I'm hope Ep 20

The day was passing slowly and faint. It was very difficult to live without hope specifically for that person whose life was depending on that one hope which fulfillment was the only reason of their life.

Our heroine was also one of them, she wanted to be loved and she wanted to love but after that incident, she lost her character in the eyes of the person whom she loved most. But she lost him completely moreover her hope was morbid in the depth of hell. Either Umeed accepted or not but Romana swatted her very badly.

Now she completely ceased that hope which was an aim of her life. She was only passing her life in a way which she never wanted to live.

Shayan went to abroad again for her study, Arman set up his studio and nowadays he was busy in his releasing of his first album that's why he couldn't give time to the business.

Umeed's 6th semester was going on, she was damn busy in business and her study but meanwhile, she didn't cease her web designing work. After daddy, it was her only love. Faraz got admission in MBA in the same university, he also joined his father's business completely and because of the love of Umeed, he became responsible for the passage of time.

Daddy's attitude was so much formal with her, mummy was secluded in the whole matter, she had her own lifestyle. Romana was busy with her routine, but whenever she faced her, she didn't leave chance to taunt on her.

Only Arman was there who stayed normal with her and talked with her with love as elder brother.

After the last meeting with Faraz  in the farmhouse, he never called her or showed his any right on her. While Mr. and Mrs. Agha Haroon called her regularly, often visited her too.

But without hope, she sometimes felt queasy in this pendulum condition of her between hopefulness and hopelessness.

In those faint days, Agha Haroon called her as usual but told her something unusual.

"Umeed! I was thinking to bring you at my home permanently"

She stayed silent for few minutes after hearing his sentence.

"hmm. What should I say in this matter" she murmured while moving her cellphone from one hand to another.

"you should say something on this matter Umeed, this is the decision of your life. Last time I couldn't get approval from you because it was demand of condition which you both are carrying otherwise your father could fix your alliance with anyone and I didn't want to let you go, I know I was being selfish but I don't want to see my daughter with pain and I found myself in this condition which I don't have any right to wipe your tears" his voice was calm and replete with fatherly love for her.

Her heart goo after listening to his words. No matter how destiny treated her in past but she was really fortunate after getting this type of in-laws who treated her more than their son.

"I don't understand what to say.." She stammered in her sweet voice. "I already told Faraz that I've no objection of yours and daddy's decision regarding our wedding"

"this is your obedience and respect for us, but I wanted to know the decision of your heart," he asked again.

She gasped, leaned her head against the back of the chair, this time, she was in her cabin.

"my heart is also wanting the love and affection of you and mom which I'm getting now through the phone. After our marriage, I would have the chance to get this love directly and I would be happy to get this" this time she said happily with the approval of her hearty acceptance.

"and what about the love of Faraz?" This time, agha Haroon's voice had the little bit naughtiness.

Her cheeks turned red while listening the words of her father in law.

"I think I shouldn't talk on this matter with my father-in-law" she stammered with shyness.

"yes! You shouldn't do but I wanted to know do you really wanted to live with your life with my idiot kid?" She could assume the smile in his words clearly.

She smiled amiably after the word of "idiot"

"hmm.. Actually, he's no more now and you don't know how much girls are flatting on your 'idiot' kid" she said with naughtiness, in this few month of their alliance, she became comfortable with agha Haroon and this credit completely went on the credit of agha Haroon.

"my son has a charming personality like his father off course but his mind went on his mother" he laughed.

"I don't think so, I never see any sincere and sensible person in my life except him," she said by her heart this time with seriousness.

"I'm happy you found him satisfying because I was afraid whether I did any injustice with you in the regard of covering up the mistake of my son" this time he also said with seriousness.

After talking with some formal talks, she disconnected the call but his words were stuck in her throat. She wished that her daddy said these words to her either he did any injustice with her or not but he only wanted to get rid of that girl which played with his respect.

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After the approval of Umeed which was received by agha Haroon, both families have started the preparation of their wedding. Mummy wanted to do the wedding of one of her child with Umeed. But Arman was busy in making his music career and didn't know why Romana refused to marry so early.

So, mummy had to work with Umeed's wedding. Agha Haroon and his Mrs came regularly for knowing the choice of Umeed for the dresses of the wedding and later functions. Sometimes, Faraz was also with them but both stayed silent in that time. One Mrs. Agha Haroon called her when she was at in university.

She excused her professor then went outside to receive a call. Normally she switched off the mobile during class but after joining the office of Daddy, she vibrated her mobile.

After greeting and formal sentences, Mrs. Agha Haroon came to the point.

"Umeed! Faraz was also in university, I already talked to him and your father too for permission, just go with him for shopping of your wedding dress" she said impassively. Although she was so sweet and polite to her but off course she was her mother-in-law and often she showed this to Umeed too. But still, Umeed was grateful that at least she was not like the mummy.

"now..?" She asked hesitantly.

"no, after university" she answered calmly.

Umeed thought for a while, she didn't want to go with Faraz after her university. Though she didn't have any friend in university but because of her high marking and active part in university, everyone knew her very well. Now if she showed to her mother in law that she even did not mention everyone about the relationship of Faraz and her, then might be she get angry.

She gasped then gave her affirmative answer. After disconnecting the call, she thought about the last time, they met and he entangled his fingers with her. While thinking about his touch between her fingers, unintentionally the color of blush touched her cheeks.

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After university, she came to the canteen where he and his friends were often sitting after university. But after the alliance with Umeed, he almost ceased the gathering of his bad named friends but still he met with them nicely.

That time, he was just talking to them when she came to you.

"Faraz! Will you please leave early, because I've to leave for office too" without any greeting or formal conversation, he talked with him directly.

Faraz turned to her, she thought that either he would angry on him that why did she come to him when he was in his friends or excused his friends from coming with her but he didn't do like anything which she expected.

He slowly held her hand then talked with his friends again.

"Assalam o Alaikum Bhabhi!" His friends greeted her in one voice.

"Wa-alaikum-assalam.." She greeted them back with little astonishment.

"how are you?" One of them asked her.

"fine" she answered curtly.

"okay, guys! Now I've to leave, but you all have to come to our wedding" he greeted them then dragged her slowly towards the car.

"they knew.." She murmured on the short way on their feet.

"hmm.." He opened the door of him, he wasn't so gentleman to open door for her, she herself opened the door then sat on the front seat with him.

"actually, my every friend know about the craziness of me regarding you, so they were actually so much happy that I got you," he said during starting the car.

"they knew about that incident when.." She tried to say something but he cut her off.

"they don't know, no one knows about that incident except few persons and they would never reveal it and please Umeed! Just forget that incident, we didn't do anything wrong it was only misunderstanding and conspiracy of Romana" he said in bit irritating tone, the hardworking of day and night was tiring his body because he wasn't so much habitual of it.

"you offended.." She said in a very slow voice, inside her heart she didn't want to listen him talking with her like that.

"No Umeed! I'm just want to forget you that incident which is making you sad, either destiny chose us together or not but I only wanted your smile and happiness and still I want to" this time he said calmly.

"I'm happy," she said sulkily.

"yes! I can see" he taunted on her without taking off his eyes from the windscreen.

She started to see outside, the weather was changing abruptly, the hot wind was blowing outside the car but the glass of the window was closed and the air-conditioner was switch on in the car. The silent and cold atmosphere of car making their heart more silent and more arctic. The glacier of that silent was broken out with the voice of sobs of Umeed.

He immediately stopped the car, then turned to her.

"you're crying Umeed"

Umeed was still sobbing without realizing the disturbance on his face by her tears.

He exhaled a deep breath then slowly took her right hand between the both palms.

"I don't ask any question Umeed because I know the reason of your sobbing, I neither give you fake hope nor asked you to stop sobbing, I just want you to trust me and share with me everything which is in your heart then I would be able to turn your sobbing into stars of smile, just give me one chance Umeed, I know because of me you two times disgraced but now.. Now we're in the relationship in which no one can raise question against her, be my sorrow partner Umeed, be my best friend like we were in our childhood" his voice was calm as well as angst with the truthfulness of his words.

She said nothing, just clenched his shirt in her left hand and put her head on his shoulder. The sudden act of her numbed him for a while but after few seconds, he started stroking her hairs and rubbing the back of her hand.

Few minutes of silence passed very slowly between both hearts. Only the heartbeat of him and the voice of sobbing of her which was turned into sniffled were echoing in the car. He already parked his car in the side corner, there was complete silence because of closed doors and windows.

After few minutes, she removed her face from his shoulder with embarrassment plus shyness.

"I'm sorry.." She said with a red face.

"for what?" Though he felt pain but his voice didn't show it because he was becoming mature.

She didn't say what to say answer of it.

"for my act" she murmured.

She tried to disentangle her hands from him but he didn't do that but slowly held her back, dragged her slowly towards him then put his lips on her forehead. She numbed because of his act, after that he put her head on his chest and starting caressing her back.

"you did nothing wrong Umeed, stop blaming yourself for every fault of fate which it has done with you, the life you're passing, you do not really deserve it. That's also a reason I wanted to marry you because I know very well about your desire of father's love as well as my father's desire for a daughter like you, you both are same and you both are near to my heart..." He stopped for a moment, she could clearly hear the heartbeat of his heart, even her heart was also beating loud because this time she was the first time so close to any man, no matter he was her husband but before the wedding, she didn't expect this act from him.

"Umeed! Just give me a chance, a chance to make you happy, give you the same smile which was you're possessing

in our childhood, the smile of hope, the smile of fireflies and the smile of real happiness instead of the fake smile" his soft voice was touching her heart directly.

"I gave you the right.." She murmured slowly while placing her head in comfortable position, clinching his shirt and closing her eyes peacefully.

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (The Resemblance) Episode 15

Sanskar's POV:
'Sujata, Why have you done this to me? I have always accomplished my responsibilities towards you. Then why do you betray me?
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'Responsibility, Do you even know the meaning of this word? Do you think spending money on your wife is called as responsibility.'
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"Ha! Ha! The money which you are spending lavishly can't available to all. Money is everything. You stupid woman! Can't understand it's value. I have satisfied all your desires. But you! What have you done with me? You have informed police about the business, I am conducting for years together. I won't spare you this time Sujata."
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"Are you threatening me for death? Kill me Ram! I don't want to live this life. I don't want my son to be called as a child of an extortionist."
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'Shut up Sujata! Before I loose my sense. I have done all these things to satisfy my family needs.'
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'To whom do you want to fool? We don't need your money. You have done all these things to satisfy your needs. Don't pull me and my son into this.'
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"Stop Sujata, You are crossing your limit. Don't push me too much to kill you. You don't know how painful it is when the bullet pierces in your heart & punctures the entire body.
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"You are mistaken Ram! Death is painful & easier than life."
BANG.... BANG....
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"Don't kill my mom. Please spare her dad!" And I woke up from my short nap. The same nightmare which I had faced before many years, again popped up in my mind after hearing my target's answer. The same line. An exact resemblance.. The same expressionless brave face... Though I was a slayer and I was devoid of human expressions still I didn't know why I was worried for her now? I couldn't disobey my captain's orders. So, I had to control my emotions. I didn't want to handle my target now. So, I went towards George's cell and started negotiating with him. I had already traced his bank account details. But that bastard was lying to me that he hadn't done anything. I couldn't listen to his lies more. So, I finally ordered him to say the truth or else be prepared to die. He still repeated his old talks. So, I had finally decided that there was nothing left to discuss with him. Before pressing the trigger, I said,"George! There is no place of mercy to a traitor." And I pressed the trigger in rage & anger. "I was merciless & ruthless slayer.. I knew it.. After all it was my job.", for the first time in life I convinced myself after killing a person. I knew the cause of it was none other than my target & her resemblance with my mother. I rushed out of the cell & ordered Alex and Martin to dispose George's dead body.

This resemblance wasn't good for my job. While I was thinking about these aspects, my phone ringed. I came out of my thoughts & saw the caller ID. It was my captain again. He asked me about my target & George. I gave him all the details of George, from his bank account details to his death. My captain was satisfied with this. As my target was getting into my nerves, so I didn't want to handle her now. To get rid of this target, I asked my captain trickily,"Shall I go to the bank to recover those money from his account?" Cutting my words immediately, my captain said,"No need Sanskar! You handle her. Recovery of money from his account can be done by Laksh. He is expert in that. You know that those money can't fulfil my goal. I want my money back from that idiot Shekhar Suryavansi. Are you able to vent out truth regarding that idiot from her mouth?" I was not prepared to answer the last sentence of my captain. So, I just said that I was trying. My captain wasn't convinced with the answer and said to complete this mission as soon as possible & he cut the call.

Despite the fact that I didn't want to face her now, but I didn't have another option. Laksh would handle that case and I had to vent out truth from her mouth. Immediately I rushed to her cell, I found out that she was damn shocked, worried and was also possessing mixture of reactions. But I didn't want to analyze her facial expressions, as that would make me weak which I didn't want to happen at any cost. I was also wearing a mask. So, she couldn't sense my restlessness regarding her. Good for me! It was time to work. She was lying on floor & I put a chair in front of her to sit. As soon as I sat there, she just moved her legs away from me. Her legs were shivering like hell & cramps were coming up. Without analyzing her situations further, I came straight to my point. I said, 'Scared! Huh! Good! Now answer my questions. The sooner you answer, the sooner will be your freedom.' Just then I heard her murmuring sound. I shouted,'Hey you! Speak up early or else you know, what I can do & how far I can go?' But to my surprise, she was saying,'You are a killer! How can you kill a person? Do you feel happy after killing him?' I didn't know what should I feel now. This girl was not at all worried for her fate rather she was asking about my remorse. Strange... Now I couldn't find her in front of me rather I could see my mother in her.. Like she was the small version of my mom. Exactly like her. Thinking for others....... But I controlled my feelings again and snapped her back,"Think about yourself poor girl! The same thing can also happen with you." But still I couldn't find any change in her facial expression and she continued," Look Mr! Have you lost your memory? Or Do you think whatever I have said earlier regarding death, is a lie? Or do you feel I am intoxicated now? Ha.. Ha.. I am not scared of death?" Her similarity with my mother was making me weak in front of her. So I pressed her neck deeply to remind myself about my existence & asked," Don't dare to show your attitude in front of me.. Else I will kill your entire family." This time I could feel the change in her reactions. I didn't know why did that change occur? Was it because I had pressed her neck or in the name of family? Now she pleaded me, "please kill me but spare my mom." I was again shocked, she was requesting me to spare her mom, then what was about her father. I asked her mockingly,'Don't you want your father Mr. Shekhar Suryavansi to live?' Now again her fearful facial expression was changed into rage & she said,"I don't know him. Do what ever you want to do with that man!" "Huh!", I was really shocked by her answer. I again shouted,"Don't act smart with me! Answer me where is your father?" To my surprise, she shouted," Don't call that man my father. I don't know him. If you want to kill, then go ahead & kill him.. Still if you are not satisfied then you can also kill me. But spare my mother." I thought that might be she was playing mind games with me. She must have known about his father but wanted to divert my mind. I threatened her this time,"I will kill your mother first if you don't tell truth regarding your father." And my this statement had worked. She pleaded,"I swear! I don't know about Mr. Shekhar Suryavansi. He is hiding now due to his loss of illegal shares. I don't have any contact with him. He is not my father. I am telling truth. Please leave my mother. Don't include her. She is innocent. She doesn't have any hand in Mr. Shekhar Suryavansi's illegal business." Her statements had made deep impact on me. What had she said? Not his father... I questioned myself,"Is she lying to me? No sanskar.. Look at her expressions.. She was telling truth." Being a slayer, it was not difficult for me to judge a person. As soon as I was convinced that she was not lying, I couldn't see her as my target anymore, rather I was viewing myself in her place. The same pain I had faced earlier. Just Like her, I also couldn't call 'Ram Prasad' as my father. I was feeling suffocated and was unable to continue this questionnaire session further and left the room. Before leaving that room, I heard her shout, "Leave my mom... Don't kill her."


Credit to:Kashis

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I'm Hope Ep 19

"Are you really that nice" Umeed's voice was low bur replete with emotions.

"just for you" he said politely like flow of lake.

She gasped then peered his handsome face, he was wearing dress code of office with tie which knot he loosened up. He was brushing his hairs after  every two minutes, because of it his hairs was roughly scattered on his tiny forehead. His shave was trimmed but looked good on him. He was no more dirty child of their school days, he had grown up and could beaten up any girl's heart. Special his hazel green eyes, could make spell on anyone.

Then why, why did she never notice him? Why her heart attracted to that person who was chosen by her sister and why her sister did this to her without any fault or mistake.

Many questions arose in her mind but she had no answer of any of them.

"what are you thinking now?" After her long silence, he pressed her hand slowly, she boggled with his touch on her hand then suddenly disentangled her hands from him. He noticed her shyness pr rudeness but said nothing because now he was learning to view half filled glass. His half filled glass was her heartily approval for their alliance.

She stood up from her place, slammed her bag on her shoulder.

"I should go now" she murmured while watching the time on her wrist watch.

"first answer my question.." He held her hand and said in pleading voice.

She peered her husband then gasped on his pleading voice.

"I've no hurry to marry and also I've no objection on our wedding but I wanted to give this decision to our elders,

I'm heartily agreed on the date of our marriage which they would decide" she said in polite and firm voice while free her hands from his grip.

"don't do it again please" she signed to his act of holding her hand.

"don't I have right of this?" His voice was replete with full of emotions.

She wanted to deny but she already told that she had accepted their alliance so now she couldn't reject her own words.

"yes! You've but along with that, we should know about the boundaries which our parents drew between us"

He nodded on her answer moreover stayed silent.

They silently left the lounge of farm house, the weather was calm now moreover the beauty of farm house was increasing the amiability of weather but the two hearts were silent on this romantic weather and surrounding.

She opened the door of her car then rushed away from there while he was absorbing the view of her car while it vanished from his sight.

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She reached at office, unfortunately Romana was waiting for her with Shayan. Arman was dealing international project that's why, he wasn't in country and Umeed was dealing with local projects.

"where were you aapi?" She asked in sweet but sharp voice while Shayan looked indifferent in this matter.

"Faraz called me" she told in busy tone.

"you should ask daddy before meeting with Faraz Bhai" she chewed every word of her sentence.

"actually Faraz is my husband, neither fiance nor boyfriend like Shayan of you, so I don't need anyone's permission

to meet with my husband" she sat on her chair, placing her stuff on the glass table.

Romana fumed after listening her indirect taunt.

"but you should know about our boundaries too" she reminded her in sharp voice.

Shayan tried to interrupt but Romana also jerked his hand too. That time Umeed became grateful to God that at least he was not her fiance.

"don't interrupt Shayan in our sister's matter" Umeed told to Shayan calmly while smiling significantly.

Shayan looked confuse after watching her meaningful smile.

"why are you smiling like that?" Romana asked with astonishment.

"I was thinking actually..." She took pen from table then opened the next meeting's file.

"that I should be grateful to you that you've created that incident and I got the life partner like Faraz, otherwise according to your plan, if I stuck in your trap which you made by Shayan and started to love this jackass, then obviously I would regret to choose him. But offcourse because of you, destiny made Faraz to my life partner and

I'm really grateful to you to do that plan"

Both Shayan and Romana's faces were changing during her every word.

She smiled mischievously after completing her words and after giving them big shock.

"yes! I'm Mahar mah! Papa's boy" she said while looking in the eyes of Shayan.

"Umeed.. I..." He murmured but she raised her hands.

"I don't want to listen anything from your mouth, honey dear!" She turned to Romana then said "please go from there with your idiot fiance because I've to work"

Romana stood up with anger while Shayan in confusion plus embarrassment.

"you shouldn't forget that this is my daddy's office" she wanted to show her right on this building.

"oh! I didn't know that?" She did mockery with her while looking into her eyes directly.

"but you should remember that your daddy has a son who doesn't have interest in business but in his singing only and a daughter who doesn't have mind to set up the business and chose a depended life partner, so only I left to carry this business.." She said calmly.

"now please leave" her voice was arctic cold.

Shayan dragged her towards the door and she smiled amiably with hundred of shades.

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Vampire Knight season 1 (Third Night)

The Untold Story Of Zero & Yuki

Third Night

Zero's point of view:

I was laying on my bed, there's no case of level E tonight, so I've lots of free time tonight.

I thought about yesterday night, where she was with me, in my arms but completely strange.

"Yuki..!" My unconscious awakened with the darkness of night.

"you remind me that boy who was so close to my heart but he didn't know the dance" her voice echoed in my mind.

I jerked that voice, then the voice of Ichiru came in my thoughts.

"live your life Zero! Get what you wanna get"

Before his death, he said me this line which reminds me Yuki more strongly.

I remember the day when Ichiro makes a conspiracy against us, before 6 years, Shizuoka a pureblood vampire came to us.

It was snowing outside and Ichiru was missing that time. Mom and dad just about to leave for searching him but I stopped them.

"don't worry mom and Dad! I'll find him, he was just playing near the house" I said, I loved my brother so much.

There are so rare twins in the families of vampire hunters and we were only twins of that time.

Ichiru usually stayed ill, so my parents worried about him so much.

When I went outside then I felt strong feelings that any vampire was beside me. Suddenly someone grasped me from my back and I felt two fangs on my neck.

It was Shizuoka who bit me and killed my parents.

But the most terrible things was that it was my twin brother who made a conspiracy against us with Shizuoka.

I felt to kill myself that time, I was no hope. I became that creature, whom I made to kill. I was vampire hunter and

I became vampire itself. Moreover, I started to hate vampires, especially purebloods.

That time, when headmaster who was an ex-vampire hunter, adopted me then I met with Yuki.

A girl with smiling face and crystal eyes. Her eyes are so clear and pure which conveyed the pureness and innocence of her heart.

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Yuki's pov

A boy with silver hairs and sad eyes, when I got attached to him, I don't remember but I just remember that he was my best friend and I had to care about him. Because whenever I saw him, in the deep inside, I saw my face in him.

It's very hard to live without family, I've Kaname at least but he had no reason to live except to kill the reason for his unhappiness.

But just a minute... Shizuoka is already killed by Kaname and Ichiru is also dead, what type of reason he has for his existence?

I boggle with my thought, why it comes in my mind.

"next time ill meet you, I'll kill you" his voice echoed in my mind again.

Maybe he's living to kill me, if it's really true then I don't wanna die because I'm the reason of his existence.

"you're the reason of his existence" my inner goddess feels ecstasy think about it.

I remember the day when I found him scratching his neck.

"what are you doing Zero?" I was worried about him but I froze when I saw in his eyes.

His eyes..! His eyes replete with hatred and pain. The pain of losing everything, that time I decided to always protect and care for him.

But on the other hand, he always cared and protected me. I know he always behind me whenever I need support and he always come to me in any difficult situation.

"why? Why destiny does with me?" I wish I shouldn't be pureblood then maybe we will be together forever.

Suddenly I boggled with my thought, why am I continuously thinking about Zero. I should think about Kaname who is on the mission to convince vampire Jewry for his new ideas.

It was his idea to establish the night and day class in a cross academy where vampire and human can study together whereas humans were unaware of the fact that night class students were actually vampires.

Except me and Zero, no day class student know about it. I knew because I faced vampires eleven years ago one night. That time I didn't know that I was actually pureblood vampire because Kaname erased my memories.

Zero also knew everything because he belonged to vampire hunters family.

I went towards the window and opened it. There was the beautiful thin moon in the sky, Kaname never opened the window but I love to see the sky.

Kaname hired the tutor for me on home but I wanted to attend cross academy again moreover wanted to do my duty as guardian.

My eyes are burning to see the thin layer of moon.

"do you like moon Zero?" A ten-year girl asked her friend who was laying on the terrace.

"the moon..." He looked upside where a beautiful moon smiling. "it was no moon when my parents were killed, so I like it"

I don't know why did he compare everything with that incident.

But he could move forward if he wasn't vampire or his own twin brother didn't betray him.

Suddenly I heard the knock on my door,

"come in," I said in low voice.

"are you ok Yuki?" It was Ruka, class fellow and friend of Kaname.

We had also nice conversation but don't know why we couldn't become friends.

"hmm.." My answer is short and obscure.

She's wearing night gown but she is looking so perfect and beautiful.

I don't know why Kaname didn't choose her instead of me or maybe he chose me because I'm his fiancee from our childhood.

She stands beside me and follows my eyes.

"do you like the moon?"

"yes so much!  I love nature" I say while smiling.

She looks my face with empty emotion and says slowly.

"you should stay human Yuki! You do not belong of vampires, at least not after cross academy. You're made for cross academy as guardian, not to becoming princess of this golden cage"

My mouth opens little to listen to her. She first time talks to me so long. But her words are exactly describing my situation like I was wanna listen to someone who can answer my questions which don't allow me to be happy.

I look her snowy complexion which becomes paler because of the pain, the pain of losing her love.

She silently left my room and I don't understand why I felt her pain in my heart although I've my love with me forever.

Disclaimer: No any character of manga or anime belongs to me. I do not own any character of Vampire Knight, except Mika Shiki (her appearance will be shown in the upcoming season). Every character belongs to 'Matsuri Hino' of Vampire Knight, I'm just giving my story to his characters.

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (That Night In Hell) Episode 14

Guys! Some of you had told me to write in dialogues & some of you had told me to continue in POV form. So, I mixed both and here is the outcome of episode 14. Do tell me your feelings. Am I up to the expectation or not?
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Sanskar's POV:
I was busy in handling George, that person had betrayed my captain. He gave police all information and eloped with all the money. After many days, I could trace him. I was going to give him ultimatum for his life. If he agreed with my terms & conditions then I might spare him or else he was definitely going to die. I blindfolded George and dragged him towards the dark cellular jail. In all the way, George was pleading me to leave him by saying he didn't cheat my captain and didn't have any money with him. I sealed his mouth as I wasn't interested to listen his bogus lies. As soon as I opened the gate of cellular jail, I threw George to another cell & saw my target was sleeping peacefully. I thought,"Is she mad? Or is she thinking that it is her home? How can she sleep after knowing that she is kidnapped?" I already knew that she hadn't told anything to Alex and Martin, whom I sent to vent out secrets from her mouth. When I called them, they said about their unsuccessful attempt in venting out the truth. I told them to leave her and after completion of George's task, I, myself would handle her. I knew how stubborn this girl was! I went towards her and patted her shoulder to wake her up. As soon as I touched her, I saw cramps and numbness in her arms and legs. I thought that might be she was scared. So this caused the cramps and numbness to occur. When I touched her to wake her up, she jerked my hand & shouted, "Please, leave me! Don't rape me. Take all money I have. But please spare me." I was hell shocked. Was she thinking that I kidnapped to rape her. How childish! I shouted,"hey you! Open your eyes and come to reality! Answer my questions or else I will strangle your beautiful neck in minutes!" I could see the fear and pain in her eyes. She opened her eyes with much difficulty and stammered,"You! Black covered man! I know, you are brutal and ruthless. If I have misbehaved with you then forgive me. But don't rape me." After listening to her talks I thought,"What nonsense, may be she hasn't come out of her dreams." I again shouted, "hey you! Molestation is not my job. If you will repeat these words again, I will shoot you at instance." I didn't know what happened to her after listening to my talks, but a sense of bravery I could feel in her facial expression. She said,"Hey Mr. Black covered man! Are you threatening me to death? Do you think I want to live this life? If you will kill me then I will be rather happy. As I will be free from this birth. Look Mr! Death is peaceful and easier than life." I was shocked to listen these words from her mouth. I wasn't shocked in the way she expressed herself. As I knew that she was a brave girl. But what shocked me the most was the same sentence I had listened earlier in my past. How could her statement exactly resembled to that one! I was not in my correct sense after listening her talks and called Alex & Martin to handle my target and George for sometimes. Till then I wanted a peace of mind & silence from the surroundings. As soon as Alex and Martin came to the cell, I could see the change in her facial expression. Earlier I could feel bravery in those eyes but now it was changed to fear, like she was hell worried with the presence of Alex and Martin. But again none of my business! She was only my target nothing else. Feeling for her would be the last thing i could even think about. I left them there & rushed out from that room. But before leaving that room, she was shouting,"please! Don't leave me here with them. It's better you can shoot me!" I didn't pay heed to her statement and went away.

Swara's POV:
I didn't know the exact time when the door of the darkroom again opened. Though sleeping was far away from my eyes but I acted like that. I didn't want to face the reality. I didn't want to face those two men again. I was scared to sense that brutality again. Many bad thoughts were popping up in my mind. Might be they would rape me and capture my video to leak them in media or else they wanted to blackmail me with that video to get money or to satisfy their desires always by making me their pawn. These feelings were making me frightened and scared. So, I didn't open my eyes. Might be they would leave me after seeing me in sleeping state. But unlike my expectation, it was him, 'the black covered man!'. After hearing his shouting, I opened my eyes and talks of those two men that he was more brutal than them, was buzzing in my ears repeatedly after seeing him in front of me. I requested him not to rape me and also pursued him to take all money. But what he said! Molestation was not his job! Did I hear correctly? It meant he would not rape me. But he was threatening to kill me. My thinking was like,"Who cares for death?" A sense of worry was vanished from my face after listening to his talks that he wouldn't rape me and honestly I wasn't scared of death. But suddenly what happened to him I didn't know. But I could say that he was not in his good sense. He called those two persons again to handle me. Now I was again scared. I pleaded him not to leave me here but he didn't listen to me and went away.

After his departure, those two men again came towards me and one of them who had earlier looked at me in evil eyes, blocked my mouth in his hand & said,"Acting smart! Huh! Many has come and died but nobody has even dared to go against us! You fool! What do you want to convey to sanskar?" I was scared like hell and opened my mouth,"What are you talking about? I don't know who is sanskar? Don't touch me or else I will shout now." That man again slapped me hard and chocked my neck and pressed my face and said,"You don't know sanskar! Huh! Then to whom you are saying that don't leave me with them. Do you think we are fools! It's better to cooperate than to face our brutality. And don't dare to open your mouth in front of Sanskar regarding us." And he was laughing evilly by giving those dangerous looks.

That time the black covered man entered inside the room and by looking at him, these two persons stopped their laughing and their facial expressions were also changed like they feared that black covered man. I thought," may be this black covered man is sanskar. But why are they fearing from him?" Breaking my thoughts, one of them told to the black covered man,"Sanskar! This girl is too much to handle." Then that black covered man shouted in rage to them,"Don't take my name in front of my targets. Have you forgotten the rules of being a slayer?" He throttled that person's neck to make him remember his words. It meant the name of my kidnapper was 'SANSKAR'. He directed these two men to leave me & they went to another cell. I tried to know what was happening there but alas! Due to partition of wall I couldn't see anything. However I heard the sound of a man to spare him.. But my kidnapper, sanskar was shouting upon him and after sometimes I heard the sound of bullet as 'Bang'. With in minutes I saw blood was rushing out of the room and was wetting the floor. I was frozen on spot. He killed someone. My legs were shivering. Though I wasn't scared of death but scared of uncertainty, worried for my future. You can choose best from two good things but you can't choose bad from two worst things. Indeed it's true. I was in hell. Its rules were not made by me but I had to obey it. I was motionless and devoid of thinking. Just one thing was coming to my mind,"I am in hell."


Credit to: Kashis

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Swasan ff: An Incomplete Scrapbook (A Sense Of Brutality) Episode13

Sanskar's POV:
Now my mission was transparent like water. I knew exactly what I had to do. After all job was job. But by kidnapping this target, many other mysteries could also be solved. In addition to that I didn't have to labour hard to trace this target unlike Mayuri. I already knew about her whereabouts and her desperate desire for alcohols. I again followed her that night and as expected, I found her inside the bar in a heavily intoxicated condition. But as I had experienced before, that she was having an exceptional tolerance power even after gulping so much alcohols, so, I didn't want to take any chance while kidnapping her. I used chloroform in a handkerchief and proceeded towards her. As expected, she recognized me from a distance even in that subconscious state. "Smart Girl", as I already knew this. But the thing which surprised me a lot was that she called me ..., a follower. It signified that she had recognized me earlier as well when I was following her to extract more information regarding her. It was not a good sign for my profession. However the kidnapping was done peacefully. In my history of killing & kidnapping, this kidnapping was probably the easiest one as she didn't protest me or I could say she didn't have that much strength left in her body to oppose me after consuming so much alcohol. Through out our travelling, she was unconscious due to the effect of chloroform. Good for me. As she couldn't recognize this route & about the way to darkworld anymore in future. I threw her in the dark cellular jail and handcuffed her hand. This was the place where we kept the kidnapped persons. I closed the door and went to handle one more culprit who had betrayed my captain.

Swara's POV:
As soon as I regained consciousness, I found myself in a darkroom, like darkness prevailed in that room in such a way that a faint light also couldn't dare to break the kingdom of darkness. I couldn't see anything. So, I thought might be I was in my room and might be some friends had dropped me here. My head was paining a lot. But wait!! How could my medical friends know this address? It meant I wasn't in home. Then where was I?? Now I was scared. I tried to get up from that place to wash my face so that I could sense & view the things more clearly. But why was I not able to get up? Oh gosh! My hands were handcuffed.. I tried to remember the incidents happened with me in the bar.

After my friends left me to go for long bike rides, I saw that black covered man and now I was handcuffed in this darkroom. It meant my intuitions were true. Indeed that man was following me. But why? What did he want from me? He behaved nicely with me earlier and also dropped me home. Then again why did he keep me here? Did he want to molest me? I looked myself but due to darkness I couldn't even see myself properly. With much difficulty, I touched myself and found that my clothes were intact with my body. The party dress which I had worn, wasn't torn by anybody. It meant nobody had misbehaved with me. Then why? Why was I handcuffed here? Did he want money? As I was a billionaire girl and in media also this news was spread. So, might be he wanted money. The will and it's clauses were unknown to media as we kept it as secret. Bloody fool! He kidnapped me for money but he didn't know that I hadn't inherited the property till now. I screamed at top of my voice so that I could know why did he kidnap me? But to my utter surprise, he didn't come even after my so much screaming. I was tied and at the same time I was tired as well. I wasn't able to scream anymore. At that moment the door opened & I listened the voices of two men. Gradually the sound was buzzing nearer to me. So, I sensed that they were coming towards me. I gathered courage and shouted ,"Who was there? Why did you kidnap me? What did you want from me?" That time a faint light was flashed on the room. I saw the face of those 2 men. But where was the black covered man!?? As his physical structure was different from these two men. So, I could bet that he wasn't one of these 2 men. I again yelled,"What did you want? Did you want money? I didn't have enough money with me now. But whatever I had, you could take it. Take all those money but leave me from here." Before I could say anything further, I could see that one of them was viewing me in luring eyes like he would strip my clothes in those hungry eyes. Now seriously I was damn scared. Were they going to mass rape me? No... This thinking was so horrible that I couldn't even dare to think further.. But nothing was in my hand. I didn't know what would they do with me? Sense of fear was not new thing for me. I was dejected multiple times from my father. But now I was scared for the brutality & the torture, they were going to provide or do with me.

My thoughts were broken when one of them touched my bare leg and this sense of touch was something uneasy and I could guess what they were going to do with me.I shouted," Please, leave me. I have never harmed you. Why are you doing this to me?" But as if they would care.. That person was touching me sensuously and I was helpless. I again screamed and then that person slapped me hard. That person mocked,"You are going to die. You can't leave this place. So, its better to listen to us and to cooperate with us. So may be you can live for some more days." And after saying these things, he was laughing continuously. I shouted, "You morons! Before I could be a meal for your luring eyes, it was better to die." He couldn't take this rage of mine and again slapped me hard and continued, "Don't show your philosophy to us. The person who captivated you here was more brutal than us. So, why don't you bear our sweet torture? Anyways you are going to die for sure as nobody is able to leave this prison alive. Once you have entered here means you will die for sure. It's better to satisfy our inner desires before your death." And he was laughing evilly.

I didn't know he was laughing on me or due to my helplessness. But I was shocked in his one statement that the black covered man was more brutal than these 2 persons. It meant he had some hidden motives to help me earlier. I was scared, not because I was going to die but because I had to bear their torture now. That person sealed my mouth. So that I couldn't shout and he could satisfy his inner desire without any disturbance. Just then their phone ringed. Though I wasn't able to listen their talks but I could sense that some one was asking them to come out from here. After cutting the call, that man told to the person who was touching me that, "Sanskar has called.. Leave her. We have to go from here now. It's his target. You know what I mean." After listening to this, the person who was touching me inappropriately, left me but before leaving me there, he said,"Wait.. I will again come to tame you." They went by giving me an evil look and also switched off the light. I was lying on floor. I didn't know what more stuffs future would bring for me. I was hell scared, frightened and terrified to face this barbaric, cruel and harsh brutality...

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I'm hope episode 18

It was very hot day like sun came to visit earth and specially the beach of Karachi. But despite of this hot weather, he was leaning against the rock of beach.
He was come here in the time of lunch break, after the last semester of his university, he joined office, until his result will reveal of bba.
His father wanted to get him married after his graduation but he wanted some time because he was still confused about the approval of Umeed about their  new relationship.
He wanted to watch the time but he didn't realize when he dialled her number. He realied this thing when she said "hello" from other side.
He boggled with her voice then put his phone on his ear.
"hello Umeed.." His voice was mixture of confusion and love.
"why did you call me?" Her voice  was stern but flat.
"I'm on beach, do you wanna join me?" This sentence just slipped from his mouth, might be it was in his heart already.
"why?" He received only  one word from other's side.
He didn't understand what to say, he thought for a while to make excuse.
"I think you've so much time to waste but I don't have" the jerked voice of her came out from other's side because of long silence of him.
"Because I want to see you here, there is beautiful beach house of us, I wanna show you" this time his voice was confirmed like he wanted this and he would get it.
The few minutes of silence passed between them and he could feel the hot breeze which was touching his face.
"hmm.. If I'll say no then?" She said.
"then I would respect you" he said truth.
"don't you wanna show your right on me?" This time her voice was challenging but he didn't wanna accept this challenge.
"no I won't until.." He said calmly.
"until?" Her voice was possessed very beautiful question.
"until you'll accept our relationship" his voice was calm.
He could hear the gasping sound of her after listening him.
"you're misunderstood the situation, well! I'm coming there then I'll make you understand something" after saying this she disconnected the call.
He was confused by her last sentence, is there any misunderstanding left between them. Thought he was curious but still the small smile came on his face because his beloved was coming to her.
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Umeed was confused about his demand but she shrugged her shoulders carelessly because she knew very well about the nature of Faraz.
She was sitting on the seat of her cabin in her daddy's office. After that incident, her daddy was only looked her with reprimanded eyes. Though she was innocent but his eyes sank her in the depth of shame.
She hang her shoulder bag, took her keys of car which was gift of her 21st birthday from her daddy. She smiled ruefully, then stepped towards the door.
It took fifteen minutes to reach at beach because their office's building was near to beach.
After fifteen minutes, she was at the beach house of Agha Faraz.
She didn't need to knock, his husband already awaited for her one day old wife.
"welcome" he tried to smile but very faint smile came to his face.
She scrutinized his face warily to know about the situation which made him demand to call her in this alone place.
He peered at her while she only took a glance of beautiful farm house.
Both sat on the delicate but amiable couches, both were opposite of each others.
The farm house was brightened with the sunlight,  which was reflected his lovely features while his heroine was in the shadowy part of the lounge.
"your farm house is lovely" her words possessed appreciation but her tone was flat.
"ours Umeed, you forgot" his voice was fidget, the sunshine touched his face to give him a bit courage to spit out all those words which he wanted to tell his princess from years.
"hmm.." She utters vague words.
Few minutes of silence passed heavily, Umeed watched time, it was their lunch break but that didn't mean they could stay there for long.
"Do you wanna say something?" She said brusquely like she was talking with any stranger.
His fidget eyes filled with angst.
"I just wanna  see you, if I wasted your time then I'm sorry" he stammered while observing her beautiful features.
She fumbled his words, looked his expression then slowly exhaled.
"who are you of mine?" This time her voice was polite as well as molten.
"best friend, lover, husband as well as stranger or enemy which snatched your respect in your father's eyes" all these words were prodding in his mind but his mouth didn't utter one of them.
He only disgruntled her face then waited for her to utter next sentence what she was exactly considering him of her.
She waited for few seconds but when she only found his cold breathes from other side, she opened her mouth to clarify something important.
"Look Faraz!" She said and he followed her order abruptly.
"you're my husband either I wanted this relationship or not but this was written in our destiny, this isn't a movie where we are in the relationship and behaved like stranger. I know sometimes, I became petulant to you but that doesn't mean I don't give importance to our relationship, I accepted this relationship, that's a conclusion so please don't behave like this with me" her tone was neither soft nor morphine but formal and polite.
He gasped "have you really accepted this relationship?"
"hmmm.." She answered curtly.
"then may I tell you something?" This time he crossed spun between them.
He took her hand, entwined every finger in him, she was flinched by his act but said nothing.
He knelt down, while she was sitting on the couch, his neck tilted to see in her eyes directly.
"Listen carefully Umeed" he muster up some more words to describe his feelings towards his angel.
"Agha Jan wanted our wedding but I know you want some time, though this relationship was based on our approval but I know you only said yes because of your current situation in your house, so I'm not sure it's right time to get married or not I just wanna when you come in my house it would be approval of your heart instead of any dishevelled situation. As I was thinking on this topic, I became frantic to think on this you're not happy, my happiness ended when I thought my only love is not happy and I'm the reason of it" once he started, he was surged by words he wanna tell to her.
Her expression was changing with his every word while she didn't wanna hide this feat of her face.
"that day, you know that day when..." The words stuck between his thought.
"yes! I know" she strangled her tears in her throat to remind about that day.
"after that day, I couldn't sleep properly just thinking about your sorrow, your sobbing because of me, how could I be so selfish to do that but I couldn't get courage to apology from you, it was Romana's plan or not but it's truth that I was stuck in her trap because of my selfishness to get you. It was not so much time when I realized my love, my affection moreover my lunacy for you, but at the day of our Nikah, I broke out just because thinking about how selfish I'm! I just thought about my desire, my love and my happiness. Yesterday night when Agha Jan told me that he wanted his daughter in law in his house as soon as possible, I was stunned because.." His voice became husky and sight hazy just because onslaught of emotions at once.
She unintentionally pressed his hands to encourage him to say more, he gulped and continued.
"I was stunned because it was happening so soon and I knew you needed time to accept this alliance between us but I realized that it was my selfishness too to give you time because I want when you come to me, your heart would be filled with my love as my heart that time I thought to know about your opinion. Now decision is in your hand, this time I don't open my mouth or decide about our destiny, this time everything is wholly depending on you and I would accept your every decision" at the end, his words become woozy because of the moist of his throat.
She peered him silently for few seconds then stuttered slowly.
"are you really that nice?" Her voice was completely overwhelmed by emotions which could clearly shown on her face.
"huh..?" He looked her confusingly after her unexpected question instead of answer.
"I asked, are you really that nice or you're just with me like that?" This time she added some more words in her question.
The small curve of his lips, she could clearly glare after her question.
He gasped and answered while rubbing her index finger of left hand by his thumb of right hand.
"it's only for you"
This time her lips rumbled unintentionally and she didn't realize that her smile was reaching to her eyes.
Yes! Every night always have some shine of stars in its shawl, no matter   how much darkness was existed there.


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Behind The Mist Ep 5

    
       She's so happy since she wore the necklace, she feels like flying up in the air and wishes never to land. Everything surrounding her is looking beautiful to her. She can breath her happiness to the depths as if she has gotten a hidden treasure. She wants to tell the whole world that she's in love, she's neither shy nor confused, rather she's confident; confident that she has gotten the perfect love, the man created for her only, the man who loves her boundlessly and will always do, the love that will always be there for her, the love that no one can snatch from her, the love that is not only for her but for her family also, the love that honors her prestige, the love that is none other than Aazam.
  
       Her past thoughts and perceptions about Aazam have totally changed now. Apart from all his past activities and hobbies, she has decided to move on- with all his vices and virtues because love needs no explanation, she thinks. She has been rational while dealing with such sentiments but now after her prudent judgement she has got to the conclusion that her love bears no flaw, or if it even does, so according to her, one should love a person with all its vices and virtues. She's confident now that she has not made any hasty judgement and believes also that what's hers can not stay far away from her.
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   Fahad is standing in the corridor and is busy in reading a book in his hand.
    
  "Fahad..!", he listens someone calling him, he raises his head from the book and sees Sara coming to him. He closes his book and give a smile to her.
    
 She comes next to him and they both exchange greetings.
   
"Have you seen Jiya today?", Sara asks Fahad.

"Mmmm... No, I've not seen her today?", says Fahad looking around him and recalling.

"Why are you asking about her? You should better know whether she's here or not today.. I'm noticing something now a days..", he adds.

"What?", asks Sara with questioning eyes.

Fahad smiles and says shuddering, " I've noticed many changes in you and the first one is your ignorance towards your friends... ". She looks continuously at her face to her reaction but she too gives him the same stare with a mulish smile. When Fahad gets no answer from her he asks," Don't you think so??"

"No..", she answers shuddering. " I've been like this for always, nothing has changed in me..", she adds rejecting his idea.

"OK... So...", Fahad can't continue his words as his eyes fall upon a shimmery necklace around her neck and his eyes also start shimmering with it.

Sara notices his eyes and then puts her hand on her necklace and starts smiling proudly, she holds it and shows it to Fahad. " How's it?", she asks Fahad.

 "It's beautiful..", Fahad exclaims and his eyes are persistently on her necklace.
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And how am I looking wearing it???", Asks Sara looking into his eyes.

Fahad suddenly changes his sight and finds her eyes into his. He gets nervous for a while and then gathers himself to speak.

"Aaah.. Hmm. ... of course.. aaa....you too..hmm..", he says while looking here and there and coercing himself to smile so as to hide his nervousness.

"Heyy... Come on.. I don't have any wrong intention.. Fahad... Don't be nervous..", she says while laughing.

"Aaaa..I'm not nervous..... Not at all...", he tries to be confident.

"OK, leave it.. By the way I was asking for Jiya because I have to tell her something.", she says while cuddling her necklace.

"What?", Fahad says.

"Mmm.. First tell me genuinely, how's it??", she asks again.

"It's genuinely beautiful Miss Sara, now what do want to hear??", he says irritatingly.

"Have you ever thought that Aazam could have such a graceful taste while choosing jewellery??", she asks him excitingly.

"What???", Fahad gets astonished for a while. "You mean Aazam has gifted you this??", he adds pointing to her necklace.

"But I didn't say that I have been gifted this necklace..", she wonders how Fahad knows about this.

" Ooh Sara ... It's obvious from your behavior now  that you have been gifted this but, Aazam..", before he completes his words Sara interrupts him.

"Fahad I'm sure you won't believe because it's really beautiful.", she utters hastily.

"Yea.. It's really difficult to believe Sara..", Fahad says looking into her eyes now and he's not nervous this time but looks contented rather.

"Aaaa.. Fahad I want to say that don't discuss it with Aazam. I don't know he'll like me to discuss him with someone.. You know..", now Fahad interrupts her and says, "No, I'll not mention it, you don't worry.. "

            And there Jiya comes and takes Sara with her. Sara goes readily because she's to make her best friend aware that what she has got. But before Sara can share anything Jiya informs her that Aazam is looking for her. Sara doesn't pay heed to what she has to share with her friend because now she's on the way to Aazam.
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              She has checked everywhere she can to find where Aazam is when finally he finds him sitting under a thick tree in the garden far away from the hustle bustle of the university. She steps forwards vastly to reach to him but her steps slow down when she gets Aazam's glance on her. Her heart is beating to its fullest and she's having deep breaths. The same may be the case with Aazam too but visibly he's just wearing a nervous smile...
                                                       
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                   The mist starts dissolving now and gradually he's able to feel, see, hear and speak. That's his sweat he feels flowing on his body.As soon as the mist disappears he sees the wall in front of him painted with blood red color or rather with the blood itself. His hands are still in a position of shooting onwards the man before him, but the difference is that the man is lying on the floor now with eyes ready to burst out of his skull and with blood stains scattered all around him. Probably he shot him dead in head and perhaps the extreme of pain let the man's eyes look like bursting out. As his senses come to be normal, he's able to feel the sweet smell of fresh and hot blood mixed with the smell of gun powder and its smoke.

        The sight is unbearable for him now his hands again start shivering and let the gun fall down. His legs unconsciously step backward but the wall on his back supports him. He wipes his sweating forehead with his shivering hand and casts a glance upon both of his hands and then on the dead body before him and repeats this action several times. He feels something coming out from his stomach into his mouth and suffers from severe nausea at the moment and at once runs out of the room and starts vomiting under a tree in the backyard. For a few moments he feels his legs lifeless.
He stumbles and gives himself the support of the tree and looks up and has a sight of its waving branches. He takes a deep breath and sits down. He hides his face with his hands and starts weeping bitterly as he gets a tap on his shoulder. He turns to see and finds the same man standing there who enforced him to shoot the man dead. The man is smiling and he's hating his smile.

      "Be strong and brave... Never let anything make you shed tears.. You've done it well. One day you'll be proud of this. Come on now it's OK. You've not done anything wrong.", says the man with pride.

       The boy hears loud laughter coming out of the room and stands up and washes his hands from a tap. He wants to clean his hands but visibly his hands are already clear, he rubs them very fast and tightly as he wants them as clear as were before the gunshot. But his eyes are shedding continuously as if they know that nothing now can be undone, and that invisible stain will not be cleaned by any hand wash..

       That's the first time he faced and even done something like this.
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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Nothing Lasts Forever) Episode 12

Swara's POV:
They say nothing lasts forever
We ' re only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away.

My phone ringed. The same ringtone from Danish Soft Rock Band Michael Learns to Rock broke down my sleep. Before I could pick up, the call was disconnected. But this ringtone had already interrupted my sleep. This ringtone was very special to me. Each and every line of this song was close to my heart. Actually the other name of life was change. I still remembered that day when my so called dad abused me and my mother rescued me from his clutches. That man forcefully confirmed my marriage with a big industrialist though I was a minor that time. My mother stood like a barrier between me and my dad's decision. Because my mom always supported me, so, her marriage alliance and her relationship with him gradually suffered. From that day onwards everything in life was changed except this ringtone. This ringtone gave me positivity and assured me that nothing was lasted forever.

Now I was realising that it was true. Around 1 month had already passed from that deadliest night. I was unable to inherit the property. I shouted on my mom. Some guys misbehaved with me in the bar and that black covered man saved me. Yes! That man also dropped me home and despite knowing about my secret place, he hadn't revealed anything in media. Many times I saw him around me. Sometimes I thought that he was indeed following me. But every time when I wanted to confirm this, I failed. He was found nowhere. At last I gave up his thoughts and gave myself consolation that it was a hallucination. Even from 2-3 days, I hadn't seen him.

But now everything had changed. I was continuing my medical study. So that after completion of it, I could inherit half of the property and could give my mother security. I also told sorry to my mother. Even if she was not my real mom, but till how long she could stay angry upon me. So, she forgave me. But I didn't want to be a cause for her sufferings. I knew that my so called dad had problem with my mom because of me. So, I said to mom that till completion of my medical study, I would like to stay in hostel to improve my studies by discussing with my friends. Though I was not staying in hostel and living in my secret home, but I hadn't revealed this to mom. I lied to her because if I would tell her regarding my living here in this secret home then she didn't allow me & even if she would have allowed, still she would definitely be heart broken. So, I lied to her to give her freedom from my worries & me. So that her relationship with my dad might improve in future. She had done a lot for me, not like my real mother, Shomi Suryavansi, who left after giving birth to me. There was no love in my life but my mom had every right to enjoy her relationship with my dad. So, I took this step. Only Ragini knew about all these things. She was such a sweet heart. Though she was my lawyer but she never exploited me like a real lawyer. She always supported me in think and thin like a best friend.

Again my phone ringed and my series of thoughts were broken. It was Ragini only on the other side. She was yelling that didn't I wake up till now? I told her, "Why are you shouting Ragini? It's Sunday. Please let me sleep for some more times. You know that today is holiday or not." The last line I told her teasingly. But she reminded me sarcastically that she was a lawyer and she was very good in memorizing the time schedules. If I had forgotten to attend the party at night and for that I had to go for shopping, she asked me.. Oh!! I had totally forgotten this. I thanked her for reminder and we decided to catch up within 2 hours for shopping.

After cutting her call, I saw the miscall and it was from one of my friends from my college. I called back her and she was asking me to pick her up for the party. I nodded positively & cancelled the call. "What the hell swara! How can you forget this party. Today's party is going to be celebrated at night for the occasion of a friend's birthday. After so long this party is happening and you have forgotten." I thought this. Earlier I used to party all night but after continuation of my academics, these late night parties had stopped as there were too much pressure to complete the backlogs. I even didn't have a new party dress to wear. So, I asked Ragini's help for shopping. While thinking all these things, I freshened up myself and went to meet Ragini to complete my shopping. In the Central Mall, I met Ragini.

While we were busy in shopping, I again saw that back covered man from the glass door of the mall. I abstained from thinking about him as I knew it was an illusion. But again I looked at that spot and this time he hadn't vanished. He had stood there only. I called Ragini to show her that man. But till Ragini had come to see him, he again vanished. Ragini, like always mocked on me. I showed fake anger to her but deep inside my heart, my inner voice was asking me,"Why I always see him only, not any other man? If it is an illusion, then why it is only him?" I couldn't get any answers of these questions but I didn't want to spoil my mood today by researching on him. So, I left this topic and in between we both completed shopping & I came home after bidding good bye to Ragini.

At night, I dressed up with that party dress which I purchased today. Apart from that dress, I only wore earrings and a ring in my middle finger. I made my hair style like pony tail. I put on minimal make up with smokey eyes look & light lip gloss to complete my dressing for this party. I left home and picked up my friend and then we both went to the party. The party had already started in the bar and some of my medical friends had already gulped certain amount of alcohols. As soon as we all reached, my friend cut the cake and the party was continuing in full swing. The DJ had already lowered the light. Some of my friends were also dancing with the beat of rock musics. After so many days, I had got a chance to consume alcohol. So, I was gulping one glass after another without thinking anything. The night was passing slowly. Some of my friends had already went home. Some of them were still dancing unconsciously and I was consuming alcohols by leaving all my worries behind. Then some of my friends asked me for long bike rides.. I refused them as I didn't want to loose the chance of drinking more alcohol. I didn't know when again I would get this chance due to my academics. So, after my refusal, my friends left.

Then I saw that black covered man again. I had drunk so much. So, I thought that I was hallucinating. But to my surprise he was coming towards me. However I didn't pay heed to my thinking as I knew that I was heavily intoxicated. But he came to me and put his handkerchief on my face. I had not enough strength to protest his actions due to the consumption of intoxicants. Then I told some words like follower and then everything blacked out...


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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (What To Believe?) Episode 11

Sanskar's POV:
As soon as we reached to the corner of the bar, I asked her," So Mayuri, what are you doing here? Have you come here to destroy any other family?" She was shocked by listening to this question and replied in a fearful way that what I was asking to her, she couldn't get that. I pressed her neck in rage and asked,"Now you can better understand me. Cut the crap and answer bloody hell." She said me to leave her as it was paining her. I laughed sarcastically by listening the word pain & snapped her back,"What is about that pain which you have given to my family?" She now opened her mouth with a mixture of expressions of fear and pain & said,"Trust me! I am also a victim of incidents. I have not done anything. Please leave me." I couldn't believe my ears. Was she pleading me to trust her?? And over the top she was saying that she was a victim of incidents. How pathetic!! I shouted,"Do you think I am a fool to trust you?" By listening to this question she only repeated her statements again and again to trust her. I couldn't take more of her nonsense talks. I shouted in fury that was she in a position to ask for trustability? She was completely silent by looking at my rage and also scared as anything could happen to her now. I again asked sarcastically,"If you want me to trust you, then tell me the entire truth. What I have seen on that day in the party, Is that a lie?" She again went to her hibernation zone and a single word wasn't coming out from her mouth. I presses her neck deeply and said,"Now you don't have any answer. Right. You can never be a victim. Women like you are destruction to our society. Speak up before I loose my temper." She was fainting in pain but I had marked a sudden change in her expressions. Earlier it was a sense of fear and pain but now it was converted to a sense of dejection.

"Yes! You are right. Women like me are shame to the society. But have you ever tried to know the causes behind this change? You can only see the outcome but never interested to know the entire truth." I was shocked with her answer and thought that was she really a victim of incidents? But I couldn't believe a person like her who was the sole cause for destruction of my family. I asked her to stop her bogus talks and to vent out the truth, not these bloody craps. She now said in a determined face,"Yes! What ever you have seen that day is truth. But I don't know that he is your father. That time I don't know that he is married. I have never crossed my limits. Please believe me." I was again hell shocked. If whatever talks she was saying, were true then she was indeed a victim. But could I trust her? Breaking my thoughts she again started,"I know how ruthless slayer you are. You can kill me and also nobody is there in this world to cry for me. Why will I tell lie to you when you are standing in front of me."

While she was saying all these things, I noticed that even if I had pressed her neck deeply still there was no fear in her face & like she wasn't feeling any pain. I was confused. Should I trust her or not? Then I decided that all these incidents were happened in my past and I couldn't change them. But my target was my present. By knowing about her relationship with Mayuri, I could easily solve these mysteries and also could make my captain happy. So, I opened my phone and showed her the photograph of my target and asked her,"Do you know this girl?" She nodded negatively but I could bet that her facial expression had changed like she had seen a ghost. I strangled her neck more tightly and said,"Don't lie. You know me. Right. Then you can imagine that I won't think twice to kill you and nobody can also find your dead body to mourn over your death."

Before I could say anything further and could know her reply, the manager of the bar announced to vacate the bar soon as police had raided it. He requested all of us to leave the bar through the secret door as soon as possible. Hearing the name of police, my questions were broken and my thoughts were diverted to escape from here. Taking this opportunity, she escaped from my grip and ran away. I couldn't run behind her as I had to go from here now otherwise my identity could be revealed. I narrowly escaped from the secret route of the bar and went from there.

While travelling, my thoughts were involved in Mayuri's answers. Those scenes were now coming to my mind when my mother was celebrating her anniversary alone with the photograph of my dad as my dad hadn't come home that day. Multiple times I had seen my mother was crying alone and nobody was there to support her. As I was only 10 years that time, I couldn't get why she was crying? Even if I asked her she always gave some stupid reasons like something had gone into her eyes. But gradually I understood that the aloneness was hurting her. However that time I couldn't get that why she was lonely as my parents had done love marriage. All these thoughts forced me to believe Mayuri. Might be she was saying truth, my inner voice pursued me to trust her. But I wanted to know the entire truth and how she was connected to my target? Only Mayuri could answer this. But she had already escaped from me today. Was I able to trace her again?

While I was thinking all these things, my phone ringed. As I was entangled in my own world, I picked up the call without even viewing the caller ID. The voice from the other side had broken my thoughts and brought me back to the present. It was my captain and now he was enquiring about the status of my target. By hearing my captain's voice, I could say confidently that he was not in good mood. I delivered all the information about my target by excluding the parts related to Mayuri. I didn't tell as I wanted to know the truth first before conveying it to my captain. My captain was annoyed as I couldn't give him any information about my target's father's whereabouts. My captain needed him as her father had betrayed my captain in money matters. Before I could say anything to my captain, he ordered me to kidnap my target and to vent out the whereabouts of her father. Before cutting the call, he ordered me,"Sanskar! Do what ever you want! But I need my money back urgently from that idiot."

What! Did I hear correctly? My captain had given me freedom to do whatever I wanted. Before some days my captain was saying not to harm the girl but now he was ordering me to kidnap her. Oh!! I was hell confused. But none of my business. As I had to follow my captain's orders, not to question him. And again this was a good news for me as I could vent out sectects regarding Mayuri from her directly. My car was gradually moving towards the darkness world & some words like 'Victim', 'Trust' & 'Kidnap' were beating my eardrums multiple times..

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Swasan ff:An Incomplete Scrapbook (Web Of Mysteries) Episode 10

Sanskar's POV:
For two seconds I became numb. I looked at my target, who was sleeping peacefully due to the overdose of alcohol. "Who were you? What was your identity? What were you hiding from the society?" These were some of the questions which popped up in my mind. The more closely I wanted to know you; the more mysterious and strange things were happening with me. When I could trace out one secret, you were throwing a stack of more mysteries in front of me. I had lots of questions, whose answers I didn't know. "Why was she staying in this house? Why did she tell lie to me? Why there was no photograph of her father and also not the contact number in her contact lists? What was Mayuri's photograph doing here? Why did she hate her?" There were bunches of questions whose answers could only be known from my target. But why would she reply to me? I couldn't ask her directly. Even I couldn't threaten her as my captain strictly denied to do those things. I thought that as if I was in Bermuda Triangle, where only objects went & disappeared but real causes were never found. The same thing was happening with me. I was surrounded by a web full of mysteries and the solution was unknown to me. "Hell! What would I do now?" I had killed many people in my life but unfolding mysteries were not my cup of tea. Time was running out of my hand. I once again searched the entire house to get any further clue. But this time fortune didn't support me. I could not take risk to stay here anymore. So, I took some photographs which I felt necessary and left her home. As it was an autolocked door, I didn't have to close it. I went to my car and started it to go away from that place even before anyone could see me.

In my car I gulped a full bottle of water to calm down myself. Nothing could be achieved by distress of mind, I knew it. So, I started to remember the sequence of incidents to get a clue. After so much struggle and hectic pressure of mind, I found out the connecting link to solve the puzzle & it was none other than Mayuri. Only Mayuri was able to answer my questions. But where would I find Mayuri? I didn't know her address. I only knew that she was an escort girl, who came to party & bar to enhance the hotness of the party. Apart from that I didn't know anything about her whereabouts? While thinking all these things, I had already reached to my place, my darkness world. I parked the car & went inside my room. I changed my clothes and lay down in bed..

"I saw my mother was coming with food plate & was telling me to complete it fast. I denied to eat as I didn't like those vegetables. My father came with lots of gifts and chocolates and told us to be ready now to attend the party. I was happy. Just then police came and arrested my father. I was crying to leave him but my mother was not objecting & then I heard a bullet sound and bloods were gushing on the floor." I woke up only to find me sweating heavily like I had just taken bath. This was a dream.. But it was not a mere dream. It was my past. The same past which I had buried in coffins for so many years. But because of this target, the same past was hunting me again. I wanted to solve the the puzzle as soon as possible. So, I decided to go to every bar and party in search of Mayuri. But then an idea struck into my mind. As my target knew about Mayuri, so by following her I might get any clue. Therefore, from today onwards my work was to follow her & to trace Mayuri as early as possible. The full night, I was unable to sleep. The next morning I woke up early to follow my target. I went to the same secret place where I dropped her yesterday. I waited there for 3 hours and around 12.30 PM she came out from her place & hired a taxi to go somewhere. I again followed her and the hired taxi stopped near a cafeteria. I saw the same girl, whose name I didn't know, was waiting for her near the gate of cafeteria. I had already seen the same girl, came out of my target's house with some documents at late hours of yesterday night. My target & that same girl went inside the cafeteria & were involved in some serious discussions. Though I couldn't hear it properly but their facial expressions showed that they were damn serious. "Oh gosh!! She had seen me." I thought when she kept the drink on the table and looked at the spot where I was standing to confirm her doubt. But luckily I escaped from her sight. She then went away in that same girl's car.

This chasing cat and mouse game continued for many days. I spotted my target with that same girl multiple times in all these days. But unfortunately I couldn't get a hint about Mayuri. Also I didn't view any suspicious activities going on in my target's life. Might be 20 days had already passed & in between I tried everything to get a single clue. Thankfully my captain was involved in other stuffs, so, in all these days he never called me to get the recent updates. I also saw my target was going to a medical college. Might be she was studying there. All my days were wasted by following her and the nights were destroyed in searching Mayuri. But I failed miserably in both these tasks. Many days were already passed without any information. I was hell frustrated. So, I decided to go to the same bar ,"The Barking Spider", where I had seen Mayuri once, to get any clue about her from the bartender. That night I went to that bar and went towards the bar tender to ask about Mayuri. But my fortune was damn good on that day. It was absolutely true that God helped those who helped themselves. And whom I saw, I could not believe. I was chasing her from so many days and now she was standing near a stone's throw distance from me. Finally tonight I could vent out secret from her mouth. I went towards her and held her hand forcibly. She was about to shout but I placed my hand on her mouth to stop her. As I already knew the reputation of this bar, so I knew that no body would care for this minor incident and as all were involved in their own stuffs, so nobody was there to stop me. I dragged her towards the corner of the bar where only darkness prevailed. But in those darkness also I could bet that Mayuri was damn worried and scared to see me there. She also knew that I could strangle her in a few minutes without leaving any proofs. So she remained silent and didn't object me.


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Swasan ff: An Incomplete Scrapbook (My Follower or My Illusion) Episode 9

Swara's POV:
As soon as I reached cafeteria, Ragini started firing her questions and philosophy towards me. I was frustrated and shouted back on her. But when I said her about life and death; she was totally mum that time. I could feel the heat of her eyes from her looks. She was worried and disturbed fully by my talks. From our so long days of friendship, one thing I have understood that if anything would happen to me in future, then except my mom if anyone else would be worried for me then it was none other than Ragini. Till now, not a single word had come out of her mouth. "Had I said too much?" I thought and to make the atmosphere right I cracked a joke. 'I wouldn't leave you soon, Ragini. My ghost would also disturb you. Never think that you could leave me so soon.' I said funnily. But just then I noticed that her eyes were moist. 'It was a bad joke swara,' after sometimes she said this by hitting my shoulder. I apologized her to make her cry but then she asked a promise from me. "Swara, I know you & your pain. You are not even listening to me and also not taking proper care of yourself. What if this disease will continue to the last stage? You know how terrific it will be. Promise me Swara, you won't hide anything about the disease from me and will tell me everything about the outcomes and when ever you will be in trouble, you will call me what ever may be the time & situation.", she said all these in a pleading way. I knew that she was my friend but this much care from her, I never expected. Though I could fully trust her, but I didn't want to make her worried for my disease. However, I couldn't let her down. So, I nodded in a positive way and she became happy.

By viewing her happiness I couldn't conclude whether I should laugh or cry as my family never gave me those care which I had expected from them but in the other hand, Ragini, a stranger, became my best friend and now was worried for me. I just gave a feeble smile and to divert the topic I asked her," should we discuss the clauses of the will for which we were meeting now?" She nodded and opened the file. When she was opening the file, I ordered two cappuccinos. After opening the file Ragini asked, "So Swara, now tell me what you have decided?" 'There is nothing such in the will to decide.' , I said in a sarcastic way. 'But you have to take a decision.', she replied. "Ragini, I have decided to go with clause 1 as I can't afford clause 2 & 3.", I yelled to her. After I said my decision to her, she smiled on me. By looking at her smile, I guessed that like she had already known my decision prior to my saying. And yes! I was so correct. Ragini said,"I know swara, you will only choose clause 1 because you don't love the property that much the way you hate your dad." This time she was absolutely correct. I actually hated him.. Hated him from time immemorial. Breaking my thoughts Ragini said," Congratulation swara, you are finally going to be a doctor. Hope then you will take your disease seriously." "But is it necessary to complete graduation in medicine?", I snapped back. "Don't tell me swara that you are leaving medical in half way..?", Ragini raised her voice this time while asking this particular question. "There is nothing like that Ragini, it's just that study of medicine makes me weak. I don't want to attach with emotions.", I replied.

This time what Ragini replied, that showed she was no longer saying in respect of friendship rather on the ground of a responsible lawyer of mine. She said that as my medical study would complete with in 1 year then I could inherit the property in 1 year. But if I would pursue any other degree then it would take minimum 3 years of time to complete graduation. As the clause said that after completion of my graduation only I could inherit half of the property, so I should go with medical study. This time I was unable to cut her words as she had a point with strong logic behind it. Just then the waiter served our order. After the waiter went, I nodded to Ragini positively and she was damn happy with my decision.

She sipped the cappuccino once and gave me some files to sign and made herself involved in completing some documents. I signed those files and returned back to her. As she was doing some important paper work of this will, I didn't want to disturb her. I sat silently & sipped the cappuccino by looking towards the surroundings. Some families were also present there with their children. Some couples were also enjoying. By viewing all these things, I became sad. As I didn't get these types of occasions to celebrate. I thought that people were coming here to enjoy, but poor me!! Here also I came for some legal purposes. When I was thinking all these things, my eyes fell upon a person, whom I knew."That black covered man." Suddenly I kept the cappuccino cup on the table and looked back that spot properly but alas! No one was present there. I thought that I was hallucinating. Breaking my thoughts, Ragini said that the paper works were done and she would submit it in court. She also adviced me to join the college again as soon as possible and to complete the backlogs. I nodded positively and we left the cafeteria.

As I hadn't brought my car, Ragini offered me to drop home & went to the parking lot. I was standing near the gate of cafeteria & again I saw him on the crossroads. Just then a vehicle passed and after that again he was vanished from there. I thought that my mind was playing game with me. Ragini had already come with the car & I got into the car. When we were crossing the high way, I again saw him standing opposite side of the road. Suddenly I asked Ragini ," Can you see that person?" And Ragini rotated her head to see but alas! He was not there. Ragini then mocked on me and said, "Swara, you have gone mad! The will & it's clauses plus the academics are affecting you." I said ,"whatever, Ragini." But deep inside my heart, my feelings were saying that I saw him and might be he was following me. How ever I couldn't deny Ragini as how & why he got vanished. Through out the journey, I thought about these incidents without knowing the conclusion and his intentions...

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