Swasan ff: An incomplete scrapbook (Prologue)

Prologue:(The billionaire girl and slayer)


"Life and story are like two sides of the same coin. Too much unpredictable. Some stories give you bliss, some make you cry & some make you confused. But every story has an end to some extent. However, some stories are there which are open ended. A new story can be continued from that. Nobody ever knows what exactly happened in that story. But it's always said that nobody is mysteriously mysterious. There is some way to find the truth." I was standing outside the pub 'Black Bear' and reading this holy crap of paper which was fixed on its gate. I gave least importance to these things as I was not interested to be diverted from my target. I entered the pub. Too much noise. Drinks.. Dance.. Like seriously how could people take this much sound? Not my concern. I was here to know about my target as this was my job. Oops.. My existence to life. At one corner of pub, some shits were drinking.

Some girls were dancing and some holy shits were trying to be close to them. My eyes were searching her.

According to my information, she was in the pub and I had to find out her at any cost. That time at once my eyes fell on a group of girls making unbearable sounds. Bloody hell! Didn't they have any other works? Bogus people.

Didn't know what was life?? My thoughts were like as if I knew everything about life. Suddenly a microphone sound had broken my series of thoughts...

Some girl was saying," cheers!! Our friend is going to be a billionaire tomorrow. For this happy occasion, she is giving free drinks to all for an enjoyable night."

I was now pissed off. Till now I was unable to reach my target and now I was listening to these hypocritical things. As far as I had noticed some congratulated a girl and she happily waved a smile. My thoughts were like how impossible this girl was?? Wasting money on these holy shits?? Again none of my business. I went to the bar corner to look for my target minutely as the lights were dim in the bar. Again that same girl's sight distracted me. Now she kicked a man as he was trying to shake hand with her in an inappropriate way. Oh!! Courageous girl. I thought what was this girl?? This girl was a crap like a hell for doing wastage of money but no. She was brave. Just then the

DJ announced," Give a big round of applause to miss Swara Suryavansi for her kind gesture to serve free drinks to all. Have a blast tonight guys!!"

Swara Suryavansi. Oh!! There she was. Finally found out my target. She came upon stage with a glass of drink, thanked everyone for the congratulation and gulped the drink in one go. !! I told you courageous girl. But this girl was a mixture of opposites. I needed to focus minutely on this target. Now as got my target, it was time to gather more information. But I didn't want to reveal myself or my identity in front of her. So I asked the bartender , who was serving free drinks, about her. I just casually approached him, "was she really rich?" The bar tender just told me that yes! She was a billionaire girl. I could not ask further questions as else people will be suspicious of me.


And it's the worst nightmare to be getting exposed. It would create a domino effect and my creator would not like it. I could not think to let him down. As because of him, I found my existence .. I was what I was now in the present. I , Sanskar Maheswari, a ruthless slayer. A life without a soul...



hey, guys!! kashis here. some of you might know me. This is a small prologue of my swasan ff. Do you want I should continue this ff? Your comments will decide the fate of this ff.. let me know what you all feel about this ff.. criticism is also accepted.. and guys this is a dark story.


Credit to Kashis

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep 52 ( rewrite with happy ending)

"I know Swara you're hurt! But I can't encourage you to love me because I'm empty, I'm empty for this emotion and I don't want to snatch this smile of your face which I already snatched half away through my sins but not now at least. You don't know yourself Swara! Loving me as the same you put yourself in hell with your own and I don't let you do it" he thinks and takes his sleeping pills without water. 

Darkness again comes inside their room because enlightened bodies are separate now. 

He looks the back of her and leans down beside her. 

He can listen the rhythm of her slow breath in the room, she gets asleep but nowadays sleeping pills don't effect on him.

He thought about the words of doctor. 

"Mr. Maheshwari! This is long time you have been addicted, and the side effect of sleeping pills have effected your potential energy and health, it also decreased your will power which is so much necessary for getting rid of your addiction... You're loosing your patience day by day and it's almost impossible to get you back in normal condition, it's better to compromise with your nature.." 

She changes her side and now her face is in front of him. 

He touches her face softly but moves his hand back at the next moment. 

"I love you Swara, I try hard to get away from this feelings but you made me fall for you, whenever you smiled after my every bad act, I love that smile but whenever you stayed silent, that silent pierce my heart... I started this relationship just for the quench my thirst but now it's impossible to use you again and again... Damn on my inner devil, damn to the hell" he jerked his neck moreover turned his back towards her. 

"my time is over now Swara! The devil has come to take my body too and I've lost my soul already... It's time to payback Swara! It's time to payback.."  

He feels exhausted and rubs his neck to take a deep breath. 

But it's almost impossible him to take a breath, he also feels drowsiness because of a minor effect of the pill on his body. 

He comes out on the balcony, the clouds are covered the moon and stars, maybe it would rain after few minutes. 

The rain... He always hates the rain, don't know why but rain never impressed him. 

Rain.. A symbol of sorrow.

The darkness is scattered around him and his essence seems like the part of this darkness. 

His beloved is sleeping peacefully in his room because she never committed any crime but he did many sins but he never realized all those things until... Until Swara told him to left her. 

That time he realized that how much she means to him. 

That time, he realized that he always used to saying that there's no love, but love of her, finally conquered him. 

He gasps and holds his neck to breath out but it goes in vain. 

He comes out and check out the draw of him to search inhaler but it wasn't there. 

First he thought that he should awake Swara to help him to search the inhaler. But he stops and tries to search the inhaler, he doesn't get success to find it but he finds something else. 

For a moment, he gets blank, he looks back of Swara and remind every sin he committed in his past. 

He planned everything with perfection, Swara was also included in his plan but the affection and love which he's feeling for her was not in his plan. 

In the first time of his life, he proves nothing but a looser. He reminded the person whose business was ruined by him because he insulted him, further he doesn't spare anyone who insults him. 

"everyone has to payback of his every action," that man said to him when Sanskar smiled proudly to ruin him.. 

"maybe I lived to ruin many others life, Swara! But this is only for you, every person is selfish in this world, I'm also selfish, I can neither give you happiness nor leave you... So it's better to meet the final intimacy of mine... It's better to live in this darkness, I should fly away in that world which is much darker than it. Offcourse people get what they want and I always want darkness and God filled darkness in my heart" 

he tried hard to breath, he wanted to live one side but on the other side, he have to die because there's no happiness in his life.

Darkness comes into the room and starts moaning beside him.
he feels so much pain in his head and slowly slowly, his sight has drowned in darkness. 

Sorrow comes to him, puts his head on her lap and starts caressing his hairs. 

"take a peaceful sleep" 

Yes! After one decade, he's sleeping peacefully. 

The rhythm of unstable breathing of Swara, moaning of darkness, crying of night, all are making the room horrible. 

**************

Swara is sleeping peacefully when suddenly she feels something pierce her heart inside the depth of her heart again and again. 

She rubs her chest in the night and tries to comfort herself but all are gone in vain. 

She changes her side and gropes the other side of the bed where Sanskar lays. 

For few minutes, she tries to touch Sanskar in the sleep but when she couldn't find him then she opens her eyes. 

"where's he?" She thinks to find the empty side of him. 

She switches on the lamp and stands up from her place. 

She checks out the bathroom but he is not here. 

Something is pinching her heart very badly, she just wants to look him safe then she will feel relief. 

"maybe he's in balcony, he shouldn't do smocking" she says in consoling style as she wants to say just like "my restlessness is just because he's smoking in balcony" 

She steps toward the balcony but before it, her foot tackles with some solid thing. 

She finds Sanskar there, there's only lamp's dim light so, at first, glance, she doesn't see the blood and gun. 

"why is he laying on the floor?" 

She downs to him and shakes his shoulder. "wake up Sanskar, come on the bed.." Suddenly she feels something that Sanskar is not reacting.
"fit?" she thought and got blank at that moment.

She neither scream, nor moan. She only falls on the floor and puts her head on his chest which is now heartless. 

The moaning of darkness is increasing in every moment. 

                                                         **************

Two months later....

She didn't know when Lavanya came in the room next night, inform everyone about the accident of Sanskar. 

When the police come to investigate, how his family handled everything. How his bade papa cried for him and how his family repented for leaving him. 

When Shanaya was visiting her daily, she was also broken inside but at least, she came almost daily and tried to talk with her. 

"He loved you so much" it was her first and the only sentence, she spoke when she visit her. 

Ragini started to live with her because she doesn't want to leave this house. 

Laksh comes here and takes the signature of her in the important papers. 

"Bhabhi," he said. 

She looked him with empty eyes. She is wearing a white suit and standing in front of the same window of their room. 

"there's no one to take charge of hotels, we're thinking that you should sell them," he said with hesitation. Sanskar's voice comes in his mind "never sell them, these are my dream" 

She looked him with pain moreover screeched "how dare you to say like this Laksh? You know very well how much those hotels are importance for him?" 

Laksh looks the floor and he is also shedding tears "I know Bhabhi! We don't have the experience to manage hotels, in last two months, value of its shares is decreasing also... We're just worry about your future" he says in moist voice. 

"I'll manage it.." Suddenly she has decided. 

"huh?" 

"let her do it Laksh.." The voice comes from the entrance of the room where Shanaya is standing. 

She leaves the caring about her appearance, she's just wearing the simple suit which is messy and her hairs are also so much messy like she didn't wash it for many days. 

Swara looks her and the pain of her heart is increasing. 

"let her do it Laksh .. She's the only one among us who lives her life in a fair way, she has the right to live and for it, she needs the hope... Let her live with that hope.." Shanaya says. 

"hope..." Swara just tries to touch the light of hope, "is there any hope still remained in me?" She asks to herself. 

Her eyes have started the flood of pain but she doesn't realise this because of her deep thought. 

Suddenly she feels dizzy and falls on floor. 

When she gets conscious, she finds the doctor checking her up. 

Laksh, Ragini and Shanaya are standing around her with a worried face. 

"is everything fine doctor?" Shanaya comes to the doctor and asks. 

"everything is ok Shanaya" doctor smiles, "Mrs. Maheshwari is three months pregnant" 

A small smile comes on the face of everyone but she can't smile. 

She just puts her hand on her tummy and says "pregnant.." 

Voice of Shanaya echoes in her mind and she slowly murmurs "hope.."

Darkness is abundant her essence because there's only light around here. Yes! She's not alone because of daylight, night is over now. 

Swara looks herself in mirror and touches her tummy.

She goes to the room, which is set for someone special.

She goes near the bed and a tear comes out from the corner of her eye.

She holds the hand of Sanskar and whispers in his ear "look Sanskar...! You want to go from me and look, I've gift, a

gift which God gives me just for the sake because I love you and you've to love me Sanskar, yes! You've to love me

because now I'm also mother of your would be child, you've to come back Sanskar... You've to come back"

She puts her head on his chest and tries to listen his heartbeat.

"I'm listening your heartbeat Sanskar, that's a reason I'm also Alive. Just come soon I'm not able to weigh this

responsibility more"

The daylight is glaring them from window and Sanskar listens her voice.

****************

4years later

"Ayan! Get up, today is your first day of school.."

She bows down to 3 years old child who is laying on the blue Spiderman's bed sheet.

"no... I won't get up, until dad will come to wake me up" he says while closing his eyes..

Swara jerks to listen him "you're so stubborn just like your dad, ok I wanna call him"

She gets up from her place and tackles with someone.

The man puts his arms around her waist and kisses on her forehead.

"I'm awakening dad.." Ayan exclaims from his bed.

Swara blushes, while Sanskar smiles proudly "so what junior?" He says while holding her.

"now get up because I don't wanna listen from your teacher that Sanskar Maheshwari's son is not punctual, you're

going my school where everyone knows me still and you will know how much your dad was popular in school days

that they still put my picture in list of the topper students of school"

"but will be soon, it will remove" Ayan jumps from the bed "because my picture will take place of your picture" he

says proudly.

"I would feel honor to beaten by my own son" he bows down and smiles proudly.

"now leave me Sanskar, I've to get him ready for school" Swara shouts in his arm.

"Lavanya will do it" he says.

"I'll do it with myself" Ayan shouts and goes towards the bathroom.

"you're so bad" she complaints after leaving Ayan the room.

"thank you" he looks her with affection.

"for what?" Swara boggles..

"to come in my life and Stay in my life, you made me human being..." He says in emotional voice.

Swara kisses on his chick "don't be so emotional"

He smiles and gets apart from her.

He remains in coma for two years and after two years, she manages everything to make him normal because that

time he realized that there is also god who writes the destiny and he doesn't need to take his place.

She smiles and touched the face of her beloved, though he's her husband and father of her children but she still

considers him, her beloved.

"now we should move because this is first day of our Ayan's school" she reminds him again.

He just nods, she is about to move when he holds her  hand and stops her.

"what happened now?" She turns to him.

"I will not make my child like me" the fear is still in his voice because his coma's period was revealed many things to him.

"he would be like you but we won't leave him in any difficulty which laid him to the hell" she smiles calmly.

He smiles because he knows very well that God chooses best life partner for her and it's time to be grateful to him.

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep 52

Last Episode

"I know Swara you're hurt! But I can't encourage you to love me because I'm empty, I'm empty for this emotion and I don't want to snatch this smile of your face which I already snatched half away through my sins but not now at least. You don't know yourself Swara! Loving me as the same you put yourself in hell with your own and I don't let you do it" he thinks and takes his sleeping pills without water. 

Darkness again comes inside their room because enlightened bodies are separate now. 

He looks the back of her and leans down beside her. 

He can listen the rhythm of her slow breath in the room, she gets asleep but nowadays sleeping pills don't effect on him.

He thought about the words of doctor. 

"Mr. Maheshwari! This is long time you have been addicted, and the side effect of sleeping pills have effected your 

potential energy and health, it also decreased your will power which is so much necessary for getting rid of your addiction... You're loosing your patience day by day and it's almost impossible to get you back in normal condition, it's better to compromise with your nature.." 

She changes her side and now her face is in front of him. 

He touches her face softly but moves his hand back at the next moment. 

"I love you Swara, I try hard to get away from this feelings but you made me fall for you, whenever you smiled after my every bad act, I love that smile but whenever you stayed silent, that silent pierce my heart... I started this relationship just for the quench my thirst but now it's impossible to use you again and again... Damn on my inner devil, damn to the hell" he jerked his neck moreover turned his back towards her. 

"my time is over now Swara! The devil has come to take my body too and I've lost my soul already... It's time to payback Swara! It's time to payback.."  

He feels exhausted and rubs his neck to take a deep breath. 

But it's almost impossible him to take a breath, he also feels drowsiness because of a minor effect of the pill on his body. 

He comes out on the balcony, the clouds are covered the moon and stars, maybe it would rain after few minutes. 

The rain... He always hates the rain, don't know why but rain never impressed him. 

Rain.. A symbol of sorrow.

The darkness is scattered around him and his essence seems like the part of this darkness. 

His beloved is sleeping peacefully in his room because she never committed any crime but he did many sins but he never realized all those things until... Until Swara told him to left her. 

That time he realized that how much she means to him. 

That time, he realized that he always used to saying that there's no love, but love of her, finally conquered him. 

He gasps and holds his neck to breath out but it goes in vain. 

He comes out and check out the draw of him to search inhaler but it wasn't there. 

First he thought that he should awake Swara to help him to search the inhaler. But he stops and tries to search the inhaler, he doesn't get success to find it but he finds something else. 

It was a pistol, he takes out the pistol from the draw. 

Like many other rich people, he keeps pistol for his security and he used it also many time. 

For a moment, he gets blank, he looks back of Swara and remind every sin he committed in his past. 

He planned everything with perfection, Swara was also included in his plan but the affection and love which he's feeling for her was not in his plan. 

In the first time of his life, he proves nothing but a looser. He reminded the person whose business was ruined by him because he insulted him, further he doesn't spare anyone who insults him. 

"everyone has to payback of his every action," that man said to him when Sanskar smiled proudly to ruin him.

He looked the pistol "it's time to payback Sanskar Maheshwari!" He said to himself. 

He is sitting on the floor, near the draw and his side of bed. 

"maybe I lived to ruin many others life, Swara! But this is only for you, every person is selfish in this world, I'm also selfish, I can neither give you happiness nor leave you... So it's better to meet the final intimacy of mine... It's better to live in this darkness, I should fly away in that world which is much darker than it. Offcourse people get what they want and I always want darkness and God filled darkness in my heart" 

He said slowly and put the gun on vein of brain which he always rubs. 

He already put the silencer in the gun and slowly pushes the trigger. 

He doesn't close his eyes before doing this because he wants to die with bravery. Making an eye contact with death and he does so. 

Darkness comes into the room and starts moaning beside him. 

Sorrow comes to him, puts his head on her lap and starts caressing his hairs. 

"take a peaceful sleep" 

Yes! After one decade, he's sleeping peacefully. 

The rhythm of unstable breathing of Swara, moaning of darkness, crying of night, all are making the room horrible. 

Musalsal bekali dil Ko rahi hai

Magar jine ki surat to rahi hai

Main kyun phirata hun tanha mara mara

Ye basti chain se kyon so rahi hai

Chal dil se ummidon ke musafir

Ye nagari aj khali ho rahi hai

Na samajho tum ise shor e baharan

Khizan patton may chup ke ro rahi hai

Hamare ghar ki diwaron pe `Nasir`

Udasi bal khole so rahi hai

**************

Swara is sleeping peacefully when suddenly she feels something pierce her heart inside the depth of her heart again and again. 

She rubs her chest in the night and tries to comfort herself but all are gone in vain. 

She changes her side and gropes the other side of the bed where Sanskar lays. 

For few minutes, she tries to touch Sanskar in the sleep but when she couldn't find him then she opens her eyes. 

"where's he?" She thinks to find the empty side of him. 

She switches on the lamp and stands up from her place. 

She checks out the bathroom but he is not here. 

Something is pinching her heart very badly, she just wants to look him safe then she will feel relief. 

"maybe he's in balcony, he shouldn't do sm,oking" she says in consoling style as she wants to say just like "my restlessness is just because he's smoking in balcony" 

She steps toward the balcony but before it, her foot tackles with some solid thing. 

She finds Sanskar there, there's only lamp's dim light so, at first, glance, she doesn't see the blood and gun. 

"why is he laying on the floor?" 

She downs to him and shakes his shoulder. "wake up Sanskar, come on the bed.." Suddenly she feels something watery on her hand, she raises her hand. Now she can see blood clearly on her hand. 

She neither scream, nor moan. She only falls on the floor and puts her head on his chest which is now heartless. 

The moaning of darkness is increasing in every moment. 

                                                         **************

Two months later....

She didn't know when Lavanya came in the room next night, inform everyone about the death or suicide of Sanskar. 

When the police come to investigate, how his family handled everything. How his bade papa cried for him and how his family repented for leaving him. 

When Shanaya was visiting her daily, she was also broken inside but at least, she came almost daily and tried to talk with her. 

"He loved you so much" it was her first and the only sentence, she spoke when she visit her. 

Ragini started to live with her because she doesn't want to leave this house. 

Laksh comes here and takes the signature of her in the important papers. 

"Bhabhi," he said. 

She looked him with empty eyes. She is wearing a white suit and standing in front of the same window of their room. 

"there's no one to take charge of hotels, we're thinking that you should sell them," he said with hesitation. Sanskar's voice comes in his mind "never sell them, these are my dream" 

She looked him with pain moreover screeched "how dare you to say like this Laksh? You know very well how much those hotels are importance for him?" 

Laksh looks the floor and he is also shedding tears "I know Bhabhi! We don't have the experience to manage hotels, in last two months, value of its shares is decreasing also... We're just worry about your future" he says in moist voice. 

"I'll manage it.." Suddenly she has decided. 

"huh?" 

"let her do it Laksh.." The voice comes from the entrance of the room where Shanaya is standing. 

She leaves the caring about her appearance, she's just wearing the simple suit which is messy and her hairs are also so much messy like she didn't wash it for many days. 

Swara looks her and the pain of her heart is increasing. 

"let her do it Laksh .. She's the only one among us who lives her life in a fair way, she has the right to live and for it, she needs the hope... Let her live with that hope.." Shanaya says. 

"hope..." Swara just tries to touch the light of hope, "is there any hope still remained in me?" She asks to herself. 

Her eyes have started the flood of pain but she doesn't realise this because of her deep thought. 

Suddenly she feels dizzy and falls on floor. 

When she gets conscious, she finds the doctor checking her up. 

Laksh, Ragini and Shanaya are standing around her with a worried face. 

"is everything fine doctor?" Shanaya comes to the doctor and asks. 

"everything is ok Shanaya" doctor smiles, "Mrs. Maheshwari is three months pregnant" 

A small smile comes on the face of everyone but she can't smile. 

She just puts her hand on her tummy and says "pregnant.." 

Voice of Shanaya echoes in her mind and she slowly murmurs "hope.."

Darkness is abundant her essence because there's only light around here. Yes! She's not alone because of daylight, night is over now. 

(hey, guys! This is the end of my whole story, I know you all will cry because I also feel the same pain but sometimes we've to cut the old tree to plant a new seed... My hand literary shivered when I wrote "death of Sanskar but on the other side, there's also light and hope... In the last you've right to criticise me freely, I'll wait for your comments)

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I'm Hope Ep 17

The house of Umeed was filled with happiness, laughing and light that day. The room of VIP guests were filled with two main families. One was of Umeed and one was of Faraz.

Qazi was asking the permission from Umeed that whether did she want Faraz in her life or not?

"Qubool hai (I do)," she said slowly and did signature on the papers.

Faraz had already given his permission for nikah.

After completion of nikah ceremony, everyone congratulated each others.

Faraz and Umeed were sitting on couch which was decorated beautifully with white lilies and lots of crystals were shining around them. Both were wearing white traditional dresses and their families were talking to each others.

Men were on one side, talking about politics and business. Women were on other side, talking about latest fashion and new lawn collection of summer.

The young party had their own issues and topics to discussed.

Apart from everyone, both were sitting on the same couch, Umeed was looking the mahandi of her hands, purposelessly while Faraz was starring her.

Umeed felt his gaze on her and looked him. "what are you starring?" She asked confusingly.

Faraz broke the eye contact with her and said "nothing" in very low voice which Umeed hardly listened.

"I'm starring Umeed! How wishes come true and how we don't feel any happiness in our heart when the burning desire takes it right place in our life... I started to love you when I didn't know how to write the word 'love' but I loved you and that's a reason, I was seeking you in every girl's face who came in my life, but honestly, I didn't wish to get you. This is also true, I want you deep inside my heart, in my unconscious... Again and again... My heart wanted you which soothed by your voice, my body enlightened by your smile and I can sense that these both things, you've lost just because of me" he said nothing, just thinking while starring her beautiful face which was surrounded by the white dupatta (scarf) of her dress.

"you should be thankful to me Faraz Bhai" Romana and Shayan came them.

Shayan congratulated both of them while Romana sat on the side of Umeed.

"Shayan! Please take a selfie, I would update my status" she said to Shayan.

Both Faraz and Umeed gave them fake smile, they went and Umeed said slowly "I would be grateful to you honey! You opened my eyes that I was chasing the mirage"

Faraz looked her, he listened her every words, he reminded the time when she called him and told everything about the plan of Romana.

"marry me Faraz!" After telling everything, she said.

Faraz didn't believe what she said. He stayed silent, she said again.

"you wanted me, now I want this relationship with you but before taking any decision, remember that I'm not the one whom you loved"

Faraz moaned to listen it "I didn't love the one whom you were, I loved you Umeed, I still love you the way you're... Why people think that we only love smiling face, what about the sad one? You taught me to live, you gave me hope Umeed, how can I stop loving you, I didn't tell you but I fall for you in each moment, whenever I saw you" he said.

Umeed smiled sadly and said in this same feeble voice "but now I've no hope Faraz" she disconnected the call.

Agha Haroon came to them, however, Faraz came out from the past through his voice.

"will my daughter give me sometime?" He said to Umeed.

She stood up from her place and greeted her.

"Assalam o Alaikum uncle"

"call me Agha Jan.," He said softly.

She smiled, agha Haroon looked here and there.

This was only small and simple ceremony. They only invited their close relatives and friends.

"agha Faraz! Would you give some time for your wife to your father?" He asked Faraz gently.

Faraz boggled with the voice of his father, however, he nodded.

"your father has beautiful study, will you show me Umeed?"

Umeed nodded and both went outside. The elite class didn't mind this type of things and especially when she was his daughter in law now.

Both went to study of her daddy," your father has a great taste of books" he said softly.

No one ever talked to her in such a soft voice, this tone was new to her completely.

She was still looking her hands and flowery design of Hanna on her both hands.

"do you like Hanna?" He observed her concentration on her hands.

"no. I never liked Hanna" she said honestly.

"then you shouldn't put it," he said.

She stayed silent, some moments of silence passed silently.

He looked that naive girl, grasped and went to her.

He jointed his heads "forgive me Umeed for the act of my son"

Umeed immediately departed his both hands "don't do this please.."

Agha Haroon smiled sadly "I never ask forgiveness to anyone but I know the importance of respect and grace of a girl but because of my son, you were suspected in the eyes of your father"

"it was not his fault at all, there's no strength in the relationship of mine and daddy.." The unwanted hiss came out from her lips, he put his hand on her head.

"I got know that you're not real daughter of Bahroz... We can't change the past but try to better our future, I don't know about Bahroz but I tried to fill the space of your father in your life. Will you give me the place of your father in your life?" He entreated her.

She quavered to listen to him, moreover hugged him. No one knows but the fireflies of her eyes shinned in her tears again.

************

After completion of the ceremony of her nikah, she came to her room, where servants put gifts of guests.

She looked all the gifts with indifference, further, she slumped herself on the bed.

Her hairs are scattered around her shoulders, she was looking the ceiling with empty eyes. The voice of Agha Haroon was echoing in her mind.

"God always gives us some hope after snatching one, he took daddy from you and gave you the love of agha Jan instead of... Off course he gave you best in the trade of worst" her inner voice said to her moreover urged her to bore new hope.

"my every hope will take place in my heart when Romana will loose what I've lost," she said sternly.

She called Faraz which he received on the first bell.

"are you okay Umeed?" He asked worriedly in his first sentence.

"what did harm me Faraz?" She asked bitterly.

He got silent, then stuttered "I thought. Because you called in midnight.."

She stayed silent for few seconds, Faraz stopped his breath during those seconds, his every inch of body wanna listen to her.

"I want to ask you something," she said.

"hmm.."

"if anybody did bad to you, how will you take revenge from him?" She asked.

Faraz understood the other meaning of her sentence. He grasped and said calmly "I'll apply the law of retaliation, an eye for an eye, Umeed! I'll play the exact game which he played with me.."

She listened carefully, her mind was working on his every word in a fast way.

"thank you Faraz.." She disconnected the call.

She again fell on bed, "you won Honey because I wasn't present on the other side of chase board, it's very easy to win by yourself... But now I'm in the game and I'll teach you how to play with the respect of others?"

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Behind the Mist Ep 3

"You're excused..."says she coldly. Still the person in front of her is smiling and says," Hello.! Miss
 Sara, it's Aazam, hope you know me."

She again replies in the same manner,"Yes, I do."

"Excellent then...!!, I don't admire beating about the bush, I'll say what I actually have to say."

"What?", asked Sara shrugging her shoulders.

"Well actually I want your help in assignment preparation. Would you pl..."

"I'm sorry, you may take help of someone else.", says she interrupting him and not letting him complete his words.

" Don't you think it's insulting?", asks Aalam innocently.

"I don't think it's something to be taken as insult in it, I'm also not beating about the bush I'm simply refusing you because I know that I would not be able to help you for I also have to work on my assignment.", she answers contentedly.

"Sara.", says Fahad coming to them after seeing both of them engaged in conversation.

"He's superb in creativity and communication skills, it will be quite beneficial for all four of us to work together.", adds he while tapping Aazam's shoulder and in return Aazam smiles to look at them.

"It means you've already decided everything, so it's fine. You may join us we'll make a joint project.",says she first looking at Fahad and then at Aazam.

Before listening their answer she turns back to leave.

"Actually she's a little extra-serious", says Fahad when she's leaving.

" You mean to say arrogant..??", asks Aalam sarcastically while keeping his eyes fixed on her back.

"OK leave it now, we should concentrate more on our project.., says Fahad holding Aazam's arm to distract him.

Aazam looks at him and smiles.

            Aazam is also equal in social status to Sara. He is a man of jolly nature, and is an extremely magnetic persona. His appearance and intimacy both constitute his acceptability among the varsity persons and the outsiders as well.

            The only reason why Sara gets bizarre seeing him, is his wide number of girlfriends and that this kind of person who flirts with every girl should not be appreciated at all. Whereas in Aazam's viewpoint it's just timely entertainment and that he's still waiting for someone totally different from all others to live his future life with..

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             Sara, Jiya, Fahad and Aazam, all four are discussing what will make there project look different. Each other's views are being listened and considered. In Aazam's turn to share his ideas, Sara is stunned to see how creative he is.

             Now she has understood that Aazam really has the capabilities that Fahad told her about. Slowly and gradually she realizes that Aazam's inclusion in their group is going to be really advantageous for them. But still she's in a confusion that why he chose their group while he is heartily accepted by everyone in class, what brought him to them even after her curt refusal. But actually now she's sorry for her cold behavior towards him.
Sensing this change in her, Fahad says to her," look, he isn't much like what you think of him."
Sara just smiles in reply.

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"She doesn't know me, but I do.", says Aazam to Jiya sitting in classroom while preparing to present their project in front of the class.

"But how?", asks Jiya astonishingly.

He just smiles to look at Jiya's excitement but doesn't answer.

"O come on! Tell me now.. How do you know her??", asks Jiya eagerly.

"Her father is my father's friend.", answers Aazam casting his eyes on Sara who's busy too in preparation of preparation with Fahad. "First time I saw her at my sister's wedding but I'm sure she would not have even noticed my presence there.", adds he.

"Oooo... That means there is something in your heart for her since then????", asks Jiya.

Aazam looks at her frowningly and says, "what?? What do you mean by something??"

"You know very well what I mean.", Jiya says shuddering and looks at him lifting her brow.

"Look Jiya I don't have any bad intention regarding her, I like her since then.", he replies to make her contended.

"Do you think Sara is also like other girls that you're in relationship with???",asks she angrily.

"No I ...", says Aazam but Jiya interrupts him and adds, " you should better know she's not an ordinary girl, she is matchless, you should bear in mind that she's very special and has been created for someone special, not for one who doesn't even stay sincere with their relationship, or just take their relationship as a time pass...."

"OK.. Just cool down.. And please let me complete..", says Aazam in a very calm and convincing manner.

" I told you I know her since a few years ago, and I really found her exactly like you're telling me. I really don't take her like my other girlfriends. And I really don't want her to be my girlfriend, I want her to be my better half instead, and I never thought for someone else so seriously....", adds he.

" OK, let time be the deciding one, Sara's not so easy to get Mr...",says Jiya proudly.

"Yea.. I know.. ", he whispers looking at Sara again.
       
         With the passage of time the bond between them gets stronger. Now Sara has stop giving curt replies to Aazam, even her sarcastic comments have lessened. Sara feels around her a presence keeping constantly an eye on her, the presence that doesn't make her feel restless or annoyed rather she has started feeling a sort of pleasure, a sort of contention, yet she doesn't know the cause. Whether it is her academic progress, prominence, or her growing social circle or anything else making her feel so, she doesn't even know. All she knows now is a sense of being contended.....
           
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"Come on....shoot him, shoot him.... Otherwise The Eternal Reward will not be bestowed on you......, You can do it...... Come on you can do it..! Do it for it's your duty... Shoot him now.....right now..."
Shivering hands, sweating body, fast heartbeat and a blank mind alongwith these shouts are overwhelming him....

"Mmmm....mmmmm,,,,,mmmm......", the suppressed words of a man having his hands and legs tied and mouth tightly taped, whose eyes are asking him for  mercy and to spare his life.

"I can't do this, no..... No I really can't... I can't kill someone... No.. No...", says he to himself.

"Do it otherwise you'll be doomed, can't you do such a little thing for your better eternal future?? Looser! Such a looser you are!!",he again hears this voice..

After a long fight within himself suddenly he hears a loud sound and after that he can't hear, see or feel any thing else,......

There's mist everywhere and nothing is visible now....

After few moments he feels his body cold and something flowing on his forehead and neck.
"Oh my God..! What I have done..!", says he to himself..

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Swasan A path hate to love Ep 51

The day is melting slowly with the heat of the sun and there is lots of happiness inside the Gadodia's house.

Swara is in the room of Ragini when Laksh comes there.

She sees him and indicates him with the eyes that he should be with Sanskar.

"don't worry Bhabhi! Sasha manages everything.." He says and sits on a chair.

"why didn't you tell me about Sasha?" She says angrily.

"I'm sorry Bhabhi actually you don't have so much time to talk about anything.." Laksh says with excusing way.

She gasps "yeah right..."

Ragini, who is sitting beside Swara on the other side, hugs her from her back and says "I'm so happy Swara, if jiju would be sought out the problem with his family, then we can live together in same house"

Swara puzzles to listen to her and looks Laksh in the way "you're thinking the same which I'm thinking"

Swara turns to her and pats her face "sorry Ragini! We would visit after solving problem between Sanskar and his family, but we wouldn't live with them permanently"

"but Swara you liked the joint family," Ragini asks.

"yes I like but Sanskar has different nature and I'm now used to it, so I don't want any interference in our personal life," she says and looks down. She loves joint family but she knows very well that Sanskar's condition is not able to live with family and she doesn't want to expose their personal matter in front of anyone.

Ragini nods, Laksh coughs and she comes out to her senses.

"Bhabhi! You should go to handle your husband now" he says.

Swara stands up immediately, she's still in the same thought. "yeah, you're right"

Suddenly she notices motives of his words and smiles "ok! I'm going but don't annoy my sister so much"

"as you order my Bhabhi" he bows down and both sisters smile to see his attitude.

*************

After leaving Maheshwari's family, Swara and Sanskar are still there.

Swara is in the room of Ragini, Sumi is also there.

Sanskar comes there and asks her to leave.

Sumi looks Sanskar and Swara, she feels something strange in the behavior of Sanskar but she doesn't understand what? That's why she wants to talk with Swara privately.

"stay here in the night Swara," Sumi says.

Swara boggles to listen to it and Sanskar rubs his vein.

"as you wish" before asking Swara to Sanskar, he says her.

But Swara shakes her head in a negative way "no mom! I won't stay there, I mean to say I would come in another day"

Sumi looks her with worry and scowls to listen to her "why?"

"actually, mom I can't sleep without my bed and Sanskar...too..." She says shyly.

A small glimpse of a smile comes on the lips of Sanskar.

Sumi looks both and gasps "ok Shona! But visit us soon" she hugs her.

Swara comes outside and Sanskar holds her in his same dominating way.

Sumi looks them until they become disappeared from her sight.

************

There is scarlet color beyond the glass wall of their room.

Swara is massaging her feet when Sanskar comes inside the room with a cup of coffee.

"do you want?" He asks by sitting on a couch while she's on the bed.

"no.." She says slowly and stands up from her place.

Sanskar is looking her with a deep gaze, Swara feels his gaze on her but she carries out her activity.

Swara takes out her wood box further, she takes out the nose pin from the velvet box.

Sanskar boggles to see the velvet case in her hand, he totally forgets about that gift.

Swara slowly wears the nose pin and the shine of precious stone enlightens her face in the dim light of the room.

Sanskar never turns on all the light of his room, he likes darkness and she loves him.

Sanskar puts his cup on the side table, steps his feet towards her. Both are in the night dress, Swara is wearing the silk's long gown of pink colour. Because of massaging her neck, she ties her hairs in a knot.

Sanskar comes to her and slams her into the wall, Swara lifts her eyes and a cold sigh comes out from her lips.

Sanskar removes the clip from her hairs thought her hairs fall and scatter on her shoulders.

"now looking perfect.," He says in such a low voice that if she wasn't so much close to him, she won't listen.

He slowly encircles his arm around her waist and closes her to him.

Her breath is touching on his shoulder, Sanskar lifts her face and looks into her eyes.

"I do not hesitate to say that... That Swara! You're becoming special to me" the clear truthfulness can scan in his eyes as well as in his words.

Swara feels ecstasy listen the words but remains silent.

Sanskar's cold breath is touching her face, moreover, he brings her lips near her ear and says "now. First time Swara! I wanna make you love, not just fulfill my need"

A deep breath comes out from her mouth and touches his neck.

"may I make you love Swara?" He says in deep voice replete with emotions.

Swara feels butterflies in her stomach "you never asked Sanskar, just did what you wanted to do"

Sanskar gasps moreover leave her at once, Swara feels fear with his action and thinks "yes! I never asked because I didn't care.." He says slowly and looks down.

"now, do you care?" Swara asks.

"yes I do?" He answers.

"what you do?" She whispers in his ear.

"I care" he lifts his face.

"care for whom?" She says in hypnotised voice.

This time, Sanskar pins her again and holds her both hands in his grip "I care about you Mrs. Sanskar Maheshwari" he says with a same proud smile.

Swara smiles proudly and moves her face to touch him because her hands are in his grip.

"then do what you wanna do" she slowly by kissing his earlobe.

Sanskar's hands move to her shoulders while his eyes are touching her face.

Swara leans her head on the back of wall but suddenly Sanskar leaves her.

"not now Swara! I did many mistakes but I don't wanna repeat it"

He just holds her arm and both go towards the bed.

Outside the glass window, darkness is devouring the each light of day.

He lays down on a bed and Swara puts her head on his chest.

"are you sure Sanskar?"

He looks her and smiles "at least not now Swara! I don't want to hurt you again Swara"

She looks down "it's ok Sanskar. I'm becoming used to it or you say you want to make love, not..." She couldn't complete the sentence because he puts his lips on her.

Swara's eyes widened of his act but after few seconds, she closes her eyes and holds his shirt tightly.

Darkness is becoming deep and reaching the doorstep of them, but it moves back after looking the enlighten bodies of heaven.

He slowly departs her, pats her face and leans completely, she puts her head on his arm, his hand is caressing her hairs.

"I love you Sanskar" she overwhelmed with her emotions and says.

Sanskar stops caressing her, removes his arm from her head and puts it on his eyes as his signature posture of sleeping.

"good night Swara"

Swara gasps and curses her to say "I love you" to him.

"goodnight Sanskar" she wants to ask that how would he sleep but she doesn't do it and shows her back to him.

"I would not cry again because I've hope that one day you will tell me 'i love you too' instead of giving this reaction," she thinks and closes her eyes with peace.

He removes his arm from his eyes, gets up from his place and looks her back.

"I know Swara you're hurt! But I can't encourage you to love me because I'm empty, I'm empty for this emotion and I don't want to snatch this smile of your face which I already snatched half from my sins but not now at least... You don't know yourself Swara! Loving me as the same you put yourself in hell with your own and I don't let you do it" he thinks and takes his sleeping pills without water.

Darkness again comes inside their room because enlightened bodies are separate now.

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Behind the Mist Ep 2

 She turns at once and takes a sigh of harmony...
"Oh Jiya....! You frightened me..! Stupid", says Sara and continues her way.

"You are stupid, not me.! One shouldn't be so blind in vanity that there's no need to think of we poors.!.",says Jiya in a jolly and juvenile manner.

Jiya has been Sara's closest friend since her childhood. Both are totally different in their moods and hobbies but it creates the real essence of their fast friendship. Regardless of Sara's sobriety, Jiya gives the colors to the painting of their friendship.

"Shut your mouth please otherwise I'll punch you.", says Sara.

"O come on do it now, I think I should get what I can from a bad pay master.", says Jiya and smiles like a devil and waits for her answer.

Listening it Sara stops and looks frowningly at Jiya.

"You didn't even ask me to come with you, what do you think of yourself, extra-austere girl.!", adds Jiya angrily.

" It was quite obvious that you would come, and you did", says Sara carelessly.

"You're impossible Sara.", says Jiya.

 "Ok thank you so much. Happy now?", asks Sara and both of them forge ahead towards the classroom having  casual chitchats.

                                          ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

The whole class is in hustle and bustle. All the new faces are in conversation with one another, eager to know more and more about their new fellows. Jiya is also one of them when a boy of cheerful disposition asks her about a girl sitting quietly," Who's she?(pointing towards Sara) that one in white dupatta(scarf)? I've seen her with you in the garden. I thought she's your friend but I think I was wrong."

Jiya smiles while looking at her and adds," Undoubtedly she's my friend but is quite different from me or you can assume different from everyone..."

"Hmm.. seems obvious", says the boy.

"But she's a genius", adds Jiya.

And then their conversation is interrupted by teacher's arrival in the classroom and all are now busy in introduction and study related issues.
                                        
                                        ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"May I sit here please?" A boy, who was noticed by Sara to be the simplest and the soberest one in the class, asks her when she's in library.

"Of course, library isn't mine, I think it's for all and no one is bound to ask any one except administration", replies she keeping her eyes in the book only.

The boy smiles as he knew which answer is going to be uttered by her and says, "By the way I'm Fahad, you must be knowing me."

 "Sara.", says she coldly.

Fahad starts talking her about their study topics and after a few moments their brief introduction transforms into study discussion.

Fahad belongs to a middle class family, not extraordinary in his appearance but in his mental approach. To an extent he compliments Sara in overall disposition that leads gradually to their friendship. He has many other friends but time makes him closer to Sara and so is with Sara too. Fahad is the one enclosing many of the things in his heart but never letting people around him know them, not even his closest friends...
               
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"He was asking me about you on our first day here.", says Jiya pointing to Aalam eating chips from a packet in her hand while sitting with Sara in class during a free period.

"What did he ask?", inquires Sara while casting her eyes upon Aalam.

"Nothing special but just wanted to know whether I knew you or not.", answers Jiya. " You know what? he's the most happening boy of this university, every girl wanna be a part of his life.", adds she.

"But I don't think there's any thing special in him to be adored in him.",says Sara carelessly.

"Yep, I know for you there's nothing." ,Jiya smiles while saying.

Sara says," Then don't let me know such useless things."

"Ok OK I'm just passing time dear, nothing else. Who can know you more than I?", Jiya says.

"Hmmm, I know what type of person he's. He's often with Fahad but is quite contrary to him. I wonder how do they both maintain their friendship..!" , says Sara while concentrating on a book in her hand.

" Contradictions and differences don't let a relationship decay, if there are only parallels and consensuses then the relationship seems fabricated... Don't you think so?"

Sara starts looking at her astonishingly.

" And the same is with our case, we both are totally different, still we're the best friends.", adds Jiya.
Sara is stunned to hear these words from Jiya's mouth and says, " O my God....!!!! Who are you?? What have you done with my friend ???."

Jiya gives a loud laughter and says controlling herself," Sara, sometimes minor and non-serious people teach us the major and serious lessons of life... "

Sara says irritatingly, " Ok Ok..!, your this horrifyingly philosophical side is frightening me.."

Jiya laughs and says," OK.. I quit, but you know everything more than I do, sometimes our precautions lead us to the things which  we are eager to be far away from.."

Now, Sara just wants to rid all Jiya's sayings, though she knows Jiya is not wrong. She doesn't know whether Jiya's unexpected words are making her uneasy or there's something else that she doesn't know. She has never been as much restless while listening someone as she is being right now. She doesn't know the reason but at the moment she just wants Jiya to shut her mouth.

Jiya wisely does the same as Sara expected her to do. And they start discussion on their study topics.

But who knows that sometimes the words uttered are immediately heard in heaven, who knows that we are going to meet our fate from which we are trying to flee, who knows that the life has so many veiled realities to make us acquainted with.......
                                             
                                                       ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"Excuse me..."
 Sara hears someone saying her name. She turns to see and her face automatically wears sullen expressions.....

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I'm Hope Ep 16

Recap:" Faraz's father got know about the incident of his and Umeed. Umeed told Romana to tell everything to her father but she told the only lie"

"Ro..maa..naa" her name came out from her mouth in broken pieces.

She looked her unbelievably... Her younger sister whom she loved her, the one whom she always gave priority to her every desire but she did this to her.

But she had always hope that she gave so much love to her family, they won't believe on Romana because they knew Romana was the layer. They would definitely support her.

She went to her father immediately and held his arm.

"Daddy! She's lying, she called Faraz and I didn't know about her plan or anything else..."

Before she completed her sentence, daddy raised her hands to stop.

"I don't want any explanation Umeed"

Umeed smiled, yes! He believed in her.

"I believed on my daughter, I believe in my own blood Umeed.." He said in arctic tone, the coldness of his tone is frozen her heart.

Yes! It was the matter of blood, she was not his own blood, how could he believe on her instead of his own daughter.

She looked him with unbelievable expression and the tear broke the cage of her eyelashes.

Her hands fell from the grip around his arm and she stepped back.

"am I not your blood daddy? Or should I say Mamu?" This time, her tone changed at once.

This is the family whom she loved and made every effort to win their heart. For their sake, she didn't participate in any activity, she chose the commerce instead of her interest, she sacrificed her love, she sacrificed her only friend.

She put great effort on herself because her father wanted to see her perfect. She became perfect but alas! Nothing was changed because she was not his own blood.

Her daddy said nothing, her mummy, as usual, stayed neutral as it was the show in which she never had any interest. But the evil smile came on the face of Romana which she clearly noticed.

"oh! You all don't have answer, then I would also not give any explanation because if you judge me on the base either I'm your blood or not then there's no use of explanation.." She said in low but strong voice but there was a clear pain could be felt in her voice.

His daddy looked Umeed, then Romana. He gasped and said  "Umeed! There is no any matter of blood, Romana liked Shayan, it was clear in front of us because we're her parents, she told us everything but you didn't tell us anything because you don't consider us your parents.  There's evilness in your blood that's why you did this"

The last hope also had broken loudly in her heart and she slowly turned towards the entrance. Before leaving door, daddy again called her "Umeed.."

She turned.

"called your boyfriend to come with his family tomorrow and we would fix your alliance, I don't want to face any shameless scene again in my house" his voice was harsh and rude.

She could feel clear scratches on her heart through his words.

A victorious smile came on the face of Romana and she said to daddy "it's ok daddy, Umeed aapi was hesitated to tell you anything, you should forgive her, I also forgive her because of her.."

"forgiveness my foot Romana" Umeed cut her words before completing her.

This time, mummy saw her with surprise, daddy, and Romana in deep shocked. But she left the room without watching their shocked faces.

*************

She opened the door of her window but she couldn't find her best friend. Moon was on its early dates, that's why she couldn't see it.

After few minutes when she disappointed to find the moon in the sky, she gasped and put her head on the frame of the window. Her hairs touched the outside wall, tears were flowing silently from her eyes and falling on the wood of window's frame.

She was sitting on the floor and her flowy frock was scattered on the floor.

"why did it happen with me?" She questioned to space, the question to the stars, the question to the window on which she was flowing tear, she questioned to the wind which caressed her hairs. But at the end, she questioned to the God who was looking her from the sky but the one who was close to her more than her breath.

"to make you strong" someone whispered in her ear.

She uplifted her head from the window "wasn't I strong?" Always question born other question.

"to make you more strong and..."

"and?" She asked.

"and show the real face of someone.."

"real face.." She murmured. "whose face?" She asked confusingly.

But this time, no one answered her. She stood up with courage because she cried enough.

She got ablution and prayed to Allah to give her more and more courage.

At the end, she joined the dots how Romana planned everything and lied at the last moment.

She gasped and went to her laptop. "please Allah Pak! Forgive me for interrupting in the personal stuff of others, but I've to collect the proof"

She did some work on laptop and called Romana. She attended the call "oh aapi! Don't start again, I helped you only and you tried to spoil my reputation"

"it's ok honey, forget everything... I can understand your situation...well! I sent you one email, please check this is urgent" she said in flat tone.

"ok.." Romana shrugged and after checking the email, she disconnected the call.

After some steps of process, she was succeeded to hack the facebook account of Romana. She was not sure about the material, which she would get from her account but this is her first step to fine any proof but after the failure of this step, she would hack her laptop.

She opened her account and started to read her messages. As she started to read, her eyes widened with shock plus astonishment. Because it was not only proof, it was bundle of proves.

**************

Faraz was restless after that incident because he was much worried about Umeed. He knew very well, how much she was concern about her reputation and once again he spoilt everything.

He looked his cellphone and wanted to make her call but he remembered last incidents which he made after their butterfly caught incidents.

He didn't want to throw her in any trouble again.

But his love was making him restless, suddenly he got the idea and he called Romana. But Romana cut his call, this was worried part for him.

"oh Allah save her, please... I know I'm bad fellow, I did many mistakes but don't do anything wrong with her please Allah! I promise, I would neither friendship with any girl nor smoke or disobey agha Jan and mama... Just give me chance to correct everything in her life... Give me Chance to give her back her happiness"

He was walking here and there because of tension and praying in his heart.

After few minutes later, his mobile rang. He checked the phone, he was happy but confuse to see the name of Umeed on the screen of his mobile.

He received the call and said immediately "Umeed. Are you ok?"

"do you really love me?." The flat voice of Umeed came from his phone.

He got confused but answered immediately "yes offcourse"

The slow voice of her breathing, he could sense clearly.

"can you do anything for me?" She asked.

"yes I can do.." He said immediately again because he wanted to weigh her condition as soon as possible.

"sure..?" She asked again.

"you can test" this time, he said with calm voice.

"hmm.."

"what do you want?" He asked.

"revenge" she said in dangerously cold voice.

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Yaaram Ep 16

Recap:" Amraha got know about the adoption of Aliyan by lady Mahar"

Next day, door bell was ringing whole day. Lady Mahar received the gifts and birthday cards from her children from different corner of the world. Her time spent while listening phone calls. Moreover her every child made her live call through skype and she cut the cake in front of camera. Almost, she cut the ten cakes and Amraha enjoyed so much because of eating cakes. Because of crowd of so many gifts, she was envious from her. She got the love from the children whom were not her in reality. There was  huge difference of nation, culture or religion. But there was no any difference of love which she spreads everyone without any misery moreover her children were also the same.

At night, when she got her last gift, then they all disclosed the gifts while sitting near the fire place. Lady Mahar opened each gift and touched it for few minutes, no doubt,  these were very precious gifts because these were bought by love. She got so much love although she was barren, but she got more love than those who have their own children. It was become possible because they gave priority to humanity without any difference of color and nation.

She opened each gift and told them about the giver of that gift.

"look at this Morgan! She gave me so much expensive watch, I don't need this watch but if I'll tell her she'll become angry  on me. She sends me gift more expensive gift than last year. She does part time job and whenever she came home, she jointed her ear to my ear and said that she wanna listen those words which I think in my mind moreover she told she listened all my dreams..." Lady Mahar completed her words while wiping  her tears.

After hearing all this, Amraha thought, not only her country but her world was also changed. Is there any woman in this world like lady Mahar?

"this is made by Denis" she showed the handmade frame of wood in which a picture placed. In the picture, a woman was sitting with circle of angel and ten children were sitting around her, starring her with the eyes of love.

"see what Denis made me? Nowadays he's in Germany and doing his own business moreover working with NGO too. He was twelve years old when he came to me and came near my bed in the midnight. He was starring me, don't know how much time, when I awaked and found him near my bed ... I envied on myself that is there any fortunate woman in the world like me? whose children starred her while sleeping"

She talked about her children for hours then Amraha took her to her room. There was a photo frame on the

side table which was not there before.

"it was given by Aliyan" lady Mahar kissed the photo frame which was made by Aliyan  in which he wanted to show how lady Mahar was looked in her young age.

"he loves me so much" she signed her Amraha to sit with her. She told her about her every child then how could it possible, she didn't tell her about him too.

"when he was got his 18th year of life and left the orphan house, I took him at home, he was younger in my all children and he cried a lot in his childhood. Whenever he came to me for one night, organization manger told me how did he remained restless after visiting me. When he got adultery then I've decided to keep him with me. He came home and he was so much happy. He starred the walls of house for hours, napped against the fire place or watched action movies in whole night. I thought, he was new And became normal after some time. I awaited that might he would changed himself and showed some wisdom that he should took step for his career but he was disappointing me. Once it was snowing outside, I put some clothes in the bag and banished him from the house with the few pounds and said to him "first become human being then come home otherwise I wouldn't allow you in my house"

Amraha shocked to listen her that how much lady Mahar strict to her children.

"I didn't get any news of him after one year, I knew he was so much stubborn but I didn't know he got angry on me and I felt sorrow to think, why I took work with so much strictness. But what should I did? Comfort of my house was ruining his personality and career, I could see the fire in my house instead of spoiling my children"

Amraha became silent while sitting with lady Mahar on couch. Her both brothers were failing in their exams continuously but except scolding, they didn't get any punishment. Baba stopped giving them pocket money but amma gave them money silently, otherwise dadi also did the same. In every new day, they got new bike and rode whole night on it. They were always busy on computer or mobile. They did everything in the eyes on baba and amma but they didn't do anything to give them lesson. If they were sleeping and dada was trying to wake them up then dadi and amma started to fight with him that why was he waking them and they were children only etc.

"are they children? It's 2 pm of day and working people earned half of their earning, I lifted my responsibility in this age too" dada said.

"this was old time" amma offences.

"that was good time, my father hit me with shoes while sleeping, if I didn't got up for fajar (prayer of morning). Amam of mosque devided duties to every young child of town to make them habitual of waking up at fajar time. They all were wise people, they upbringing their children with wisdom. When my mother made rotie in the furnace, my father told me to sit with her then I would know how much she tolerated heat because of feeding me. Moreover, my mother told me to  fill bucket for bathing of my father then I would know how much he suffered because of me and I should know the importance of him. If my parents, made me fondling then I fell before walking. "

"enough..." Dadi offended to listen his lecture.

Now Amraha was got know the real depth of dada's words.

"then what was happened?" Amraha asked  excitedly.

"I was ensured that he was safe but I was also afraid and my heart missed the beat on the  every ring of phone. One year passed, one day, I was sleeping on my bed and someone lifted my quilt and enlightened the candle on the small almond cake. It was Aliyan and he came from window to surprise me.

"oh then this is tradition" she said.

"yes!" Lady Mahar smiled. " but now I always changed my room in that night and he jumped on every window to seek me. Well! That night he showed me the student card of Manchester university and said "I become human being now" he told proudly because university gave him scholarship" lady Mahar wiped the moisture of corner of her eye. "he never disappoint me. When I adopted those children, that time I promised myself that I would make them best human being of society. I would not hesitate to take Any step for it. When child comes in the lap of woman then she has the responsibility like prophets.  There's no place of mistake in this responsibility. When God give upbringing responsibility to any person then he gave bridle of humanity in the hands of that person. Now it's on us either we made him like satan to ruin the humanity or make him good human being who scattered the light around his surrounding. All peoples are good in their birth Amraha! It's cradle of their nourishment which made them in other shape. These were flowers and these were us who squeezed them and thrown them in the mire.

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