are evident of her long weeping. A small guilt comes into her  heart.
Sanskar turns to her:" This is school for this prostitute and I'll pick you after an hour, until you can see that how my personal prostitute is doing that work which rejected by every pure and simple girl" he goes to Shanaya, Shanaya worries to see them there.
He holds her from shoulder and takes her towards Shanaya. She meets with her in normal style, she can't find any offence on her face regarding her words.
Sanskar :" I've some work, until you talk with her and visit your school to her, (he turns to swara) i hope you both will become friends after this meeting" his tone is soft and mild this time because he knows, emotions are not matter of force and pressure.
He leaves, she doesn't understand what to say, Shanaya calls someone and asked for attend class. She takes her towards another room. It's simple but clean room, there's single bed on one side and small study table in which two chairs are settle.
She sign her to sit, she silently sit and Shanaya makes coffee for them in coffee machine.
Shanaya gives her cup of coffee and sits on other chair. She silently takes a sip of coffee.
Shanaya:" This is our school, actually branch of our school, every year, we choose 20 to 30 children of every age from every state of India. Just on two basis, one they have poverty and second they've intellectual... We provided them a one year course to them of basic study, ethics, manners, self esteem etc... Then we transfer them to main branch of Delhi. Your husband's 80 percent of revenue comes in my hands for this purpose"
Swara forgets to take coffee and her mouth opens for moment. In this age, who gave 80% of their revenue to any stranger?
Shanaya pauses for a moment and continues:" Don't consider us as Robin hood type or any angel, we're demons who want to stop to produce demons like us. Now it's all clear but initially, we got success from blackmailing, or purchasing people... You know this is best thing, we know to do.. We mean , me and Sanskar... "
Swara is silently listening her words, she was also victim of his blackmailing, so she can easily believe on her words.
She continues her words:" We find the weakness of people and attack on the weak part for taking our purpose from the particular person, you know what Swara, we both saw the ugliest faces of people, even on those who's most respectful personalities of our society, and this is reason we hate lies, we hate our society, we hate peoples of our society, you can't understand because you didn't experience of this and I pray to god that you'll never experience of it, we gave to society which it gave us... Tit for tat"
Swara:" I don't agree with you, if we start to take revenge from everyone, then no one is left in this world who didn't harm us, directly or indirectly. Everybody become victim of society, even nature..."
Shanaya sighs and puts her cup on table:" Hmm you're right! But it's also depends on our instinct, evils are hidden in the instincts of us, we've this evils in our instinct, I and Sanskar have this already but society helped us to take out this evilness from our inside to out ...."
Swara:" You both are evil..?"
Shanaya:" Yes! We're same, this is a reason, we're so much close to him, and we're used to it even that we now don't consider this evilness to evilness because it's normal to us"
Swara's coffee is getting cold but she forget about to take it because her words are opening the new door of awareness for her. She spent clear life so it's completely new to her, she doesn't understand how this angel stuck in the peer of devils.
Shanaya beats slowly at the bottom of table from her finger tips.
Swara:" Evilness is the option, we've option to chose or left it, you both chose it"
Shanaya nods in no:" Maybe you're right, but evilness sometime, left as last option for us, either we've to choose it or live our life in a low level  like animals... We can choose evilness but can't live our life in a low level....you know what why?" She says in soft voice departing every word to other word. Her words are coming from her mouth like that pearl is falling on the surface of crystal, one by one.
Swara thought that she's really enchantress, who can easily spell by her words. Same as "why" comes out from swara's mouth automatically.
Shanaya looks into her eyes:" First, answer my questions honestly, I know you dont like me, but answer truly"
Swara wants to listen her more, so she nods her head in yes.
Shanaya:" Am I beautiful?".
Swara's mouth opens to listen this question.
Shanaya:" Tell me am I beautiful?"
Swara looks her, in this simple attire, she looks beautiful and her beauty can easily mesmerized anyone.
" Yes.. You're!" She answers honestly..
Shanaya smiles:" Now tell me...how's Sanskar? Is he handsome?"
Swara doesn't understand why is she asking this type of questions but she answers:" Not only handsome... If I say, god blessed him with male beauty, then I'll not wrong to saying it"
Shanaya smiles victoriously like that she got the answer what she wants.
She gets up and comes to her:" You know Swara! We both have many things common, this is also, but if we talk about the inequality of blessing of god, no one has everything.. Except some of his subjects, we both are included in this category..  The lowest and highest level of beauty and intellect brings virtue or disasters. We both have beauty as well as great intellectual and when these two things are combine in one person, he can become blessing as well as destruction, for the world and for himself too. But you know dear! This blessing is destruction in disguise... Because we can't spend our life in low level, death is better than live in lowest level for us.. Because it's our instinct.... And we can't quarrel against our instinct dear"
Swara is in spell of her words, these words are the words of another world which is completely strange for her.
Shanaya takes her cup in which coffee is left but she knows, she'll not drink it. There's small sink in room, she washes the cups and keeps them on shelf.
Swara:" Why didn't you both choose virtue?"
Shanaya smiles and turns to her. She sits on second chair beside her and lifts her cellphone from table.
She calls someone:" Hey Sanskar! Your wife wanna stay here more, don't come after an hour, you do your work, I'll drop her...... Yeah! She's absolutely fine here... No she's not crying... Don't worry... Do your work, we'll meet"
She disconnects the call and comes to her:" I wanna tell you one story, which will describe that why we didn't choose virtue instead of destruction... Do you wanna listen?"
Swara nods in yes, Shanaya starts her story which seems like fairytale but most horrible than nightmare.
********************
Sanskar is looking the God's beauty around him and he looks marvellous in this breathtaking environment. Even an artist can't stop himself to do his art after watching this view in which he sits.
He reminds the words of Swara and thinks about the cause of his life, his every action and its reaction.
Meera... A beautiful girl who comes in his life and made his life like hell. But it wasn't matter of beauty, because there's no lack of beauty a boy like him, it's more than that. He doesn't know why and how but he attracted by her simultaneously.
He started loving her, her making face, her naughtiness, her innocence. He was admirer of her completely. Rules and regulations of his home was very strike, he got limited pocket money but he always wanted to see his girlfriend happy.
He started part time job for purchasing gifts for her because she was orphan and she didn't have money to walk with the status of university. When he realized his love towards her, that time he decided that he must marry her because for him, she's respectable as well. He waited for the time when he gave his name to her beloved and make her respectable in front of world. He was gold medalist, most intelligent, perfect boy of family as well university.  But he was most foolish man who didn't understand that she was only taking opportunity of his company.
He remembers, it was time of marriage of Adarsh Bhai, he invited her in the wedding.
Meera:" Oh Sanky! What will I wear on your brother's wedding"
Sanskar:" You look beautiful in every attire katty"
Meera jerked:" I said, I've no any dress of  wedding dress code"
Sanskar thought:" Oh! Wedding clothes are often expensive and I already give you my all pocket money and salary... Now what will do?"
Meera:" This isn't my matter, do something otherwise, I'll not come in wedding"
Sanskar:" Dont do this katty, I wanna introduce you with my family, actually my mom suspected on me, but I told her that I'll tell her everything... I can't hide anything from my mom, but for you, I made her wait..."
Meera:" Why didn't you make excuse?"
Sanskar:" You know very well, I don't tell a lie, well I'll do something, you don't worry..."
He borrowed some money from Laksh and some from his friends. Vicky was his best friend, when he asked money from him, he stopped and looked him with seriousness. :" This is third time, you're asking money and I know this because of your so called gf"
Sanskar:" If you don't wanna give me money, then don't give but don't say any bad word against her"
Vicky sighed:" Ok Sanskar! But you've to stop her from doing all this, I'm your friend and I want to see you happy... And this girl... I don't know but I don't feel that she's sincere with you"
Sanskar:" I know you're worried for me, but dont worry dude! I can handle everything... And she's sincere with me, if she wasn't...then I absolutely detect her.."
Vicky gave him money:" I hope you're right, well I again say, don't take her on cloud nine... Otherwise this girl will become problem for you"
Sanskar took the money and pat his shoulder:" Don't worry dude! Sanskar can handle everything"
He said and leaved. Destiny smiled on his words and want to show him, his limit that look and think again before saying the words of greatness.

Read More →

Yaaram Ep4

It was also happened in those days that her ex-fiance was married to her cousin Maira. Moreover, that boy got promotion and company allotted them house and an one-month Europe tour as a wedding gift.
One day, Maira called her:" I told to Afrasayab that you are saved by marrying me otherwise if you have married Amraha then... Well... Leave this... By the way he'll be bankrupt and more than that... I don't know what will happen with him..."
She silently heard the fable of Afrasayab. At the end Maira said:" You also say something"
She disconnected the call, it was enough answer for her.
She was going to college regularly, but she sometimes talked to Dada. She was angry with him. Dadi and amma were not saying anything bad to her now. If something burned, dadi got sprain, Hamad met accident by motorcycle or Baba got loss in business; no one said anything to her. Because now this work had taken by outsiders with excitement.  Amraha felt that there was a jungle of darkness, in which she was wandering.  But she couldn't find any ray of light. She thought that people would forget everything but won't forget about her. She prayed that any kind of wind might be blown in the atmosphere which erased her name from the minds of people. And with that people would forget the incidents which was joint with her personality. If some guests came to home, she went to library. But she couldn't stay there after evening. Then she was wandering with Dada but didn't talk with him. Dada knew very well that she was afraid to face people. Specially from their relatives. And this fear was given by those people.
She was disappeared in the functions of relatives but she was still famous among them. She was the best topic for discussion and making jokes. She was player of the game of ladder and snake who was bitten by snake every time and she got the lower position... Everytime..
Jealous girls of relatives wanted to see the beautiful girl like Amraha in the lower position. But why only jealous girl? Who was not there; Who didn't want first number for themselves and last for others?
But human is one, no matter who praises himself but also covers the vices of others.
But this type of human isn't found in the crowd of people.
********************
She has become disgusting, sad and bitter by her environment and herself day by day. Doesn't know, it is any plan of destiny or any emphasis of nature that she's trying fast to derive out from this environment. In this one and half year, she applied in hundreds of foreign universities. Fifty percent, sixty, seventy percent, she didn't let go any type of scholarship. Dada tried his best to convince Baba to give some lacs for the study of daughter. But Baba had only one mantra:" Who spend lacs on the study?"
The student society of Manchester university was giving five scholarship from their personal fund. She also rejected by them. In this two years, she got these words almost two hundred times:" Sorry! You're a good student, but we can't help... Best of luck"  then she leaved counting of emails. But it's clear that there's no limit of refusal and failure but loser always has limit to tolerate her failure.
Refusal from Manchester university also gave her tears. And she sent them last email in rage:" I know I'm unfortunate, I'll die with fire...so what? You all go to hell and your offer of scholarship also go to hell"
Next day, she received the email in which she got the long lecture about the people who faced many problems in their lives and they got the success in their worst conditions. Mohammed Ali Clay and Charlie Chaplin were on top of the list. Then they also told her that she got B-grade in matric, and F.Sc. With only A grade; in this situation, if she would do graduation with A+ grade, it would not make any difference. Because in this situation it would be unfair with those who had marvellous academic results; if they gave scholarship to her.
"huh! The supporter of justice" she said.
In last time, there was a short sentence:" By the way, we're thinking maybe we will do something for you, give some time to us"
She gave time to them, what type of object she was to give them time. In these days, her BA result was also out. But board association maybe forbid A+ grade on her. As much as she put effort but they never gave her A-plus. She stayed angry but what she could do? She wrote plus sign (+) on her degree and mailed it to Manchester university. And her cleverness worked this time. After one month of thinking, they replied to her:" We're giving you 70% scholarship. You've to repay 30% during two years degree of university. And remaining 50% you've to within coming 5 years. Your food and residency; you've to handle all these. We only provide these facilities in temporary basis.
Then the words of "unfortunate and I'll die" worked there. Pakistanis like brutish shivered with fear and offered her scholarship.
She went silently with dada to make passport. Dada took out some of his money and some borrowed from his friends for paying remaining 30% of fees.
Now she was chirping with dada and pampered by him. She forget about her anger of years with dada. Again they're become friends. She was like that she was going forever and dada was pampering her that after two years, when she'll come, she must have forgotten about crying, dying and beating etc.
She went with dada to upper and lower class hotels and glanced her surroundings like that she was saying goodbye to everything forever. Dada observed her style and says:" Amraha! You're going for study... Only for study... Be remember that I'm giving you freedom for study, not for the other decision. Still me and your Baba has the authority for taking decision for you"
"ok!" She nodded but she thought that she would study and would do job there and didn't know, dada started thinking. She didn't have any interest in boys and he could write on stamp papar about the same.
Both were ridden in the white horse-cart which was running on road of Mall. She noticed today that how much everything was beautiful and perfect. Sitting with dada and looking at the lights of surrounding, she was eating khoya qulfi(a kind of ice cream lolly) and putting her hands below to qulfi because whenever qulfi fell down on floor, it had messed completely on the floor. And this shock was more than anything. And this shock would not decrease after eating 5 to 6 qulfies. We only remembered that fallen qulfi..
Plain, bright and historical road of Lahore, which made melody by the hoofs of horse which was running on the Maal Road. They came back to home like happy kids who spend their three days Eid(Islamic festival) by collecting the Eidi(sum of amount which was given by elders to youngers on the occasion of Eid). And they didn't go outside of the home if they missed the Eidi of someone. And at the fourth day of Eid, those kids went outside and what the style of their coming outside would be! Marvellous....!
*********************
"Amraha is going after two days" dada announced at the dinning table.
"where?" Dadi asked, she thought that they often went to Baluchistan, might be this time she would go to Peshawar with dada.
Dada:" Manchester"
Everyone:" What's this?"
Dada thought that it would burst like bomb but it even didn't create the noise of cracker. We should take evil eye of their knowledge of geography. They didn't even know that the Manchester was the name of city and this city was located on England.
"is there any proposal come from there?" Dada got speechless after this question.
" your daughter is much talented that mayer of Manchester has asked her to come and study in our university" dada said in sarcastic voice.
"Amaraha is going abroad for study, her flight is after two days"
Now it made difference, Amma, Baba, dadi saw them with wonder.
" where do you get money?" Baba said with anger.
" she's going free, all expenses are carried by university" dada said.
Baba:" Baba! Why are you fooling me? Nowadays who do anything in free? Do you sale your plot? I have kept it for the marriage of Amraha and Daniya"
Dada tried to sale plot but it was located on depopulated place, so he couldn't sell it.
" plot is still there, you can go and check it"
Dadi:" She's not going anywhere, I have seen alliance for her, she'll get marry, it's enough"
"alliance...?" Amraha saw dadi and got up to go to her room. She was packing her bag quickly and also consoling herself that:" No one will stop me, I'll go from there.. I must go..."
Dadi, Amma, baba were arguing, now which type of alliance had come in this bad time she prayed that groom's family will know about incidents of her misfortune. Her family would cal her that how much this girl was unfortunate... Unlucky and black tongue.. Evil eyed girl. And moreover, someone might tell them about the incidents which related to her birth date. What was happened on Tuesday and 2nd of month?
Was this any time for alliance? Her fingers were pained by typing emails and filling the form of scholarships and now dadi and amma were preparing for marriage.
She was consoling herself and saying like that:" I'll go... I'll must go day after tomorrow.. Nothing will happen... Dada will do everything fine.."  she packed her luggage and kept safely her passport that whether baba would burn it in rage.
Night was passing and she was hearing the noise from outside. After hiding the passport, she laid by lean with the door of her room. She got the nap bur she still murmured:" I'll go... I'm going.."
Dada opened the door and listened ups and down of her murmuring.
He put pillow below her head. She was so happy first time at that night. She was so much happy that without any mattress, she slept on the floor. Dada was sad about her. He wished that if this environment didn't give any pain to her then she might have slept every night peacefully. If she got happiness in her home.... Then she didn't sob to make her eyes red and didn't afraid from them. Dada sat with her and stared her.. That parrot which has soul of parents, name children... And for him, that parrot is Amraha.
This type of love, he didn't have for her father, even other children of him. Once Amraha asked him in anger:" Why don't you become like others...why do you love me so much?"
He couldn't answer that question. Destiny is always generous to human beings, even if all world is against her still somebody love that person from heart and soul. That love may be any in form of human, any bird, animal or any other creature.Always purposeless hatred produces unconditional love. As much as she got the hatred of everyone, she got the love of him.
God never forgets that if his devotee got so many quills in her life then god must give the fresh rose to her. Then his devotee will forgive about the pain of quills after getting that rose. Dada didn't know the secret of his love, only God knew about it and who knew very well then he must do very well.
Baba gave 10,000 rupees to her for shopping while dadi and amma were angry with her. She did shopping with dada. Daniya helped her for packing. Ali and Hammad looked at her with sorrow because she was going so far from them.
Dada also was controlling tears from his eyes:" She's going for study, not eloping... Parents are not getting happy... At least you both say goodbye to her with happiness... Whether plan will crush and she'll get lost"
Dada gave this lecture to Amma and dadi and both forgot about their anger. And said goodbye to her with prayers.
And she leaved for Manchester which would be waiting for her.
City of lessons
City of independence
And....
City of beloved (Yaaram).

Read More →

Yaaram Ep3

In those days, it was happened that Baba's hand was burned and Dadi cursed her. She also answered to her then Baba slapped her with his burn hand. She hit her head on wall and it was bleeding. She felt pain in her head but she only cried due to Baba's slap by forgetting her head pain and blood from first part of a day to last part of night.  Then she put her some clothes in school bag, and went from her home. She walked... Walked.... Crossed the main road of home. She reached at main road then crossed it also.
She was just walked and crossed every road... Even she didn't afraid from the dirty dogs of footpath. Her eyes were filled with tears and hung bag on her shoulder. She walked like that she was (god forbid) alone in this world.
After reaching far from home, she didn't understand, where to go then she started crying after sitting on the corner of footpath.
" you made me tired Amraha!" Dada also sat with her, he had bottle of water. He took some water and also made her drink.
"I have left that house" she shouted after drinking water.
Dada:" You've to leave that home one day, because it isn't your home my child"
"why don't you go Dubai? Now I've done my matriculation"
Dada got confused:" I'm an old, weak, sick person, think to yourself that how can I go to outside the country, specially for the earning purpose... I'm so old... I also become deaf now"
Amraha:" Then why do you make promise?"
Dada stayed silent for a long time.. She was so young and especially possessed painful heart.. Now he could not console her by lies:" Why won't you go there Amraha?"
" where?" She put off her school bag.
" Dubai, America, Australia, canada, France" dada said.
"I..? And America, France?" She cried more vigorously that Dada reminded joke at her and started joking with her.
" yes! Grand daughter of Mirza Kamal,has topped in F.Sc. this year, she has got scholarship... It has two days, since she has gone to Canada... Amraha! You also top in F.Sc."
Amraha:"me.....?"
Dada:"yes Amaraha my child! Do top and go from here... Grand daughter of Mirza Kamal will come after seven years, maybe she'll not come here,she has to do three years of services in Canada also... It becomes 10 years.. Ten years and in Canada? Www here people after spending 20 to 25 lacs and she has gone in free... Think Amraha! How many benefits are of study? If you prove yourself, then this world will welcome you" in that last part of night, Dada was not less than Aristotle who taught Alexander about the conquer of conqueror.
And then Alexander the great was also conqueror.
And she took admission in college by her heart. Studied day and night. Only study..  She prepared herself to do top. She had belief like that she told every class fellow and friend that she will go Canada and spend ten years there..
" I'll go Canada, I'll spend ten years there"
" I'll become doctor and enjoy my life"
" yes! I already have this plan to spend my life in any European country"
"oh! This two years will pass fast and I'll go from here"
She was so happy in those two years. She got the knowledge of Canada as much that Canadian didn't know about themselves. Dada gave her those books which had the word of "Canada".
Then result was out.. But alas! She didn't get A-plus even. She ruined herself by crying. Dada avoided eye contact with her and silently applied scholarship also but where they have lots of double A then who will ask to simple A grade. In those days, dada got know that how many talented people this country had created.
Wherever, he submitted her form, he felt happiness to see crowd there but also felt sorry of his Amraha.
He understood that she could not get scholarship and it was also happened that she got three official letters of rejection but could not get admission form.
No one got the news in family that what was happening between Dada and Amraha. Why Amraha felt sick? Why was she not talking to dada? Why Amraha wasn't saying dada ji dada ji all time?
And she also got the call of class fellows and friends:" When will you going to Canada? Look! Must meet us before going"
"you've courage that you're going so far... I feel die to think about it"
She said with that belief in those two years that all her class fellows had believed that she will go. They didn't taunt on her but Amraha took it as taunt on herself.
******.   *******      ********
Baba fixed her engagement, she also agreed that if she could not  go to Canada then at least she could go to second house. After six months, her alliance was broken. It was cleared that they got to know about the incidents which related to her birth. Baba got angry but what could he do? He got angry on Amma and dadi that why had they spread this types of talks in society that her alliance was broken now.
Amma and dadi repented but it was late. .
Then again she got alliance second time,Baba gave the date of marriage immediately to groom's family without any custom of engagement or nikah. But 15 days before the time of marriage, that day when she was checking her bridal dress, she got the news of being widow of young sister of groom. That story was finished.
That time, she listened so many worst words that she attempted suicide by taking sleeping pills of dadi.
After a week, once she arrived home after being well, she wanted to take pills again and wanted to die.Amma and dadi will cry in the corners of house:" Alas! Our young daughter has passed away" they will cry vigorously. Dada will leave the house forever. And Baba and dadi will search dada like crazy people and dada will come to her graveyard at night.
She felt so much calmness after imagining of her death that everyone will cry who had made her cry.
But she only imagined about it but couldn't find courage to do that act of suicide again.
Dada tried to talk with her and convince to her.
A young girl tried to kill herself and this was happened due to that foolish talks. If she couldn't die by sleeping pills, she would must die by nervous breakdown.
Dada:" I don't have much money to send you abroad for study, marriage is also not going to happen of yours. I have talked to your father but he has made joke of it that it's better to make gold on your name instead of sending you abroad for study, Amraha! I'm disgusted by the people who do long prayer in sacred nights and involve in many types of sins. Lie, envy, dishonesty, backbiting... We don't do endeavour to spare ourselves from these bad deeds and we do ablution to stand for praying. Your ex-mother in law who has broken the alliance, she attends every religious occasion... She does debates on religious topics... I have also satisfied of this alliance because of this reason ... But she is like just a good-colored fruit which is rotten one from inside.... Our hypocrisy is eating our peace of environment like termite. We consider ourselves on right path, but we are going on wrong path by reverse feet.
Amraha! Part of my heart! Never attempt suicide again otherwise I'll also kill myself... Be responsible and study well... We must find any path.
Dada visited her 15 days tour of Baluchistan and convinced her to take admission in college.  But her life became more bitter that her two engagements were broken and no one was ready to take her hand in family. Mamu asked the hand of Daniya for her elder son.
Amma and dadi asked for Amraha by themselves but he forced only for Daniya.
"they're so coward that none of us is ready to take risk" she said bitterly to dada.
Dada replied:" A one who is far from god, they're coward like the same",
Amraha:" I'm not far from god, then why it's happening to me?"
Dada:"sometimes, destiny hits pebbles to sleeping persons because they will awake and proceed to achieve their aims of life"

Read More →

Swasan A Path hate to love Ep27

Recap:" Sanskar got the asthma attack and fit together. Shanaya slapped Swara while Laksh support her"
Sanskar comes to senses and now both Laksh and Shanaya is scolding him. And the one who want to dominant the world, is listening their scolding with smile. She knelt at the life side of her on the chair but both are on the bed with him.
Ragini comes inside the room:"you all are here, I was searching for you Swara"
Swara:" What happened ?"
Ragini sits at the corner of bed:" Nothing, I was feeling bother and you guys were disappeared, so what are you doing all?"
Laksh:" Nothing special... Actually.."
But Sanskar cuts his words:" Ragini! May I demand you something?"
Ragini:" Yeah sure jiju"
Sanskar:" Please cook dum biryani for me, which you made for us on first day of our marriage, will you?"
Ragini:" Yeah sure!"
Sanskar:" I feel hungry and I didn't take breakfast, so make it hurry"
Ragini gets up:" Ok ok!! I'm going to kitchen of your hotel and I bet, I'll make it more delicious than your professional chef"
Sanskar:" It was really good than them.." He said honestly and Ragini gets happy to hear her praise... She's about to leave when Laksh calls her:" Ragini! I also wanna eat"
Shanaya shouts:" Me too"
Ragini:" Ok ok! First let me go to kitchen" she leaves while giggling.
After leaving her, Shanaya hits him:" You demanded to make her leave"
Sanskar sighs:" You know very well then why are you asking?"
Laksh:" Yes Bhai! Not fair"
Shanaya:" Ohhh  lucky baby! Cant see to her would be Mrs to doing work"
Swara is shocked to listen her words and says immediately:" What do you mean Shanaya?"
Laksh passes his fingers into his hairs and says:" Actually Bhabhi! I love your sister, will you give me handSwara thinks for a while, Laksh is sensible man and last night incident proved that he's not so much careless That he seems like:" From me, it's yes! But I don't know about Ragini and my parents"
Shanaya:" Oh lucky baby! How do you leave me? You said me you love me? How do you do this with me?" She said like in drama style, it isn't seem like that she was so sad before few minutes.
Laksh:" Oh shanaya baby! Why didn't you inform me before? Now it's so late to marry me.. Uff Shanaya! Why do you do with me?" He said in dramatic way more than her.
Three of them are laugh to see their style. Swara suddenly felt misfit among them. Shanaya knows everything about them, Laksh is pampered by them, Sanskar leads them and love them. Everything is perfect among them, what's her place among them? She thinks and gets up from her place.
They suddenly notice her, Laksh calls him:" Where are you going Bhabhi? Come to us"
Swara:" No! I think my place isn't there, I should leave" she says slowly.
There face become pale for a moment.
Shanaya gets up from her place and comes to her:" I'm sorry, what I've done with you, I really didn't have right to do this"
Swara nods slowly and frees her hand from her grip.
Sanskar:" What happened Shanaya? What did you do?"
Shanaya told him everything, she thinks that he now scold Shanaya.
He calls Shanaya to him, she silently goes to him.
Sanskar:" Why did you do that Shanaya? I know you very well, you didn't like this, promise me, you'll not do anything like that?" He holds her hand to make promise and swara's heart completely burn to listen it.
Swara sees them in anger and just about to leave but Laksh again call her:" Bhabhi! Forgive her please"
Swara folds her arms and looks them with anger:" Why??"
Laksh becomes speechless of her"why".
Sanskar:" Lucky! We can't force anyone to forgive someone, it's her choice, let her what she wanna do"
Sanskar isn't taunting on her but don't know why she get it as taunt.
Swara:" You're right Sanskar! Now I should leave, you all are so perfect with each others, I dont know where's my place between both of you, Shanaya was perfect for you, why did you marry with me?, for the sake of revenge or just for the sake of flash?"
Sanskar looks her and smirks:" Oh! You get your tongue finally! I don't like when you give answer to me, but it's ok! I like your courage" sanskar gets up from his place and goes to her.
Swara claps to his words:" Ohhh! Wow! Shanaya can do anything, slap to your wife but I can't answer you... Oh great! Why didn't you marry with her? I'll ans you, you're such a hypocrite person, who slept with someone but for marriage, he wants a pure Virgin girl"
Sanskar gets serious to listen her words and comes close to her:" Now, you're closing your limit Swara! I was soft to you, that doesn't mean, I wouldn't do anything with you"
Swara jerks:" Yeah! This is your weapon, and why don't you use these weapons to Shanaya? Why is she here? What's her position in your life and what's my position in your life Sanskar? A toy, an only toy, she selected for you and you purchased...",
"Bhabhi... This was not like that.." Laksh comes to her but she raises her hands to him :" I'm talking to my husband and I want answer from him"
Swara turns to him:" Now tell me, what's my position, why am I misfit when there's Shanaya near you?"
Sanskar hardly controls his rage and looks into his eyes:" You're my wife Swara and she's my friend.. You two have different value in my life, one can't take other importance" his voice is soft and cold which is sign of his controlling rage.
Swara jerks for his answer because she wanna listen something else:" No! Sanskar Maheshwari... I'm a toy for you... And she...(she points out to Shanaya who's still in shock) she's your personal prostitute... Nothing else"
Sanskar shouts on her words:" Swara!!!" He raises his hands but Shanaya comes between them:" Dont do that mistake, which I did"
He looks Shanaya and glances his wife, then silently leave his place and goes outside.
Shanaya is hardly controlling her tears:" Lucky! I got remember... I've a work... I should go"
She takes her bag and leave. Laksh looks her with sorrowful eyes because he knows that she's right on her place but her style of expressing her thoughts and timing was wrong.
Laksh goes to her and softly makes her sit, he doesn't say anything, any word of complaining of his words... He just silently gives her water and changes the topic as like that nothing was happened there.
**************
 Sanskar is in lounge and calls his manager to bring cigarettes for him but Laksh and Shanaya already instruct everyone about it that dont give him cigarette.
Now he's irritating because he's helpless in front of these twos.
Suddenly someone gives cigarette to him, he feels bit relax but he angry to see her face.
He throws the cigarette:" I don't need any favour from you"
Meera smirks:" I listen which play was going on your portion, so you obviously need cigarette now",
Sanskar looks her:" Just go from here, otherwise I'll repent that why I left you alive"
Meera laughs to see her condition and sits on the sofa opposite him:" Oh darling! I can understand your condition... Why do you do that thing which you often do at the time of depression... Why do you make your life like hell just because of sake of so called loyalty"
Sanskar looks her:" I don't know, who's your spy among us, but will be soon I'll vanish you both"
Meera:" Oh sweetheart! I've no any spy, but I can understand everything after looking your face.. Off course! I still love you"
Sanskar smiles bitterly:" Oh love... Yeah! I believe you, you love me and which type of punish I'll give those people who love me, you know very well... I hate this word of love... Now go to hell Meera! Otherwise I'll lose my temper...",
Meera gets up from her place:" Oh! Finally you took my name... But why didn't you call me katty now... Seriously..... I'm empty without this word of katty...",
Sanskar gets up and holds her from shoulder:" Katty... Huh! Now happy... Just go from there to hell... You and with your pet name which I brought to you and I repent that I trust on the woman like you... Seriously... I want you go to heaven in another world because I can't tolerate you in the hell with me"
He leaves her and drags her towards entrance:" Just go from there ****** and never show me your ugly face again... Katty.... My foot" he said.

Read More →

Swasan A path hate to love Ep26

Recap:" Sanskar forgot to bring his sleeping pill while Swara refused to him for making love. He reminded his childhood"
Night is melting drop by drop and these drops are directly falling on her heart. She curses herself to refuse her beloved to touch herself:" Is this your love Swara? Your love is in pain and you're just starring her, doing nothing... If he can touch you, you isn't become of wax then you'll melt by his touch" her mirage is come in front of her and showing the real face of her love.
Swara murmurs:" I can't tolerate his attitude"
Mirage laughs on her:" Then why did you love him? Love means devotion, care about our beloved more than ourselves..."
She's about to say some words in her explanation but it was interrupted by the ring of bell.
His phone is ringing, she check the phone, "Shanaya calling" is flashing on the screen. Instead of giving phone to him, she received the call. There's no privacy among husband wife, isn't it?
Shanaya:" Doctor didn't give any response, it's already twelve of night and you know this state is not so developed, so I'm coming to you, if you dont want to go..."
Swara cuts her words:" Why are you coming here Shanaya? To heal my husband?"
Shanaya wasn't expected her on the phone:" Swara? It's good to hear you, please go to Sanskar! I know this time he's smocking, dont let him smoke please Swara"
Swara fumes to listen her words(why is he worrying about my husband? Who's the hell is she for doing this?) it's our husband wife matter that either I'll go to him or not, you've no right to interrupt between us"
Shanaya:" Swara! Try to understand..."
Swara:" I feel sleepy, you also go and get sleep... Bye" she disconnects the call and falls herself on bed.
She wanna go to Sanskar as well as she's afraid of him. She loves him but the intensity is not much high, if someone else is on the place of him, she'll love him because he's her husband. But there's something beyond the relationship of husband wife.
She wants to go to him as well she wants to stay away from him. She goes at the entrance of terrace but she doesn't go to him, he's smoking and she can clearly feel the restlessness of him. But she again reminisces his love and she steps back.
A tears break from her eyelashes and falls on her pale cheek. She feels if she stands there more, she wouldn't control herself. She goes to bed and tries to control her tears but tears are biggest cheater, it never listen ourselves. She's innocent girl who doesn't have so much experience of her life, so why destiny chose her for this exam? She doesn't understand this riddle which gave destiny to her for solving it.
Her sobbing is increasing in every moment which passed by the click of her heartbeat.
***************
Sanskar gets up from his place and goes to grill of terrace. The nights are witness of his horrible past, that's why the ruler of day is afraid of nights.
And she was first contributor of his destruction and we can't forget our first experience in our life, either it was first love or first exams of life, she was not only his first love but also his first exam.
Everything was perfect in his life, then she came. This was the  day of his college, he was teenager boy of 17, and as usual he made his first impression nicely to college teachers.
It was fresher party, when he saw her. Two girls are sitting in the corners. Someone said that these two girls are scholarship students. This was highest level college of city, not only city but also country. So only rich children are studying there. Some of students are on the scholarship, but don't know why he observed that no one like scholarship students even, didn't like to talk with them. But these girls are so beautiful, so many of the boys were try to to talk with them.
Sanskar smiles sadly after thinking about her first expression on his mind, she was wearing chocolate brown cocktail dress with same color of lipstick. Her friend is simple but she was also beautiful.  He smiled to see her taste of lipstick. His friends were joking on her to wearing this color of lipstick. That time, he didn't understand why was he dislike their making joke on her.
He stopped them and decided to go to her and talked her to remove her lipstick. He went to her and extended her hand to him:" Hey my name is Sanskar Maheshwari"
She made face on him and ignored him. He didn't understand the reason of her ignorance:"if you come here to realize me that I've a bad taste of lipstick, then you're wrong, I like it and why am I remove it just for your sake?"
He smiled to see her confident and made excuse:" I actually came here for this purpose but really, today you teach me a lesson that why we change ourselves just because the sake of others? You like it, you can wear it, just end of the story!" He raised his hand and both girls giggled to listen his words.
[19/01 12:29 pm] Saba: His eyes captured her picture while her happiness and he stopped at one click. She's really so beautiful, he was sure, god made her in his free time, her curve to her hairs, everything was perfect.  This was a reason, she was looking beautiful in that unsuitable makeup also.
She made face again on him which showed her childish nature. He laughed at her and went to his friends. He strictly forbade them that don't make joke on her. His friends understood that the cupid left his arrow on him:"when she was made faces like that she just looks like cat... No kid of cat...ufff!! She's soooo cute, how can anybody become so cute? She's my katty... Yeah! This perfect name of my love" he said and his friends were teasing him because he first time he praised any girl.
Sanskar sighs and pulls the smoke, it was his fourth cigarette:"katty..." He smiled bitterly and reminds that how much he was happy with his family and friends. If he even wish now, he can't join the pieces of jigsaw puzzle.
A strong layer of pain is come in his head. He understands that it's first sign of his fit. He tries to control his headache but he can't control his rage by thinking that how his happy life ruined. He crush the burning cigarette into his palm without the awareness of pain. He break all stuff which he found nearby him.
He goes to his room and Swara gets up to see him, he was in full rage, he's as cold as ice but he made him cold in front of the world. A cold killer, who showed calm and relaxing face to the world but actually he has fire in his heart. This is a reason, he needs woman to take out his fire, his rage at once. He looks Swara and think for a while:"get out from here"
Swara is shocked to see him in this mood and condition but doesn't move to her place.
He hardly control himself and holds her wrist, she can understand his inner condition by the grip around her wrist. He drags her outside the room and locks the room. Swara is shocked to see his condition and action. After few minutes of shock, she immediately understand what was happened, she really didn't know the conclusion of her refusal.
She doesn't understand what to do. She knocked the door many time but she only heard the voice of breaking things. She is crying and cursing herself to refuse him. A deep pain is knocking at the door of her heart to realized the condition of her love. She falls on the floor with helplessness. She doesn't remember how much time was passed when she feels touch on her shoulder.
It is Laksh, she hurriedly gets up, her eyes are still flowing tears.
Laksh gets worry to see her in this condition:" What happened Bhabhi? Is everything ok? Bhai? Is Bhai ok?" Her condition and close door are alerting him that everything is not fine.
Swara tries to make him understand the condition but her tears become barrier to complete her words:" Sanskar... Closed the door... His sleeping pills was over..." She tried to complete her words but it doesn't need to make him understand, who knows everything already.
Laksh was come from hunting, he throws his bag and tries to open the door, but it was locked from inside. He looks the wet face of Swara and says:" Don't worry Bhabhi! I'm just coming back" he goes and she doesn't know, how is he arrange the key of room, he opens the room and she's shocked to see the condition of room, everything is witness of storm who is faint now.
Laksh is also worried, but he's not shocked, because it's not new for him.
Swara:" I brings water to make..."
Laksh turns to him:" Water isn't make any difference, you just call the doctor...and give me his inhaler"
Swara:" Inhaler.... What do you mean inhaler? I don't know about his inhaler? But why inhaler?"
Laksh jerks now because of tension,( how good wife she is? Who even doesn't know that his husband has the problem of asthma) he only thinks but doesn't say anything to her. He lifts him and goes to his room. He makes him lay down on bed because his room isn't in condition to use it.
Laksh calls Shanaya to inform the condition and turns to her:" Bhabhi! Lock that room and nobody allow to that room untill I'll arrange this room in initial condition, don't say anybody about this incident, anybody mean anyone including Ragini and our family, I called doctor, he'll come soon and next time, keep inhaler with you, because Bhai is careless about it. Before marriage, Shanaya did this, if you can't anything else, at least do this" she can clearly observe the coldness in his words because he understands the situation.
It was dawn time, but Shanaya arranged the doctor and doctor gives him oxygen through oxygen mask because this time inhaler doesn't work for him.
He turns to Laksh:" Mr Maheshwari's condition isn't good.."
But Laksh interrupts into his words:" Dr! That is Mrs of Sanskar, you go and tell her" he points out to her who is still shedding tears because of him.
Dr turns to her:" Look Mrs Maheshwari! Your husband asthma problem isn't so big, but you know he commonly get fits and asthma attacks together, this isn't good.. Moreover, he takes regularly sleeping pills and smoking, smoking is poison to him.. Never let him smoke, otherwise next time. We cannot do anything"
She thinks that someone pushed her in the flames of fire. Doctor goes after giving some instructions.
After going to doctor, Shanaya comes to her. She's controlling her rage hardly just because of doctor, after that her rage is coming back and she remind last night words of her. Her hand is raised and left mark on her right cheek.
Swara is shocked to her deed, not even Swara, Laksh also doesn't expect this thing from her.
Shanaya:" I was greatest fool who advised him to do marriage and forced him to marry with you.. You didn't leave any chance to kill him... Now be happy Swara to see him in this condition... Don't worry, once he will get fine, you get your divorce paper soon... But please go from his life... At least...",
"Shanaya!!"
Laksh comes to in front of her:" Stop it... She'll not go anywhere, she's our family member and she's not responsible of bhai's condition, you know very well.. What happened to you Shanaya? You was the happiest person from his marriage and now...?"
Shanaya hugs him and he supports her, Swara first time see them in this broken condition which makes her understand that how much Sanskar is important in their life..
Laksh makes her sit and now making her drink water, she's saying something to Laksh but she can't understand the words clearly. Even she doesn't want to understand her words, she's just worried about her husband, she goes to him and holds his hands and whispering to him:" Sanskar! Come soon, I'm sorry for everything... Come to me Sanskar... Come to me... Otherwise I'll die without you"
Her love was newborn tender plant until yesterday, but it's only the power of love that this tender plant's growth is much fast and it spreads its root into the depth of heart. Only one shock of destiny make mature her love. She kisses on his hand while crying..
Laksh and Shanaya see her act and very tiny smile of hope comes on their faces....

Read More →

Swasan a path hate to love Ep25

She's reading book in her room when someone knock the door, she allows. Ragini opens the door and comes inside:" Why are you sitting alone in this beautiful environment?"
Swara drops book aside:" Nothing Ragini! Are you enjoying naa? Go ahead?"
Ragini holds her hands:" What happened Swara? I'm noticing that you're sad nowadays actually I should say, I always find you lost in thoughts what happened? Is anything wrong between you and jiju?"
Swara looks her innocent face and smiles:" Nothing my sweet sister! Actually your jiju is so busy and I wanna enjoy this beautiful environment with him, if I'll go with you then your jiju will get satisfy that I'm busy with you and he'll not give time to me"
Ragini smiles to listen her explanation and teases her:" Oh! That's a reason you're not going with us, but tonight, Laksh is planing for bonfire and you've to come with us, you know naa it will not suitable if we'll go alone, please please please... Come on naa please... I never enjoy bonfire before"
Swara raises her hands:" Ok! Ok! I'll go but first I've ask from Sanskar"
Ragini nods:" Jiju will must allow you"
Swara:" But I've to ask from Sanskar first"
"what do you want to ask from me?" Sanskar comes inside, so he heard last line of Swara.
Ragini:" Jiju! Actually Laksh has planned for bonfire for tonight, so I asked from swara that she go with us otherwise how can we go bonfire ?"
Sanskar thinks for a while:" If swara wants to go, then she can but...."
Swaragini gives him confuse look:" Actually I was bit busy, so I want to take rest tonight, so if you don't have any object, then you postpone your plan for tonight, we'll join you tomorrow?"
Ragini gets happy to hear it, Swara's face  is also brighten to listen it.
Ragini:" Oh! That's s great plan...." She think for a while but "but will do today?"
Sanskar:" Maharaj uncle invited us for dinner, so I think we should  join them tonight, if you both are agree?"
Swaragini nods and Sanskar shakes his head:" Ok! I'll inform them, that we will come there"
****************
Maharaj and his family was so nice, she was happy to meet them but special thing is that she really enjoyed the wifely right on Sanskar. He slowly get know about the influence of her husband on the people, so she really like this that he chose her as his wife. Ragini was also happy, she becomes friend of Shanaya, it wasn't liked by Swara but she can't say anything to her sister about her hatred for Shanaya. Laksh was gone for hunting with Maharaj's son, so he was absent in the dinner. He was only in them, who enjoyed completely every moment. Swara is sick of love, who wants to be with her husband in every second, her husband, mean our hero Sanskar is busy in renovation of palace, Ragini is shy, she often join him but not in his adventures. So he always seek opportunity to enjoy his every moment of life. He's only carefree, cherish and lovely character in our story, completely opposite to our hero.
After dinner, they all went to their room, but from this night, our hero and heroine's life takes new turn.
Sanskar changes his dress and working on laptop when Swara comes to room. She's wearing red and green suit and obviously she looks beautiful in her attire which also catches to the eyes of Sanskar. But our werewolf is trying to be human being nowadays because her last words remind him that he is defeated by young immature girl, so he should punish himself for wrong decision. Yes! Wrong decision because he never considered his any deed as sin because for him, everything is fair in war and he doesn't believe in love, so every task is like war for him.
She slowly goes to dressing table and began to remove her jewellery. During her activity, she glances to her husband also who doesn't give attention to his lovely wife.
She turns and about to say something but his phone ring interrupts into her words.
"hey Shanaya!... Yes! I'm alright...but there's a problem.... No no nothing serious, I dont have my sleeping pill.... Yeah! I tried all sources to get it, but fortune is not in favour of me tonight.... No! You dont need to come here... I'll be ok!... Ok you consult with Dr and tell me the conclusion..ok bye"
Swara listens his words and concluded that he maybe forget to take his sleeping pills and now didn't find it. He was busy from three nights, so he didn't noticed this thing but now what will he do?
She was sure that he will come to her but in the heart,she's afraid. Her love is like a newborn tender plant which can't bear the rushed winds and no doubt he's more more than rushed winds, a hurricane maybe. Who destroyed everything and get calm at the climax without the care of his victim.
At the end, she concluded that her love isn't high to touch the height of lunacy. Her love is just on first stage which has the condition to play hide and seek with her beloved and feel the joyable pain of pinch. So she definitely not ready to get treated by her love at intense height of spirits.
She changes her dress and silently lays down on a bed beside him.
He completed his work and he tries a number of his doctor after every five minutes and jerks that it's power off. .he called his many employee but amazingly! tonight fortune isn't favour of him.
She can clearly observe his restlessness, off course! Laksh isn't here, he didn't allow her soulmate to come to him, his wife feel pain of his touch and he can't show his restlessness to the world. So this ruler is  really helpless at this time.
He's half laying on bed, while Swara is starring him.
She slowly gets up and sits with him:" What happened?" Although she knew the situation more than little bit but she wanna know exactly what happened.
Sanskar says nothing and looks into her eyes, he slowly holds and touches her face:" Just answer my one question"
Swara slowly nods her head. He slowly rubs back of her hands:" Will you like, if I'll make love of you?"
She didn't expect that he'll ask this thing from her. He looks into his eyes:" I want only truth"
And truth is that her love is on one side but on the other side she doesn't want to allow him to make her love. She slowly nods her head in "no".
He suddenly frees her body and says in cold voice:" You get sleep and don't come to me, whatever I'll do, don't come to me otherwise I'll not liable to your like and dislike"
He slowly leaves his place and goes to terrace with his slow poisoning which is become complete poison for him from last incident.
He goes to terrace and lays on the couch which was placed in terrace. A full sky is open in front of him, yes! Everybody has also some rights on sky as well as we have rights on part of our earth. But he's man who born to rule, he's not the person who took some part of sky, he always find sky in his both arms.
He sighs and this sigh is increasing coldness of the air. He has always been seen complete earth and and open sky for him from the time one he first came to his senses.
He was most obedient, intelligent and lovely child of the family. Between him and Adarsh, there was gape of seven years, so he enjoyed his childhood completely because, he had attention of every family member.
Lucky was three years younger than him, but his importance was not decreased because the arrival of him. They're more than a brothers. Their sister is younger than Laksh but he always has a love of Laksh more than his own sister.
He pulled the smoke in air, the walls and pillars of this palace are reminding him, his childhood intensely. He came here many times in his childhood, he was topper student of school, not only school, he often get  the position in the ranking which lied among the City.
His bade papa loved him, more than his sons because he was trophy of him which he could show everyone and raised his head with proud among his society. His own father was under the thrown of his bade papa, so he always got rewards from him.
He always find best, that doesn't mean, it spoiled him, no way! He was most polite and and sweet nature child. This is a reason he can't kill his human being yet.
He looks the tiny lights of stars, these stars were great attraction for him when he was visiting there. His eyes were wondered to observe the beauty of stars but he always said:" I'll reach above than these stars" yes! He could be, everybody believe that he can do anything. Even his nature didn't change in his youth also. In that age, when everybody enjoying their youth, by late night partying etc. He started to join the office, he is sharp minded and quick leaner who studied his syllabus from the beginning of semester and afterward, he's found to seeking the books relevant to his course.
That doesn't mean, he was bore fellows, no way! He knew very well how to enjoy his life, he was adventurous and enjoyed his life in full swing but he knew very well that how to give time to every aspect of his life. This is also that he was much mature and responsible than the other fellows of his age. His highly intellectual power was also reason of his perfection because he didn't need to give so much time to study for understanding any query. He was a perfect youngster whose examples were given by elders to their youngers. But everything was ruined when she came in his life.

Read More →

Yaaram Ep2

Once, Amraha had gone to the marriage of her cousin. The groom and his family were about to come on 2 p.m. but had not come yet. Even evening was turning into night. Their cars punctured on the motorway. Groom didn't agree to come to the ceremony without others. Till, they sent cars from Lahore and reached to ceremony, time was reached to 12 a.m. All guests had gone to their respective homes, only close relatives were left in ceremony.
She also came home silently with dada and burned her all designer's dresses. Her all cousins were busy and encircled her to annoy more.
"Nana! Ask her either meal was burned or not? Amraha has come in the ceremony today... Check also the connection of light... Maybe fire will raise because of short-circuit" said by one of her cousins.
Another said:" I pray that groom will come well"
One said:" I am worried about bride.. I hear her two lacs bridal dress is saved hardly from burning"
Another said:" OK dress is saved but unluckily I think her hairs have burned... But iron machine doesn't burn her hair but.. Anything can happen.. Because today..."
When she was ready to cry then someone said:" We're just kidding but Amraha is taking us seriously"
After three hours, one of her cousins came in anger. "Barat will not come before three to four hours, you all say sorry to Amraha. If she accepts our sorry, then maybe barat will come"
"shut up" she shouted on them & they all numbed at once:"I'll break your mouth Hassan"
He replied:" We will break your mouth then; you come with your misfortune to spoil my sister's wedding"
Amraha's heart wanted to set on fire all the canopies under which meeting was held. Oh! May really short circuit would happen and it offed all lanterns.. Then no one could see her irking body. She was bearing their taunting which was hidden in kidding. But Hassan came to accuse her in high spirit:" After completing ablution, before going to mosque, you must see yourself in the mirror... Maybe your tongue will shiver for a while if you say it again, and maybe you'll understand that man's hand neither has power nor authority to destroy or prosper something, obligation of kun(to be) and act of fayakun( it will be or it is)it is the quality of only god... Not his subjects.." She hardly controlled her tears during this saying.
She came home with dada silently, it was her closed cousin's wedding, she was also excited about this wedding... She also readied some special preparation for that marriage.. But all went not only in  vain but also gave her sorrow.
She wrote on white paper:" I'll not go on any occasion again...promise" she pasted that chit on the shelf of her cupboard. Whenever she wanted to go to any function, she opened the cupboard and reminded her of the promise.
She is doing this thing till now but because of doing it, she becomes alone.
She can easily cry, anyone can easily make her cry.
For example, when her elder uncle came from Quetta, then he covered himself in quilt and drank a large cup of coffee and said:" Call Amraha! We will make her cry"
If she didn't wanna go there, then they dragged her there. Everybody laughed at her & she cried vigorously because of it. Uncle told her incidents of her misfortunes with references. Amma scolded her:" They're just kidding.. Why are you crying like that?"
Dada came, scolded everyone and took her from there:" They're illiterate, Amraha! Don't give attention to them"
She is also not mature enough that she can make herself understand.. A young girl with tender heart... She's just ready to cry and we can't satisfy ourselves with philosophy always.
" Everyone is illiterate" she feels calmness.
"everyone is mad" yes! This is right.
We can think like this... We can say like this but it can't happen perfectly... If sometimes, we are able to get hundred percent result but it must be cipher next time.
She tries to divert herself by saying it:" Everyone is illiterate" but next time she cries due to words of those illiterates.
Dada's words lull her but she moans during her sleep many time.
************
Dada was a librarian in Government Punjab Public Library. She visited library all days in the school vacation. However Dada hadn't allowed her to stay at the home. She went to library after her school by foot, both took lunch together. Dada read many books in his job, this was a reason , he never burned diyas on the name of dead relatives.
They ate parched grams and corn which were cooked on ashes during their day spending by walking on mall road. Amraha's heart wanted that she didn't need to go to home at night, let she had to sleep on the footpath of Mall Road.
Dada said after viewing the first glance of home:" Look! Jail has come"
"you become mad after reading books, if you will find some suitable job, then maybe you get the wit" dadi said after hearing his words.
But dada can't get suitable job but he has at least suitable wit. Baba sold his eighth standard study at shop... No can is able to know that whether he has studied eight classes or just counting till eight.
Ali was elder and he was marvellous elder among siblings. He always remained senior in every class, he must spent two years in every class.
Then it was Hamad, he had knowledge about every singers and dancers of the world. Their biographies, nationality, native places, marriage, affairs and children but he didn't know which degree would have come after B.A.
Dada has wanted so much that one will become engineer or at least become lecturer in Dayal Singh College. Otherwise, one  will become a doctor in hospital and other will become a captain in army.. But it can not just happen because of thinking of Dada. By the way! No one is there to hear Dada.
Then it was Amraha's number, she was also not less than them, and because she was unfortunate also, so she always cried... She hardly completed her eighth classes, during schooling, she many times left her study. And one time, she also acted upon it. She stayed with dada a whole day in library.
Dada requested her:" Amraha! At least complete matric"
But princess Amraha didn't give attention on his words.
But she said one mantra on the result of any conversations:" Lets run away from home... Anywhere"
Dada had some amount of money, he took her to Baluchistan, to the home of his friend. She didn't go to the home of family members. She stayed happily there...
Then she said to him:" Dada! You go to Dubai then also call me there, we will be so happy there" .
How can dada go Dubai in this age, but he made promise to her.:" First do matric then we will go there"
She has done matriculation for the sake of going to Dubai. But after putting her all efforts, she only got second division. Which everyone could get easily...
**********
Note: This story is not written by me, so if anyone feels any offence about any scene or incident, I'm not liable to it.
Regards to: saba

Read More →

Swasan A path hate to love Ep 24

Recap" Swara got know about that sanskar was married. Sanskar consoled her"
Next morning, she didn't find Sanskar beside her, then she reminds that he has worked last night.

She takes a bath and looks herself into mirror:" Shanaya is so beautiful. I'm nothing in front of her... How was his first wife... She has a good choice of women... I'm also his choice" she touches her face and after a while scolds herself to think this type of worst things.

She combs her hairs and lefts her hairs open on her waist, she's wearing yellow churidar... She wears her bangles and puts sindoor in her maang.

She looks again herself into a mirror again:" No matter, how beautiful is Shanaya! And how was his first wife... But now he's mine... I'm his wife and I'll not let him go this time" she smiles proudly and goes outside from the room.

Ragini and Laksh is sitting on the dining table and the traditional maids are serving food to them.

Laksh:" Good morning Bhabhi"

She smiles but her gaze is seeking Sanskar.Ragini goes and hugs her:" Good morning Swara!"

Swara greets them back and sits on the seat beside Ragini:" Laksh! Where is your brother?" She takes the first bite of paratha while Laksh is taking his coffee and Ragini is taking orange juice.

Laksh is boggled to listen to it:" I don't know, didn't he come to the room last night?"

Swara:" He does but I didn't find him in room after my awakening.." She leaves her breakfast and that worst dream again holding her mind.

Laksh notices this:" Don't worry! I'm calling him.. Wait a minute " he takes out phone from his pocket and call him.

Laksh asks from Sanskar where's he? Sanskar replies something, Laksh listens to his reply and disconnects the call.

He turns to Swara:" Don't worry Bhabhi! He was with Shanaya to make a plan to arrange grand party for the celebration of this successful deal"

Swara feels heat in her heart after hearing the name of Shanaya. Lurking fear is again taking place in her heart.

She leaves the breakfast and takes the juice only.

Ragini:" Swara! Take breakfast completely... I'm observing, you're not taking care yourself, if you don't finish breakfast, I'll complain to mom"

Swara smiles to see her concern and takes her breakfast uninterestingly.

Shanaya has come and she's busy with Sanskar. Swara is disturbed to see them together while Ragini and Laksh are trying to cheer her up but they're failed.Laksh calls Sanskar:" Bhai! Listen.."

Not only Sanskar, Shanaya also comes to them.

She meets with Swara and introduces herself to Ragini.

Laksh:" Bhai! Look to your wife, her mood is off, we're trying hard to cheer her up. But now it's your turn. Go and cheer her up your wife.."

Ragini also follows his words:" Jiju! I think Swara is angry with you, you didn't give time to your wife"

Sanskar smiles:" Hold on... You both attack me at once" he goes to Swara and holds her from shoulders. :" What happen Swara? Are you feeling bothered? Sorry but you've to enjoy with Ragini and lucky... I'm sorry sweetheart"

Swara nods in yes and smiles to see Shanaya like she wanna show her that look he only cares for me.

Shanaya smiles to see her expression and signs Sanskar that she's going back to work, you stay here.

Sanskar nods and accompanies to them, but he turns to listen to a familiar voice:" Congratulations Mr. Maheshwari to get the deal of dead elephant" Laksh and Sanskar feels bitter to see the new guests of their hotel.

She comes to Swara:" Hey! Do you remember me"

Swara tries to memorize her, she met with her in her reception but doesn't remind her name.

The girl again says:" Its ok! I'm Meera Malhotra, do you get now?"

Swara smiles to meet her, her husband is also greeted them. Sanskar fumes because of their arrival.

Sanskar turns to Laksh:" You take Swara and Ragini to visit the city, they might bother there, I wanna deal with my guests"

Laksh nods but Swara  again wants to stay with him.:" Sanskar! I don't..."Sanskar raises his hand:" I said go with lucky" he completes his words in the cold voice which numbs her heart. She silently nods and goes with Ragini and Laksh.

Sanskar turns to them:" Why are you come here? As I remember, I didn't invite you"

Ram Malhotra comes to him:" You forgot Mr. Maheshwari, Maharaj's daughter is getting marry with my nephew, so he invited us..."

Shanaya comes to them and listens to his words:" Ok! Then you both go their portions because this is our hotel now.."

Meera:" Oh! Ours? You still feel some right on Sanskar... Chu Chu, Shanaya! He slept with you and married with some another girl"

Sanskar grinned and turned to her:" Don't cross your limit you both of you, otherwise I'll remind you that I'm feeding you, and you're not more than the pig in front of me whose livelihood is depending on me" he says in the cold voice.

Ram fumes and goes from there after listening to it.

Meera is about to follow her husband but stop for a minute and takes her lips close to his ear:" And yeah! I also get the call of your doctor who gave message for you  that you shouldn't take sleeping pills more, otherwise, you'll lose your memory.... Chu Chu.. Your pure wife can't allow an impure husband to touch her"Sanskar hardly controls himself and just says in a cold voice:" Don't you worry Mrs. Malhotra! I'll remember your words and gives you a strong reply, now you can leave"

Meera winks him and leaves her place. Shanaya comes and controls him:" Take a deep breath Sanskar!... 3...2..1.. And exhale" Sanskar looks her and exhales his breath gently.

Some friends are really like your shadow, whenever you feel exhausted, it always show you your path without any complains or conditions.

He touches her face and softly says:" Thank you"

Shanaya smiles:" Thanks! for what?"

Sanskar:" For everything Shanaya!"

Sanskar:" Hey don't be sentimental, look! Your life is set now with your life, I know it's not perfect, but it'll be, I'm working on my mission and I'm also happy in my life, as I observe, Swara is changing, if she'll not be happy with you, I promise, I'll do what you'll say to me..." She holds his shoulder:" You get your dream, I know everything can't be perfect but this is we're who can adjust in this imperfect life with perfection"

A layer of sadness comes in his heart, but he kicks out this emotion from his heart and presses her hands softly and leaves them.

********************

Our surrounding can easily change our mind, our emotions and our feelings. But sometimes, weather of our heart changes the affect of surrounding. Her weather of heart is replete with the mixture of jealousy, love, and hate at a same time.

She sees Shanaya and Sanskar together, he's busy with her and she feels the extreme heat in her heart after watching them together. Laksh asks her for the visiting main places of the city, but she refuses to go with them, in her emotions, she forgot to protect Ragini and this is also that she now believes on Laksh that he's different from his brother.

She's sitting in the lawn of palace near the pond, there's set an artificial waterfall which waters fall in the pond. She puts her hands in the pond, all surroundings are covered with greenery and lots of flowers. Some of the flowers are fallen in the pond which fragrance is spreading everywhere in the lawn.

She's trying to feel the cold water in her palms but her mind isn't present there, she's continuously thinking about Sanskar, what's he doing now.  She wanna go to him and absorbs him in her heart. Now she's understanding that why people want to stay with that person whom they love.

She reminds the words of Sanskar when he said to him that she isn't allowed to go anywhere from his sight. After thinking that, a pink color comes in her cheeks which enhance her beauty in this beautiful surrounding.

Someone shakes her shoulder, she turns and finds Meera there.

Meera:" Hey! Are you alone there?"

Swara has reserved girl who doesn't free with stranger, so she simply nods her head in yes.Meera sits with her, she wonders how is she wearing sleeveless top in this cold weather.  Meera:" Where's your husband? I'm really feel sorry to see you alone in this beautiful place"

Swara smiles sadly and says:" He's busy in work"

Meera:" No.. He's busy with that Shanaya, if you want your husband, then you should keep him away from the shadow of Shanaya... Well! They both are same, he also used the women and throw them, I wondered  when I heard he married with you"

Suspense is raises in her heart after hearing this, she talks with Meera just for the sake of suspense:" Do you know them?"

Meera:" Yeah! We know them from long time" she says bitterly which taste is dissolve in her words and Swara can also feel from her words.

Swara:" Then why didn't they like you?"Meera disturbs to listen her question but she controls her emotions:" Actually... They understand that I know their secret so they don't want to disclose secret of their past..." She says in a way of creating suspense.

Swara:" What was that secret?"

Meera is about to say something but she stops to hear the voice of Sanskar.

A broad smile comes on Swara's face after hearing his voice.

He goes to her and holds her from shoulders:" Why didn't you go with Laksh?" He says softly like flow of water which is falling in the ocean of her emotions.

Swara more closes to him and says:" I came here with you, not with Laksh" he can feel the complain in her voice. A wifely right on him to complain.

Sanskar tickles her lock behind her ears and turns to Meera:" I wanna spend some time with my wife, will you please excuse us?"

Meera nods and leaves and he holds her tight, more tight that she feels the problem in breathing because of his tight grip but this time she really likes his grip around her body.

Sanskar says slowly in her ears:" I'm noticing that now you're so much complaining from me and also didn't fear

from me, I think tonight I should remind you everything" Swara looks into his eyes and says boldly:" I don't fear from you more because I trust you, you never give me a pain"

Sanskar's eyes are widened just because of her words of courage, he rubs his palm on her cheek and kisses softly on her neck.

Swara pushes him and turns her back from him.

Sanskar laughs to see her act:" What happened sweetheart? Now where's your courage? You're still fear from me, but its ok! I like it because it reminds you that there's no chance of betrayal"

He says and comes to her, she turns to him and wanna says that this time she pushed him because of shyness, not because of fear.

He goes to her:" I'm bit busy in the opening ceremony of hotel, I know you feel uncomfortable here, but don't worry. I'll try my best to company you, but until, you've to adjust my dear"

He says and leaves his place, she turns and wanna stops him.

Swara to herself:" Don't worry Swara! You're the wife of Sanskar! So you've to adjust with his busy schedule, now cheer up" she sees the reflection of her in the water of pond and smiles to see her sindoor which is evident that wherever he go, only she has right on him.

Read More →

Swasan A path hate to love ep 23

Recap:"Swasan and Raglak on the journey, sanskar takes swara for his hotel".

Swara:" Who said you like that Sanskar? If our partner is unable to do anything, it doesn't mean that our spouse will seek opportunity from outside, Sanskar! Never think like that, please. Husband-wife relationship is mean to stay with each other in every thick and thin"

Sanskar looks her and sighs, a sad smile comes to his face which can't reflect in his eyes. He stops the jeep and turns to her.

She's surprised  by stopping the jeep:" What happened Sanskar?"

Sanskar looks her lovingly with the emotions of helplessness. He touches her face and says:" I forgot, you're not like her"

Swara holds his hand and looks into his eyes:" Like whom Sanskar?"

Sanskar:" My wife... My ex-wife"

Swara leaves his hand and steps back from her place.

Swara whispers:" He was married"

She turns to him and asks again that maybe she listened wrong:"you said your wife... You were married.. You didn't tell me"

Sanskar feels the pain in her eyes:" Yes! I was married. But this was my past Swara, you're my present and you'll be my future... you don't need to worry about it.... and question about telling you.. you did not ask, I did not tell..."

Swara leans her head on the seat and looks outside from the window. He starts the car and the very deep silence again take place between them. 

******************

Swara and Sanskar reach the palace. Swara is surprised to view the beauty of palace because she never saw this type of place before in her life. The enticing beauty of palace makes her forget her pain for a moment but after watching her man, she memorizes the pain again.

It's evening time when they arrive. Sanskar introduces her from The family members of Maharaj. He goes to sign a deal and she's left with Ragini and Laksh.

Ragini:" Swara! This place is so beautiful, before your arrival, Laksh visited me the main places of palace, but it's still unexplored.." Ragini is saying excitedly while Swara hardly smiles to hear her words.

Laksh:" Ok! Let's go, ladies, I'll make you visit this palace, which will gonna be our in few minutes..." He bows down to them, Ragini smiles to see his posture while Swara is still in pain to remember the words of Sanskar.

Swara:" Laksh! You carry on with Ragini, actually, I didn't sleep last night, I feel exhausted. Excuse me"

She hardly controls her emotions. Lakes leads her to the room, which was already reserved for them.

After they leave, she closes the door and falls herself on a bed.

Echoes of his words is echoing in his mind... Sleeping partner of Shanaya is also married... She feels extreme pain to think that he touched many women in his life. She reminds the word of werewolf... "if he's werewolf.. How can he adjust without flesh... If he's not touching me... Then..."

She can't complete the sentence, she holds her mouth to stop the screaming. Her sobbing is increasing in every moment. " Sanskar!!... Come to me. I need you... I know you're bad... But this is also true. I cant help myself to stop this feeling... Dont do it again..... Don't go away from me..."

She's hugging the pillow tightly and her tears are absorbing in the soft cotton of a pillow. 

She bends her legs and puts her head on her knees. Her screaming is stopped but this time, tears are flowing silently from her eyes. The royal palace becomes witness of the pain of this innocent angel who is shedding tears just because to think that his husband was not only his.

She suddenly lifts her head from her knees and takes out her mobile from her bag.

She needs her husband so much. If she can't find him, she feels she'll die with this pain. She calls Sanskar. After two rings of the bell, he attends the call. :" Yes Swara! Do you need something?"

Swara wipes her tears and says:" Yes!"

Sanskar:" What?"

Swara:" You!"

 She can  hear the silent of him for a minute from another side. Then he says:" I'm coming"

She disconnects the call and wait for her husband.

After five minutes, he knocks the door, she immediately opens the door and let him come inside. After he comes inside, she closes the door before him.

Sanskar:" What happened Swara? Are you ok?"

Swara says nothing and holds his hands. She gently drags him and makes him sit on the bed.

Swara:" I know our marriage isn't based on love, care and this type of morality based things.."

He can easily feels the mixture of tears in her voice but he wants to let her complete her words.

Swara continues:" I don't know about you everything... But...( she doesn't understand how to express her feelings) this doesn't matter what situation was of our marriage.  But it means to me... If it means to me then definitely... It also matter to me... That..."

She looks into his eyes, he's still watching her silently and listen to her words carefully.

She again says:" That. That either you're loyal to me... Or not"

Sanskar takes his breath to listens to her words and cups her face:" Look Swara! I'm so soo much bad... No.. If I say worst then it'll be suitable for me.... I have a choice to tell you to lie about everything. But this wasn't my style... If I say. I want loyalty from you. Believe me, this rule is also applied on me. So don't worry in this matter from me"

Sanskar leaves her face and gets up from the bed:" I think you're clear now.... I should leave"

Swara holds his hand:" Don't go anywhere"

Sanskar:" You didn't take anything after breakfast. Take a meal...and I'm with you forever"

Swara:" I'm tired Sanskar... I don't want to eat anything, please... Stay with me..."

Sanskar smiles sadly:" You're testing my patience Swara... Well, I've lots of work tonight... So you're safe" by saying this Sanskar goes to her and holds her.

She silently keeps her head on his chest:" Don't go until I'll fall asleep"

Sanskar nods and holds her tight. She was crying for long so it doesn't take a time to fall her asleep.

After a while he feels rhythm of slow voice of her breathing close to his chest. He knows very well, if he stays more there then he definitely lose control from himself because it's first time, he's controlling himself for long.

He gently keeps her head on pillow and takes out from the room.

**************** 

Read More →