Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Love Is One Of A Kind) Episode 22 season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I placed her smoothly inside the backseat of the car after taking the keys from her rear pocket. Now I was standing outside the car alone with myself; collected, tranquil, adoring, comparing the serenity of my heart with the serenity of the skies, moved in the darkness by the visible splendors of the constellations & the invisible splendor of god, opening my soul to the thoughts which fell from the unknown after her confession.

When the flowers of night inhale their perfumes & lightened like a lamp in the center of the starry night, I expanded my soul in ecstasy in the midst of the universal radiance of creation. Still I was unsure about my mental state. I felt something connected to me & something plunged upon me & something mysterious objects interchanged inside the depth of my soul.

Just then I received a good night message from laksh & my series of thoughts were broken down & forced me to view my individuality. "NO, we can't be together....", I shouted in extreme pain. I couldn't push a bubbly, cheerful & sensitive girl to the path of obscurity because of me. I made up my mind to keep myself away from her & hopefully she wouldn't remember about this night, I thought & drove off to home.

I placed her carefully on her bed without breaking her sleep & covered her in duvet. As soon as I was moving out of her room, her hands touched with mine & it sparkled thousands of emotions inside my heart. Her feathery soft skin was lying on the bed like a butterfly was sitting on the meadows of flowers.

A bunch of hair strands were touching her marshmallow like face & causing her disturbance in sleep. I sided the strands to one corner of her ear & said,"You are different,swara. I am not meant for you. My love will engulf you to the darkness like a fire & you will be mercilessly burnt in it. Don't make the situation worst for me as every time my heartbeats skip a beat when you are close to me. Every time I can't control the warmth of my heart. Please stay away from me as we aren't destined to remain together even if we love each other unconditionally."

I immediately rushed out of the room to control my feelings or else I was unable to resist my overflowing feelings for her which didn't understand the situation & like floodwaters broke the natural levee & gushed to the pasture lands, in the same way my feelings were compiled a lot & were now ready to break the barricade of my heart.

I tried to sleep in my room but honestly sleeping was away from my eyes. I deliberately closed my eyes with a mixture of undulating emotions passing inside my heart.

Swara's POV:
When I woke up, my head was aching & I felt erratic pain in my muscles. Quickly I went to washroom to freshen up myself. Just after I came back to my room after refreshment, my eyes fell upon a note pasted on the table. I opened the chit & it was written as,"Drink the lemon juice,you will feel better.... Sanskar..." I gulped the entire glass of juice in one go & suddenly I remembered the incidents of last night. Oh shit!! He had followed me & definitely had come to know about my drinking of alcohol. Oh god! How could I face him now?

But why was he behaving so nicely with me? In these situations, he must vent out his anger on me but here he was showering his sweet gestures to me in form of a note. Suddenly I remembered my confession of feelings to him. Though I couldn't remember the whole events but like broken pieces, I was able to recall the incidents of last night. So, the cat was out of the bag right now.

I had already confessed my love to him but still I was ignorant about his feelings. I rushed to his room to talk to him but it was locked from inside. Might be he hadn't awakened, I thought & left the place in disappointment.

I prepared delicious foods for him as I heard somewhere that, the way to a man's heart was through his stomach. I prepared variety of veg & non veg items for him from past 4 hours. Still he hadn't come out of the room. I was worried now. Was he fine or had something happened to him??

I knocked his room door hastily & as soon as he opened the door, I asked him anxiously,"Are You OK? Why haven't you come out of the room yet?" He just nodded & said,"Nothing such... I am fine..." His voice sounded indifferent like he was least interested to talk with me. Still hoping for a positive reply, I said,"I have cooked for you today. Come.. Let's eat..."

But unlike my expectation, he only complied & followed me. Barely a few words were exchanged between us. Might be he was hungry, I thought. So, he was behaving weirdly. Without wasting any time, I decorated the table with variety of food items. We both were taking our lunch together without even uttering a word.

I wanted to hear praise from his mouth for my this effort but he was only eating numbly. Breaking the silence, I asked,"Food... Sanskar... Does it taste good?" As usual, I got the same nodding reaction. What had happened to him? Why wasn't he talking with me properly?? Was it because of my confession?? Didn't he love me? Had he felt bad???

A lot of questions were surrounding on my brain & I didn't know a single answer of these queries. I tried to ask him to break the confusion of my mind,"Has something happened last night? I mean.... Last night...." As soon as he listened the word last night, he stood up from his chair & said,"I am full! I am going to take rest & ya! Forget about last night..." By saying so, he departed from the place by leaving me dejected & heart broken.. I loved him but probably he didn't...

Last two days passed like the same way. He was constantly avoiding me. Whenever I tried to talk with him, he gave me some random excuses & entered inside his room. Though we were staying in the same house, but he was behaving like a stranger with me. It was horrifying!! How fast someone could become a stranger!! In all these two days, I cried a lot. It wasn't because he dejected me, rather it was because I lost a friend as well after my confession.

Now I was sleeping under the comforter but alas! It couldn't give me the comfort as from inside I was burning in solitude. Just then I heard some footsteps were approaching towards me. I closed my eyes in terror. Within minutes, the sound of footstep was discontinued & I heard his voice,"Swara! I know, you are sleeping. And good for me!! I can't talk to you if you are awaken..."

As soon as I heard his voice, I felt bliss like some entangled strings were connected to their own places. Quickly I wanted to wake up & to hug him tightly, but his wordings had stopped me in doing so.. I acted as if I was in deep sleep.

He grasped my hand & bent down his head to touch it & said,"I know; I am hurting you swara! Trust me! I have punished myself, every time I have tried to ignore you. But we can't be together & after your confession, I have felt weak in front of you, like I want to surrender my feelings to your heart. However I can't do that. Reason, you better know.. I can't drag you to that darkness! I am just a bad news for you. Hate me swara, for my behaviour. So that, after my leaving, it won't hurt you much & you can proceed in your life. Just forget me like a bad dream...."

I felt his sobbing & some tear droplets also fell on my hands & just then he left my room as I could sense it from his footsteps. A mixed sensation was going on in my mind now.

"Sanskar! You are wrong! We are destined to remain together. If not; then why do we always cross our paths? We are poles apart still we are connected with each other like the principle of physics,'Opposites attract'..... I know, you won't confess your feelings directly to me & will always curse yourself. But I won't let you go from my life as I'm not in search of sanctity, sacredness & purity; these things are found after this life, not in this life....; but in this life I search to be completely human, to feel, to give, to take, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love, to lust & finally to grow old with you...." I thought & slept inside my comforter.

This time, the comforter was able to provide me comfort as from inside I could feel the felicity & now I would make him feel the same. A curvy smile approached on my face & I slept while thinking about our togetherness.

Sanskar's POV:
From two days, I was ignoring her. I was deliberately hurting her to stay away from her. She was trying to talk with me to clear the misunderstanding, if any. But I always dodged it as I didn't have any confusion. I was hurting her in my sane mind to keep distance from her. However I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore inside my heart & opened up my heart in front of her while she was sleeping peacefully. I felt relaxed after pouring out the truth in front of her thought I knew that she even didn't hear it.

As usual in the next morning also, I avoided her. But in the afternoon, I saw her wearing a short, lacy & skin fitting blue dress with matching pair of earrings. With minimal gloss & shining lipstick, she was looking like a diva. She was looking so lucrative that any man could fall for her. She collected the spare keys of the home & then only I understood that she was going somewhere.

I thought that she would at least inform me about her outgoing but alas! She wasn't even looking at me. So, I initiated the talk & asked,"Are you going somewhere, swara?" She turned & looked at me in furious eyes & said,"As if you care.. And why are you asking me these silly stuffs? It is my life & I will decide about it. But for your kind information, I am going to a pub with my friends.."

'Pub', I murmured. The flashbacks of previous night were agitating in my memory lane. Those bastard, insane & thirsty guys would lure her & try to subjugate her in the pub. These thoughts made me so furious that I shouted,"Change the dress immediately. And you aren't going anywhere."

But to my surprise, she asked me arrogantly,"Who are you to stop me, sanskar??" I was raging in anger & pushed her to the wall. I put my hands in both sides of her to block her way & yelled,"Are you mad? You are again going to a pub. Have you forgotten about the previous night incidents??" Oh god! What had I uttered now..

However stunning me, more bluntly she replied,"Why does it affect you,sanskar? Why are you so much protective for me? I am not a child. I can take care of myself & you are avoiding me from two days then what has happened just now? And What do I mean to you?"

I was burning in anger now. I took one step closure & encircled my hand around her waist & shouted,"Pub isn't a good place for you. And those insane guys!! Oh god! How can I even bear that sight again? Why don't you understand swara! You are the world to me. Nobody has the right to see you insanely. You are mine & I do feel possessive about you..."

Suddenly she leaned forward & kept her head inside my chest & said,"Why sanskar? Why? Why do you conceal your love till now? You love me unconditionally but still bearing the pain of separation... Why??" Oh gosh! What had I confessed now in angry mood..

It was true that during anger, truth came out. I told her all those unsaid feelings of my heart. I took a step back from her & slowly said,"Sorry! I don't mean anything." She grasped my hands & embraced me tightly. Her closeness conferred a jolt of electricity current through out my body. I could see intense passion in her eyes for me. Her closeness was also making my emotions outburst in front of her. My entire body was shivering & trembling due to her touch.

Suddenly with in seconds, she crossed an inch gap between us & leaned her lips towards mine & kissed me softly. Her soft lips touched my harsh one & it created a burning desire in my body. My anger was vanished & like a thirsty soul, I entwined my lips on her. She completely surrendered her to me & I crushed & devoured my lips on her to engulf the greatest kind of forbidden pleasure...

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Confession) Episode 21 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
I saw her collecting the duplicate keys of the home. In the mean while, I went towards the garage & unlocked the trunk of the car & returned to home. If I had to keep an eye on her secretively, then this step was essential as by booking a cab, I couldn't follow her properly as cab would take time to reach here & also I didn't want to expose this secret place of her to any cab driver.

While handing over the keys of the car to her, I said,"Your friend has sent your car from the hospital." Lowering her gaze, she replied,"His name is Laksh." Though I knew about Laksh still I behaved as if I didn't remember his name & said,"Yes! Yes! Lakshh.... That guy has said his name, though I have forgotten it. OK! Bye swara! I am going to my room. Outside door is auto locked. So, I think, I don't need to see off you."

Without making any eye contact with her, I rushed towards my room & locked the door of my room. I had to reach to the garage before her arrival. I opened up the window & with the help of pipes, reached to the basement. I checked the surroundings with a bird's eye view. She hadn't come till yet.

Without wasting any time, I hid inside the backside trunk of the car & closed it. I was just praying to god that she must not lock it. Today I was happy for my slayer skills as whatever now I had done, it was all because of the fact that I was a slayer earlier & learned all these escaping techniques.

Just after a few seconds, I heard the starting sound of the car. Oh god!! Thankfully she didn't lock the trunk of the car & it would be easier for me to get out of it. As it was night, so the road might be empty. Therefore, I didn't have to suffer much inside the trunk of the car. After 30 minutes of the journey, the car stopped.

I waited for a few minutes to move out of the trunk of the car as I wanted her to go to the party before me & by that, she wouldn't able to see me. A few minutes had passed with these thoughts. Now it was time to get out of the car. But alas! My fate played a cruel game with me.

I couldn't open the trunk of the car. Might be it was jammed. Honestly while the world slept, fate planned the next move to take. However this time I wouldn't let my bad fate to win over me. I tried different techniques to open up it & finally after a struggle of half an hour, I was able to break the jam & to open the trunk.

As soon as I came out of it, what I had seen, surprised me a lot. She had parked the vehicle in front of a pub but she had told me about some party. Might be some party was going on inside, I thought. I had already wasted 30 minutes due to the jam. So, I quickly rushed inside the pub. After so long, I visited any pub today.

But looking at the scenario of the pub, I didn't think any party was going on here as all people were busy in their respective insane activities. The sound of the music, was so loud that it would make anybody deaf in long run. But where was swara? I couldn't find her anywhere inside the pub. Madly I searched her in every nook & corner of the pub. But alas! I was unsuccessful in my every attempt. Many wicked ideas were agitating in my mind. Had swara come here or gone to anywhere else after parking the car outside? I didn't know anything & was fully confused.

I asked the bar tender about swara by describing her physique but as expected, he denied about seeing her. Just then due to flashing of DJ lights, I had seen a glimpse of her near the staircase. I was relieved. As soon as I was proceeding towards her, I saw a guy was putting his hands on her bare shoulder. I was burned in anger by viewing this sight in front of me.

After crossing the crowded dance floor, I reached there & heard her saying,"Leave me! Don't touch me! My sanskar will kill you if you will try to harm me." Ignoring her words, that guy was forcing himself on her. Now the things were clear in front of my eyes. She lied to me about the party & she came here to gulp intoxicants.

She wasn't fully in her senses & before that guy could perform any stupid activities with my swara, I punched him hardly & bloods came out of his nose. As soon as her bubbly bluish eyes fell upon me, she jumped on me & said childishly,"Sanskar! He is bad & don't angry on me for my badmouthing in the morning."

The smell of alcohol was coming out of her mouth. As soon as I tried to control her, suddenly I found a hand on my collar. I turned & saw that guy was grasping my collar. I placed her down on the floor carefully. Now the invincible, deadly & ruthless sanskar was awakened in me. I was unstoppable & by touching her insanely, that bastard had fueled my anger.

I removed his hand from my collar & by pressing his throat, I had risen him from the floor & yelled,"You Bastard! How dare you touch her?" I was so mad at him that I punched him several times. That time I was totally forgotten about my identity & my whereabouts. My rage was only upon that moron who tried to touch her.

By my this act, I had gathered much crowd on the spot & gained much public attention. The manager of the bar came & stopped me. Then only I came to my sense & picked her up from the floor & before moving, I shouted on that guy, who was lying lifeless in pool of bloodstains,"Don't dare to touch her further in your life... Else I will smash you." She was lying in my protective arms and was murmuring,"I know; my sanskar will save me. But please don't show your angry face, I am scared.."

I came out of the pub while picking her in my arms. My temper was in its peak now. I patted her face & raised my voice,"Swara! You have lied to me today. And what is all this nonsense? You have started drinking again?? What fortune will it bring to you??" She hid her face inside my chest & muttered,"I am sorry! I... I... Don't want to drink... But mom.. Betrayal.. You also... Angry.. Can't take it..."

Oh sanskar! What was I doing? She wasn't in her senses & I kept on shouting on her. I felt bad for her condition & I knew about her sensitivity regarding these circumstances. I held her tightly, closure to my heart & by caring her face, I said,"I am sorry swara! I won't shout on you..."

Before I could say anything further, she kissed my cheeks & blabbed,"Don't hate me.. It... Hurts.... I love you na... Don't hate..." & she passed out. What had happened in a couple of seconds, I couldn't believe. She confessed her love to me like the sunlight clapped the earth & the moonbeams touched the sea, likewise her kiss healed my wounded heart & sealed her name inside my heart to comfort me.


Credit to:Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Reckless Attitudes) Episode 20 Season 2

Swara's POV:
My head was aching like I had lifted a mountain peak on my head. When I was awakened, I found myself in my room. Oh god! How did I come here? Suddenly all the flash backs about my mom & the conversation with shomi suryavansi reflected on my memory lane. I was filled with agony, misery & all sorts of mental sufferings.

I laughed sarcastically after remembering the irony of my fate. The billionaire girl swara suryavansi, first of all, couldn't inherit her properties. For whom I was studying now, for whose happiness, I always tried to remain outside my home, that lady betrayed me and pierced me like broken glass pieces.

I didn't have any identity. My mothers were exchanged and the identity of my real father was still unknown. But what was my fault in all these happenings? Why did everybody play with my feelings? And ya! Now I understood one of the sayings of shekhar suryavansi,"The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies. It comes from friend & loved ones..."

He was actually so true!!! The most important relation of my life betrayed me, my mom had cheated me. Then came the turn of Sanskar! He had also lied to me. Why?? Why sanskar? I wanted to drink water to cool down myself but the jug was empty. I got up from bed to fill up the jug & soon I found my room door was locked from outside.

I knocked hastily & within seconds, sanskar opened the door & asked,"where are you going?" I didn't want to talk with him now otherwise might be I would vent out all my anger upon him, which I didn't want as anger was never without a reason but seldom with a good one.

He had just recovered from the injury & this wasn't a suitable time to be angry upon him as anybody could become angry, that was easy but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time & for the right purpose and in the right way, that wasn't within everybody's power & wasn't easy.

Breaking my thoughts, he tried to snatch the jug from me & said,"You take rest,swara. You need it. I will fill the jug & anything you need, just call me. I will do it for you." This guy was so much unpredictable, like he had taken oath to make things difficult for me. As much as I was trying to avoid him, still he was crossing my path.

With a meager interest, I yelled,"Sanskar! I can do my work. No need to pity on my condition. And you aren't accountable to take care of me. Before meeting you also, I am leading my life alone & even i can continue the same." By saying so, I just moved out of the room. I filled the jug in kitchen & came back to my room. Still he was standing in the same position near my room door. I crossed him as if he didn't exist for me.

Sanskar's POV:
My first encounter with swara after her returning from the hospital wasn't appealing. She was constantly trying to avoid me. She even talked recklessly with me. Though I was aware about her mental condition but it sucked when you were ignored by the person who's attention was the only thing you wanted in the world. She filled the jug & passed by my side while ignoring my presence.

I couldn't take it anymore as spiteful words could hurt your feelings but silence could break your heart. And likewise my heart was now breaking into pieces due to her silence. From behind, I dragged her hands to stop her & asked,"Why are you behaving like a stranger with me? What have I done?"

Before I could say further, she snapped back,"Don't act like an innocent kid,Sanskar! You have lied to me. Have you even remembered about it or not? And don't touch my hand without my permission." I immediately left my grip from her hand. I could easily sense the congealing volcanic magma that was comprising in her body against me.

In a sorrowful face, I replied,"I have remembered my mistake. But that is for your own good only, swara!" She was in no mood to even listen to me & yelled,"That is a lie, sanskar! And telling the truth & making me cry is better than telling a lie & making me smile as I rather prefer to hear a painful truth than a comforting lie.. And you know one thing sanskar! If you will tell a lie once, then all your truths become questionable.."

Now it was crossing beyond my tolerance level. How could she even doubt my credibility for that one lie which I had told to her for her own felicity. I couldn't control my rage & shouted,"Swara! Some things are easier said than done! If I have told you the truth that time, then will you accept it? I guess,'No'. As today also you have accepted the fact due to the reports of blood sample..."

Oops! In anger I had unveiled the fact which I didn't suppose to tell. And as expected, she caught my sayings & asked in curious eyes,"How do you know about the blood samples, Sanskar?" Oh gosh! I had to cover it up with another lie as I couldn't reveal about laksh in these circumstances.

Quickly I replied," I know because the guy who has dropped you here when you have fainted in the hospital, has told me about all the happenings as I have asked him about all the incidents." This time she only nodded to my saying which was unexpected for me. Girls! The most unpredictable creature!

Breaking the silence, I said,"Anger doesn't solve anything. It builds nothing but it can destroy everything. Whatever your mom has done with you, that is for your own security only. I am not justifying her lie but she doesn't want you to hate her. She has given you an respectable life which people crave for. And remember one thing swara! Forgive people in your life, even those who aren't sorry for their actions as holding on to anger only hurts you, not them...." By saying so, I left her room as I didn't want to face her further as I was also sad due to her behaviour.

Swara's POV:
Genuinely I had hurt him beyond expectation. Once I had already doubted him for his father's assassination and now I had repeated the same mistake. I again doubted him. He was absolutely right. I wouldn't trust him without proofs even if he had admitted the fact earlier.

And yes! Honestly, saying was easier than doing. In that situation, how could he even justify this fact that Annapurna was my real mom. I felt frustrated for my own actions. I didn't have much relations to lose but due to my own actions, I was losing the very relevant relationship in my life, who was none other than Sanskar.

I had behaved rashly with him & he must had pissed off with me due to this. I wanted to apologize him but by thinking about this angry face I stopped. I was also unsure about confronting him. What would I tell him? & what apology would I ask to him for repeating the same mistake again and again?? All these thoughts ceased me to move towards his room.

The whole day was passed in utter silence in between us. Neither of us talked with each other. When the darkness was prevailing, I just wanted to pass out. I was born to face the hatred. Sometimes my near & dear ones pushed me towards the hell of hatred but today I hated myself due to my intolerable attitude with sanskar.

I couldn't bear this silence in between us & also every minute my mom's betrayal was agitating me. I wanted to indulge in alcohol. So, I didn't need to bear this pain anymore. However I couldn't drink in front of him as because of him only I left drinking. If he would again hate me for my drinking, then I couldn't bear the pain as I was deeply in love with him.. Ya! Undoubtedly I was feeling a strong attractive pull towards him. I decided to go to the pub & to pass out there only. So that sanskar would never come to know about it.

Sanskar's POV:
For the first time, we both were behaving like strangers even after staying in the same house. The whole day I didn't talk with her as still I was doubtful about my convincing to her. If she had understood me properly or not, I didn't know. While I was thinking about all these things, I heard some noise coming from her room.

I opened my room door & rushed towards her room. Her room was a total mess. However she was looking mesmerizing. Her spellbound beauty was captivating me like someone had spelled some magical chants on me so that I couldn't move an inch & was staring her intensely. She was wearing a party dress & honestly if looks would start killing people then surely I was going to die today.

Breaking my gaze, she told in a soft tone,"I am going to a party. You don't wait for my arrival & sleep early." I wanted to stop her & honestly I didn't know why & where she was going. But her health condition was also not good. So, finally I asked,"Is it important to attend the party?" She turned her face towards me & asked,"Are you preventing me from going to a party?"

I was speechless. I didn't know; what would I tell her now? I was genuinely worried for her health but if she would compare my care with sympathy then I couldn't bear it again. So, indifferently I told,"No! No! You can go.." She again reminded me to sleep early & didn't wait for her. But I couldn't let her go alone to the party. What if she would faint again due to stress! I would definitely accompany with her but not openly rather secretively to take care of her..


Credit to: Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Unexpected Blasts) Episode 19 Season 2

Laksh's POV:
After ages, swara had called to meet me in the hospital. One month had already passed and we all were busy in our own worlds. However friendship was meeting up, even when we were really busy.. Genuine enough! Now swara was implementing the real definition of friendship. But she hadn't come alone rather she had brought an accident victim with her.

As soon as I saw the patient's face, quickly I had recognized her as shomi suryavansi, one of the target of my buddy sanskar about whom I was searching information in this hospital. Though I didn't know the case history of shomi suryavansi, still I was worried for her because of swara. As swara wanted to save her at any cost & swara wasn't a mere friend rather a world to my buddy, sanskar. And I could do anything for him.

The operation was successful but we needed more blood bottles for her safety & full recovery. When I informed swara about this outcome, she was adamant to donate blood. However what shocked me was her behaviour & surety of matching the blood groups of her with the patient. And then came the more shocking twist that the patient was her mother. Now things were clear to me as why sanskar wanted to know more about shomi suryavansi.

However I had to follow the hospital procedure for blood transfusion. After so much persuasion, finally swara had agreed to my sayings. But the report of blood samples out brought a very weird feeling to me. It was a kind of shocking news. It was difficult to digest but god would give her strength. And the full impact of this report would certainly hit her like creating a havoc in the mid sea during the storm surge of tsunami.

I accompanied her until we reached room no.307 and left her there to sort out the confusions, she possessed. After that I was busy in the hospital duties but my mind was agitated with mixture of emotions. A few minutes had already passed in chaos & uncertainty. Just then a nurse gave me the news of her collapsing on the floor.

I rushed to her & checked her immediately. Because of superincumbent stress, she had fainted. She needed rest. But for that she had to reach home safely. My mind was jammed. I was unable to detect my next move. I didn't have ragini's number and even sanskar's old number was out of my reach. And even if sanskar was carrying any new phone number still I wasn't aware about that number. My last resort was swara's landline number but that number was constantly giving engage tone.

Now I had only one option left with me to drop her at her place. I didn't want this as I didn't wish to expose sanskar to dark world again as might be my every move was scrutinised by captain as after one month also he wasn't ready to accept sanskar's death as his dead body wasn't found by the cops unlike Alex & Martin.

But I couldn't take any chance when the matter was on swara's health. I ordered nurses to shift her to my car and we both were going towards her house. Diverse emotions & variety of sensations were floating in my mind like the boats floated on the undulating sea waves. After a month, I was going to meet sanskar today. How would he react after seeing me? And what would be his condition after viewing swara in this state? Oh god! Why it was so difficult to face reality??

In our gang, someone had correctly said,"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts and you are the slave to your emotions." But I didn't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I wanted to use them, to enjoy them & to dominate them. So, I controlled all my undulating emotions & prepared myself to meet my buddy after a long dreadful month.

While all these things were going on in my mind, I reached near her place. Swara was still lying in the backseat of my car. I came out of my car & checked the outside door of her home. It was closed from inside. It meant sanskar was present inside & I was going to meet him now. I knocked the door bell & waited for his opening of the door.

Sanskar's POV:
I reached home long back. Till now swara hadn't returned home. I called her from the landline number to give her a confirmation about my arrival at home. This time also she didn't respond the call. I didn't call her further as she had gone to meet her family members after a month. So, I didn't want to disturb her but honestly I was missing her presence badly.

In the mean while the door bell was knocked. Swara had come, I thought. How would she react after viewing my gift? Would she like it? I was excited to see her reaction. Seriously after ages I was behaving like a human & that to like a creepy lover. I picked up the photo frame to give her quickly as after that might be I couldn't gather courage to do so.

However to my utter surprise, laksh was standing in front of the door. As soon as I saw him, a fear of exposure to the crime world was striking in my mind. Else how could laksh know about this location? Unknowingly the photo frame fell down on the floor & it was broken into pieces, just like my emotions were now cracked into many pieces.

My legs were shaking, my arms were numb, my knees were aching & my head was hung. I felt scared, scared to go back to that dark world, scared to leave her alone... Suddenly I asked,"Laksh! You are here! Does captain know about this location?" Laksh assured me that everything was OK & nothing wrong had happened related to dark world.

I felt relieved & in an apologetic tone told,"Sorry buddy! I don't have your number after my old phone has misplaced. So, I can't contact you to tell about my alive news. But how do you know about this location? & why do you come here? Thank god! Swara isn't present at home now else she must have recognized you today."

However unlike my expectation, laksh wasn't at all worried after listening about swara & also not even surprised to see me alive. In a low voice, he said," Sanskar! I know everything. I will explain you later. But swara isn't well......." Cutting his words, I snapped back,"Have you met swara today? And what do you mean by her unwell news.."

Earlier she wasn't responding to my call & now she wasn't well.. Oh god! Why these issues were happening with me?? In a consoling tone, laksh said,"She has fainted in the hospital & I have brought her here.." I felt like today was a surprising day for me. I purchased gift to surprise her but breaking all my hopes, god was giving me shocks by opening lots of twists in one day.

Suddenly I asked laksh,"Hospital..... Why has she gone there? Has she developed cramps & swells again? & where is she laksh? You have said that you have brought her here. But I can't find her." Laksh immediately indicated towards the car & rushed there to find swara was lying inside the backseat of the car. I picked her feathery body in my sturdy arms & rushed towards her room & placed her carefully on the bed.

In a much worried tone, I asked laksh,"Is she OK? How has this happened?" Laksh indicated me to maintain silence & took me out of her room & closed her room door from outside & narrated all the incidents from the beginning. Oh gosh! It meant you were her doctoral friend, who saved my life. I thanked him for his all time assistance.

He hugged me tightly & said,"Sanskar! You have always saved my life and by saying thanks you are insulting our friendship. I am happy for you as finally you can lead your life happily with her..." Breaking the hug, I replied,"It isn't so easy buddy! She has already come across the biggest truth of her life. She is so stressed that she has fainted. She must be going through an emotional turmoil. May be she has also discovered about my lie from shomi suryavansi. And from your talks I can surely predict that one day certainly captain will come to know about me. Once she will be perfectly adapted to handle her emotional past, I will leave her for her safety."

In a very stressful voice, laksh said,"It isn't that easy buddy! She is facing the first stage of alcoholic neuropathy & this can affect her motherhood as well. Sexual dysfunctions are common in this stage. If proper longterm meditation won't be followed, then she mayn't able to conceive in future. And in this effusive state, she will definitely need someone to care for her. I hope you are getting my point."

Blast! Boom! Another unexpected event which I had perceived now! She was facing a chronic fatigue & I couldn't even leave her in this state. Suddenly something struck in my mind & I asked him,"Laksh! Have you crosschecked about shomi suryavansi, the lady whom you have saved today?" He nodded & asked,"Sanskar! Can you please tell the detail case history of shomi suryavansi? So that, it will be helpful for me to understand the case properly. I am so confused today. Swara is claiming her as mother but the blood reports don't match."

He had already aware about the half truth. So, it didn't make any sense to hide the remaining truth from him. And mom had always told,"The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it." Might be after sharing with him, I could feel better & after all he was laksh who stood by me in my every thick & thin of life. So, it wasn't a big deal to open up in front of him. I narrated him all the awful events of my life related to shomi suryavansi & his facial expression exhibited the level of his franticness.

After hearing the incidents peacefully, Laksh asked,"Sanskar! Then who is the real child of Shomi Suryavansi? I mean to whom has she given birth?" In an irritating tone, I replied,"Why are you asking about the child when I have already told you about the death of that unborn child!!!" In an assuring tone, laksh replied,"Undoubtedly you have got the wrong information sanskar! Shomi has given birth to a child & as per her medical report, that child has born alive that time.."

What!! Shomi had given birth to an alive child.. My voice faltered to a stop. Agony & confusion clutched at my throat like some terrible beast & suddenly I was finding it difficult to breathe. Holding him tightly, I yelled,"She has lied to me laksh! She has again made me fool. That bitch could never change. How could she say the death of her own child?

Consoling me, laksh replied in a pacifying tone,"Calm down sanskar! May be your judgement regarding shomi is correct but a mother can never think bad about her child even in dreams as well and here she is spreading the death news of her alive born baby.. Truth has many sides, sanskar! May be she is also ignorant about her own child. Before reaching to any conclusion, we need to find out the whole truth.."

I was boiling in antipathy. A pure aversion against shomi was assembling in my mind but I suppressed this burning anguish as laksh's sayings made some sense. I pled laksh to help me to find out the details about this matter. He happily agreed to it. Just then I heard the coughing sound of swara.

In all the chaos, I had already forgotten regarding the place of our discussion. I instructed laksh to leave this place before her awaking else she might doubt about his connection with me. Before leaving the place, laksh exchanged his mobile number with me & quickly drove off.


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook ( At The Receiving End) Episode 18 Season 2

Swara's POV:
As much as I wanted to plan my life, it had a way of surprising me with unexpected things that would make me sadder than I originally planned. Was not it an irony of my fate? I was preparing to face my real mother after giving my blood samples to laksh for checking purpose. But what result I had got of the blood samples, changed my life upside down. Just like a brewing tornado it came & passed but all my emotions were uprooted like twisted webs of spider.

How could the result even come as negative? She was my mother then why didn't the samples match? Even before I could think much and ask laksh more about it, the ward boy came & said,"Sir! The patient in room no 307 has gained consciousness & wanted to meet her saviour." Laksh nodded & the ward boy left the place.

Laksh said,"Swara! Come, let's go to meet her." In a confusing tone, I asked,"Laksh! Have you checked the samples properly? I mean how can this be possible?" Like me, laksh was also confused & frustrated as this was the fifth time I was asking him the same queries. In a bit angry tone, he replied,"I have checked the samples in front of you, swara! And how can I know; why the samples don't match?? Why don't you directly ask the patient?? She also wants to meet you now." Like a flummoxed soul, I agreed with him & proceeded to face the real challenge of my life.

I entered inside the room no. 307 and laksh waited outside to give us some privacy. As soon as I entered, shomi was staring at me like she had seen ghost in front of her. With much agony & anticipation, I yelled,"Sound sleep na mother!! Oh sorry! Sorry! Mother or a betrayer..." Now I was burning like the volcanic magma which could engulf everything with its ionization capability. She was gazing at me intently without uttering a single word.

In fury, I clamored,"What shall I call you shomi suryavansi? Oops! My fault! The lady who hasn't tried to search for her daughter in all these years, why the hell will she be bothered about my calling of her name? Huh! I am expecting a lot na.. But mother; where is your multi billionaire husband with whom you have eloped? So sad na! He hasn't even come to visit you once.... Oh! Swara .. Again your fault! May be he isn't at all aware about her condition. Not to worry mother! Give me his number & I will inform him.."

Though in a chuckling voice I uttered, but my burning anguish was compiling after viewing her silence. I banged the table and yelled,"Speak up you bloody woman.." Dramatic irony! She was sobbing! And with lots of pain & in a low voice, she said,"I don't have my husband.. He......"

Before she could say further, I snapped back,"Oh! He has also left you the way you have left me. Poor mother! Have you heard the word 'Punishment'.. I guess, 'Yes'. So, do good and good will come to you. But you has done wrong. Anyways for you, do bad & worst will come to you..."

I was a bit relieved as she wasn't enjoying her life lavishly. God had already punished her for her mistakes. But surprising me, she said,"Swara! I have suffered a lot in my life for my only mistake. I have loved a wrong guy.." When I heard my name from her mouth for the first time, I was in fury & yelled,"Don't utter my name from your insane mouth. It is my hospitality that I am not behaving evilly with you. And not one mistake mother! Your memory has faded with your old age. Minimum two mistakes.. The mistake of leaving your infant child.. What's my mistake if God has conceived you & implanted me in your womb. I have no control to it, right. Then why me?? Why??" & by saying so I struck the table again.

This time, she said in a bit louder voice,"Enough swara! Enough! I have never left you as you aren't my daughter & I am not insane but these situations have reflected me such.." What! What I had just heard.. I wasn't her daughter. Was that the cause of the mismatch of blood samples??

In a confusing state, I said,"Huh! At least have some guts to accept me as your daughter. I have never expected of your motherly care. But show some courage to accept your misdeed.." I bravely uttered all these statements to know the exact truth & to eradicate my confusion.

In an ensuring voice, she said,"Trust me swara! I am also a victim in the hands of destiny just like you." I sniggered & said,"Trust! And that to a woman like you.. Ha! Ha! Trust gets smaller with every mistake and you have done a blunder. Still as my mom says,'Every culprit must get a chance to prove her innocence & honesty.' So, go ahead.. I am listening.."

Just after that she narrated to me all the incidents happened with her & before concluding her sayings, she said,"If you don't believe me then go & ask your mom about it and I am not feeling sorry for telling you the truth because I believe, you deserve to know it by now." I was stressed and unable to handle all the truths at a time.

Till now I was living in an illusion. My mom, Annapurna Suryavansi was my real mom. I loved her from the core of my heart but she had broken my trust. Now I got the cause of my mismatch of blood samples as she wasn't my real mother rather my foster mother was the real one.

Now I understood the cause of hatred of shekhar suryavansi for me. Who would shower his affection to an illegitimate child of her wife? He was absolutely correct at his own place. And Ram Prasad Bijlani.... Somewhere I heard this name but where?? I focused in my memory lane & suddenly remembered him as sanskar's father. It meant shomi was the lady with whom sanskar's dad had extramarital affair. But he could be any other man as well. Might be this Ram Prasad wasn't the same person though situations were similar.

To confirm my doubt, I asked,"Who is Ram Prasad Bijlani? I mean you have said that he is in a relationship with you despite being married. Just for conformation, can you please tell me about his offsprings?" Shomi nodded & replied,"Yes! He has a son named as sanskar." What!! S..A..NS..KARRRR....

Looking at my surprised appearance & fumbled voice, she asked,"Are you alright?" I reacted positively & asked,"As you have already said that his wife has known about you and this affair but does sanskar know about you?" I already knew that this time the reply would come negative as sanskar had himself told that he didn't know the lady with whom his father had extramarital affair.

But breaking my hopes, shomi replied,"Yes! Before some days he has confronted me & he has known this truth & felt sorry for my condition." Now this was something for which I was totally unprepared.

Every life was complicated, every mind was a kingdom of unmapped mysteries and like always I was at the receiving end. Breaking my thoughts, the door was opened & the nurse instructed me to move out of the room as the patient needed rest now & the saline bottle needed to be changed. I complied & moved out of the room.

Life had pounded me down & thrashed me around. Time and time again, but I always got right back up because I still loved life. But not anymore. I couldn't handle this betrayal. The lady whom I had been hating since my childhood was at no fault & my closed ones betrayed me. My mind was jammed & my vision became blur. My head was aching & I couldn't walk properly & collapsed on the floor. Everything was blacked out, just like the center of supermassive black hole....


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Perplexing Situations) Episode 17 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
One month of my dwelling in swara's house was completed today. Due to her resilient attention & upkeep, I was completely recovered from my injury. My life changed that day when I moved beyond just wishing for things & I started earning them. That was the deadly night I learned that we didn't get what we wished for, we got what we worked for. And she worked a lot for me. Now it was my turn to give her a token of surprise gift.

Just then she came to my room to enquiry about my outgoing. She was going to meet her near & dear ones. I felt bad as due to me only she had neglected her prime relationships. She offered me to drop near the bank & I accepted.

Earlier I thought her as courageous girl but today she proved her cunningness to me. Skillfully she was able to grasp the key of the car from my hand. Though out the journey to bank, I felt pity on my condition as today I was behaving like a teenage lover.

Over the top I was spending humanly life with her, just like my mom had once wished for my future life. Once my mom had said," The lifetime of a human being is measured by decades unlike the lifetime of the sun, which is a hundred million times longer. Compared to star, we are like mayflies, fleeting ephemeral creatures who live out their lives in the course of a single day.." Genuine enough! & today I was following the same principle. I was enjoying my each day with her like the last day of my life.

As soon as we reached near the bank, she had met her friends. It hurt me like all my energies were draining when she told that I was just a mere friend of her & nothing more than that. Like seriously! Did she mean that? I was only a mere friend. I didn't mean anything to her more than that friendship. It meant I was equivalent with all her friends & I didn't obtain a special position in her heart.

My heart was breaking like pieces of thrown pebbles found in trash position near the river bank. Without making any eye contact with her, I went inside the bank. I didn't want to confront her with my teary eyes. However suddenly I cursed myself for my selfishness.

It was good that I didn't matter to her more than a friend. So, I could leave her soon as I was completely fine now. It would be for her good only if she allowed me to go as darkness could never harm her in future. I tried to smile for her secure life but unfortunately I couldn't smile properly. Somewhere deep inside my heart, a secret suffering of leaving her was killing me into pieces.

I had many fake passports and IDs of my name in the bank & for a slayer, it wasn't a big thing to do. I transferred all the amounts to my authentic original ID & closed all the fake IDs. Those IDs which were known to captain, I didn't even touch them. For the dark world, their best slayer has already died. And also I didn't want a penny amount from my insane & illegal killing assignments.

I wanted to earn money with dignity & fidelity just like my mom wanted. After all the works were done in the bank, I sat on the bench kept inside the hall of the bank & thought what gift I should purchase for her.

She was a billionaire girl & nothing was out of her reach. And selection of gift wasn't a cup of tea for me. I never gifted anything to anybody. This was my first attempt & that to for the girl, whom I loved a lot. No.. No.. Who was my world to me. After so much imagining, I concluded to give her a photo frame, with attached photo of mine; so that after my leaving from her place, she could at least treasure my memory.

I thought, this would be the best gift to maintain our connection till eternity. I came out of the bank & purchased the gift & now I was proceeding towards home. Yes home!! Life took me to many unexpected places but love brought me to home. It was that place where our story had begun.

I called swara to tell her about my completion of work & my going to home but she wasn't picking up the call. Might be she was busy with her family, I thought & hired a taxi to go to my living place.

Swara's POV:
What an unexpected meet! I wanted to meet her. But obviously not in this state. She was lying in the middle of the road with pool of bloodstains in an unconscious state. I couldn't let her die & I had my own causes for that.

I wanted to ask her about my fault for leaving me in an infant stage. Why did I feel dejected in my childhood? Had she even thought about me ever in her life? What if my foster mom, Annapurna Suryavansi hadn't adopted me; then might be now my position would be no less than a beggar in the street.

I shouted with all my strength,"Shomi..... You can't die like this. You have to get back your life to payback me.." I was a furious & daredevil swara suryavansi now. My good side was gone to hell & evil side was overshadowing it.

I gained much public attention due to my improper behaviour. I tried to pacify my tone & asked the crowd to help this lady to regain her life & because of their support, now I was moving to the hospital along with her. She was lying inside the backseat of my car.

As soon as I reached to the hospital, I found laksh was standing near the door & waiting for my arrival. When he saw my bloodstained clothes, in a worried voice, he asked,"Are you alright, swara? Have you faced an accident?" In a crimson face with burning incarnation, I yelled,"I am fine laksh. I want this lady to regain her consciousness."

By saying so, I opened the back side door of my car & took shomi out of it. As soon as laksh saw her face, in a surprising tone he asked,"She!!!.... (Pause) where have you got her?" I shouted,"Laksh! Don't waste your timing in asking mere questions. While I am coming to the hospital, I have found her lying in the road in this state. Perhaps she has faced an accident. Now please save her.." He nodded & ordered the ward boy to shift her to the operation theater.

Laksh contacted other doctors & he along with other doctors went inside the operation theater to perform her surgery. I was waiting outside it. Lots of unanswered questions were popping up inside my mind. I couldn't sit properly on one seat and roamed near the operation theater.

Two hours passed like this with so much uncertainty. Just then red light of the operation theater was switched off & laksh came outside. I hurriedly rushed towards him & asked,"What is the progress, laksh?" He indicated a sign of relief & said,"Ya! Operation is successful but there is one problem. However it is a mere problem & has sorted out already."

I asked shockingly,"What is the matter laksh? Is she safe and out of danger?" Pacifying me laksh replied,"Calm down swara! She is safe. It is just that she is having a very rare blood group. And in our blood bank, only one bottle blood of that group is available. But she actually needs minimum 3 bottles of blood as she has lost ample quantity of blood. But nothing to worry! As we have already ordered another bottles of bloods from our main blood bank & luckily this blood group bottle is available in the central blood bank. We have already given her one bottle of blood & another two bottles we will give to her once it will reach to the hospital."

Cutting his words, I replied in an urgency tone,"No need to wait for the arrival of the blood bottles. You can take my blood.." Laksh asked in a stunning tone,"Do you know the patient's blood group?" I nodded negatively & quickly laksh asked,"Then how can you give her blood? As I have already told you about her rare blood group. Still if you want to donate blood, then come with me; I have to check your blood group, swara!"

This time in rage I said,"No need of that laksh! I know my blood group will surly match. So, you can directly take my blood." Again in a surprising tone, he asked,"How can you give such guaranty, swara? Do you know the patient?" Suddenly words came out of my mouth as,"Yes laksh! I know her. She is my mother."

As expected, laksh is undoubtedly shocked with my outbursting of truth but as it was hospital, he calmly convinced me,"Swara! I can't take your blood without checking. If you want to donate blood then I have to examine your blood group otherwise I may face problems during transfusion. Hope you will understand."

Without further arguments, I agreed with laksh as he had to follow the medical instructions and as a medical student, it was my duty to cooperate with him.


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Vicissitudes Of Life) Episode 16 Season 2

Swara's POV:
Yesterday night was the best sunset for me. No longer I felt alone. His protective cover was behaving like a cocoon for me. Now a days, sanskar was much more expressive than the earlier days. He could easily communicate with me. His wounds were almost recovered. It was like a fairy tale that I had spent one month with a slayer.

But in these tenures, we had broken down together & also tried to stand up collectively. There was no more solitude in my life. He was always there by my side. However where a new relation was brewing up, some erstwhile relations were ignored by me. I hadn't contacted my mom in these days. Not even I had any connection with Ragini & Laksh.

In all these days, my concentration was only upon sanskar. But as he had recovered amply, so, I thought to visit my mom & laksh today. My mom must had been waiting for me as I had told her about my busy schedule & once completion of this hectic life, I would surely meet her. But all chaos happened in these days that I couldn't even find time to talk with her.

I rushed to sanskar's room to tell him about my planning & to reminisce him of his medicines & diet plan. As soon as I reached to his room, I saw him fully dressed with decent clothes like he was about to go somewhere. I asked in a grinning tone,"wow sanskar! You aren't looking like a slayer rather you are looking very handsome. By the way why are you dressed properly? Are you going somewhere?"

While adjusting his shirt's collar, he replied,"Thanks for the complement. However there was a mask beneath this face as a slayer but that wasn't the real me. I am no more that face than I am the muscles beneath it or the bones beneath that.." Quickly I responded,"I don't mean that sanskar. I know that you are no more a slayer & true beauty is about who you are as a human being, your principles and your moral compass.."

He smiled in a way to give acceptance to my sayings & asked,"Why are you here now inside my room? Do you want anything?" I gave him a deadly look & asked,"Can't I come to your room casually?" He suddenly replied,"No.. No.. I don't mean that." I couldn't show my fake anger anymore & gigglingly said,"I am just kidding. I am going to meet my friend & family. But you haven't replied to my question. Are you going somewhere? If so, then I can drop you."

He thankfully replied,"Ya! I have some work in the bank. If you are ready, then we can proceed.." I complied & we both went towards my car. As soon as we reached near the car, sanskar snatched the keys from my hand to drive the car. I couldn't allow him to drive as still he hadn't fully regained his strength.

I argued with him to drive the car. But as if he had ever cared to listen to my sayings! However the old, spoiled & daredevil swara suryavansi was somewhere intact with my soul. I exactly knew how to blackmail him. I made a sorrowful & pout face to divert his attention & in the meanwhile I cunningly took the keys from his hands & sat on the driver seat. Sanskar in an angry mood asked,"Swara! Why don't you agree with me ever in your life?" While opening the front door of the car for him, I replied,"As if you have ever agreed to my sayings. Tit for tat, sanskar. I hope you get it..." & I smiled continuously.

He was just staring at me intensely which made me shy. He was sitting besides me on the front seat and this mere feeling was making me ecstatic. Though out the journey, none spoke a word & complete quietness prevailed inside the car. We reached near the bank. Just then I came out of the car to wave him good bye, I met some of my friends there accidentally.

I hugged all of them casually. One of my friends asked,"Now a days you are totally vanished from our sight. Half of the vacation is over still you don't hangout with us. What's the matter behind it dear?" I was approaching to give her the answer, suddenly another friend yelled in a mocking tone,"Guys! Our SS is having a boyfriend. Come on guys! How can she even spare her times with us in this vacation?" I couldn't understand the meaning of their nonsense talks. Just then I found them watching towards sanskar & gossiping about our relationship.

Now the situation was clear to me & I quickly replied,"No.. No.. You guys are mistaken. There is nothing such relation between us.. He is a friend only." Again one of them yelled,"Oh! Come on swara! Don't lie at least in front of your friends. We can surely understand this friendly relationship. However the way he is gazing at you doesn't look like that..." & all of them started grinning.

I was speechless. Sanskar was staring at me. It meant he must had heard all our conversations by sitting inside the car. Because of these guys, he must had felt uncomfortable. I needed to make him understand about the situation. Breaking my thoughts, again one of my friends asked,"Swara! In the entire vacation, you even don't call us once & now you are roaming with this guy... Then what's your relationship with him?" I stammered,"Re..la..tion..ship....." Just then one of them patted my shoulder & I said,"He is just a friend & nothing more than that & yes! I am busy with my project so, I can't contact you guys.. However I will catch up all of you soon..." By saying so, I waved them good bye & they left. After viewing them leaving, sanskar also came out of the car & bid me bye & went inside the bank.

Again I started my car & proceeded towards my home to meet my mom. While travelling, the gossips of my friends were buzzing inside my eardrums. Honestly I never thought about the definition of my relationship with sanskar. What was this relationship to be called? He cared for me. He would never leave me alone. The solitude of my life was vanished due to him. We stayed together. He pampered me & I loved him. Love!! Only four letters word but took years to understand that feelings. Was I sure about it?

When I broke down due to my family chaos, my mom often said to me,"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you will find someone who can completely turn your world around. You can tell him things that you’ve never shared with another soul and he will absorb everything you say and actually wants to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments, life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell him about it, knowing he will surely share in your excitement. He isn't at all embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make fool of yourself. Never do he will hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather he will build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when he will be around you. You can be yourself and not worry about what he will think of you because he will love you for who you are."

Oh gosh! My relationship with Sanskar was exactly like the way my mom had narrated. It meant, I was in love. Yes! Undoubtedly I was in love. But what was about Sanskar? Did he love me? I guessed,'YES' but he never told me, like I never accepted my feelings about him. Sometimes it was better to leave the matter to the hands of time & it would settle it.

I had covered all the way to home while I was indulged in these thoughts. I parked my car in front of my house & happily went inside while calling out my mom. Just then our caretaker, Maria came outside & after seeing me said,"Are swara! You are here! Like after ages I am seeing you. Where are you all these days?"

I smiled & replied,"Hey Maria aunty! Actually I am busy in my college stuffs. But where is mom? She isn't at all visible inside the house.." Maria replied,"Madam has actually gone to attend Durga Prasad Maheswari's party along with Sir. Both of them will return at night after taking the dinner there." I murmured,"Oh shit! I have come at a wrong time."

Just then Maria said,"Swara, you take rest in your room. I am sending some refreshments there." Cutting her words, I asked,"Aunty! Durga Prasad Maheswari is dad's biggest rival na.. Then why have they both gone to attend the party?" Maria replied negatively to my question as she didn't know the answer. I said,"OK aunty! Now I am leaving. I am in a hurry." She replied,"OK swara! I will inform Madam about your arrival.." Cutting her words, I said,"No aunty! Don't tell mom about my coming. I will again come to surprise her. I want to capture her smiling face in my memory lane after seeing me after a long gap." I came out of the house to meet laksh in the hospital & to convey him all the developments about the health of Sanskar and to get appropriate medical advise from him.

I started my car to reach to the hospital & in the mean while I had called Laksh. As soon as he picked up, I said,"Laksh! I am coming to meet you in 20 minutes. Be present in the hospital." From the other side he replied," Wow Swara! After one month you are remembering me.. Is everything OK? And how is sanskar? Is he recovered? Is he still staying with you?"

Cutting his words, I said,"Oh laksh! How many questions will you put forward at one go? Ya everything is fine & he is still staying with me. Now I am driving. I will tell you everything in details after reaching at hospital." He nodded & I disconnected the call.

As soon as I kept the phone on the dashboard, I saw some crowd gatherings in the main road. I halted my car as I couldn't move further. I came out of the car & asked a passerby about the matter that led to happen such massive gatherings. As fas as I had enquired, he said about the accident of a lady that caused this congregation. As a medical student, I couldn't leave a victim on the spot to die. So, I entered in the crowd to help her. But after seeing her face, I froze on the spot. The ground beneath me was no longer stable rather it was undulating & unknowingly I yelled,"Shomi......"


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (True Love) Episode 15 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
It was raining cats & dogs outside. Swara leaned her head on my shoulder by holding my hands tightly. She was no longer sobbing. I gazed her sleepy eyes & said,"Swara! You need rest. Go & sleep in your room.." However after listening to me, she gripped my hands more rigidly. I thought that might be she was worried for me so she wasn't interested to leave me.

I said in a confident tone,"I am fine. Look you have already made the stitches. Don't worry about me. Now go & sleep. Otherwise you will fall ill." Without moving an inch, she replied,"Don't push out me from yourself. Am I a burden to you, sanskar? Please answer me na! Why has everybody neglected me? Am I that spoiled creature whose responsibility none is interested to take care of?" & by saying so, she covered her face inside my palms.

I was worried for her condition now. She was going through an emotional chaos & by looking at her sensitive condition, I said in a consoling tone,"No swara! The hard times that you go through to build your character, have made you a much stronger person. You are a gem & your relationship with me is my treasure. I am right here with you & I am not pushing you away from me."

I grabbed her more tightly to give her solace & promised myself that no matter whatever might be the situation, I wouldn't leave her now. This life was only belonged to her, to take care of her. She had shown a shining path to this slayer, now it was my responsibility to nurture her.

To divert her mind, I said,"Swara! Are you taking your medicines properly?" Quickly she took out her face from my palms & in a surprising look asked,"Sanskar! How do you know about my disease? & yes! Always I have forgotten to ask you regarding my survival in that dark cellular jail.. I mean how can you know about my disease & my medicines?"

I just smiled & said,"Swara! Don't forget, I am a slayer & that time you are my target. While I am stalking you, you must have remembered one day I have dropped you in this place as you are heavily drunken. That day I have collected those information about your health.."

She breathed a sign of relief & said,"Oh! Now I get you. No doubt you are a perfect slayer and a stalker as well.." By saying so, she grinned funnily. I was overwhelmed with her dazzling smile. At least I could make her smile. I could die thousand births to make her happy.. Just after a few minutes, she stopped smiling & said,"Sanskar! Do you know why I prefer to stay here?"

I looked at her shockingly & nodded negatively. She said in a depressing tone,"This place is away from the crowding. The everlasting summer fills my heart with laughter like a blooming flower. The diverse sounds of birds, nature's symphony, sprinkle delight & comfort of ocean breeze need no attest & this uniqueness of nature revives my soul & its melodious cool breeze comforts my stress level. Apart from that I want to give privacy to my patents. Though shekhar suryavansi doesn't love me, still he loves my mom a lot & my presence in my real home only brings dispute & arguments. So, I prefer this place to stay away from all the hassling situations."

I was just stunned after hearing from her. I was unable to express my feelings. I thought,"How can a person be so selfless & so pure? She is caring for that person, who has never accepted her as his daughter..." My unspoken words & ardent emotions were prevailing inside the room. A few minutes silence were passed in between us.

Just then the brewing lightning & chilling thunder sparkled & suddenly she grasped me tightly in fear. In a hesitating tone, I said,"If you want, we can share the bed. Don't take me wrong as you are sleepy & also terrified by the thunderstorm, so, I just want to help you to get rid of sleepless nights.." She just uttered a single sentence,"I trust you more than myself..." By saying so, she slept by my side.

I tried to avoid my gaze from her so as to not make her uncomfortable. A few minutes passed with complete silence. I didn't know how to start a conversation with her again. I just murmured a song to divert her concentration towards me.

'Just a smile & the rain is gone
Can hardly believe it
There's an angel standing next to me
Reaching for my heart.'

Even if I was singing the song to get her attention, but somewhere in my thoughts, her dazzling smile, radiant face, expressive eyes & lustrous lips were agitating & diverting my gaze towards her. I turned to look at her & in the mean while she had already gone to the lap of sleeping goddess. Her face was glowing & shining like an angel. I felt like touching it but I forbid my urges as I didn't want to touch her without her consent.

'I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Every time I breath I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love & walk right through
As I lay my love on you.'

I looked at her intensely as whatever I was now, it was all because of her. This change was for my good only. I felt anew like I had taken birth again. It wasn't at all easy to break my hazy heart but she slipped under my skin, invaded my blood & seized my heart.

I remembered my mom's saying, after she faced the betrayal of my father,'The sweetest love would never last forever, because it would end before the sweet is gone. And true love is never going to be sweetest love because true love would walk you through the fire & poison in life & I wish my son could find true love unlike the sweetest love I have got.' Now I could proudly convey my mom that,"I have found out true love, mom! I have passed herculean storms before getting her as my true love. She is the purest soul & her love is one of a kind.."

Though I had no contact with laksh after my accident, still I thanked him today as this journey had got its destination because of his support & persuasion. I wanted to contact him but I didn't have his number. Unknowingly swara was crawling on me & I extended my hands on her shoulder to give her protective cover & closed my eyes with many blissful thoughts.


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Acceptance) Episode 14 Season 2

Swara's POV:
While he was narrating the dreadful past of his life, I was just comparing the situations of my life with his circumstances.. We both were devoid of fatherly love. When I was unable to love my so called dad, then how would he love his dad who was a killer of his mother? His dad destroyed three innocent lives. That man loved his mother still was having an affair with another Lady. How shameful!! His dad not only destroyed a paradisal family but also ruined the dignity of a woman.

Though sanskar was a criminal but he was undoubtedly different from his dad.. My mind was just blank while thinking about the brutality & harshness man possessed behind the so called insane love! I kept numb & he was leaving me forever as he didn't want to be a burden on me.

As soon as I controlled my emotions, I found him nowhere. Oh god! What had I done?? I hurt him so badly that he was leaving me. No, he couldn't leave me like that. He couldn't make me a culpable in my own eyes. I rushed towards outside & he was going to open the gate. I embraced him from behind just to stop him from proceeding further. I pled him to stop there & luckily without any objection, he stopped there.

In a sorrowful tone, I pled," I am sorry sanskar for doubting you. You can punish me for my mistake but don't curse me by going from here." He was still standing in the same position and I embraced him tightly & said,"Darkness can't drive out darkness. Only light can do that. Hate can't drive out hate. Only love can do that. How can I hate you after knowing your sufferings? And anger is just an instant reaction before knowing the whole truth, sanskar! How can I loathe you even after knowing that you have felt antipathy through out your life. Every time you are dejected but not anymore! Hate can never molten your compiling obscurity, only love can do that... So, I don't hate you sanskar, in fact I ..........."

Oh gosh!! What was I going to tell him?? He quickly turned & in a choking tone replied,"Really you don't hate me, swara! You don't know how much relieved I am now.. There are always darkness in my life & there are no lights until you have come in my life. You are the light of all lights for me, swara! Nobody has ever tried to rectify me until you have shown your divine grace upon me.."

Thankfully he didn't notice my sayings properly and I leaned my head on his chest to give him solace. However, the truth was that I was getting the real bliss. All shadows of clouds the sun couldn't hide like the moon couldn't stop the oceanic tide; but a hidden star could still be smiling at night's black spell on darkness & beguiling its subduedness.
Likewise in whatever way I might try to subdue my emotions for him but deep inside the corner of my heart, a burning particle of desire was still alive for him which wanted to overthrew his darkness and to engulf him in the beam of radiant illuminations..

Breaking the hug, he said,"Thank you is a mere word in front of you. Whatever you have done with me, I can't repay it through out my life even if I will try. However I have to go now. My presence only leads to your destruction. You are a butterfly & I am a fire. If I will stay here then your life will be extinguished soon.." It meant he had made up his mind to leave me.

How could I stay without him? Why did I feel helpless like someone was taking away my soul from my human torso? Might be apart from him, nobody was there to share my pain, to care for me, to love me.. Wait! Was it love?? Was I deeply in love with him? Oh god! These feelings were so confusing.. But right now, I had to stop him. I couldn't let him go.

Suddenly I said,"Sanskar! Do you know one thing? If you save somebody's life, that life belongs to you. So, technically you belong to me & you aren't going anywhere..." I made a furious face as to exhibit the seriousness of my sayings.

Sanskar's POV:
Finally swara forgave me. But I couldn't afford to push her life into danger. My past would surely hunt me & before that I had to leave her for her safety. But what did she say just now? I belonged to him. Seriously! Did she mean it? Before sometimes I rejected this same thought & now she was giving acceptance to it. Breaking my thoughts, she said,"I know sanskar, you must be worried about your past.. But life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning how to dance in the rain.."

Intelligent girl!! No nicely she could portray my state of mind. Her each & every sayings touched my heart. I couldn't waste my life fearing about my past. I had to move on & might be my mom would be happy & forgive my earlier mistakes because of it. Suddenly from no where it started drizzling & i grabbed her hands to rush inside the room.

Due to running, two stitches were opened up & swara was hell worried after seeing this. In a concerning tone, she was yelling,"Sanskar! I am sorry. It is all because of me. If I haven't doubted on you, then you won't go outside & your stitches will be intact with your body. Oh god! I have to do the bandages again, it will take some more days for your recovery.." & by saying so, she started sobbing..

All I could say was,"Please don't cry swara! Your sadness is giving me more pain than these stitches...." She gave me injection & performed the bandages again. All I was doing was secretly taking glances of her & her concerns towards me. After this work was done, I just asked her casually,"Swara! Can you share your secrets with me?" Cutting my words, she said,"I don't have any secrets, sanskar! Now keep quiet & sleep. You need it..."

I nodded & said," Some old wounds never truly heal but by sharing it, at least your pain will be lessened." By saying so, I closed my eyes & just then i heard her voice,"At least you have seen your mom, sanskar. But I am that unfortunate fellow who hasn't seen her mom in reality. She has never loved me & left me due to the societal fear as when she has conceived me, she isn't married. And about my father, I am still ignorant. Shekar Suryavansi is the husband of my foster mom, Annapurna Suryavansi. He has never loved me like her daughter. He has always tortured me & my childhood has spent in a turmoil..."

She stopped suddenly & her eyes were filled with tears. For sometimes, I thought that my pain was nothing in front of her. This girl had never got parental love & was still living in mirage about her real mom. At least I was sure about my parental identity but swara! She even didn't know that..

However this wasn't the correct time to reveal about Shomi,so, I just wiped out her tears & said,"Truth has many sides, swara! What ever you have learnt about your real mother mayn't be the whole truth..." Cutting my words, in rage, she asked,"What do you want to tell sanskar? Whatever my grandfather has told about that lady shomi suryavansi is false. Do you want to say that? Or do you want to clear her image in front of me? She has left me sanskar. She has never tried to meet me once in my life. I have only seen her photograph. How can a women be so heartless sanskar that she won't come to meet me once. Has she even remembered about me? I guess "NO"...." & she cried like a baby.

I was already aware about the gravity of the situation & this situation wasn't at all in my favour for unveiling the truth. I consoled her & she clasped my hands tightly. Tears were coming before she could stop them, boiling hot then instantly freezing on her face... I didn't wipe them this time as what was the point in wiping them off? Or pretending when the heart could no longer handle the pain? So, I let them fall and its warmth was endorsing me....


Credit to: Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Behind The Mist) Episode 13 Season 2

Swara's POV:
Sanskar was too stubborn. He always neglected my commands. But today he crossed all the limits. In this situation also, he carried me to my room. It was barely 15 days & his wounds weren't recovered fully. However as if he ever listened to me!!

But he had seen the photoframe which i had found from his jacket. He wanted to know the cause behind keeping this photo frame in my room. I narrated the reason behind it & waited for his answer. But his answer made me awestruck. All my trust upon him was a mirage, I thought. Like a chameleon who had the dexterity to change its body colour likewise sanskar was also changing his colours depending upon the situation. However the basic fact couldn't be negated that he was a slayer like the way a chameleon could never be an admirable creature even if it had the colour changing ability, still it would always remain like a tiny mere reptile...

I distanced myself from him & he fell on the ground in a miserable condition. Though I cared for him, still an unknown hatred was compiling against him. My brain & heart were at loggerheads. My heart couldn't believe my hearing as what I had felt for him couldn't go wrong..

Suddenly I asked him,"How can you do that, sanskar? Don't you feel shame while killing your father? People like me are craving for father's love but you are the unfortunate one, who himself has extinguished his life..." At once, I saw change in his facial reactions. His jawbones were tightened. His eye colour was transforming to crimson red like I had awaken a sleeping lion. Now whom I was viewing was no longer sanskar, whom I saved rather an invincible, deadly & ruthless slayer was standing in front of me..

In an outrage, he yelled,"Don't be judgmental swara by knowing the half truth." This man could never change, I made up my mind & said,"Ah! So sanskar! Are you trying to give justification of your killing of your father? What ever justification you may give, sanskar but the truth can never be changed that you are a killer, a bloody murderer.. I am ashamed that I have trusted you... For you, I hate myself now sanskar...." I tried to remain strong but from inside I was ruining....

Sanskar's POV:
She hated me.. Over the top, she hated herself after trusting me.. She reminded me about my stature. I was sanskar maheswari, a bloody slayer.. Whatever I might do, but this past of mine would haunt me till eternity.. But could I bear her hatred for me now? Wait sanskar! Why were you exaggerating this outcome? Wasn't this an obvious reaction? I turned out to be a horrible person & I had no one to blame but myself..

For a few days, she cared for me that didn't mean she belonged to me. It was a reality check sanskar! And I had to accept it. From past 15 days, I was living in a mirage. I thought to leave my past and continue a decent lifestyle. But hope & every desire wouldn't be fulfilled always...

She had every right to bestow her anger upon me but for that she needed to know the truth. After knowing the truth, if she would still hate me, then it was absolutely fine for me as it was nothing new for me. In a heavy tone, I said,"Swara! Just listen to me once. After knowing the truth, if you will hate me then don't worry, I won't force you to trust me ever. And believe me, i won't be a burden on you anymore & you don't have to handle me everyday in front of you.. But please listen to me once..." I pled her & she agreed.

I started narrating my dreadful past & said,"My father Ram prasad bijlani & mother Sujata bijlani fell for each other during their teen age. As you must have known that good looks attract the eyes & personality attracts the heart. My father has an eye candy appearance & he has always provided mom with luxurious & expensive gifts. And in teen age, all these things attract the human beings. Nobody scrutinizes about personality in this period.. The same happens with my mom as well. Both of them have loved each other & married finally."

Cutting my words, swara said,"This is like a fairy tale love story, sanskar.. Everything is just perfect. Then why do you kill your dad... Tell me fast." I just asked her to keep patience & narrated,"Every love story doesn't have a destination swara. The attitude of human being changes frequently sometimes. Initial years of their marriage are running smoothly but after my birth, my dad has given less time to my mom. My mom has even celebrated their anniversary without my dad's presence & with her photograph only. Many nights, my dad hasn't come to home & I have seen sobbing of my mother in the corner of a room..."

My heart was filled with pain & anguish for my mom & a lot more agony for my dad. I couldn't even utter a word & just then breaking the silence, swara asked,"Why has your father behaved like this?" Here came the reality check.. Could swara bear the truth of Mayuri & her real mother Annapurna Suryavansi? She had just stayed 15 days with me still she couldn't bear my truth. Then how could she handle the lie of her real mother? 'No', she would be devastated and I couldn't see her breaking into pieces. I didn't have that much courage to reveal this fact to her. I just couldn't do that..

Swara patted her hand on my shoulder & I said,"Because my dad is having an affair with some other lady. For him, he is already taking the responsibility of my mom & me. So, whatever he is doing outside, mustn't be included in his private life.." Swara widened her mouth like she had heard something illogical thing & asked,"It means your dad is cheating your mom? But who is that another lady? Does she know about your father's marital life??" I didn't know how to handle the situation & it was gradually going out of my hand.

In a fumbling tone, I said,"Yes! He is cheating both of them & I ... I don't know that another lady.. But perhaps she also doesn't know about my dad's marital life...." I didn't have enough confidence to reveal about Mayuri aka shomi suryavansi. Swara already hatred her & was staying in an illusion.. And it was just not possible in my part to break her mist. But shomi had already gone through a lot in her life. Though I couldn't divulge regarding her truth still I didn't want hatred of swara for her. Avoiding all these topics, I said,"One day my mom has come to know about his extramarital affair & about his real personality of an extortionist.. Ya!! My father is an extortionist and the king of drugs, smuggling & racketing world..."

Swara was taken aback & in a painful tone, she said," I am feeling sorry for your mother, sanskar.." In a consoling tone, I said,"After knowing the truth, my mother has complained in police station & my dad is jailed. Due to money & heavy political pressure, he has come out of the jail early.. But his evilness has shot up. He has blamed mom for everything. My mom doesn't want me to be like him. She always inculcates good morals & nice human values in me. And one fine morning my father can't take this anymore. For him, it is all a drama & me and my mother are rubbish humans.. According to him, my mom has betrayed him by exposing his business. He has shot mom in front of me but spared me as he has wanted me as his heir for his illegal business. That bloody man has taken away everything from my life. In a child's eyes, a mother is a goddess. She can be glorious or terrible, benevolent or filled with wrath but she commands love either way.. But my dad has filled her life with sorrow & wanted me to be like him.. Eventually I have come in contact with captain. He has trained me with sharp shooting skills & my father is my first assassination & I don't feel ashamed for it...."

Swara was motionless. A single word was also not coming out of her mouth. After taking a brief pause, I said,"This is what I am swara! And yes! I am a slayer. I don't feel ashamed about it. As the day I have become slayer, I have killed my human emotions. Look! What my dad has made me. A bigger criminal than him... My mom's biggest fear has also come true...I can't change my past, swara..."

After listening all these things also, she became numb. It meant she could never forgive me. Then I had to leave this place now as I didn't want to be a burden for her. I grabbed her hand & bent my head & said,"Anger is like flowing water; there is nothing wrong with it as long as you let it flow. Hate is like stagnant water, which becomes dirty, stinky, disease-ridden, poisonous & deadly. Be angry upon me but never hate me swara. Please it is a request...."

Her silence was showing her decision. Avoiding her sight, I tried to go out of this place as if I would see her again then I couldn't bear the separation. I walked slowly with much pain both inside & outside my body. As soon as I reached to the outside gate, two strong hands embraced me from behind & I heard her voice,"Please don't go. Don't leave me alone. I have hurt you beyond words. But don't go like this..." And gradually her grips were becoming stronger on my shoulder..


Credit to: Kashis

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Without Her) Episode 12 Season 2

Sanskar's POV:
My thoughts broke down when I heard swara's voice. "So, you are the 3rd suspect?", she asked in a surprising tone. It meant swara had heard all the news & now she was definitely going to hate me as she didn't want my killing of innocent people. Oh wait!! But they weren't innocent na! In a fumbling tone, I replied,"Trust me! I don't want to kill them. They have attacked me first. If I won't kill then they must have killed me. And these two guys are also tried to molest you. So, I couldn't..........."

I was unable to complete the sentence. How could I say that I felt there was some connection between us & for that reason whenever I saw Alex & Martin, I couldn't control my rage after remembering the incidents they had tried to do with you. But surprisingly in a calm voice, she said,"I don't want any explanation sanskar! I know you aren't at all bad from heart & yes! When I have met you that night, you are severely beaten & shot.. So, for self defense, you must have fired the bullets. And don't be sad as I will never blame you for their killing.. I trust you, Sanskar..."

I couldn't believe what I had heard.. Trust!! Did she really utter the word trust? What the hell was wrong with her? How could she trust me so easily within merely 15 days? This attitude of her always attracted me towards her even if I tried to move away.

She handed over a bowl of oats to me & sat besides me on the sofa. I still couldn't resist myself from alluring towards her like a honeybee couldn't bear separation from its hive & her closeness was making my temptations irresistible. I tried to part away from her & randomly changed the channels to divert my mind...

A mixture of emotions, feelings & sensations were running inside my body like an adrenaline rush. Some movie was going on the TV. But my mind & concentration was only upon swara. To avoid her ocean like blue eyes which had the capability to engulf all my burning feelings towards her, I was looking away from her.

After sometimes, I felt a weight on my shoulder. She had already leaned on my shoulder and her hands were wrapped around my waist. The lustrous, feather like hairs were spreading on her temple. I sided her hairs behind one corner of ear & took glances of her sparkling face. Unknowingly I uttered,"You look beautiful, swara! Don't come too close to me. Don't make it too difficult for me to move away from you. The sooner I leave you, the sooner will be your safety..."

Suddenly I felt guilty as due to taking my responsibility, she was so tired that she slept on sofa. She needed a sound sleep. So, I decided to pick her to her room not to disturb her sleep. I carefully picked her milky, soft, porcelain body on my harsh & tough hands & proceeded towards her room.

I knew that I was going to hear her shouting again for this crime of mine of picking up her to her room. But anything for her!! She was showing too much concern for me, couldn't I take a minimal care of her?? While I was thinking all these aspects, I reached to her room & placed her on the bed. This was the 2nd time, I was coming here but the situations were entirely different. I covered her in bed sheet & as soon as I proceeded to move out of the room, my eyes fell upon the table where along with the picture of her, some other photo frame was also kept.

I was overwhelmed with joy like I got some hidden treasure after ages. This photo was kept in my jacket which I had given to swara during her escaping. This was the only photo I had with my mom. I never thought that she would keep it as a photo frame that to in her room like a precious object.

My emotions were surging like the tsunami in the mid sea. I gently kissed her forehead to show my gratification to her. I could never payback the debt she was bestowing on me happily. I grabbed the photo frame tightly & placed it closure to my heart. A few drops of tears were coming out of my eyes & falling upon her forehead. Not to disturb her sleep, I wiped out my tears & placed that photo frame gently on the table.

As soon as I tried to move out, she held my hands & said,"How do I come here, sanskar?" I knew that the time had come to hear her shouting again. I bent my head slightly & said,"Actually, you have slept on sofa... So, I have picked up you to your........" & she didn't even let me complete my sentence. As expected, cutting my words, she yelled,"How can you be so childish sanskar? Can't you wake up me? Let me check your bandages.. Is it still properly intact or not??" By saying so, she started her examination upon me.

I grabbed her hands tightly & by showing the photo frame, I asked her," What is this swara? Why have you kept it here?" Her facial reactions were changed & after taking a brief pause, she humbly replied,"I have got it from your jacket. I have found similarity between you & the boy present in this picture, like you are the grown up version of this boy. However I can't understand the change of nature you possess now.. The boy in the picture is too bubbly but you are too harsh. Like a puzzle piece, you always haunt in my brain. Are you the same person who has killed a man in that dark cellular jail & also helped me in escaping?? I am just too curious to know about you... And from past 15 days, I have heard your screaming in sleep like 'don't kill my mom' & some words like captain, child; you have frequently uttered. I just want to share your pain as nobody is evil from birth. And this photograph is half torn. So, I want to know the connection between all the happenings...." She was showing a blank expression in her face like she was expecting some answers of these unanswered queries...

I kept numb as she had already known the half truth of my life. And now she was expecting to know the whole truth. But how could I say the truth of my life to her. Breaking my thoughts, she said,"It's OK sanskar! If you don't trust me to share your pain, then I won't force you.." She left the grip of my hands to let me go. How could she even think that I had trust issues with her.. I quickly grasped her hand & said,"Swara! How can you think like that?? You have saved my life. If I don't trust you, then who the hell will trust you?"

She kept her another hand over my hand & in an assuring tone asked,"Then what's the problem in sharing your pain?" If I can see pain in your eyes, then share with me your tears. If I can see joy in your eyes then share with me your smile, then I will be more than happy..." Huh!! Girls were the most unpredictable creatures of Almighty.. For the first time in my life, somebody wanted to share my pain... Crazy enough undoubtedly!!

In a deep woe, I said,"I can share! But can you bear the truth of my life??" Drops of tears were rolling down from my cheeks.. She wiped my tears & said,"Sanskar! I have seen much more torture in my life. I can bear & engulf any sorrow & sufferings." I took a long breath & by showing the photo frame, I said,"she is my mom, swara! I love her a lot.. My father & mother have fallen for each other during their teen age. But he has killed my mom later...." I was unable to say more...

Swara in her shocking expression asked,"What? How? They have loved each other.. Then why has your dad killed your mom?? & where is your dad now??" Here came the most awaited question.. In a stern voice, I replied," I have killed my dad...."

Swara was taken aback. She was horrified. At once, she left my hands leaving me completely shocked. I already imagined about this repercussion.. I had lost her, I felt lost in this world. She was my guide, my light. I ruined everything now. She was gone forever. Oh god! Why did I share the truth! I fell on ground in a miserable condition...


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